Long time no see!

Though I have been leisurely browsing around, there have been no actual updates to this account since the finale of the Walking Dead. Here is a quick run-down so you can be on your way & back to creating!

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* Busy Work Schedule + Anxiety = Art Block x.x

* Slowly building Waffles the Pupthing his very own website for those who were not impressed by his current website being just a facebook page. It will serve as an alternate gallery (Images being posted here first of course) but also as a communication gateway to the pup. Discussion, Blogs, games, and hopefully contests + shop in the future.

* Besides the website, there are changes being made to Kovi and also one MAJOR project in the works!

*Convention announcement coming soon!

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Thank you all for stopping in.
I really do miss my fuzzies & will try to be back more often <3

Thank you for joining us tonight! All photos shown/created during the live-sketch will be posted at the end of the week. Thank you to those that stopped in and gave their input. It really means a lot and gives us ideas on how we can make our live-streams better for you. We are going to be posting a Note/Journal version of everything covered in the stream on Waffle's FB but Also....

Tune in during the following weeks for your chance to win some snazzy waffle merchandise not yet on the market!

Seriously though, could not do all that we do without you guys.
Thank you!! <3

-KZ & the Waffle Iron [aka Waffle the Pupthing]
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Tonight's live photo can be seen now on Facebook.com/wafflepupthing and will be uploaded here with the rest of them at the end of the week. Thank you to a special viewer for suggesting tonight's photo idea during the stream. I think Waffles really liked posing for this one lol

:: http://www.ustream.tv/channel/5AJGxA4pxDQ ::
KZ & the Waffle Iron presents...
"Where oh Where did the Little Pup Go?"

KZ & Waffles are back! Join us Wednesday, April 13 @ 4:30PM for music, art, and [hopefully] a couple laughs as we welcome back the crazy duo. Have questions for the Pupthing? Waffles will be answering questions live via FB & Twitter while KZ "processes" some new photos. Want to see pictures of their adventures before they are posted anywhere else? Here's the place to see them first!

Let's have some fun!
Till Then ^w^

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As always, sketchbooks are encouraged as well as links to other live streams or pictures of what you are working on! If you are doing so, though, PLEASE LABLE YOUR LINKS with either NSFW (Not Safe) or SFW (Safe). This way others have an idea of what they are clicking. Anyone continuiosly posting NSFW links without tags will be removed.

http://www.ustream.tv/channel/5AJGxA4pxDQ

Going to be doing a simple live stream - no rules or rhyme to it, just stop in and let me know what you are all working on. Feel free to mute, feel free to chat, feel free to just have fun ^^

This is very important to me!
If posting links to WIP or other livestreams PLEASE STATE THE CONTENT.

Waffles the Pupthing has minors and non-furs who are fans and all my events get posted to his page.

Anyone posting NSFW links without warnings will be banned & blacklisted immediately.

So far I have about over half of the pictures I took, uploaded.
Still have a couple more to go but sadly it's time for sleep - yeah I unfortunately need to adult at 3am.

Hope you are enjoying the images so far!
[They are just a fraction of the brilliant suits/suiters met and good times experienced at FWA]

Till then,
oyasumi

-Kazeiyx

Arrived back at about one in the morning Monday and have been pretty exhausted ever since lol The convention was incredible though and has really inspired a new wave of creativity. Also it helped me learn a lot about myself and my sona. Anxiety limits were tested, tears were shed, but everything wonderful that I experienced over shadowed the negative ten-fold.

Will update with more (including pictures) a bit later today,
For now though, I must go adult.

Till then!

This is the craft that never ends, yup it goes on...*hums and works*
Ello everyone! Just stopping in to let you know how it goes.

Currently working on my first [complete] yarn tail and am giving myself until FWA (March 30) to complete it. So far...it's amusing >w< When they tell you that the "floof" creation is the most time consuming and annoying part - they aren't kidding. I have great admiration for anyone who has the patience to do this particular craft as a source of income; because though I enjoy the way they look the idea of making more than one of these little guys in a row is exhausting all on its own. (and I even have someone helping me while I am at work so double kudos to those who fly it solo!)

I will be making matching ears and was originally going to make a mask as well (not a fursuit head or halloween, think more advanced masquerade [plague doctor's mask]) but not sure I will have the time on that one.
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Getting closer to the Waffle's relaunch! Lots of excitement!

Hope all is well with you guys - you are missed ^^
Have Fun!

So yes, decided to take the leap and go to my first Fur Con - Furry Weekend Atlanta. No, I don't have a suit but I hopefully will at least have a tail by then. Otherwise I shall just be me.

Any other artist/fur/being going?

In other news -
We will be having a full relaunch of Waffles the Pupthing and other odd art coming in March. So for those who miss the little dino dressed pupthing, he shall return soon. Keep an eye out and I shall try and keep better updates coming as things get closer.

Best wishes

There is no art because there is no inspiration anymore.
I can't create beautiful sad art, and happiness is so fleeting that by the time I feel the urge to draw there is none left to pull from.

Everything I do is a mistake. Every path I choose is wrong. How I spend my time is wrong. How I treat people is wrong. How I treat myself is wrong. What I've done is wrong. What I am is wrong. Then what the hell am I doing right? What part of me doesn't need to be reworked in order for me to be "right" again?

I'm incredibly tired.
I am always incredibly tired and I don't really see an end to this feeling.
So what do I do about it?

Oh right, this is an art site, not a blog.

Purchased all materials to make about 7 sets of Waffle the Pupthing comfort-wear, 1 sketch & write diary (or 1 sketch and 1 write), and have done research into a couple different digital "stores" but have made no concrete decisions yet. No new pictures ready for submission. No progress on any projects. Everything has pretty much come to a halt.

My apologies.

Yes! Finally got the scanner up and running so you should notice a slight (or MAJOR) difference in the quality of the submissions I am posting.

Please let me know if there are any older pieces you would like me to go back to and replace with a scanned copy

OR

In the off chance there is a piece that you may actually like in lower quality that should NOT be changed, please let me know that as well.

Thank you all for your support!
*tail wags*

http://www.ustream.tv/channel/5AJGxA4pxDQ

Live-Sketch Event: Caffeinated Pumpkins!
Coffee + Halloween + Colored Pencils & all that crazy fluff = a party you don't want to miss. Come join us at 6PM CST [4PM here in Oregon].

Draw along, say hey, have fun!

Music tonight will be random Halloween dubstep playlists on YouTube.
Feel free to mute and do your own thing ^w^

*Time may vary***

With only 3-4 days left here on the west coast I'm pondering on when and how to upload all the Waffle related art. I suppose it all depends on how much you guys care to wait to see the little guy's misadventures haha. Also, these thoughts stem the question of a separate account.

*Should I upload a collage of doodles temporarily then replace it with full images? Or hold off completely until my return?

...and for all of those who started watching this account "Pre-Waffles";

*Should I create a secondary account solely for Waffles the Pupthing art and leave this account for vent pieces, Kovi, etc.?

Thank you ^w^

Yes, I've run away to Oregon. Been here since Tuesday (15th) and will be staying till the 29th. So far it's been pretty chill but we will be heading out shortly to spend the next couple days exploring the coast. Our destination? The California Redwoods. Will be updating new art as much as possible but for live updates please feel free to follow the trip via Waffle the Pupthing on Facebook or through our twitter KZ & Waffles (@KZpup)

Here we go!

http://www.ustream.tv/channel/5AJGxA4pxDQ

Today's Random Tech
Baby Oil + Colored Pencils

Have Fun!

Warning to all: Will most likely be posting spontaneous vent pieces for possibly the next month or so along with my current projects. Please be warned that the matter/subject of these pieces will most likely include light gore, expressed depression (NOT self harm), and other darker themes.


Projects In the works (No Specific Order):
_Cold Nose Comic_
_Something Wicked 2.0_
_Retro Swimsuit Pin-up_


Sort of just a place holder to bump my previous journal from my page being that it contained possible triggers.

**WARNING: Triggers - Severe emotional breakage, pain, harm, etc.**

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WATCHERS: This is NON-ART RELATED, so please feel free to ignore this journal. It isn't at all important nor vital information for anyone "watching me" to know.
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Do you ever just reach a point in your life where you physically cannot handle anything at all? Where even the smallest amounts of pain like bumping into a table or a minor scrape seem to linger? When you get emotionally upset your body literally feels like it's constricting into itself to a point where breathing is impossible and you want to pass out just for it to stop?

For some reason while re-reading that, I thought it was going to turn into an infomercial. The point is no matter how happy or sad, enjoying being "in the moment" or damaging myself with thoughts of the future - everything is just not working. Both body and mind are breaking down; I'm tired always but unable to sleep at appropriate times; I've both consciously and unconsciously injured myself; I have no self-worth and can't find a single thing I like about myself anymore, and I am pretty sure if I really thought to I could just stand still for one moment and speak allowed "I am severely fucking up my life" and be spot on whether the current moment was happy or sad.

I get it, this is an art site. Not tumblr. Not a "blog". And these journals are most likely meant for artists to keep their subscribers updated on all the things awesome yet to come. Pardon me. I'll bring you back to your regularly scheduled program in just a sec. I really need to do more vent art, or go to the beach, or something...I just want to feel happy for more than just a moment at a time.

Anyway, going to go back to listening to the thunder roll.
/End Rant.

for anything I may post or say on here for the next couple days.

About 80% of my days I would say...
I suppose I should add in dog and cat hair to cover all bases lol


Apologies in advance for the poor update - I am in an odd state of mind somewhere between "Life is actually going pretty well" and "What the fuck am I even doing anymore."

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- Second version/Better version of Jurassic Waffles in the works along with a couple other designs.
- Sketching a lot more frequently which is incredible to me being as I haven't been able to submit anything it quite a while.
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Cannot wait to see Jurassic World tomorrow!!
Anyone else going?

Ello Ello Everyfur.
Pardon my randomness upon the earlier journal - I didn't feel like just throwing out another "Oh gawds guys I'm so sorry I haven't been posting. Life is sooo difficult and *whine whine whine whine*" POS note.

So I have returned to tell you that life is odd, I'm stressed, so is everyone else in the world, but things are going to be ok. Here's some updates to spin your way - otherwise - Enjoy your bloody day/night & remember you are not going at this crazy coaster alone.
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- My mate will be visiting at the end of April for 2 weeks. I honestly don't know how I am not spending about 98% of my time rolling around the floor in happiness.

- Suppose to be training for a 5k Foam run! Still find myself nibbling dark chocolate and sitting on my futon. Apparently I am horrid at this x3

- Procrastination IS still having its way with my day to day life, but it's pretty much overshadowed by my anxiety. Having trouble breathing as of late - it's insane.

- All the work I have been doing lately is rough; between odd test sketches to out right craptastic doodles, everything is rubbish.

- Moved into a new house in NOVEMBER, just now setting up my room. I'm hoping the fresh space will help with previously mentioned life-errors.

That's about all there is to report on, so...
FIND SOMETHING FUN TO DO TODAY, I DARE YOU!

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BREAKING HEADLINES TODAY!

Procrastination is still at large burning through hours and days like a rabid beast, meanwhile on another front excitement is brewing at an upcoming visit. Let's go down to our Kazy newscasters out on the field for more info!
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- "Good afternoon to you there at the station, we are looking at a lot of frustration over current events. There appears to be a dark cloud of artists block and depression sweeping over the area as several people are reporting in eyewitness accounts of scattered paper, broken pens, and empty ice cream containers being thrown out windows throughout the past week. This gentleman to my left actually found a drawing tablet impaled in the windshield of his vehicle after leaving his apartment earlier this morning - the result of what we can only assume, a fit of rage from the tenant in the loft above them. Can you please tell us what happened, Sir?"

--Man: "Well you see, I was just locking up my apartment to head to the local journal (I write for the local newspaper) when I heard this loud noi-"
--KZ: "What kind of noise?"
--Man: "Um, kind of like a crash I guess..."
--KZ: "Can you give us a better description?"
--Man: "er...crasshhhcrkks?"
--KZ: "m.hmm...okay, please continue."
--Man: "So I ran out to the street and I noticed something sticking out of the windshield of my vehicle. I got closer only to find that it was my neighbor's tablet."
--KZ: "What kind of tablet was it?
--Man: "What?"
--KZ: "The tablet, what kind."
--Man: "Some sort of silver drawing tablet?"
--KZ: "How did you know it was your neighbor's drawing tablet?"
--Man: "Well because I've seen them working on it before..."
--KZ: "I see. Well thank you so much for joining us today."
--Man: "No, thank you and I hope you are able to stop all the madness going on around here."
--KZ: "All we can do is spread the word. Well, there you have it folks, another case of a stressed out journalist misplacing their neighbor's drawing tablet through the their windshield."
--Man: "WHAT?!"
--KZ: "This is Kazy reporting live on the scene, back to you."

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...I will be with my mate...
[*insert horrid amounts of giddy excitement induced noises*]

Yeah
Pretty much all I can say without hyperventilating x3

Looking back on all the craziness that has been happening in the past, well, forever, I've realized that this is my life. There's no normality at the end of the tunnel. The waves are never going to become tranquil. I'm never going to be in a completely steady position in the world - so why am I waiting for it?

I keep continuing to think that there will be some "right" time in my life to press on with my art work. As though there's going to be a peaceful span of existence where I can just sit down and crank out what I think would be an even pace of perfect projects.

That is crap. I'm stalling.
Having lost confidence in my work over time, I am terrified to even put pencil to paper. Pushing myself to wedge my way into the works, I've lost my own style in order to conform to what I see all around me - because people like it, because I like it. I've scrapped tons of projects just because I couldn't reach the bar I had set for myself. But if you can't look at my work and tell it apart from theirs or if I'm working night and day on one project only to get frustrated because it's not "good enough" compared to theirs; what the hell fun is it?

This being said, I am stripping down back to my own roots and working my way back up. Prepare for horrid anatomy, sketchy lines, poor color choices, fingerprints, ranting, and overall terrible work until I finally find a comfortable place, a decent pace.

What this Means:
- Digital work is being shelved and the drawing book is being dusted off.

- Spontaneous doodles, practice sheets, drawing basics, random abstract, and quick draws will be common.

- More crafting! I am currently working on yarn tails, learning to crotchet, and making various types of bags (messengers, totes, etc.).

On Another Note
I want to be more involved in the site and the fellow artists. This being said, I also want to stress that though I want to be involved in the furry community I also do not want to get entirely lost in it. Some furs just don't grasp personal boundaries and take things way too seriously. Chaos and anxiety are daily for me in RL, they're not something I'm going to start taking too seriously from happenings on the internet.

This being said don't be afraid to talk to me either. Furs are people, people are real, people have real problems or anxieties. That's life. I'm here.

Will I be able to spend every waking hour trying to help?
No, I have that whole "life" thing too.
I am also an incredibly horrible friend in the fact that I just do not have good communication skills and half the time I am stressed to thin strips about my own problems.

Bottom line; I don't try to be a dick to people. I just happen to disappear for random spans without warning purely out of the fact that I just don't have the energy to hold conversations. As if the idea of picking up my phone is the most taxing activity in the world.Your importance level to me has nothing to do with this. I seriously have people I've known since forever who never hear from me. Maybe I am just really busy OR maybe I just really don't want to take my problems out on you - it varies. Just thought I'd give a warning now.

I've hurt a lot of people through miscommunication, but I guarantee you I have hurt myself more.

Anyway, forget me. I want to learn more about YOU.
Leave a message any time.

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That's about all I have for right now, but tune in next time!
Hugs to all, and yes I am strange.
Good vibes

Big things are happening; too much to even go over right now.
Not sure when I will be continuing with my artwork but if I come up with any interesting doodles I'll try and send up this way.

Anybody know if there is a FurAffinity support group/page for furs in LDR's?

Nothing new really - have not been able to sleep well at all lately and I do not feel like taking melatonin because it makes me feel odd. No idea why, it just does.

Art related notes - I've officially changed my fursona's color scheme to fit who I am. As I grow, so should my sona. I'm not talking age, really, but just learning more about myself and thus finding what represents my personality & interests more than just "oh hey, these colors look good together. *slaps a color scheme on*."

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Spaced out o.o

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Other than that it's been one major art block after another.
Best Wishes