Lol, Soooooo I am not even sure if this is appropriate to write but honestly with the stuff I see here on furaffinity I would be surprised if they were mad at me for it.

Upcoming will be my uploading of a proper commission page with proper examples (my current one is rouuuugh lol.) and I will be opening up commissions to help with both paying bills annnnnd something for myself!

I have been attempting to save up for a new toy for a while, its been very difficult due to just how fucked my monies are right now. I am trying to get a stable job but my disabilities are making things hella hard. (and I got my first denial of disability....got to appeal still)

But, to be blunt, I want a new fuckin' toy. I have two but they're... not giving what I want so I am wanting to get a new one! Feel free to give suggestions :3 I know that bad dragon had like, a bad rep for a while so I'm not sure where to get fun shaped toys anymore...especially cuz they removed them from etsy, a travesty!

Anywho, please comment below if you have a favorite site to get toys from, or, if you want to commission me! I'll upload the proper price page with examples as soon as I can. but until then here are the prices:

1. Lines and flat color of a single character 50$ (+10 for very detailed)
*With basic shading 60 (+10 for very detailed)

2. With small surrounding background 65 (+10 for very detailed, +5 for the background to be very detailed as well)

3. Full scene/Full background 85 ( +5-20 for very detailed background depending on how much detail needs to be added)

4. Additional characters +50% of price per person (no additional background costs)

5. Chibi/simple characters 25& (+5 for very detailed, +5 for shading and +5 for background. +10 for complex background)

Dude.... it has been Forever since I made a journal, so much has happened lol.

Uhhh, well, I'm back for now. Doing commissions, trying to keep our head above water, it isn't super easy, but we're working on it.

Married my beautiful wife, have 4 cute kitty babies and an adorable little puppy that I inherited from my father when he passed. Live with my wife, fur babies and my roomie.

Also, I'm Trans masc now :3 Kinda nonbinary but trans masculine definitely...
Anywho, uhh, more will come later I think :3

So I have started a Gofundme for my fiance and I to get our passports in time to use the vacation she won to mexico (From work so its not a scam thankfully) The issue is the due date is really soon and so is the vacation, so we'd need a good deal of expedited shipping and what not. We just can't afford it...

Anything helps! Anyone who donates more than 10$ will get a drawing from me!! You can request all you like, so long as you can show proof that you donated :3 Thank you in advance!!

https://www.gofundme.com/passports-to-mexico

For a long while I've been not going about doing anything little...no footie jammies, no toys other than my Mr.Frog I sleep with. But today it really hit me. Oddly enough (not really) watching some Melanie Martinez music videos. I just found myself thinking "Man I wish I had a crib like that D:" instead of listening to the song...heh. I watched a few more videos after Pacify her and just found myself envying her cute baby doll clothes.

I suppose I have been neglecting my Little side quite a bit, but I haven't really thought about her for some time. I went to fetlife and looked around, and ended up depressed that the nearest little's Munch (or meetup) is like 2-4 hours away from me. and Its unlikely I'll be able to go. I feel...isolated.

And now my real life Dad is living with us, and whilst he isn't usually one to judge and would probably find it at most weird or at least amusing, I can't really bring myself to be little in the main house more than wearing my unicorn jammies. I know my other room mate already knows and I'm sure I've talked to my dad about it but I just can't bring myself to give in and be little...I guess?

I wish I was more trusting of people, and could find someone that could help me feel small safely, but I'm so scared of being misunderstood or hurt. Giving in to that vulnerable side of myself around others is opening up a much softer side of myself to mistreatment...

My childhood wasn't fantastic, my mother was rather abusive...and I guess it has also left a stigma in my mind against it. I had to grow up fast and help raise my sisters so they were bathed and taken care of...maybe that's why my little side is 4-6 which is the ages I was when my sisters were born.


I know this is pretty ranty but I just feel...meh today. I am in my cute jammies but I feel...depressed. Course I am having 'female troubles' so...that could be doing it. stupid hormones.

Also, I am pretty sure I could never (in my current mental state as of the beginning of January 2017) use diapers, but maybe my issue with the one I did wear was that it was a disposable. All hard and plastic and weird. I actually use reusable pads (some rather large) so maybe if I tried a cloth diaper I'd feel better >_> I dunno. Maybe being more comfortable in my skin would be helpful too -_-

Uhg...lots of weird thoughts and feelings today dumped into this journal. Feck it. Ima post it anyway.

So I have Animal crossing: new leaf once again. Of course I am now I'm absolutely obsessed. Lol. I've been consumed by the need to tend my village to the point of spending nearly 5 hours or more a day just gardening and paying off debts. I'm pretty happy with my current 9 villagers though i might loose one soon. thankfully i have the campsite being built as i type so i may get to choose my new neighbors. Part of me wants to restart and super control where people move and what not...but i don't have that much patience anymore lol. So for now i'll path around their little houses and deal with who i have.

Villagers:
Sprinkle penguin
Pashmina goat
Sylvia kangaroo
Marcie kangaroo
Sly alligator
Filbert squirrel
Portia dog
Gruff goat
Klaus bear
Town name: Peparton
Town tune: pokemon center... cuz I like how it sounds.
Town fruit: Cherry
other fruit growing in town:
apple
pear
coconut
banana
lemon
Duran
lychi

Public works:
3 bridges
fountain
dream suite
campsite
(next will be our police station)

Shops:
T&T mart
Kicks
The flower shop

So I made a cub related account for only my cub related stuff >_> I know it doesn't seem like I draw a lot of it but I just...I dunno, I wanna be able to write journals and have fun and not have to worry about it.

The account is  little-clover (yeah I know it has the same icon lol, sorry, I dont have two fursonas yet O_o working on that actually)

I hope to see you all there!

where are you staying?
In the Hilton?

What day are you getting there?
Thursday morning

How are you traveling?
Car...with roomies.

Who will you be rooming with?
Like 4 other people, o.o so a lot of rooming...-_- so not exited about that part...and as far as I know I'll be the only girl.

How is the best way to find you?
I'm going to be wearing my new fursuit for part of it, or clad in a cute little outfit or something. I'll try to wear my rainbow tail in all my outfits...so look for that?

Are there any panels you might be attending?
Maybe? I dunno...I don't really know what all is happening when.

What do you look like?
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17746675/

Also, I have the same red braided pigtails when Im not suiting so look for that ^^' and I'll wear the same hair bow and rainbow tail ^^

Will you be suiting?
Yes, but probably not the WHOLE time, I get panicy if I feel I can't breath...(even if its illogical) so...fursuiting is rough thanks to the head limiting the amount of fresh air getting to my face.

Do you do free art?
Maybe?

Do you do trades?
Probably.

Do you do badges?
Maybe ^_^ feel free to ask!

What is your gender?
Female (Cub)

How tall are you?
5'6'' (Taller if you include the ears XD)

Can I talk to you?
SURE! I love making new friends!

Can I touch you?
Ask first. Without express permission, or if I don't know you, THEN NO.

Can I visit your room?
Eh...no. I am sharing it with 4 other people and I don't feel like hunting everyone down to ask them -_-

Can I buy you drinks?
I will not be drinking alcohol this weekend, as I intend to try my best to stay in little/cub mode the whole time. So...sure, juice, non alcoholic. maybe...probably not. I dunno.

Can I give you stuff?
Uhhh sure? But Don't give in expectation of receiving?

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
If you ask me at the time, sure! ^_^ But only if I say yes.

Single or Taken?
TAKEN.

Are you nice?
I try ^_^

Do you have a dealers table?
Nupe ^_^'

Will you be going to parties?
Probably not, depends on the type.

Will you be performing?
Nope ^_^

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say Hi, I play nice with others ^_^ but if I get uncomfortable (being rather introverted) I'll let you know and probably slink away to a dark corner.

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Wandering most likely, there might be a few things I'll be attending, I'm so unsure >_<

What/where will you be eating?
I have made a strict regimine of 3 meals each day, I have to schedual them accordingly. Buuut I am bringing my own food.
Breakfast: Cereals!
Lunch: Turkey wraps
Dinner: Ramen with Yakibuta and egg

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Uhh...I'm just going to be aimlessly wandering so you're probably better off following someone else XD

Can I look in your sketchbook?
I don't use a sketch book, I use a clipboard full of cardstock, if you want to look, i MIGHT have some pictures with me, but I doubt it ^^'

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Sure as long as its appropriate and you sign it ^_^

Can I take your picture?
Sure ^^' though I might be a bit more shy without my fursuit on >_>

What're your goals for the con this year?
Have fun, not get sick, take lots of pictures and meet lots of new friends <3

So I know that I was doing a comic and was going to aim for it being posted daily. But Unfortunately with my preparing to go to rainfurrest, which was kind of a spontaneous decision I haven't had time. I made a full fursuit, have to pack and clean up the house (thuroughly) before I go. I hope to have many pictures and such to post when I come back after rainfurrest and of course, the continuation of Life with fudge. Its just a bit stressful at the moment.

Thank you for being patient with me ^^ I hope you all stick around to see more of the comic.

Alright, so this is a work in progress but the prices and what not are up and running, so there ya go! My commission information is in the tab, but I don't have a TOS up yet. Soo, yeah, Uhm, that'll be added later? I'm still pretty new to the whole commission thing.

I have Paypal so that would be the only acceptable source of payment (other than maybe, art trades but I'd rather have monies honestly lol)

I hope to get at least one or two commissions ^_^

((Mrp wiped, so things are changed))
Troyel was young, or at least he was when he died, his face youthful and smooth, his skin unmarred for the most part by scars, save for a sometimes apparent (depending on his shirt) holy symbol burned into his chest. His hair was long and flowing, well taken care of to say the least, pulled back in a tight ponytail with very few strands daring to stray. He was a man who took a great deal of care of himself, smelling of sweet oils, his nails clean and well kept as his hair, his teeth clean. He was most likely not what most imagined when they thought of a death knight, but unfortunately, he was one.

It would likely not be noticeable to those that were not affiliated with the light or the undead, unless they came close enough to feel the cold radiating from him, or perhaps noticed the frost that gathered on his clothes when he was upset. He did not usually act the part either, most thinking of death knights as hardened heros fallen and risen once more under the lich king, but not Troyel, he was gentle and soft spoken, polite to most. He also lacked confidence, most of the time averting his eyes if his own wandering gaze was noticed, his form tense most often, though there are a few whom he has relaxed with recently.

((His history as a death knight has not been shared with anyone, and he may just keep it that way, however death knights with a memory of their time in the ebon hold before light's hope or the fall of the lich king may remember him. pst for info if you're interested.))

Family: None
Preference: Men (Or a very dominant woman. Maybe.)
Relationship status: Single
Companion pet: None
Mount: Mist (swift stormsaber)

He has a new sketch book that is as of yet empty, missing two pages.

So far everything this year is going our way, sure there has been a few rough spots, but all in all its been great!

We have our great big house, with two room mates now, me and my partner sleeping in our room and the other two rooms occupied by the others. One might be moving out soon, but we have another furry friend lined up as a hopeful roomie. Not sure if it'll all line up right though. As that roomie currently here just lost her job, and has to get another one, but hey, I'm sure things will work out in the end.

All of our bills are caught up and the cats are all healthy, though they need flea and worm treatment soon...

Our house is awesome, I just got a new desk from my partner's mother which is now my big crafting station! Sooo happy and gleeful!

There's a chance I'll be featured in one of my favorite furaffinity artist's comics soon, which will be EPIC O_O though Im not TOO clear on the details, but I was asked if they could use my fursona, and I said yes! ^_^

And My partner and I will be commissioning Dexter, one of my friends, to make our fursuit heads! New fursuit heads. Good to have a professional work on it lol. She's really awesome and very sweet, so We're exited. I'm going to get my critter sona's fursuit head made. at most I'm going to make the hand paws and tail for my sona so that i can just have a partial to wear with my footie jammas.

I've decided that I would rather have my lil toddler sona as a fursuit then adult clover or red panda clover. So, I'm exited.

I've been working very hard on making doll clothes for my monster high dolls, matching school uniforms to be exact, so that my partner can make comics with pictures of them. Also We're going to (perhaps today) be getting the monster high monster maker machine. I'm so exited to play with it ^_^

So all in all, everything is going well ^_^

So this journal is mostly because I'm currently torn... also it's an update on my life, kinda.

lets see, so what I'm torn about is my fursona. I worked so hard on creating it but I dunno, Im not sure I really feel it anymore? So many things in my life are changing, but I feel if I go through a bunch of other things and call them my fursona that people will get annoyed?....that sounds silly as I type it. -sighs-

Alright so, the reason I'm having so many issues is, well, I'm having issues. My mind is going in and out, there are weeks on end that I feel like my mind is in sort of a haze and I have to try really hard to focus on anything. I'm dealing with depression and anxiety all the time, pain and disorientation, a multitude of things. I'm just now getting into the doctor's (hopefully I'll soon have a regular care doctor) to get anything even started to be being looked at.

Also loads of things are changing. I have two kittens, we're buying a big new house and moving...and generally I feel more childlike in my mind, more often then I did before.

theres moments that I just feel like a little girl again, and its great, but its also kindof scary, like Im literally mentally fighting to be grown up sometimes, its so much easier to lapse into the fluffy head haze of childlike behavior.

So, fursona wise I'm struggling to find myself as well. I started out as being a critter, went to a red panda cuz they're freakin adorable, then went to critter again (critter being an unspecified creature of my own mixed creation) But then for halloween I was a mouse... and Im thinking, I'm pretty mouse like aren't I? Not like, a wild mouse full of spunk and energy, more like a lazy little domestic mouse... Im shy, timid, anxious, but also nice and outgoing to people i know.... and even sometimes strangers.... I dunno -_- really I feel more like a spinda lately with how often I fall over -_-

Well, It's been a damned hard week.

My cat was mauled by the dogs that live on the property we're staying on, no they aren't my dogs or my mates, but her mom's. Two terriers and a wiener dog. They severed her tail and it was broken in half with the bone showing and everything.

We rushed her to the vet and the fisrt one we went to wanted to charge us 1000$ plus for amputating what was left of her tail and dealing with the other wounds on her legs. Thankfully I qualify as low income so they referred me to the low cost clinic in town. it was 250 dollars all together there (100 for the vet at the other place to even LOOK at her and give her a shot of kitty morphine) they amputated her tail, it was only an inch and a half long after that, there were five huge stints her her chubby little legs... and we brought her home. She was doing so well, she even managed to walk to her kitty box, go potty and get out again on her own. I was so releived, I was so happy....then she fell off the bed. I don't know if that is what triggered the seizures but she started jerking really hard, and her eyes clouded over white. We tried to get her to the vet but she died on the way there... I even tried mouth to mouth.

I buried her wrapped up in my froggy blanket with an open can of wet cat food and a little fleecy mouse toy I made her a long time ago.

I've been pretty beside myself since. I just don't know what to do, everything reminds me of her. Looking around my trailer I just feel....like its a completely different place. My kitty Lypso was with me for nearly 7 years (would have been 7 in june) She was with me through my divorce, through at least 6 different homes and at least 3 other relationships. And now, she's gone.

I spent the night that she died at my sister's house and finally came out to her as a little... I felt relieved, and she said it was likely a healthy way for me to deal with some of the 'issues' I have. -shrugs- probably true. I curled up in my footie pajamas and hugged my big frog in their guest bed with my bottle. I... I really wanted to ask to just be hugged by her husband or my mate's step father, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I miss my real life daddy, I wish he'd been here to hug me....

I imagine I'll heal a bit and be less depressed soon, doing my best to distract myself so I stop breaking down crying at every turn... I suppose it would help if I could get the comfort I crave. Online words are supportive and wonderful, but they aren't the same as two strong arms.

Anyway, there may or may not be any art uploaded for a while, it depends on how I feel.

Well my darlings, for the past few days to a week, I've been really struggling, trying to find a creature that represnted me in my entirety, as me, not just a fursuit head/mask I put on, or character I hide behind...but ME. My fursona, true fursona. Now to some this may sound silly or obsurd, but... I really have been fighting with it lately.

Then, I re-found an old fursona of mine that I posted on deviantart. http://kat-ambros.deviantart.com/ar.....sona-162214631 And I read the description and all of those things still apply to me...minus the red orb of death beside me...as I am now divorced.

So, this old fursona of mine is going to be re-vamped into the me now, as opposed to the me then. Basically this is me, some sort of critter, a mutt of all sorts of crazyness all crammed into one chubby little body. But...That's me. I don't fit into one animal's shape or another, not really.... I'm a Krys (or kyle, as that is my pen name) While I may have many names (Willow, Kit kat, krys, clover, Kat etc.) There is only one me, and I refuse to confine myself to something that I am not to try and help others identify with me....

I am a wonderful individual! And I love myself! (something I should say much more often)

ps. of course...I wish my chest wasn't so big so my fursona's don't really have any bewbs...and are often herms cuz I have CRAZY peenor-envy. so...there is that XD

All my love to my fur affinity friends
Kat-ambros

I doubt anyone really reads these things, but here it is.

1. I've taken up doing sewing commissions of plushies for people near to me (mainly because i don't have paypal and I know how strange it could be to just mail a money order or what not from some place far away) Currently working on a plush of Dexter young's fursona Evans.

2. I've been working on drawing clover a lot more, I love my fursona to bits! And am trying to take her a bit further, get to know her better, get the feel for her in my art too. Though I wish I could get a better fursuit...

3. I am looking for someone willing to do an art trade (much like the recent pictures I've posted, though likely with better detail) for an icon I can use here of Clover with her tail wiggling about. I really need one, I'm tired of being represented as a bucket full of art supplies lol.

4. Im working on drawing my mate, and also working on drawing a set of emoticon like responses for facebook posting lol. And loads of other stuff.... So busy busy busy.

Lol yeah so thats my artsy update. Hopefully you'll be seeing more from me soon.

Hey there, I'm taking Commissions on my Business account HexandVexCreations here on FA. If you're interested in a badge which is the only type of commissions i am currently taking please message me on there. I will be uploading pictures of finished badges to that account soon enough for examples.

Omg I am so exited. I have a fursuit and everything now! (it needs feet but...yeah....may not have them done in time) But yay! Here comes clover the furry! lol, I gotta draw some pictures of her to post on here... she's adorkable. I made my own badge and that of my friend and sister who are also going. I'm so freakin exited!!