When you're lying awake with a dismal headache
And repose is taboo'd by anxiety,
I conceive you may use any language you choose
To indulge in, without impropriety
-"The Lord Chancellor's Nightmare", Iolanthe, W.S. Gilbert


MOTHERFUCKER I'D LIKE TO FUCKIN SLEEP THROUGH ONE NIGHT
JUST ONE NIGHT
AAARGH

In order to distract myself from Migrainestorm 2014 and SisterVacation III, I'm finally uploading to my photography account XD

GO SEE CATPICS

There's only 7 photos so far, but I'll upload more soon XD


http://www.furaffinity.net/user/kotachrome



u see what i did there

kodachrome
kotachrome
lakotachrome

hurr hurr

if I had to choose to either regain vision in my left eye or to stop the literally constant migraine pain, at this point,

I am not sure which one I would choose.

the good(?) news is, the MRA scan showed clear; there are no signs of weirdness or bad things in my brain arteries.
but of course that means there's no PHYSICAL reason that I have had a migraine and have been blind in my left eye and have had hearing issues in my left ear for three weeks and counting.

I'm also having problems with identifying colors... purples look blue, reds and yellows look orange, and blues look green. I don't know WTF that means, WTF could possibly be wrong with my brain if nothing is physically showing up.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO TRY
I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO
I DON'T KNOW WHAT OTHER DOCTORS TO SEE

I'm still on the Norvasc/amlodipine and a huge dose of Topamax. I've managed to stop taking the narcotic painkillers and I'm only taking Excedrin Migraine for the pain, but it doesn't work as well as a painkiller - I guess it's a worthwhile tradeoff for NOT TAKING NARCOTIC-BASED PAINKILLERS anymore though ahahaha right? >_>;

My boyfriend has been just utterly amazing through all of this. I think I would literally be dead without him.

ugh I just want to go to Anime Expo on July 5th and be able to stay for more than like 2 hours without feeling like I'm going to vomit on everyone from nauseated pain-dizziness. I JUST WANT TO WEAR MY MATRICES PAWS AND TOUCH EVERYONE CREEPILY WITH THEM. IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK I ASK YOU? XD

So I recently attempted to return a couple of items on Amazon, items I bought from third-party Amazon sellers. Being a third-party Amazon seller myself, I was honest with my returns - I put "no longer wanted/needed" as the reason for the return. I could have lied and put "item was damaged upon arrival" or "item was not as described", but I didn't.

I was promptly ass-reamed by the most assholiest Amazon seller on the planet.

They started out by informing me that they would be charging me a 15% restocking fee, and that I should feel lucky because by rights they could charge up to 20% since the reason was "buyer's remorse". (They literally put that into the email to me.) They also told me that they would be deducting $13 for "return shipping fees".

Wait whoa hold up for a second.

The item had been shipped to me with FREE SHIPPING in the first place, and I would (obviously) be paying to ship the item back to the seller, since the return was "buyer's fault" instead of "seller's fault" (e.g., damage would be seller's fault). So, the seller was telling me that I would literally have to be paying TWICE to ship the item back to them.

lolno.

The item was $56, so a 15% restocking fee (~$8.40) plus this mysterious $13 "shipping fees" shit plus however much it costs ME to ship the fucking thing back to them - I'd probably be only getting like $20 back from the return - not even worth returning the item at that point.

On this seller's Amazon Detail page, it states: "For products where shipping has been offered free, we will also deduct the actual shipping charge from the return amount."

Yeah, I'm pretty sure you don't get to do that, friend. I'm pretty sure that's a violation of policy.

I asked around on the Amazon Seller forums, and several of the other sellers seemed to agree that it's pretty shady (if not a straight-up violation) that the seller gets to deduct "shipping fees" from my return when they shipped the item to me with free shipping in the first place.

I've contacted Amazon Support about it twice, but they are, uh, less than concise in answering, let's say. I filed an A-to-Z Claim about it, which was denied, and I've just CALLED Amazon Support on the phone. The support person was also somewhat incomprehensible (even though the phone number insisted I was calling Seattle), but I'm pretty sure she agreed that the seller was violating policy and didn't get to arbitrarily deduct $13 from my return for the shipping that they apparently didn't charge me in the first place when they shipped the item to me.

We'll see how it goes when I actually finally return the item to these asshole sellers, but the lesson is this:

If you ever have to return an item to an Amazon third-party seller, LIE and say the item is damaged or not as described, even if it isn't. Damage the goddamned thing yourself if you have to. Because apparently it's not worth trying to be honest, and Amazon's system is set up to screw both buyers AND sellers. (I've gotten screwed over by buyers plenty of times as a seller.)

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In other news, I'm still blind in one eye and I'm still in the middle of Migraine Shitstorm 2014. I literally have not had a pain-free day since Memorial Day. I'm having a MRA scan on Wednesday and then I don't know what the fuck kind of specialist to see any more. I can't stay on narcotic painkillers forever and they're not doing shit for the pain anyway.

UPDATE

So far I've seen:

-optometrist
-general practitioner
-neurologist
-ophthalmologist

I have had my eyes dilated twice, have had an endless battery of tests, scans, and have been prescribed a plethora of different medications. No one has found anything physically wrong with me - no strokes, aneurysms, tumors, etc., which is GOOD, but that also leaves a big fat ??? as to what's actually wrong.

I'm still blind in one eye. I'm in migraine pain every single day, constantly, except for the hour or so after I take a Fioricet. I have to be driven everywhere. I've pretty much lost all of the independence I was used to. I'm sure there are people out there who will read this and think I'm being a whiny cunt-lip who should be happy that I'm still alive, that I can still walk, that I still have this n' that, etc., but you know what? Fuck you. I went from being perfectly fine to suddenly being blind in one eye, and I believe I can bitch about that a little if I want to.

I've also lost some of the ability to properly identify colors - some reds and yellows look orange to me, some greens look teal, and some blues look green. It's kind of weird, and it's made me scared to dare to try and draw again, although I want to :{

The neurologist I saw seemed pretty confident that the vision/hearing loss are related to the migraine and will clear up completely when the migraine goes away, whenever that is. So that's pretty encouraging!

So basically it's a waiting game - wait out the pain, wait to see if my vision ever comes back, wait to see if anything changes.

I'll say other one thing - you really find out who your real friends are when something happens to your health. As far as some of my "close friends" know, I could be dead right now - they never bothered checking.

so... bad news. :/

last friday I had an argument with a family member, a pretty bad argument, and afterwards i got one of the worst migraines I've ever had. the pain was horrific, and then i experienced complete vision loss in my left eye. I mean total vision loss... i was blind in my left eye. I was dizzy, nauseated, the whole nine yards... and half blind. I let my boyfriend know, and he took me to the local emergency room at around 11pm that night.

TL;DR story, basically the ER didn't have an eye specialist doctor on call, and they thought that's what i needed (and not a neurologist for some reason..?) so they were calling all the other hospitals in the area to see if they could transfer me to one of the other ERs that HAD an ophthalmologist on call. EVERY OTHER HOSPITAL IN THE ENTIRE AREA REFUSED TO TAKE ME because they thought I wasn't "critical" enough. I guess sudden mysterious BLINDNESS isn't "critical", right?

Finally the ER took me to have a CAT scan, but they couldn't do an MRI because the technicians had all gone home (it was like 2am at this point). a CAT scan isn't fine-tuned enough to show bleeds on the brain or if you've had a stroke or aneurysm or something like that, so basically a CAT scan at that point was useless - I needed an MRI. But the ER at that hospital couldn't do it, and I couldn't get transferred to a hospital that COULD give me an MRI because as I mentioned, the other hospitals were refusing to accept me. And the ER that I was at was literally REFUSING to release me because it was "against medical advice", so my boyfriend couldn't take me out of that ER and take me to another hospital where I could get PROPER treatment!

The doctor came around and drugged me with some painkillers so I was loopy as fuck, said my CAT scan was clear (yeah I'm sure it was, since it wouldn't show a stroke or anything anyway), he peered into my eye with one of those opthal-scope things, proclaimed my eye physically fine, and literally would not release me from the ER. I was not allowed to leave until after 7am - so I was literally trapped in the emergency room for over eight hours USELESSLY, getting NO effective treatment and basically being told there was nothing they could do for me, and I would have to go to another hospital, but they couldn't let me LEAVE to go to another hospital!

Finally when I was allowed to go home, I slept for 6 hours, and when I woke up, I was still blind in my left eye and the migraine pain was still insane. So my boyfriend took me to a REAL HOSPITAL, where I waited in the waiting room for almost two hours (it being a Sunday and Memorial Day weekend) before i finally saw a real doctor and was given an MRI. This doctor actually KNEW what migraines were and believed in them (some doctors don't believe migraines exist, if you can believe that) and although he said there wasn't much he could do, he was actually KIND and TALKED to me. He said the MRI was clear of brain bleeds or strokes or aneurysms (WHEW), so the blindness was probably being caused by the migraine itself, as was the weakness, dizziness, and nausea that I was experiencing. He gave me pain medication to take home, saying it would treat the pain, but not cause the migraine to go away, and gave me recommendations to see a neurologist and an ophthalmologist.

So that's where I'm at now - six days later, I still have the migraine and the left-eye vision loss. I have regained some vision, but I'm still effectively blind in my left eye. I don't know what to say - I'm terrified by it. I don't know if it's permanent or not. If it's permanent, that's the end. I don't know if I'll be allowed to drive any more. I don't know if I'll be able to draw, or read well, or do pretty much anything - I can close my left eye and do things with just my right eye, like read the computer screen and type, like I am now, but I was left-eye dominant and my right eye is VERY weak, vision-wise, and it gets tired out easily.

Plus I literally still have the migraine pain and it hasn't gone away after six days. It's emotionally and mentally draining to be in constant pain, and it breaks you down. I don't literally believe in souls, but I feel soul-weary, if that makes sense... XD I just am so tired of the constant pain.

Califur is on Saturday and obviously at this point, there's no way I'l be able to go for the full day. My boyfriend will drive me and I'll probably be able to hold up for a few hours to say hi to my friends and maybe hang out for a bit, but since I CAN'T FUCKING SEE ANYTHING anyway, going into the Dealer's Den would probably only depress me anyway... I don't know. This is really depressing for someone who was very visually dependent before XD

Anyway, this isn't meant to be a pity-me party, just kind of a heads-up on what happened to me and a note on why I won't be at Califur for very long :{

Hopefully I'll be better (or at least better adjusted to my new half-blindyness) by AX. fhdkhdlgkj ugh :{

Barring a recurrence of the issues that have kept me away from FA for the last few months (Note me if you want details) -

I'll be at Califur again this year!

I'll likely only be there on Saturday the 31st, from whenever the doors open in the morning, until 7-8pm or so.

Give me a poke if you'll be there!

Keep an eye out for the frizzy-haired thing in an R2-D2 shirt wearing some combination of yellow and black wolf fursuit parts XD

HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND/OR HAPPY NON-DENOMINATIONAL WINTER SEASON XD depending on what you celebrate (or don't!)!

AND~

Even if you are alone this holiday season, you are not truly alone. <3

You're still a member of the human race, and I'm sending out a big hug to ALL OF YOU >:{

I may not know you, but don't feel sad and alone. I'm thinking of you! ...Indirectly!

I hope everyone has a safe and happy holiday!

FUCK IT ALL, I'M GOOD ENOUGH TO DO BADGE COMMISSIONS RIGHT? >:{

I've been putting it off because A. I have no idea how to price my shit/I always want to underprice myself/I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH and B. I didn't think I had enough examples, but I think I've fulfilled B via a few rounds of the Conbadge Exchange and I can get over A with sheer willpower.

HNRRRGH SOON I WILL OPEN THEM, THE COMMISSIONS, I PROMISE

and I'll probably have low prices, AND give badges free to my friends/people I know because yeahhh that's just how I am XD

Yesterday (Thanksgiving Day) marked the 13-year anniversary of the accident that left my dad permanently disabled with a traumatic brain injury. The man that was my father essentially died that day, even though his body keeps on living.

I was 18 years old at that time, but I wasn't an adult - I was probably around 14 years old in terms of mental and emotional maturity levels. So I wasn't ready at all for his accident - not that anyone can ever be "ready" for a parent to fall off a ladder and smash his skull on your own driveway. I was already feeling mopey and depressed since my boyfriend (of all of two months) had dumped me just the previous month - he was only the second guy I'd ever dated, and I'd REALLY fallen for him, plus he was the first guy I'd ever had sex with, so I was feeling pretty sorry for myself. Plus, I was totally a daddy's girl - my father was the only person in my family that I was close to. We were exactly alike - both of us computer nerds who loved the same things: planes, computers, books/reading, and working with our hands/tinkering/fixing stuff. I wanted to be a mechanic when I was a kid, because my dad was so good at fixing cars - but he told me no daughter of his was going to be a grease monkey! (Secretly I thought he was kind of pleased that I was so interested in car repair, though!)

Anyway - I could probably go on for a few months about how amazing of a guy my dad was. He had plenty of flaws - he was an alcoholic when I was a kid (but who wouldn't be, if you knew my mother), and a workaholic too - so he wasn't around much when I was a kid, but he still tried to spend as much time with me as he could. He never hit me, and only raised his voice to me if I'd done something wrong. He was the best dad I could have asked for, even if I always did wish that he'd spend more time with me when I was a kid.

And, of course, he always promised that he'd take me away from the situation that was horrifically abusive to us both - my mother - but he never did keep that promise. And now it's too late for us both.

Aaaanyway, sorry to be such a buzzkill, and I'm not usually this talkative about my personal life, but this time of the year marks one of the times when I'm actually feeling personally vulnerable. Usually I'm all sparkles and rainbows and smiles because I've forced myself to grow up that way (thanks, Mom) but I really, really miss my dad, even though there's a person laying in the hospital bed in the living room that looks like my dad, a person that still breathes and looks at me... but it's not my dad.

It's really, really hard to face that person every day and still smile.


Sorry, First World problems, right? XD Don't worry, I'll be fine and back to my usual self in a few days.

I just want you to know
that until yesterday
I thought Spinal Tap
was a real band

OTL



i'm so not metal

Person of Interest...

I'm just going to lay here and die inside for a while

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edit: it's just a TV show, but man, I get so attached :'{

i just went from a week-long shojo manga jag

to suddenly reading

an entire 37-chapter-long yaoi series in one sitting

yep

this is the start of something beautiful

Guys

What the fuck is "SPOOPY"

is it just a klevar internets misspelling of "spooky"?

or is it seriously like

something to do with feces?

i feel old and confused by modern lingo, help me

hey furries

did you know you can't copyright your characters?

yep

i'm apparently arrogant and delusional for telling people this though :{

p.s. you can copyright all the ART you draw of it, of course. duh. but your blue wolf with its heterochromia and rainbow stripes and unicorn horn and purple dreadlocks isn't copyrighted as a -character concept- meaning other people can create a character that is a blue wolf with heterochromia and rainbow stripes and a unicorn horn and purple dreadlocks and you can't threaten to sue or kill them.


footnote: if you think I am wrong and if you think you have somehow copyrighted your furry character (and not just art you have drawn of it) please provide me with the proof that you have done so, and I will admit that I am wrong, and you'll get to be an internet hero.

Until someone has proven to me that you can copyright a character WITHOUT well-established depth to the character (e.g., proof of profit of the character's likeness, in the way that Nintendo profits off of the likeness of the Pokemon or the way Disney profits off of the likeness of Mickey Mouse), then I will continue to insist that you cannot copyright your typical furry character that has absolutely no legal weight behind it other than all the art you've drawn of it. Companies copyright characters all the time, because they can prove recognizeability of the character.

Copyright means that NO ONE ELSE CAN MAKE CHARACTERS LIKE THAT because that character is instantly, strongly recognizable, like Mickey Mouse. Companies have the means to copyright their characters; they have reasons to say that their characters SHOULD be copyrighted. The average artist on FA has no legal compelling "reasons" why they can insist that their character is recognizable and should be copyrighted.



also, people, at least have the guts to talk about me in non-vague-passive-aggressive mode in your journals if you're gonna do it, or come leave nasty shouts on my page or something so i can come fight you properly, rawr

OH MY GOD
MY BOYFRIEND (the best boyfriend in the world) JUST FOUND AND BOUGHT FOR ME ONE OF MY FAVORITE GAMES FROM MY CHILDHOOD

http://www.gog.com/game/inherit_the_earth

Inherit the Earth: Quest for the Orb

A GAME IN WHICH YOU ARE AN ANTHROPOMORPHIC FOX NAMED RIF

This game came out in 1994, when I was 12. I cannot even put into words how MAGICAL this game was to me when I was 12 years old and I GOT TO BE AN ANIMAL PERSON IN THE GAME and EVERY CHARACTER WAS AN ANIMAL PERSON. AND THERE WERE ALSO WOLVES. WOLVES, I TELL YOU!

The game is utterly gorgeous. The characters are superbly detailed (AND VOICE-ACTED) and the backgrounds are amazing. Yeah, it's pixel art, but it was made in 1994, so what do you expect? XD

BUT THE POINT IS: ANTHROS

The basic background of the story-world is that there were humans on Earth at one point, and they created the anthropomorphic animals, and the animals know this. They have a mythos that tells them that the humans gave them "thinking minds, reaching hands, speaking mouths, and feeling hearts", but at some point in history, the humans disappeared, leaving their creations on the planet, all alone. No one knows where the humans went, or whether or not they'll ever be back...

I remember playing this game for HOURS when I was a kid. I played it over and over again, even after I'd beaten it. The story and the mythology of the world utterly entranced me. I LOVED the whole "humans created the anthros and then disappeared" thing (it's an easy thing for a 12-year-old girl who was already pretty much a furry to love).

The only thing that makes me sad is that, once I got older, I found out that the game was actually supposed to be part of a trilogy, but the other games never got created :{ ITE:QftO itself was supposed to be way more complex, longer, and darker too, but it was made into more of a kids' game before it was released, which is kind of sad too. BUT it was still absolutely enjoyable when I was a kid, and it absolutely contributed to the love of anthropomorphic animals that I have today.

I'm looking forward to playing it again, and I recommend it to anyone who doesn't mind great games that have old graphics!

PLUS GOG.com has like ALL of the old Ultima games (EVEN SAVAGE EMPIRE, OMFG), which were the OTHER cornerstone games of my childhood, OH MY GOD XD Especially Ultima 6. I am really looking forward to spending hours of my life playing U6 and U7 again after I play ITE again!

EDIT OH MY GOD THEY ALSO HAVE THE OLD SIERRA SERIES QUEST FOR GLORY
OKAY MY LIFE IS COMPLETE
FFFUCK I LOVED THOSE GAMES SO MUCH TOO
okay i'm gonna be afk for the next year
sorry pokemon i'm never going to get around to playing you


...yes, I had an incredibly lonely and sad childhood which I spent mostly alone, playing computer games, haha XD
IT'S OKAY THOUGH BECAUSE I HAD DOGS THAT LOVED ME

Sorry I've been more or less AWOL the last week, I've been pretty much out of commission with the worst flu I've had in years XD

I've been spending my feverish days in bed or lying on the ground under a pile of blankets and leaking snot and drool and pretty much being nearly delirious. I thought today was Wednesday when my boyfriend came over tonight and turned on the football game @_@ I was like WHAT WHY IS FOOTBALL ON? IT'S WEDNESDAY and he was all woah no it's Thursday and I was like OH GOD WHAT HAPPENED TO MY MIND D:

ANYWAY I think I'm finally JUST starting to feel better, so I'll be able to reply to Notes and emails and get around to actually finishing some business (and get back to IRL work) tomorrow.

YEAH apparently being housebound and exiled out of your office for a week amazingly can cause you to WANT to go to work after a while XD

... but "Rape" is okay.


Apparently, in a community where people post links to all kinds of pornographic artwork with only "NSFW" warnings, it's NOT okay to say the word "murder".

I commented on a heated discussion about copyright infringement. Someone had said that, since artists sell "fan art" at conventions, that essentially means that the companies who hold the copyright on the characters are "okay" with the artists selling art of the copyrighted characters. I was like LOLNOPE WRONG. I don't remember my exact words, since my comment was deleted by a moderator without a warning or explanation until after the fact (but by god, don't YOU dare delete or screen your OWN comments on that community, BTW) but here's part of what I said, paraphrased:

"If someone murders a person, and the victim's family says 'it's okay, we don't consider that murder,' it's STILL legally murder. The murderer is not absolved of his crime just because the family is okay with it."

What I was trying to give an extreme analogy of is that EVEN IF a company is "okay" with artists profiting off of the company's copyrighted characters/intellectual property, THAT DOES NOT MAKE IT LEGAL. It is STILL copyright infringement. It is STILL illegal.

But apparently you cannot talk about a fake, vague "murder" in a community where people can post gore and porn of every type and rating.

My comment was deleted outright, and I then received a warning from a moderator stating that my "analogy" was "too graphic and not appropriate for our community."

Uh... I wasn't aware there was a rule against that. Also, I didn't DESCRIBE a murder or mention a real, actual murder... I used the WORD murder, which is, you know, a normal word in the English language. One that people throw around pretty casually ("I'm gonna murder that guy if he keeps tapping his foot on the floor!")

So, I immediately combed over the Artists_Beware community rules and did not see ANYTHING about keeping comments/posts "unoffensive" or "morally clean". I didn't see anything about "keeping your language rated G or PG" or "don't be mean/offensive". All I saw were the usual "don't troll, don't name-call, don't start flame wars", and my comment was none of those things.

I did not see a list of "issues" or "words" that you are never allowed to mention or talk about on Artists_Beware.

A simple LiveJournal search has also turned up several PAGES of other posts in which people mention "murder". I'd like to know why those posts weren't deleted. And if we're removing references to murder, we'd better remove references to rape, torture, theft, drug use, child abuse, and papercuts, because those things are also pretty graphic and not appropriate for the community, right?

Here are screenshots of the current Artists_Beware community rules, just in case there happens to be ninja edits at some point in the immediate future, though that would certainly be a very morally unclean and not-appropriate thing to do, right?...

http://www.splintyr.com/artists_bew...../ab_rules1.jpg
http://www.splintyr.com/artists_bew...../ab_rules2.jpg

Now, you may be wondering why I have my panties in such a twist over this, and why I'm so OMG OFFENDED. That's because the internet is somewhere where people should be able to voice their thoughts and opinions without fear of people stomping all over them, AS LONG AS people follow the rules of wherever they are posting. Since I was following Artists_Beware's community rules, I feel as though I am the one who was violated and stomped on here, all for using a word that every 6-year-old in America probably knows.

I also do not like that there are apparently unspoken, un-posted "rules" and "regulations" that the moderators will follow at THEIR whim, but will not reveal to the userbase of the community.

All in all, I'm pretty saddened by this heavy-handed approach to what you can and can't say on A_B, especially since I turned up pages and pages of people talking about murder (and rape, and torture) in comments on the community with a simple LJ search. Apparently, talking about rape is totally cool, and you don't even need to put an NSFW warning in front of your comment. But you better not say the M-word, or the authority will muzzle you.

I'd like to keep using the community to express my thoughts and opinions, but I probably won't, knowing that my thoughts and opinions could be screened by an indiscriminate body of moderators who follow their own un-posted "moral code" that is not revealed to the community's userbase, nor is it enforced with any sort of regularity.

I have two more A_B posts to make about unsatisfactory commission experiences I've had, but then I'm probably done with the community entirely beyond using it exactly for what it's there for.

HEY GUYS

IT'S SPELLED "QUEUE"

"QUE" IS HOW YOU SAY "WHAT" IN SPANISH

WHEN

YOU ARE AT WORK

AND YOU FIND A HUGE GROSS THICK YELLOWED NAIL CLIPPING ON YOUR DESK

IT IS NOT YOUR NAIL CLIPPING

AND THIS IS YOUR DESK

YOUR DESK AND NO ONE ELSE USES IT

AND IT IS A FAMILY BUSINESS

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

it looks like a toenail too gdfgjdfjjgjgjg

I can't seem to figure this one out from Googling, despite my best Google-fu.

I imagine that Pokemon X and Y have slightly different "available" Pokemon lists, the way that the previous games did (e.g., you could only get Growlithe in HeartGold, and Vulpix from SoulSilver).

Does anyone know IF the two games have separate "available" Pokemon lists, and if so, does anyone have a link to which Pokemon are in which game? XD I'll most likely be buying X because I think the Y legendary is ugly, but if I can't get Mightyena or Growlithe in X, I'll change my tune >:3

Thanks ~

and YES I WANT MORE FRIENDS TO PLAY WITH once the game comes out ;_; my 3DS friends list is small and pathetic XD

EVERYONE ELSE WAS DOING IT
OH GOD PEER PRESSURE
GAAAAAAAAAH

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1. Why did you join FurAffinity?

Because I got really sick of "(ARTIST NAME HERE) has elected to only show their shit to people who have an FA account. Please log in or register" so I went GOD DAMN IT FINE I WILL XD

2. What does your username have to do with you?

Uh, it IS me. >_> Lakota is the name I've used on the internet since I was 11. I'm usually "LakotaWolf", or "LakotaSilver" in the places where LakotaWolf is already taken.

3. What is your current avatar of?

IT IS LAKOTA. Drawn by  sheeps !

4. How many watchers do you have, and how many do you watch?

69 watchers (hee hee) and I watch 298 people. I am clearly not a popufur XD

5. Do you have more than one account?

Yes, I do, but there are no submissions on the others yet:

 kotachrome for my photography!
and
 arkryen for MYSTERIOUS UNKNOWN PROJECT!

6. Name 3 of your favorite artists on FA.

ONLY THREE? motherfuck how I choose D: goddamn it

 pinstripedtiger  tent  enjoiPANDAS


7. What artist do you admire because of their personality?

 Skahlly was the most amazingly wonderful and easy artist to work with for my yarn tail commissions! She took my joking attitude in stride and played along with my terrible puns, which I really appreciated XD


8. Do you comment, fave, or both?

Both. I always comment on stuff I fave. I try to be specific with my comments too and tell the artist what I specifically enjoy about their work - not just generic "LOVE UR STUFF" - unless I really do just love their stuff XD Although you've probably noticed that I've really only Faved commissions I've gotten so far XD

9. What do you typically post on FA?

My pathetic attempts at artwork. I'm not worthy. I plan on posting more plushies and stuff once I get my ass in gear, though!

10.What's your favorite submission in your gallery?

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11492724/ because of sheer adorableness.

11. What are the things you wish you could draw better?

EVERYTHING but mostly anatomy. Specifically, motherfucking legs. I HATE LEGS. LEGGGGGGGGS. Also hair. And clothes. Actually, move hair up to the #1 spot. I hate drawing hair. XD I AM SO BAD AT IT.

12. How many hours a day do you spend on FA?

ALL OF THEM

13. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?

I am an extremely fast typer, which probably comes from the fact that I was raised on a computer.

14. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?

The most annoying thing that people ask me is that NO ONE ASKS ME ANYTHING ;________;

15. What is the most annoying/offending comment you've received?

I think it was really more of a LACK of comments in a certain situation that was the most offensive. Let's just say that I acquired a commission, and received ZERO communication from the artist. It was only the artist's "secretary" who talked to me, and this secretary wasn't even able to get the artist to work on their commissions. So I think it was the artist ignoring me entirely that was the most offensive "comment" that I've received!

16. What/who inspires you?

Uh, actually, most of the time, other artists intimidate me and make me feel a little ashamed of my poor skills, haha XD But really, everyone on my Watch list does inspire me too. SO GO WATCH THEM ALL. ALL OF THEM.

17. Everyone has considered leaving FA once or twice. Have you? Why?

Actually, I haven't. It'd take a fairly earth-shattering event to make me actually consider leaving. I've been around the internet a long, long time, and I'm more than happy to fight any battle that any asshole wants to throw my way, so you'd be hard-pressed to make me want to leave the site. I think only serious corruption of the admins/system or some kind of bullshit like that would be the only thing that would make me want to leave. For the most part I just don't give enough of a shit about anything else XD

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I hope this helps people get to know me a little better! ALTHOUGH PROBABLY ALL YOU'LL LEARN ABOUT ME IS THAT I LIKE TO ALLCAPS AND CURSE A LOT

BUT THAT'S OKAY BECAUSE THAT'S ALL YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT ME

Someone out there has got this fantastic art piece that is basically an awesomely satirical look at a stereotype of furry artwork, that "every species out there looks like wolves".

It's titled something like "All furry species" and they start out with a drawing of a wolf... and then they go on to list other species... e.g., "cat", and it's basically just their same drawing of a wolf but with cat whiskers, and then they list "rat/mouse"... and it's the wolf drawing, but with buck teeth, etc. XD Basically poking some good-natured fun at how some artists draw pretty much every species out there looking like a wolf XD (I know I do!)

It's a hilarious drawing and very, very cleverly done, and I mentioned it to my boyfriend, who wanted to see it, but I can't find it now for the life of me D: I thought I'd saved it to my HD, but I looked through all my folders and I couldn't find it and IT'S DRIVING ME NUTS and I looked through the galleries of everyone who I THOUGHT may have drawn it and AHHHHHHH

Does anyone out there remember the artwork and/or who drew it? I would be super grateful for a link!

Thank you :3

So this is kind of a strange one, but...

I'll try to keep this short so I don't TL;DR everyone XD

Although I've always viewed Lakota as just the online representation of myself, she actually DOES have a backstory. She has a family, a history, and so forth.

I've recently started to try and flesh out her family members and actually give them shape and form beyond "lol a wolf". I know what her mom looks like, and her grandfather, more or less. I'll deal with her biological dad's appearance later. LOL SPOILERS XD

I've started hammering out an appearance for her adoptive dad, but I can't figure out his face/head, and it's KILLING ME. NOTHING I have come up with makes me happy, and her adoptive dad's appearance is very, very important to me, on a very personal level. It has to really resonate with me, and I know it sounds bizarre that I'd be asking someone ELSE to design something for me, something that I want to speak to me on a "personal" level, but I think I'm -- ooookay I'm starting to get a little transcendental here XD Let's just say that I think I've got a bit of a psychological block on the dad's face, and nothing has made me happy so far, so I need some fresh ideas.

So I'm wondering: is it weird to have a design contest... JUST for a character's head? XD

I'd be asking for markings/fur colors/eyes/shapes/etc., basically the whole shebang. I've got the color scheme and markings for the rest of his body already, but I'm also not opposed to people making a whole new character design for him either, actually.

I'd be offering money as a prize, with a potential "grand prize" larger amount if someone wants to tackle the full "whole new character design" route, but I'm going to be pretty picky there and it's pretty unlikely I'd pick a whole new design unless something really wowed me. XD

I was thinking something like $20 for the face-only design, and $50 for the grand prize? Does that seem right, or ludicrous one way or the other? XD Any thoughts, advice, or rotten-egg-throwing is appreciated :3

ADDED NOTE:

There would also probably be a later second "design contest" to help design Lakota's 3 younger siblings - they're actually her half-siblings. They're the offspring of her biological mother and her adoptive dad - so that's why they can't be designed until her adoptive dad is designed, as their markings and fur colors would possibly be somewhat dependent on dad's design XD So if you're interested in helping design those younger siblings as well (two girls and a boy), keep an eye out :D

oh god this wasn't short at all what is wrong with me D:

What is this I don't even... OKAY SO YOU GUYS THAT +WATCH ME, I LOVE ALL OF YOU, EVEN THOSE OF YOU WHO I HAVE NO IDEA WHO YOU ARE, I JUST LOVE YOU ANYWAY TOTALLY CREEPILY THANK YOU ;_;

okay now that we have that out of the way:

Work list (this is more for myself than anything else XD):

Wolf plush thing:
-Sewing in progress; ~85% done
-Gonna post another WIP pic soon, I promise D:

Taxidermy bobcat kitten "plush" project:
-Pattern pieces cut

SECRET PLUSH!!!:
-Not started

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fARTS (haha i'm so funny):


-August exchange: Sketched; gotta ponder which Copic markers match my Exchange's character

's SODASONA:
-Sketched - EVERYONE NEEDS TO GO MAKE A DRAGON FURSONA THAT MATCHES THEIR FAVORITE SODA GO DO IT RIGHT NOW - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/11279748/