Artist Convention Preparation
Posted 8 years agoHello guys!
With my queue being started and convention season next year going to finally be a thing for slaton and I, we're going to be prepping now our stands and supplies. We have a few things on the cards for designs but wanted to announce that we'll be bringing
pawprinting to show custom wares as well as loads of pre-made items.
If there is any species, or silly sayings you'd like us to work with, let us know and we can start work now to get the showboat ready!
We're planning on all sorts of wares that aren't normally showcased at a convention to make it a unique and interesting experience.
Following that, if you are an artist and you'd like some gear printed up by us in-house we're happy to help! We will be asking all orders for convention swag be done at least 2 months in advance so that we can source items and ensure we can do your full print run on any item we offer.
For example a March convention, we ask to be contacted in January as we will not do 'last minute' convention prep if we have a number of folks all doing last minute orders.
Hopefully at CF we'll be sharing a table with
notoriousphoenix so we'll have a party in our booth. Hah! JFTW will be just us at our table. :D
With my queue being started and convention season next year going to finally be a thing for slaton and I, we're going to be prepping now our stands and supplies. We have a few things on the cards for designs but wanted to announce that we'll be bringing
pawprinting to show custom wares as well as loads of pre-made items. If there is any species, or silly sayings you'd like us to work with, let us know and we can start work now to get the showboat ready!
We're planning on all sorts of wares that aren't normally showcased at a convention to make it a unique and interesting experience.
Following that, if you are an artist and you'd like some gear printed up by us in-house we're happy to help! We will be asking all orders for convention swag be done at least 2 months in advance so that we can source items and ensure we can do your full print run on any item we offer.
For example a March convention, we ask to be contacted in January as we will not do 'last minute' convention prep if we have a number of folks all doing last minute orders.
Hopefully at CF we'll be sharing a table with
notoriousphoenix so we'll have a party in our booth. Hah! JFTW will be just us at our table. :D Lappys Commissions Open
Posted 8 years agoHello friends!
As I'm finishing the last of my commission images and is about 75% finished, I'll be reopening for another round of artwork for both NSFW and SFW. I will not be offering sketch only or ink only commissions this round, only finished images via FA. If you're after a sketch I only do those via twitter and it's not often that I accept them.
There will be a stipulation for artwork this round and potentially the one after that. I am still waiting on my surgery date and I'm at the 4 week mark from when I entered the system with a rough time limit of 8 weeks from that point until surgery (but then again this is the NHS so anything could happen) so as I don't have my actual date yet I cant plan my work load before surgery and after. Any art pieces accepted will be drawn as soon as I can but there must be an understanding that pieces may take some time to finish. For the moment I don't see surgery being an issue if I start now and have 4 weeks to go, I -should- finish everything between now and then but as theres still a question mark up in the air, I need this to be out in the open that my date may come sooner than later and throw my plans out the window.
Anyways! If you would like an art piece, please send me the form below, familiarize yourself with my price list as by paying the invoice you agree to my TOS.
PRICE LIST: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14093104/
TOS: You agree to my TOS when you pay your invoice.
I'll ONLY BE ACCEPTING COMMISSIONS VIA E-MAIL @ Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com - do not note me as they have been disabled. This is strictly for if FA does go down I can still correspond with my commissioners.
So if you would like a commission of your character PLEASE e-mail me this information:
FA Username:
Paypal E-mail Address:
Type of Image (Bust/Waist Up/Fullbody):
Number of Characters:
Character Reference Images(I'm not great with text, you may link a gallery but please attach your images to the email):
Character Name(s):
Species:
NSFW Y/N:
Background?:
Also include your references attached to your e-mail, not a link (unless you send a few images AND a link to a gallery). PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME LINKS ONLY.
This is so I have ease of use of e-mail for correspondence so if FA ever dies I have a dedicated e-mail address to continue with work.
Remember, e-mail only, and paypal invoice only. Amount is GBP (Great British Pound Sterling) and not USD or Euro.
Must make payment within 24 hours to hold your slot, and work will commence asap.
As I'm finishing the last of my commission images and is about 75% finished, I'll be reopening for another round of artwork for both NSFW and SFW. I will not be offering sketch only or ink only commissions this round, only finished images via FA. If you're after a sketch I only do those via twitter and it's not often that I accept them.
There will be a stipulation for artwork this round and potentially the one after that. I am still waiting on my surgery date and I'm at the 4 week mark from when I entered the system with a rough time limit of 8 weeks from that point until surgery (but then again this is the NHS so anything could happen) so as I don't have my actual date yet I cant plan my work load before surgery and after. Any art pieces accepted will be drawn as soon as I can but there must be an understanding that pieces may take some time to finish. For the moment I don't see surgery being an issue if I start now and have 4 weeks to go, I -should- finish everything between now and then but as theres still a question mark up in the air, I need this to be out in the open that my date may come sooner than later and throw my plans out the window.
Anyways! If you would like an art piece, please send me the form below, familiarize yourself with my price list as by paying the invoice you agree to my TOS.
PRICE LIST: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14093104/
TOS: You agree to my TOS when you pay your invoice.
I'll ONLY BE ACCEPTING COMMISSIONS VIA E-MAIL @ Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com - do not note me as they have been disabled. This is strictly for if FA does go down I can still correspond with my commissioners.
So if you would like a commission of your character PLEASE e-mail me this information:
FA Username:
Paypal E-mail Address:
Type of Image (Bust/Waist Up/Fullbody):
Number of Characters:
Character Reference Images(I'm not great with text, you may link a gallery but please attach your images to the email):
Character Name(s):
Species:
NSFW Y/N:
Background?:
Also include your references attached to your e-mail, not a link (unless you send a few images AND a link to a gallery). PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME LINKS ONLY.
This is so I have ease of use of e-mail for correspondence so if FA ever dies I have a dedicated e-mail address to continue with work.
Remember, e-mail only, and paypal invoice only. Amount is GBP (Great British Pound Sterling) and not USD or Euro.
Must make payment within 24 hours to hold your slot, and work will commence asap.
Comm Updates!
Posted 8 years agoHello friends and fam!
I just wanted a short update to let folks know I'm currently inking EVERYTHING. I'm about 1/2 of the way through it all at the moment but I've decided to ink them in a batch, then add flats as a batch and then knock them out with shades one by one. I find that my work flow is a bit quicker if I do it this way as I seem to have good art days and questionable design days - so making sure all of the sketches are good and approved by the commissioner makes it so much easier.
I have one design that will be added up as a YCH as I then redrew the character, there were two but one is provisionally held onto for the moment.
There have been some mini commissions going on my twitter from time to time, they were £5.00 GBP sketches in my personal sketchbook as practice for design, anatomy and convention drawing practice. I'm trying to get more comfortable with what I do and my sketch timing before convention season next year. Usually if I'm waiting for a package I'll take my book downstairs and draw at the kitchen table while I wait. (The house is TALL, so I can't always hear the doorbell from up here - I need one of those camera ones that rings my phone but can't afford that for the moment!)
For
pawprinting we have a couple of Christmas items that I've ordered in just to make sure the items are decent before I post them up for custom print jobs. We're waiting for our bag company to get some more bags in for those who opted to wait for the original black bags I use - I have two other options open at the moment from another vendor but the bags are different! So, it's actually nice we have 3 designs to select from soon.
One is great for an artist with pencil/pen holders readily accessible, one is great for gamers with two larger pockets under the flap for cords and cables, and a new backpack version with laptop holder inside. :V
Also a laptop pouch came in to give a go.
We've updated our printer and our inks so overall we're really chuffed with how things are turning out now - the colours are even better than before with some changes and we've sussed one of the issues we were having with some fabrics for an even better print.
Ahhhhh. Lots to do, lots to finish, need more images.
Still waiting on my surgery date - should have my date any day now so I can properly plan for when I'll be away in hospital for a week. xx
I just wanted a short update to let folks know I'm currently inking EVERYTHING. I'm about 1/2 of the way through it all at the moment but I've decided to ink them in a batch, then add flats as a batch and then knock them out with shades one by one. I find that my work flow is a bit quicker if I do it this way as I seem to have good art days and questionable design days - so making sure all of the sketches are good and approved by the commissioner makes it so much easier.
I have one design that will be added up as a YCH as I then redrew the character, there were two but one is provisionally held onto for the moment.
There have been some mini commissions going on my twitter from time to time, they were £5.00 GBP sketches in my personal sketchbook as practice for design, anatomy and convention drawing practice. I'm trying to get more comfortable with what I do and my sketch timing before convention season next year. Usually if I'm waiting for a package I'll take my book downstairs and draw at the kitchen table while I wait. (The house is TALL, so I can't always hear the doorbell from up here - I need one of those camera ones that rings my phone but can't afford that for the moment!)
For
pawprinting we have a couple of Christmas items that I've ordered in just to make sure the items are decent before I post them up for custom print jobs. We're waiting for our bag company to get some more bags in for those who opted to wait for the original black bags I use - I have two other options open at the moment from another vendor but the bags are different! So, it's actually nice we have 3 designs to select from soon. One is great for an artist with pencil/pen holders readily accessible, one is great for gamers with two larger pockets under the flap for cords and cables, and a new backpack version with laptop holder inside. :V
Also a laptop pouch came in to give a go.
We've updated our printer and our inks so overall we're really chuffed with how things are turning out now - the colours are even better than before with some changes and we've sussed one of the issues we were having with some fabrics for an even better print.
Ahhhhh. Lots to do, lots to finish, need more images.
Still waiting on my surgery date - should have my date any day now so I can properly plan for when I'll be away in hospital for a week. xx
Commission Open - NSFW/SFW 2 Character + BG
Posted 8 years agoHad one of my machines in the house kick the bucket absolutely unexpectedly and I'm still paying off the last big machine I've brought in (which should be paid off in the next month but was a massive investment, so no capital to shove towards replacing a current printer, little bastard died in the middle of a client print so mild heart attack ensued and quite literally 9 days out of warranty so it's a mixture of emotions in my office atm!)
As such I'm discounting a large piece. I'll take two on if someone really wants one, but for the moment they are £200. The time frame on getting these done coincides with my current bag run, of which I had only taken 6, so the turn around shouldn't be too bad on all art pieces.
Full Body, 2 Character NSFW (or sfw) with a background. Nothing too outlandish or extremely fetishy.
Want one?
Email me at:
Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com
with the following information:
FA Name:
Character References (please images, minimal text only, no text references):
Character Names:
Character Species:
Background Idea:
Premise of whats happening in the image, I do keep a bit of artistic free reign in my images:
Paypal only. Much appreciated. ;^;
As such I'm discounting a large piece. I'll take two on if someone really wants one, but for the moment they are £200. The time frame on getting these done coincides with my current bag run, of which I had only taken 6, so the turn around shouldn't be too bad on all art pieces.
Full Body, 2 Character NSFW (or sfw) with a background. Nothing too outlandish or extremely fetishy.
Want one?
Email me at:
Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com
with the following information:
FA Name:
Character References (please images, minimal text only, no text references):
Character Names:
Character Species:
Background Idea:
Premise of whats happening in the image, I do keep a bit of artistic free reign in my images:
Paypal only. Much appreciated. ;^;
Commissions Open: Custom Large Messenger Bag + Artwork!
Posted 8 years agoSo the fun part about running your own Custom Print shop in the same office you do artwork in, you can cross over now and again! I'll be offering some Large Messenger bags with custom artwork done for them, which is not what
pawprinting offers normally. We typically do bespoke pieces with artwork already provided, so this is the first time the large bags will be opened for work.
7 Slots total left
The bags are the same as you'd find in highstreet stores with artwork printed on the front (example anime conventions with anime bags)
Front of the back under the artwork flap are pen and pencil holders, zips and pockets to keep your gear in. Plenty of storage space.
If you'd like one e-mail info[at]pawprinting.co.uk
This is the information I'll need:
FA User name:
E-mail address for WIP:
Paypal E-mail address:
Character References (no text only):
Character Name:
Character Species:
Character Name on Bag Y/N?:
Country of residence for shipping quote purposes:
Clothing if requested (basic clothing, no armor):
Nitty Gritty information:
One character only, no additional. We DO print NSFW artwork, so NSFW is allowed - Full Body image included.
WIPs are sent to the e-mail address given, you will get the artwork completed before the bag, obviously.
You agree to the TOS agreement found in the Paypal invoice.
Must be paid within 24 hours to secure your space after the invoice has been sent. Only 7 spaces are available so this is first come first serve. No holds unless I've worked with you previously. Backgrounds are included like the previous bags I have drawn, see my gallery for more examples.
You can select sending the bag with tracking and priority but all shipping is paid by the purchaser, otherwise comes untracked. The cost of this outside of the UK starts at £33 for tracking and price depends on where it is going to.
pawprinting offers normally. We typically do bespoke pieces with artwork already provided, so this is the first time the large bags will be opened for work.7 Slots total left
The bags are the same as you'd find in highstreet stores with artwork printed on the front (example anime conventions with anime bags)
Front of the back under the artwork flap are pen and pencil holders, zips and pockets to keep your gear in. Plenty of storage space.
If you'd like one e-mail info[at]pawprinting.co.uk
This is the information I'll need:
FA User name:
E-mail address for WIP:
Paypal E-mail address:
Character References (no text only):
Character Name:
Character Species:
Character Name on Bag Y/N?:
Country of residence for shipping quote purposes:
Clothing if requested (basic clothing, no armor):
Nitty Gritty information:
One character only, no additional. We DO print NSFW artwork, so NSFW is allowed - Full Body image included.
WIPs are sent to the e-mail address given, you will get the artwork completed before the bag, obviously.
You agree to the TOS agreement found in the Paypal invoice.
Must be paid within 24 hours to secure your space after the invoice has been sent. Only 7 spaces are available so this is first come first serve. No holds unless I've worked with you previously. Backgrounds are included like the previous bags I have drawn, see my gallery for more examples.
You can select sending the bag with tracking and priority but all shipping is paid by the purchaser, otherwise comes untracked. The cost of this outside of the UK starts at £33 for tracking and price depends on where it is going to.
Upcoming Conventions! JFTW and CF (And I'll be MIA Thursday)
Posted 8 years agoHello friends and fam!
We'll be attending a few conventions next year, we are already set for JFTW (Just Fur the Weekend) in Bristol UK which I highly recommend and am planning on Confuzzled as well next year to finally bring PawPrinting to you folks as well as selling my own art and unique wears and gear. We have a lot of design work to do between now and then, but I will be also offering closer to the time, likely from February, custom gear to pick up at the conventions.
There was some talk on Twitter going on about JFTW versus Confuzzled when JFTWs registration opened and I have to honestly laugh, it's very difficult to compare one to another as they're a different feel to both. JFTW isn't Confuzzled and there are folks who go to both (I couldn't personally do CFz last year). After having experienced both conventions even though JFTW is still relatively new to the scene as this coming year will be it's third year, and I say this without bias of having been a guest of honor last year (if I didn't like it, I'd say) both conventions are unique.
Confuzzled is big, the largest convention here in the UK and there are many people that attend, so there is a lot going on and a lot to do. People complain about the price of it as it's held at the Hilton Metropole in Birmingham but its a large space that can cater for so many people especially over a bank holiday. CFz has lots of money that it brings in, and a lot of money that goes straight back out. All of the lanyards, the gear you get, the t-shirts for sponsors, the storage they need while the years going by, the lighting and sound equipment - the money goes to putting a function on, regardless of what fandom it's for. There are thousands of people that show up and it's a fun gathering with lots to see and do. Some folks don't like how busy it is, others revel in it, personally I like quiet and being alone with friends in a quiet area as my hearings not the best, but the dealers area is large and I could run gear there if I needed to effectively. Food is sadly a little more expensive, so we actually travel away from the hotel to get food or bring snacks/food with us. The hotel itself is not updated, but that's not the conventions fault - this is a common problem that other folks have even commented on, such as the Rotarians who have had conferences there and complained about it, so when you complain about the price and getting broken rooms, it's not the fault of CFz or it's staff, and in before you complain about moving venues as it's not as simple as that. Overall I enjoy CFz, though I do get stressed out more easily but this isn't the fault of anyone or the convention itself.
JFTW is more low key, it's quieter and "quaint" which actually I quite enjoy. It feels more like a large furmeet over a convention, that we can hang around together and in that itself its more intimate. I can talk to folks and hear them which I liked. I had more of an opportunity to just sit and chat with folks at JFTW which isn't my experience at CFz. People again started complaining about the prices of JFTW, but you also need to remember they have costs to cover to make a convention better than the year before, the logistics behind it, the swag you get (lanyards and badges don't just pop out of no where) and you also need to remember food is included for breakfast and lunch in a nice buffet style. The food quality was incredible and there was always something that I could eat, I have to be very careful with food these days so everyone seems catered for. They really catered to the dealers. We were able even though we sadly weren't able to vend, go in with the dealers - the den closes to allow everyone inside time to get food and eat which was amazing - so many folks at conventions tend to go without because there is no break and sometimes no one to take over to watch the stalls. The bedrooms are a little small unless you're executive, though the executive room is what I feel is the size of a standard hotel room, so to have a good friend of mine come to ours and say it was bigger than theirs I was a little surprised - I sadly didn't see the normal rooms.
As a side note, some of my immediate family owns and runs hotels, of which I'm part of one. I doubt they'll let me run a furry convention at theirs however. :P
I can't say anything about the suit walks as I've never been on either as someone without a suit, but they both look fun.
All that aside, I'm happy with both conventions. I feel neither is really better than the other, it's just a different setting and style which works for me.
We'll also try to do Scotia con and Furcation next year as I won't be able to attend that this October. Sadly we won't be attending next years EF either as we'll be away for August again, away from the fandom.
Right, so Thursday I'll be gone again. I'm back at the hospital for one more check up after discussing with a doctor about my surgery finally, so this visit is with the head honcho of the department. The NHS projects in my area surgery can come as quickly as 2 weeks and up to 18 weeks waiting. I've not heard anything about my blood samples yet so I'll find out more when I go in. I do have a tumor that has come back which was picked up on an ultrasound but as everything is being removed internally anyways so I don't really need to dwell on what it is, or what it isn't as it doesn't really matter anymore. The results will determine what hospital I attend in the area (there are 4 total so I could be anywhere across the Midlands at this point.)
Once my surgery date is on the cards I'll get as much work completed as I can, but I'll be unable to do much for roughly 6 weeks afterwards, the first week will be in hospital for recovery as it's a massive abdominal operation, not keyhole. The second week may be at
slatons parents just as their house layout is easier to manage than our own. I won't be able to lift anything, so even if I can draw and design things I can't run the printing area without slaton doing the manual bits but together we should be able to work it out alright.
Happy it's finally getting close and that I'll get peace of mind. I hope that in that regard I'll start perking back up again.
Aside from that I've been finishing the last bits of commission work and will be reopening custom drawn and printed (by me in house!) large messenger bags. I'll have 8 spaces total. =) At least in that area I can draw them and slaton can print them for me if need be.
We'll be attending a few conventions next year, we are already set for JFTW (Just Fur the Weekend) in Bristol UK which I highly recommend and am planning on Confuzzled as well next year to finally bring PawPrinting to you folks as well as selling my own art and unique wears and gear. We have a lot of design work to do between now and then, but I will be also offering closer to the time, likely from February, custom gear to pick up at the conventions.
There was some talk on Twitter going on about JFTW versus Confuzzled when JFTWs registration opened and I have to honestly laugh, it's very difficult to compare one to another as they're a different feel to both. JFTW isn't Confuzzled and there are folks who go to both (I couldn't personally do CFz last year). After having experienced both conventions even though JFTW is still relatively new to the scene as this coming year will be it's third year, and I say this without bias of having been a guest of honor last year (if I didn't like it, I'd say) both conventions are unique.
Confuzzled is big, the largest convention here in the UK and there are many people that attend, so there is a lot going on and a lot to do. People complain about the price of it as it's held at the Hilton Metropole in Birmingham but its a large space that can cater for so many people especially over a bank holiday. CFz has lots of money that it brings in, and a lot of money that goes straight back out. All of the lanyards, the gear you get, the t-shirts for sponsors, the storage they need while the years going by, the lighting and sound equipment - the money goes to putting a function on, regardless of what fandom it's for. There are thousands of people that show up and it's a fun gathering with lots to see and do. Some folks don't like how busy it is, others revel in it, personally I like quiet and being alone with friends in a quiet area as my hearings not the best, but the dealers area is large and I could run gear there if I needed to effectively. Food is sadly a little more expensive, so we actually travel away from the hotel to get food or bring snacks/food with us. The hotel itself is not updated, but that's not the conventions fault - this is a common problem that other folks have even commented on, such as the Rotarians who have had conferences there and complained about it, so when you complain about the price and getting broken rooms, it's not the fault of CFz or it's staff, and in before you complain about moving venues as it's not as simple as that. Overall I enjoy CFz, though I do get stressed out more easily but this isn't the fault of anyone or the convention itself.
JFTW is more low key, it's quieter and "quaint" which actually I quite enjoy. It feels more like a large furmeet over a convention, that we can hang around together and in that itself its more intimate. I can talk to folks and hear them which I liked. I had more of an opportunity to just sit and chat with folks at JFTW which isn't my experience at CFz. People again started complaining about the prices of JFTW, but you also need to remember they have costs to cover to make a convention better than the year before, the logistics behind it, the swag you get (lanyards and badges don't just pop out of no where) and you also need to remember food is included for breakfast and lunch in a nice buffet style. The food quality was incredible and there was always something that I could eat, I have to be very careful with food these days so everyone seems catered for. They really catered to the dealers. We were able even though we sadly weren't able to vend, go in with the dealers - the den closes to allow everyone inside time to get food and eat which was amazing - so many folks at conventions tend to go without because there is no break and sometimes no one to take over to watch the stalls. The bedrooms are a little small unless you're executive, though the executive room is what I feel is the size of a standard hotel room, so to have a good friend of mine come to ours and say it was bigger than theirs I was a little surprised - I sadly didn't see the normal rooms.
As a side note, some of my immediate family owns and runs hotels, of which I'm part of one. I doubt they'll let me run a furry convention at theirs however. :P
I can't say anything about the suit walks as I've never been on either as someone without a suit, but they both look fun.
All that aside, I'm happy with both conventions. I feel neither is really better than the other, it's just a different setting and style which works for me.
We'll also try to do Scotia con and Furcation next year as I won't be able to attend that this October. Sadly we won't be attending next years EF either as we'll be away for August again, away from the fandom.
Right, so Thursday I'll be gone again. I'm back at the hospital for one more check up after discussing with a doctor about my surgery finally, so this visit is with the head honcho of the department. The NHS projects in my area surgery can come as quickly as 2 weeks and up to 18 weeks waiting. I've not heard anything about my blood samples yet so I'll find out more when I go in. I do have a tumor that has come back which was picked up on an ultrasound but as everything is being removed internally anyways so I don't really need to dwell on what it is, or what it isn't as it doesn't really matter anymore. The results will determine what hospital I attend in the area (there are 4 total so I could be anywhere across the Midlands at this point.)
Once my surgery date is on the cards I'll get as much work completed as I can, but I'll be unable to do much for roughly 6 weeks afterwards, the first week will be in hospital for recovery as it's a massive abdominal operation, not keyhole. The second week may be at
slatons parents just as their house layout is easier to manage than our own. I won't be able to lift anything, so even if I can draw and design things I can't run the printing area without slaton doing the manual bits but together we should be able to work it out alright.Happy it's finally getting close and that I'll get peace of mind. I hope that in that regard I'll start perking back up again.
Aside from that I've been finishing the last bits of commission work and will be reopening custom drawn and printed (by me in house!) large messenger bags. I'll have 8 spaces total. =) At least in that area I can draw them and slaton can print them for me if need be.
5 Year FAnniversary!
Posted 8 years agoI'm a few days behind but I had forgotten to look at the date. I just want to say a huge thank you to you guys for following my work over the years. I honestly can't believe it's been so long already. It feels like it was a few months ago that I was finally convinced by
leviathan248 and
firekitty to suck it up and join the website (Levi had been pestering me since 2005 to join), and honestly even with the craziness that has happened since I first joined in my life, these have been the best years of my life.
You've seen me grow from a hobby artist to doing this as my full time occupation and I honestly can't thank you enough for sticking with me through the thick and thin of life. I read each comment given to me and even though I don't respond to each one I appreciate them, and the shouts as well. I'm not the type that clears the shout box because I love seeing the little messages people leave.
Some of my earliest pieces are here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8662408/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8760433/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8705854/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8509508/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8494832/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8656743/
I've been around since 1998 in the "fandom" but I never knew there were others out there who liked anthros as much as I did - I've drawn animals since I was very young and was heavily influenced by cartoons from the 80's and 90's, so to be able to watch myself go from an paper pusher to an artist, it makes me so happy that I could turn this into what I get to do daily.
We decided that this year we'd launch
pawprinting, my custom printing business, to have it coincide with my artwork. I'm looking to cut back on the amount of artwork that I do as I have carpal tunnel in both arms but I try to keep my arms in check as best I can so it took time and saving to invest in the machinery to start this new adventure. I want to continue drawing in the fandom for many years to come but also hope to be able to give back to the artist community by doing work for them by making items featuring their work to sell on to their fans.
We're still early stages of setting it up (it's only in its second month so far) but we hope that we can keep the momentum going and do some nifty things in the future for you guys here on FA and at conventions as well.
So in all, thank you again for everything, the comments, the gift art and most importantly the friendships. I've made all of my close friends because of this website - and I couldn't be happier.
I love you guys.
- Val / Lapres
leviathan248 and
firekitty to suck it up and join the website (Levi had been pestering me since 2005 to join), and honestly even with the craziness that has happened since I first joined in my life, these have been the best years of my life. You've seen me grow from a hobby artist to doing this as my full time occupation and I honestly can't thank you enough for sticking with me through the thick and thin of life. I read each comment given to me and even though I don't respond to each one I appreciate them, and the shouts as well. I'm not the type that clears the shout box because I love seeing the little messages people leave.
Some of my earliest pieces are here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8662408/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8760433/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8705854/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8509508/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8494832/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8656743/
I've been around since 1998 in the "fandom" but I never knew there were others out there who liked anthros as much as I did - I've drawn animals since I was very young and was heavily influenced by cartoons from the 80's and 90's, so to be able to watch myself go from an paper pusher to an artist, it makes me so happy that I could turn this into what I get to do daily.
We decided that this year we'd launch
pawprinting, my custom printing business, to have it coincide with my artwork. I'm looking to cut back on the amount of artwork that I do as I have carpal tunnel in both arms but I try to keep my arms in check as best I can so it took time and saving to invest in the machinery to start this new adventure. I want to continue drawing in the fandom for many years to come but also hope to be able to give back to the artist community by doing work for them by making items featuring their work to sell on to their fans. We're still early stages of setting it up (it's only in its second month so far) but we hope that we can keep the momentum going and do some nifty things in the future for you guys here on FA and at conventions as well.
So in all, thank you again for everything, the comments, the gift art and most importantly the friendships. I've made all of my close friends because of this website - and I couldn't be happier.
I love you guys.
- Val / Lapres
Searching for music! Whatcha got?!
Posted 8 years agoAny songs you enjoy listening to while you work? Post a youtube link! ;^; Trying to find new things to listen to!
Tentatively closed! - But read me!
Posted 8 years agoEDIT: Tentatively closed for the moment!
From this point forward you can still send an e-mail but I may have to gauge my work flow from what I had gotten in just to ensure a good turn around time for folks, or if you're alright to wait a little longer for a piece. I am going to be signing off now (I got e-mails as soon as I uploaded this, so I'm quite surprised its gone so quickly! I'll entertain all who have e-mailed me until this point, but just for the moment send an e-mail and I can make a temporary waiting list. xx
Righto! I will be leaving my commissions open however I likely won't be able to respond until Sunday morning (or late Saturday evening) as tomorrow I'm away but I have some disclaimers I NEED to add to this!!!
I'll happily take on commissions but it MUST come with the understanding that I've taken a small step back from commission work to focus on building
pawprinting - a custom gear printing service for enthusiasts who want items of their own characters and artists who do conventions, events shops etc. Over time I'll be leaning more towards PawPrinting over commission work because I've greatly enjoyed it!
This is my 5th year anniversary of being on FA! I can't believe it's been so long, so it's time to take my work a bit further. =)
As I'm focusing on PawPrinting I'll be a little slower than normal but not taking the piss. I don't like folks waiting too long because as a commissioner myself I hate having to wait ages, so I can sympathise. That is why I want this to be open and out there before anyone actually orders anything.
SO! If you'd like a piece from me and are happy to work with me on this, then please send me an e-mail! =) x
PRICE LIST: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14093104/
TOS: You agree to my TOS when you pay your invoice.
I'll ONLY BE ACCEPTING COMMISSIONS VIA E-MAIL @ Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com - do not note me as they have been disabled. This is strictly for if FA does go down I can still correspond with my commissioners.
So if you would like a commission of your character PLEASE e-mail me this information:
FA Username:
Paypal E-mail Address:
Type of Image (Bust/Waist Up/Fullbody):
Number of Characters:
Character Reference Images (I'm not great with text):
Character Name:
Species:
NSFW Y/N:
Background?:
Also include your references attached to your e-mail, not a link (unless you send a few images AND a link to a gallery). PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME LINKS ONLY.
This is so I have ease of use of e-mail for correspondence so if FA ever dies I have a dedicated e-mail address to continue with work.
Remember, e-mail only, and paypal invoice only. Amount is GBP (Great British Pound Sterling) and not USD or Euro.
Must make payment within 24 hours to hold your slot, and work will commence asap.
From this point forward you can still send an e-mail but I may have to gauge my work flow from what I had gotten in just to ensure a good turn around time for folks, or if you're alright to wait a little longer for a piece. I am going to be signing off now (I got e-mails as soon as I uploaded this, so I'm quite surprised its gone so quickly! I'll entertain all who have e-mailed me until this point, but just for the moment send an e-mail and I can make a temporary waiting list. xx
Righto! I will be leaving my commissions open however I likely won't be able to respond until Sunday morning (or late Saturday evening) as tomorrow I'm away but I have some disclaimers I NEED to add to this!!!
I'll happily take on commissions but it MUST come with the understanding that I've taken a small step back from commission work to focus on building
pawprinting - a custom gear printing service for enthusiasts who want items of their own characters and artists who do conventions, events shops etc. Over time I'll be leaning more towards PawPrinting over commission work because I've greatly enjoyed it! This is my 5th year anniversary of being on FA! I can't believe it's been so long, so it's time to take my work a bit further. =)
As I'm focusing on PawPrinting I'll be a little slower than normal but not taking the piss. I don't like folks waiting too long because as a commissioner myself I hate having to wait ages, so I can sympathise. That is why I want this to be open and out there before anyone actually orders anything.
SO! If you'd like a piece from me and are happy to work with me on this, then please send me an e-mail! =) x
PRICE LIST: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14093104/
TOS: You agree to my TOS when you pay your invoice.
I'll ONLY BE ACCEPTING COMMISSIONS VIA E-MAIL @ Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com - do not note me as they have been disabled. This is strictly for if FA does go down I can still correspond with my commissioners.
So if you would like a commission of your character PLEASE e-mail me this information:
FA Username:
Paypal E-mail Address:
Type of Image (Bust/Waist Up/Fullbody):
Number of Characters:
Character Reference Images (I'm not great with text):
Character Name:
Species:
NSFW Y/N:
Background?:
Also include your references attached to your e-mail, not a link (unless you send a few images AND a link to a gallery). PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME LINKS ONLY.
This is so I have ease of use of e-mail for correspondence so if FA ever dies I have a dedicated e-mail address to continue with work.
Remember, e-mail only, and paypal invoice only. Amount is GBP (Great British Pound Sterling) and not USD or Euro.
Must make payment within 24 hours to hold your slot, and work will commence asap.
Commissions Reopening!
Posted 8 years agoJust a headsup, I'll probably take commissions by the end of the day today - I'm ahead of where I thought I'd be (couldn't sleep last night so I kept working haha, bonus!)
There are some stipulations with my taking of work from now on, there will be an agreement made between my commissioners and I that artwork here is now my "secondary" business, as I am focusing on PawPrinting. That doesn't mean I'll take forever doing an image, it just means I may be a little slower than normal though it shouldn't be too noticeable. So as long as life doesn't get in the way like it had at the start of the year there should be no issue with good turn around times as per normal.
I will draw artwork if you want it on a printed item, just let me know when ordering your art piece and I can tailor the design to fit my printing template. I'm not opening specifically for printing work however.
There are some stipulations with my taking of work from now on, there will be an agreement made between my commissioners and I that artwork here is now my "secondary" business, as I am focusing on PawPrinting. That doesn't mean I'll take forever doing an image, it just means I may be a little slower than normal though it shouldn't be too noticeable. So as long as life doesn't get in the way like it had at the start of the year there should be no issue with good turn around times as per normal.
I will draw artwork if you want it on a printed item, just let me know when ordering your art piece and I can tailor the design to fit my printing template. I'm not opening specifically for printing work however.
Mini Update and Birthday Ramblings!
Posted 8 years agoI'm not one to make a fuss about birthdays normally, but I usually take a day off work to draw myself something. I'll probably be taking another day off in lieu and continuing to work today instead! I have a couple more sketches to get through for the bags, but everyone who has seen their WIP's are happy with the way they're looking so far!
I want to get these out of the way before I take time to make myself an art piece, so I'm wondering what should I do? Should I do an onsen picture? It's been ages since I've done one.
Recently I've been focusing more on using twitter, trying to get PawPrinting going and focusing on learning about new machines to add to my list of things to get in the future. I have my eye on one that will allow me to make acrylic charms of (almost) any size but it'll be loads of saving to do and easily be the most expensive machine I've ever purchased. Aside from that we really need to get Ellis a car that I can take to conventions to promote PawPrinting and my own custom merchandise. I have a few items in mind to make which I think would do amazingly well in the fandom! We're hoping to do Confuzzled 2018, JFTW, Scotia Con at least next year, though next year we'll be getting married as well with family from around the world coming which probably makes EF out of the question.
Health wise I've been given the greenlight FINALLY to have the surgery I need. All of these abdominal issues will now no longer be a problem as I'll be completely sterilized. While discussing with my biological sister what had happened to me as of recent she disclosed that she and our mother had cervical cancer at young ages, so my insides changing as dramatically as they have been doing it's suddenly more risky to leave it and my doctors have all agreed this is the right step to take. They wanted to try leaving me in tact as long as they could but now is the time to remove everything. I'm somehow slowly taking my insides out.
Knowing that this chapter will finally be over is incredible, but it leaves me wondering when the surgery will be. I have two more appointments to go to (one for scans and another with my doctor again to discuss the scans and determine what hospital I need to go to as the units are all specialised in our area for different things. Cancer patients go to two hospitals, normal procedures go to the other two more local, so we don't know where I'll fit in yet, which is all part of the fun of waiting for the answer. I hadn't done a CA125 in ages, so I'm not holding my breath wondering anymore.)
The other sad bit in my life as of late is Mack, my 50% heart rat (Vern was my other 50% who died a month ago) took a turn yesterday and had difficulties breathing. I took him up to bed with me just to hold onto him for a while longer as we made the decision to take him today to have him put down.. but at 10:41 last night he left in my arms, the place he loved being the most. I can't honestly comprehend what it feels like to have something die in your arms but you truly feel the life leave. I whispered as it was happening to be there when I meet him again. I'm sort of glad that he went naturally rather than us having to sign his life away. Just waiting for Ellis to come home so we can go find a nice plant and bury our little man next to Vern and Ken (his brother.)
It's sad that they have short little lives but their personalities and impact is huge. I never thought I would ever be a rat person but Mack was the first rescue we got that really left a mark on me, none of our pets including Bailey showed nearly as much love as Mack did. He loved his humans and was absolutely spoiled rotten.
I want to get these out of the way before I take time to make myself an art piece, so I'm wondering what should I do? Should I do an onsen picture? It's been ages since I've done one.
Recently I've been focusing more on using twitter, trying to get PawPrinting going and focusing on learning about new machines to add to my list of things to get in the future. I have my eye on one that will allow me to make acrylic charms of (almost) any size but it'll be loads of saving to do and easily be the most expensive machine I've ever purchased. Aside from that we really need to get Ellis a car that I can take to conventions to promote PawPrinting and my own custom merchandise. I have a few items in mind to make which I think would do amazingly well in the fandom! We're hoping to do Confuzzled 2018, JFTW, Scotia Con at least next year, though next year we'll be getting married as well with family from around the world coming which probably makes EF out of the question.
Health wise I've been given the greenlight FINALLY to have the surgery I need. All of these abdominal issues will now no longer be a problem as I'll be completely sterilized. While discussing with my biological sister what had happened to me as of recent she disclosed that she and our mother had cervical cancer at young ages, so my insides changing as dramatically as they have been doing it's suddenly more risky to leave it and my doctors have all agreed this is the right step to take. They wanted to try leaving me in tact as long as they could but now is the time to remove everything. I'm somehow slowly taking my insides out.
Knowing that this chapter will finally be over is incredible, but it leaves me wondering when the surgery will be. I have two more appointments to go to (one for scans and another with my doctor again to discuss the scans and determine what hospital I need to go to as the units are all specialised in our area for different things. Cancer patients go to two hospitals, normal procedures go to the other two more local, so we don't know where I'll fit in yet, which is all part of the fun of waiting for the answer. I hadn't done a CA125 in ages, so I'm not holding my breath wondering anymore.)
The other sad bit in my life as of late is Mack, my 50% heart rat (Vern was my other 50% who died a month ago) took a turn yesterday and had difficulties breathing. I took him up to bed with me just to hold onto him for a while longer as we made the decision to take him today to have him put down.. but at 10:41 last night he left in my arms, the place he loved being the most. I can't honestly comprehend what it feels like to have something die in your arms but you truly feel the life leave. I whispered as it was happening to be there when I meet him again. I'm sort of glad that he went naturally rather than us having to sign his life away. Just waiting for Ellis to come home so we can go find a nice plant and bury our little man next to Vern and Ken (his brother.)
It's sad that they have short little lives but their personalities and impact is huge. I never thought I would ever be a rat person but Mack was the first rescue we got that really left a mark on me, none of our pets including Bailey showed nearly as much love as Mack did. He loved his humans and was absolutely spoiled rotten.
PawPrinting Artist Bulk Pricelist now Available
Posted 8 years agoTo artists and creators looking for custom gear for their online shops, FA accounts, convention stalls or branding we have version 1 of our .pdf file. We will be updating our bulk list as we test new products and grow confident in their creation to make sure you have the highest quality gear that we can give you. We want everything to be highstreet quality.
If you'd like a copy of our .pdf please e-mail us at info[at]pawprinting.co.uk and we'll send one over to you. x
If you'd like a copy of our .pdf please e-mail us at info[at]pawprinting.co.uk and we'll send one over to you. x
Free Custom Pencil case Give away!
Posted 8 years agohttps://twitter.com/PawPrintingUK/s.....70368243908609
Your own artwork or photographs can go on! We will ship anywhere!
Your own artwork or photographs can go on! We will ship anywhere!
Pokemon Lanyard Preorder!
Posted 8 years ago
faruku ordered up some bits for herself and is preordering these!http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23765115/
I can safely vouch THEYRE CUTE AS ANYTHING in person. O___O
Snag one while you can before they go up!
Paw Printing Prices!
Posted 8 years ago
pawprintinghttps://www.furaffinity.net/commiss.....s/pawprinting/
Probably the easiest way of consolidating things for slaton and I was to utilize (finally, right?) the commissions tab!
There will be price points for artists who purchase multiples of one item, but the ones listed currently is one off item creation.
PAWPRINTING!!!! We're here!
Posted 8 years agoA joint venture between
slaton and myself, a custom printing company for bespoke gifts and art preparation for the convention going artist!
Currently examples are up on our FA page, however I will be adding some ready done designs later!
pawprinting
Please help us get the word out there!!
I am so happy to finally be able to announce this. This is the direction I wanted YankeeDoodles to go into, but when slaton agreed to go in this with me we took the plunge! So this is not just me working on these things, this is a team. :V
This has honestly been in the works for the last year and a half. Uwahhh, FINALLY.
slaton and myself, a custom printing company for bespoke gifts and art preparation for the convention going artist!Currently examples are up on our FA page, however I will be adding some ready done designs later!
pawprintingPlease help us get the word out there!!
I am so happy to finally be able to announce this. This is the direction I wanted YankeeDoodles to go into, but when slaton agreed to go in this with me we took the plunge! So this is not just me working on these things, this is a team. :V
This has honestly been in the works for the last year and a half. Uwahhh, FINALLY.
New Chapter!
Posted 8 years agoSo
slaton and I have been working behind the scenes for a while now and will be doing something for you guys!!
This will mean however I will not be taking on as many commissions as I had been doing before.
This last weekend I had one of my besties
dashftw over and we were going through my art folders looking for my own art of my characters and she realised that I really don't have that much. When she mentioned it, it really hit a chord. I worry about making ends meet during the month so I take on work but that's all I really do, I never wanted to be one of those artists where you see nothing but their own work when they have commissions open as well. Maybe in the evenings I sketch in my sketchbook but that's all I do, never finish them.
This new venture that the two of us are going to do will hopefully open up some more time for me to do my own thing, but it's going to take some of the strain off of my arms as you already have heard a few times in my journals that I have RSI in both. So this was something I've been working towards since the start of last year to hopefully make a switch and I'm just about there! YankeeDoodles was the start, but we've properly branded it under a different name.
I'll work on getting everything set up and then debut it properly here! :D xxx
slaton and I have been working behind the scenes for a while now and will be doing something for you guys!!This will mean however I will not be taking on as many commissions as I had been doing before.
This last weekend I had one of my besties
dashftw over and we were going through my art folders looking for my own art of my characters and she realised that I really don't have that much. When she mentioned it, it really hit a chord. I worry about making ends meet during the month so I take on work but that's all I really do, I never wanted to be one of those artists where you see nothing but their own work when they have commissions open as well. Maybe in the evenings I sketch in my sketchbook but that's all I do, never finish them.This new venture that the two of us are going to do will hopefully open up some more time for me to do my own thing, but it's going to take some of the strain off of my arms as you already have heard a few times in my journals that I have RSI in both. So this was something I've been working towards since the start of last year to hopefully make a switch and I'm just about there! YankeeDoodles was the start, but we've properly branded it under a different name.
I'll work on getting everything set up and then debut it properly here! :D xxx
Heads Up!
Posted 8 years agoHello guys!
I will be completely MIA Thursday and likely Friday as well. I'm back at the hospital again, so I will not be with my phone or computer for e-mail correspondence.
Somethings wrong again so we're going to determine what this Thursday and discuss surgery again after hoping I had dodged it. Joy of joys!
If you need anything work related, just send an e-mail and I'll try to respond. I am not interested in talking about whats going on internally though - not to friends, not to family as I don't have any more information to give you aside from "somethings wrong" because I don't know exactly what and I don't want to speculate.
I will be completely MIA Thursday and likely Friday as well. I'm back at the hospital again, so I will not be with my phone or computer for e-mail correspondence.
Somethings wrong again so we're going to determine what this Thursday and discuss surgery again after hoping I had dodged it. Joy of joys!
If you need anything work related, just send an e-mail and I'll try to respond. I am not interested in talking about whats going on internally though - not to friends, not to family as I don't have any more information to give you aside from "somethings wrong" because I don't know exactly what and I don't want to speculate.
Commissions Open!
Posted 8 years agoPRICE LIST: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14093104/
Platinums are not in the list, they are full artist freedom but you may give me a one word theme - flat rate £90
TOS: You agree to my TOS when you pay your invoice.
I'll ONLY BE ACCEPTING COMMISSIONS VIA E-MAIL @ Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com - do not note me as they have been disabled. This is strictly for if FA does go down I can still correspond with my commissioners.
So if you would like a commission of your character PLEASE e-mail me this information:
FA Username:
Paypal E-mail Address:
Type of Image (Bust/Waist Up/Fullbody):
Number of Characters:
Character Reference Images (I'm not great with text):
Character Name:
Species:
NSFW Y/N:
Background?:
If Platinum, what one word theme?:
Also include your references attached to your e-mail, not a link (unless you send a few images AND a link to a gallery). PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME LINKS ONLY.
This is so I have ease of use of e-mail for correspondence so if FA ever dies I have a dedicated e-mail address to continue with work.
Remember, e-mail only, and paypal invoice only. Amount is GBP (Great British Pound Sterling) and not USD or Euro.
Must make payment within 24 hours to hold your slot, and work will commence asap.
Platinums are not in the list, they are full artist freedom but you may give me a one word theme - flat rate £90
TOS: You agree to my TOS when you pay your invoice.
I'll ONLY BE ACCEPTING COMMISSIONS VIA E-MAIL @ Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com - do not note me as they have been disabled. This is strictly for if FA does go down I can still correspond with my commissioners.
So if you would like a commission of your character PLEASE e-mail me this information:
FA Username:
Paypal E-mail Address:
Type of Image (Bust/Waist Up/Fullbody):
Number of Characters:
Character Reference Images (I'm not great with text):
Character Name:
Species:
NSFW Y/N:
Background?:
If Platinum, what one word theme?:
Also include your references attached to your e-mail, not a link (unless you send a few images AND a link to a gallery). PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME LINKS ONLY.
This is so I have ease of use of e-mail for correspondence so if FA ever dies I have a dedicated e-mail address to continue with work.
Remember, e-mail only, and paypal invoice only. Amount is GBP (Great British Pound Sterling) and not USD or Euro.
Must make payment within 24 hours to hold your slot, and work will commence asap.
Commissions Open Tomorrow: Form Inside
Posted 8 years agoThe last lot of commissions wen't pretty well! Under a month turn around for a large batch of them, so I'm pretty content with that.
At the moment I am colouring the last two pieces tonight and tomorrow and will be opening tomorrow morning for more work. You can send me a message tonight via e-mail (you'll hear me mention e-mail a lot in this) but I will not be able to respond until tomorrow once I'm at the computer again. All of the jargon is below for how to get an image!
As usual this is the low down:
PRICE LIST: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14093104/
Platinums are not in the list, they are full artist freedom but you may give me a one word theme - flat rate £90
TOS: You agree to my TOS when you pay your invoice.
I'll ONLY BE ACCEPTING COMMISSIONS VIA E-MAIL @ Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com - do not note me as they have been disabled. This is strictly for if FA does go down I can still correspond with my commissioners.
So if you would like a commission of your character PLEASE e-mail me this information:
FA Username:
Paypal E-mail Address:
Type of Image (Bust/Waist Up/Fullbody):
Number of Characters:
Character Reference Images (I'm not great with text):
Character Name:
Species:
NSFW Y/N:
Background?:
If Platinum, what one word theme?:
Also include your references attached to your e-mail, not a link (unless you send a few images AND a link to a gallery). PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME LINKS ONLY.
This is so I have ease of use of e-mail for correspondence so if FA ever dies I have a dedicated e-mail address to continue with work.
Remember, e-mail only, and paypal invoice only. Amount is GBP (Great British Pound Sterling) and not USD or Euro.
Must make payment within 24 hours to hold your slot, and work will commence asap.
I will NOT respond tonight, but will be doing so tomorrow so if you want to send a message over night I will get it when I wake up in the morning.
At the moment I am colouring the last two pieces tonight and tomorrow and will be opening tomorrow morning for more work. You can send me a message tonight via e-mail (you'll hear me mention e-mail a lot in this) but I will not be able to respond until tomorrow once I'm at the computer again. All of the jargon is below for how to get an image!
As usual this is the low down:
PRICE LIST: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14093104/
Platinums are not in the list, they are full artist freedom but you may give me a one word theme - flat rate £90
TOS: You agree to my TOS when you pay your invoice.
I'll ONLY BE ACCEPTING COMMISSIONS VIA E-MAIL @ Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com - do not note me as they have been disabled. This is strictly for if FA does go down I can still correspond with my commissioners.
So if you would like a commission of your character PLEASE e-mail me this information:
FA Username:
Paypal E-mail Address:
Type of Image (Bust/Waist Up/Fullbody):
Number of Characters:
Character Reference Images (I'm not great with text):
Character Name:
Species:
NSFW Y/N:
Background?:
If Platinum, what one word theme?:
Also include your references attached to your e-mail, not a link (unless you send a few images AND a link to a gallery). PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME LINKS ONLY.
This is so I have ease of use of e-mail for correspondence so if FA ever dies I have a dedicated e-mail address to continue with work.
Remember, e-mail only, and paypal invoice only. Amount is GBP (Great British Pound Sterling) and not USD or Euro.
Must make payment within 24 hours to hold your slot, and work will commence asap.
I will NOT respond tonight, but will be doing so tomorrow so if you want to send a message over night I will get it when I wake up in the morning.
Tentatively Closed!
Posted 8 years agoI've taken on 7 this queue at this point - which may raise to 8 depending on if this last person wants something.
It's a nice little number to stop at as most of these are full scene images, so I'm looking SO forward to working on these. Some will test my anatomy skills for sure! :V Two videogame ones, two beefy beef McBeefersons, yaaaaaas.
Thank you guys again!!!!
It's a nice little number to stop at as most of these are full scene images, so I'm looking SO forward to working on these. Some will test my anatomy skills for sure! :V Two videogame ones, two beefy beef McBeefersons, yaaaaaas.
Thank you guys again!!!!
Opening for new Commissions Tomorrow! (Thursday April 20th!)
Posted 8 years agoI am finally back from my JFTW convention!!!
To be completely honest, I had the BEST time I've ever had in the fandom there. That was a riot and it was amazing to feel special for a few days. I'll write up properly about it in another journal later. For now, I am at the end of my commission queue!! (Save one piece that I am waiting on feed back for, not had corrospondence for a while now :/ )
I have two pieces that I had taken on so they are now the start of my next queue of art pieces to be completed.
As usual this is the low down:
PRICE LIST: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14093104/
Platinums are not in the list, they are full artist freedom but you may give me a one word theme - flat rate £90
TOS: You agree to my TOS when you pay your invoice.
I'll ONLY BE ACCEPTING COMMISSIONS VIA E-MAIL @ Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com - do not note me as they have been disabled. This is strictly for if FA does go down I can still correspond with my commissioners.
So if you would like a commission of your character PLEASE e-mail me this information:
FA Username:
Paypal E-mail Address:
Type of Image (Bust/Waist Up/Fullbody):
Number of Characters:
Character Reference Images (I'm not great with text):
Character Name:
Species:
NSFW Y/N:
Background?:
If Platinum, what one word theme?:
Also include your references attached to your e-mail, not a link (unless you send a few images AND a link to a gallery). PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME LINKS ONLY.
This is so I have ease of use of e-mail for correspondence so if FA ever dies I have a dedicated e-mail address to continue with work.
Remember, e-mail only, and paypal invoice only. Amount is GBP (Great British Pound Sterling) and not USD or Euro.
Must make payment within 24 hours to hold your slot, and work will commence asap.
I will NOT respond tonight, but will be doing so tomorrow so if you want to send a message over night I will get it when I wake up in the morning.
To be completely honest, I had the BEST time I've ever had in the fandom there. That was a riot and it was amazing to feel special for a few days. I'll write up properly about it in another journal later. For now, I am at the end of my commission queue!! (Save one piece that I am waiting on feed back for, not had corrospondence for a while now :/ )
I have two pieces that I had taken on so they are now the start of my next queue of art pieces to be completed.
As usual this is the low down:
PRICE LIST: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14093104/
Platinums are not in the list, they are full artist freedom but you may give me a one word theme - flat rate £90
TOS: You agree to my TOS when you pay your invoice.
I'll ONLY BE ACCEPTING COMMISSIONS VIA E-MAIL @ Yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com - do not note me as they have been disabled. This is strictly for if FA does go down I can still correspond with my commissioners.
So if you would like a commission of your character PLEASE e-mail me this information:
FA Username:
Paypal E-mail Address:
Type of Image (Bust/Waist Up/Fullbody):
Number of Characters:
Character Reference Images (I'm not great with text):
Character Name:
Species:
NSFW Y/N:
Background?:
If Platinum, what one word theme?:
Also include your references attached to your e-mail, not a link (unless you send a few images AND a link to a gallery). PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME LINKS ONLY.
This is so I have ease of use of e-mail for correspondence so if FA ever dies I have a dedicated e-mail address to continue with work.
Remember, e-mail only, and paypal invoice only. Amount is GBP (Great British Pound Sterling) and not USD or Euro.
Must make payment within 24 hours to hold your slot, and work will commence asap.
I will NOT respond tonight, but will be doing so tomorrow so if you want to send a message over night I will get it when I wake up in the morning.
Just Fur The Weekend - Find me Info!
Posted 8 years agoJFTW - Being held in Bristol!
I'm honoured to be a Guest of Honour at this convention as it's my very first time doing anything like this. They've been super considerate with me during the hardships I've just been through, so I'm so very much looking forward to attending.
Where are you staying?
The Convention hotel
What is your membership?
GoH
How are you getting to the convention?
Fingers crossed in my baby, my own car, Jiji with my gorgeous other half.
Who are you sharing a room with?


How old are you?
I'm grey-muzzle territory.
How tall are you?
5 Foot 7
What is your gender?
Female
Where will you be most of the time during the day?
Where ever I am needed! I'll be holding a panel and an art jam session.
Who will you be with for most of the convention?
Ohgod, hopefully people I know!
slaton
dashftw
taryncrimson
hidekiwolf
notoriousphoenix
Any other friends I will find you drunk with?
God, I hope so. Gotta get
stefiheartlilly a drink!
What suit(s) will you have?
I don't own a suit, though I may bring my Kigu - though she's huge so maybe not. I dunno! Undecided. If I do suit, look for a shorter version of Ellis.
Do you do commissions/badges?
Yes! I'll be doing pickup badges at JFTW.
Do you do free art or trades?
Neither.
Can I dance with you?
I find the irony in having to judge the dance competition when I can't dance myself!!!
Can I touch you?
Let me know if you'd like a hug, don't grab me from behind unless I know you're going to do it.
Can I talk to you?
Yes!! :D
Can I hug you?
Yep! Just open your arms and I'll squish you!
Can I take photos of you/with you?
Sure thing!
Can I buy you a drink/s?
Sure! Nothing fizzy - only still drinks permanently!
Can we hang out?
I'd love that!
Are you friendly and nice?
I try to be as friendly to all as I possibly can be - you'll find that if I see someone who people sometimes shun, I like to b-line straight for them and make them feel welcome. No one deserves to be pushed away based off of how they interact with others. Some people are VERY introverted and socially awkward, and I totally don't mind that. xx
Attending any events?
Uhhh probably most. And motor furs so I can finally debut my baby.
How can I find you at the con?
Not sure if I'll dye my hair funky or leave it as is... probably just go as normal! Listen for the awkward American accent! Probably me.
Are you buying art?
No, I usually don't. After being in the US for so long and then things unforseen after that, I'm skint-af.
What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
I get dizzy easily - if you see me suddenly stop talking and sort of zone out, or try to grab onto an object for stability, I'm not trying to be rude, my body is just having a moment. It's gotten more visible since last year and happening more often.
What is the best way to contact you?
I'm socially awkward online - e-mail at yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com is probably the only viable way. I don't add people randomly to my facebook page as it's personal and family oriented, not furries.
I'm honoured to be a Guest of Honour at this convention as it's my very first time doing anything like this. They've been super considerate with me during the hardships I've just been through, so I'm so very much looking forward to attending.
Where are you staying?
The Convention hotel
What is your membership?
GoH
How are you getting to the convention?
Fingers crossed in my baby, my own car, Jiji with my gorgeous other half.
Who are you sharing a room with?


How old are you?
I'm grey-muzzle territory.
How tall are you?
5 Foot 7
What is your gender?
Female
Where will you be most of the time during the day?
Where ever I am needed! I'll be holding a panel and an art jam session.
Who will you be with for most of the convention?
Ohgod, hopefully people I know!
slaton
dashftw
taryncrimson
hidekiwolf
notoriousphoenix Any other friends I will find you drunk with?
God, I hope so. Gotta get
stefiheartlilly a drink! What suit(s) will you have?
I don't own a suit, though I may bring my Kigu - though she's huge so maybe not. I dunno! Undecided. If I do suit, look for a shorter version of Ellis.
Do you do commissions/badges?
Yes! I'll be doing pickup badges at JFTW.
Do you do free art or trades?
Neither.
Can I dance with you?
I find the irony in having to judge the dance competition when I can't dance myself!!!
Can I touch you?
Let me know if you'd like a hug, don't grab me from behind unless I know you're going to do it.
Can I talk to you?
Yes!! :D
Can I hug you?
Yep! Just open your arms and I'll squish you!
Can I take photos of you/with you?
Sure thing!
Can I buy you a drink/s?
Sure! Nothing fizzy - only still drinks permanently!
Can we hang out?
I'd love that!
Are you friendly and nice?
I try to be as friendly to all as I possibly can be - you'll find that if I see someone who people sometimes shun, I like to b-line straight for them and make them feel welcome. No one deserves to be pushed away based off of how they interact with others. Some people are VERY introverted and socially awkward, and I totally don't mind that. xx
Attending any events?
Uhhh probably most. And motor furs so I can finally debut my baby.
How can I find you at the con?
Not sure if I'll dye my hair funky or leave it as is... probably just go as normal! Listen for the awkward American accent! Probably me.
Are you buying art?
No, I usually don't. After being in the US for so long and then things unforseen after that, I'm skint-af.
What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
I get dizzy easily - if you see me suddenly stop talking and sort of zone out, or try to grab onto an object for stability, I'm not trying to be rude, my body is just having a moment. It's gotten more visible since last year and happening more often.
What is the best way to contact you?
I'm socially awkward online - e-mail at yankeedoodlesart[at]gmail.com is probably the only viable way. I don't add people randomly to my facebook page as it's personal and family oriented, not furries.
Back to Work - and JFTW Convention!
Posted 8 years agoHello friends!
I just wanted to give you a heads up that I'm doing my best to get everything outstanding finished because no one deserves to wait. Overall I've not been able to have whatevers been in my brain to translate to my hands but I've been trying to do traditional sketches around the dinner table just to keep practicing. I'm feeling like I'm better in myself both mentally and physically - so I'm looking forward to getting myself back into normal life.
I'm also VERY excited about going to Just Fur The Weekend next month!! I'm the Guest of Honour and I can't tell you how excited I am to get to see you guys there if you're attending. These last few months I've been incredibly (and I mean INCREDIBLY) isolated while I dealt with all of the "life experiences" that was chucked at me and I haven't seen any friends since coming home from the USA so it'll really be my first time out.
There will be a panel that I'll be doing about freelance basics and will probably dive into the difficult topic of Hobby vs "professional" artists. I want to help folks who have been contemplating freelance work or have tried it and haven't been super successful and give ideas on how to help. I'm passionate about what I do and I love every aspect of it, but I also want to give the reality of what I do for a living - it's not glam, its not very lucrative but it fits our life style as a family else I'd never get to see my other half.
Aside from that things at home are going alright now. My mom had a mental breakdown after dad died, but shes getting to the point now that she's settling into quiet life, which actually suits her. Dad was finally buried with full honours from the USMC and their funeral director took it upon himself to give him a proper send off. I've had to clean up a lot of things for her in her personal and financial life but it makes me feel so much better in myself when I speak to her on the phone now and she's not crying and she's happy in her voice.
I wouldn't wish these last few months on ANYONE. It's still a hard process to go through in an emotional place with the reality of what's gone on... but I've grown as a person in so many ways and it's made me a tougher cookie for sure. If I could get through this, I think I can get through anything now.
I just wanted to give you a heads up that I'm doing my best to get everything outstanding finished because no one deserves to wait. Overall I've not been able to have whatevers been in my brain to translate to my hands but I've been trying to do traditional sketches around the dinner table just to keep practicing. I'm feeling like I'm better in myself both mentally and physically - so I'm looking forward to getting myself back into normal life.
I'm also VERY excited about going to Just Fur The Weekend next month!! I'm the Guest of Honour and I can't tell you how excited I am to get to see you guys there if you're attending. These last few months I've been incredibly (and I mean INCREDIBLY) isolated while I dealt with all of the "life experiences" that was chucked at me and I haven't seen any friends since coming home from the USA so it'll really be my first time out.
There will be a panel that I'll be doing about freelance basics and will probably dive into the difficult topic of Hobby vs "professional" artists. I want to help folks who have been contemplating freelance work or have tried it and haven't been super successful and give ideas on how to help. I'm passionate about what I do and I love every aspect of it, but I also want to give the reality of what I do for a living - it's not glam, its not very lucrative but it fits our life style as a family else I'd never get to see my other half.
Aside from that things at home are going alright now. My mom had a mental breakdown after dad died, but shes getting to the point now that she's settling into quiet life, which actually suits her. Dad was finally buried with full honours from the USMC and their funeral director took it upon himself to give him a proper send off. I've had to clean up a lot of things for her in her personal and financial life but it makes me feel so much better in myself when I speak to her on the phone now and she's not crying and she's happy in her voice.
I wouldn't wish these last few months on ANYONE. It's still a hard process to go through in an emotional place with the reality of what's gone on... but I've grown as a person in so many ways and it's made me a tougher cookie for sure. If I could get through this, I think I can get through anything now.
Rest In Peace
Posted 8 years agoThis is probably the last thing I wanted to be doing right now, but I've been away for too long and you all deserve an update on what's been happening.
As you knew,
leviathan248 passed away December 18th, 2016, but later after speaking to his brother the same day, I had a phone call from a doctor where my father was taken into ICU and said I needed to come home straight away. I dropped everything, quite literally, and left on the next flight out.
My dad has had uncontrolled diabetes and his blood sugar level shot up to 1600, which should have outright killed him. I made it back fast enough to see him and thought he'd slip away then and there. I had to deal with doctors, nurses and surgeons as if you ever had the chance to know my mother, she is NOT an easy woman to deal with. She tends to throw her arms up in the air and say "I can't deal with this right now," and ignore things. Suddenly I was shoved into unintentional "adulthood" with someones life balancing in your fingers. On one side of me my mother is fretting and doubting herself, being suicidal as well which doesn't help matters, saying how she wants to die and not go through this.. and on the other side have someone who is on his death bed where doctors have no clue what his outcome would be.
I had to give an order for emergency exploratory surgery to try to figure out what on earth was going on internally and they found that he had severe damage to his kidneys, colon, gall bladder and intestines and had to remove a good portion of gut. He had been to the Mathers AFB's VA hospital the day before he was admitted saying he suffered from bad stomach pains and not one single person checked him - not his blood sugar, not his belly - nothing.
I had to give the go ahead for dialysis, a traech, he needed an ilostomy/colostomy bag but I knew if he pulled through it'd be temporary aside from his dialysis. I know people who live with it and he could have been a candidate in the future for a new kidney.
The day before Christmas Eve I finally lost it and I cracked under all of the pressure from my mom and the worry for my dad and I called
slaton and said I needed him. I can't tell you the sort of man he is, but he boarded the next plane he could and arrived Christmas Eve. It was not a Christmas I wanted or ever thought I'd be having... but I had my little family together, he and I, sitting at my dads bedside in ICU all day.
One of the clinicians tried to keep me positive and wrote me a letter for the doctors to sign helping my mom break her apartment lease, and that I'd be able to move them into a ground floor place, so that kept me going. I couldn't tell you the sheer amount of things I accomplished while we were out there, but I did my very best to make sure that my mom was taken care of, and that when dad came home, he'd be comfortable and happy.
I dropped weight quite severely while I was out there, and I've had a lot of my hair on the right side of my head come out which I'm trying to hide with makeup, but the fact remains that it's taken it's toll on me.
I was fortunate enough to be there to bury my best friend with slaton, alcapwny, neeco, dravu, gausswolf there to give him a good send off.
My dad regained consciousness on and off and I tried telling him what had happened, keep him updated on life but he wasn't strong enough to take things in. He started to become very angry at the world at the end of my visit. Ellis was only with me for two short weeks, but I was there for 6 in total. I tried to do everything I could to make sure that both my parents were taken care of at the detriment of myself. I'm not trying to say that to shove myself on a pedestal or to make myself look better than I truly am, but there is no other way to really explain it.
One doctor took me under his wing while I was there because he only ever saw me. I know doctor patient relations aren't supposed to happen but he opened up one afternoon once he said the outcome was pretty grim and to expect the worst, and asked if I was his only child and I said yes. Thats when he changed and became a person to me - he has a harder time watching people in my situation as he expects that he will be in the same position soon with his own father being an only child. So every time I saw him he made sure to talk to me and I can't tell you how incredible he was to my dad.
At the end of the 6 weeks I was in the ICU saying my goodbyes while my dad was still there, even though he was awake at this point but still not well to be moved to another facility, and told "We've made your dad a success story," and I truly took that to heart.
My dad would be coming home soon, and that meant the world for me to hear. I could finally come home to the UK and feel like I've done enough to take care of them both. I went to say goodbye to him and he threw me out of the room mouthing to me to get out as he was still with his traech. I don't know why he became so nasty but it shattered my heart.
Right as I was about to leave my mom became very ill and I finally took her to a walk in centre only to have her rushed off to the same hospital my dad was in, San Joaquin General, and she also had uncontrolled diabetes and was close to going into a coma as well. If my heart wasn't already crushed, here's another blow. I extended my stay again to hope that I could get her better and take her home. For someone like her she becomes incredibly dependent on other people which scared me that if I left she'd kill over and die, or something. She is taking 4 insulin shots now per day and I tried to make her a diabetic cheat sheet for the fridge so that she could easily figure out what to do, how much insulin to take and what to eat and when. Luckily after a few days in hospital in the ward next to my dad, she was discharged and I brought her home.
I decided to try one more time to say goodbye to my dad, and it went really well at first. I thought we would end on a good note, but as my time came nearer to go when nurse shift change happened, he threw me out in the same way as before. He didn't want to see me again.
So with that I left and came home to the UK. I couldn't handle everything that happened and trying to settle back into normal life just wasn't happening. I sat down and worked on some of my December commissions, so please dont think I've just forgotten about you, I'm getting there, but I just can't seem to cope. I had come off of my depression medication last year as I felt I was doing loads better and was self managing myself in a way that I could cope with everything so that when I came back to the UK I've only just tried to take it again and it's made me ill. Since surgery last year I haven't tried to take them and they don't seem to agree with me any longer.
Anyways, now for the more recent events.
I received a phone call from my mom on Valentines day and she was having a melt down about my dad, he's decided that he has had enough and demanded hospice, unhooked his bag and had thrown it across the room. I didn't know what to say, he decided to decline dialysis and that in itself is a death sentence and he knew it. He was a very morbid person anyways but planned his entire funeral well in advance. What do you say when you know your father was going to live, he beat all of the odds and over came his illness - just to decide to throw everything away at the end of it. I spent all of that time out there preparing for him to come home, I spent thousands of dollars getting him new furniture, moved them and made sure he was going to be okay and for me it feels like it was all in vain now.
There have been situations where I've cried.. but that killed me deep down. He could have died and his body kept going. Or did I keep him alive because of the choices I made? I didn't think it was selfish at the time, but when he came around, he did.
To be honest I'm getting more exhausted as I write this, but where we are now is that my father John Gordon, died at 12:15am PST February 20th, 2017 at a hospice centre in Stockton, California.
My mom has effectively knee jerked and as she is his wife and I technically have no say (she won't give me any rights in this matter) she has refused him a service and a funeral, and is now in the process of shoving my father straight into the ground without any honours for military service or as a Vietnam Veteran. She was given a flag yesterday to keep which she doesn't want and will be coming home with me.
I can't tell you how I'm feeling right now but Ellis summed it up pretty well yesterday. Who needs Emmerdale or Coronation Street (soap operas here in the UK) when you walk in my shoes, which is very true.
He was being prepared yesterday to make the journey to the cemetery already. My heart can't take any more blows and this one from my mom was the last straw for me. My dad was a very morbid man, but he dreamed of the day he'd die and made plans for everything he wanted. He saw a casket he loved by Jonathan Fields and I was in talks with him to prepare one for my dad so that I could honour his wishes, then was going to fly home to help with funeral arrangements but there is no need for that now. Mom picked out a cheap casket and he's getting nothing from her.
I'll be flying out later in the year when I can properly afford it again because I've been kicked in the teeth by my mom from flying out in December, not worked properly since then and she won't help me come back out now because my dad left her nothing but our stake in a family hotel in Napa, so I can't change things even if I wanted to without borrowing more money off of Eliss's brother and I'm already not able to make my own ends meet here.
Honestly, I just want to curl up in a ball and wait for everything to blow over but I know that it'll do no good to anyone. I'm trying to finish my art as I can, but please understand that because my mind isn't in a good place I can't translate what I want in my mind to my hands and nothing has been turning out. I'm trying to stay strong for my mom and not let her know how much she's hurt me and that it'll be hard to forgive what she's doing with my father. I'm having to do a lot of this silently but Im so fortunate I have one aunt and an uncle who have cheered me on through this entire ordeal and in their eyes I've done enough. On the other hand I feel like my grandmother feels like I haven't done enough and I need to be the one to fix my mom when I know there is nothing I can do besides get in her way. She doesn't want comfort and doesn't want anyone around.
This is a very quick version of my life since December. A few of the local furs in the UK have been following my personal journey through facebook, and I thank them for cheering me on and their best wishes for my family after my dad went.
In any case with business matters, I'm getting there. Please bare with me while I slog through what I've already taken on and understand if I don't respond to any new requests until I'm ready.
As you knew,
leviathan248 passed away December 18th, 2016, but later after speaking to his brother the same day, I had a phone call from a doctor where my father was taken into ICU and said I needed to come home straight away. I dropped everything, quite literally, and left on the next flight out. My dad has had uncontrolled diabetes and his blood sugar level shot up to 1600, which should have outright killed him. I made it back fast enough to see him and thought he'd slip away then and there. I had to deal with doctors, nurses and surgeons as if you ever had the chance to know my mother, she is NOT an easy woman to deal with. She tends to throw her arms up in the air and say "I can't deal with this right now," and ignore things. Suddenly I was shoved into unintentional "adulthood" with someones life balancing in your fingers. On one side of me my mother is fretting and doubting herself, being suicidal as well which doesn't help matters, saying how she wants to die and not go through this.. and on the other side have someone who is on his death bed where doctors have no clue what his outcome would be.
I had to give an order for emergency exploratory surgery to try to figure out what on earth was going on internally and they found that he had severe damage to his kidneys, colon, gall bladder and intestines and had to remove a good portion of gut. He had been to the Mathers AFB's VA hospital the day before he was admitted saying he suffered from bad stomach pains and not one single person checked him - not his blood sugar, not his belly - nothing.
I had to give the go ahead for dialysis, a traech, he needed an ilostomy/colostomy bag but I knew if he pulled through it'd be temporary aside from his dialysis. I know people who live with it and he could have been a candidate in the future for a new kidney.
The day before Christmas Eve I finally lost it and I cracked under all of the pressure from my mom and the worry for my dad and I called
slaton and said I needed him. I can't tell you the sort of man he is, but he boarded the next plane he could and arrived Christmas Eve. It was not a Christmas I wanted or ever thought I'd be having... but I had my little family together, he and I, sitting at my dads bedside in ICU all day. One of the clinicians tried to keep me positive and wrote me a letter for the doctors to sign helping my mom break her apartment lease, and that I'd be able to move them into a ground floor place, so that kept me going. I couldn't tell you the sheer amount of things I accomplished while we were out there, but I did my very best to make sure that my mom was taken care of, and that when dad came home, he'd be comfortable and happy.
I dropped weight quite severely while I was out there, and I've had a lot of my hair on the right side of my head come out which I'm trying to hide with makeup, but the fact remains that it's taken it's toll on me.
I was fortunate enough to be there to bury my best friend with slaton, alcapwny, neeco, dravu, gausswolf there to give him a good send off.
My dad regained consciousness on and off and I tried telling him what had happened, keep him updated on life but he wasn't strong enough to take things in. He started to become very angry at the world at the end of my visit. Ellis was only with me for two short weeks, but I was there for 6 in total. I tried to do everything I could to make sure that both my parents were taken care of at the detriment of myself. I'm not trying to say that to shove myself on a pedestal or to make myself look better than I truly am, but there is no other way to really explain it.
One doctor took me under his wing while I was there because he only ever saw me. I know doctor patient relations aren't supposed to happen but he opened up one afternoon once he said the outcome was pretty grim and to expect the worst, and asked if I was his only child and I said yes. Thats when he changed and became a person to me - he has a harder time watching people in my situation as he expects that he will be in the same position soon with his own father being an only child. So every time I saw him he made sure to talk to me and I can't tell you how incredible he was to my dad.
At the end of the 6 weeks I was in the ICU saying my goodbyes while my dad was still there, even though he was awake at this point but still not well to be moved to another facility, and told "We've made your dad a success story," and I truly took that to heart.
My dad would be coming home soon, and that meant the world for me to hear. I could finally come home to the UK and feel like I've done enough to take care of them both. I went to say goodbye to him and he threw me out of the room mouthing to me to get out as he was still with his traech. I don't know why he became so nasty but it shattered my heart.
Right as I was about to leave my mom became very ill and I finally took her to a walk in centre only to have her rushed off to the same hospital my dad was in, San Joaquin General, and she also had uncontrolled diabetes and was close to going into a coma as well. If my heart wasn't already crushed, here's another blow. I extended my stay again to hope that I could get her better and take her home. For someone like her she becomes incredibly dependent on other people which scared me that if I left she'd kill over and die, or something. She is taking 4 insulin shots now per day and I tried to make her a diabetic cheat sheet for the fridge so that she could easily figure out what to do, how much insulin to take and what to eat and when. Luckily after a few days in hospital in the ward next to my dad, she was discharged and I brought her home.
I decided to try one more time to say goodbye to my dad, and it went really well at first. I thought we would end on a good note, but as my time came nearer to go when nurse shift change happened, he threw me out in the same way as before. He didn't want to see me again.
So with that I left and came home to the UK. I couldn't handle everything that happened and trying to settle back into normal life just wasn't happening. I sat down and worked on some of my December commissions, so please dont think I've just forgotten about you, I'm getting there, but I just can't seem to cope. I had come off of my depression medication last year as I felt I was doing loads better and was self managing myself in a way that I could cope with everything so that when I came back to the UK I've only just tried to take it again and it's made me ill. Since surgery last year I haven't tried to take them and they don't seem to agree with me any longer.
Anyways, now for the more recent events.
I received a phone call from my mom on Valentines day and she was having a melt down about my dad, he's decided that he has had enough and demanded hospice, unhooked his bag and had thrown it across the room. I didn't know what to say, he decided to decline dialysis and that in itself is a death sentence and he knew it. He was a very morbid person anyways but planned his entire funeral well in advance. What do you say when you know your father was going to live, he beat all of the odds and over came his illness - just to decide to throw everything away at the end of it. I spent all of that time out there preparing for him to come home, I spent thousands of dollars getting him new furniture, moved them and made sure he was going to be okay and for me it feels like it was all in vain now.
There have been situations where I've cried.. but that killed me deep down. He could have died and his body kept going. Or did I keep him alive because of the choices I made? I didn't think it was selfish at the time, but when he came around, he did.
To be honest I'm getting more exhausted as I write this, but where we are now is that my father John Gordon, died at 12:15am PST February 20th, 2017 at a hospice centre in Stockton, California.
My mom has effectively knee jerked and as she is his wife and I technically have no say (she won't give me any rights in this matter) she has refused him a service and a funeral, and is now in the process of shoving my father straight into the ground without any honours for military service or as a Vietnam Veteran. She was given a flag yesterday to keep which she doesn't want and will be coming home with me.
I can't tell you how I'm feeling right now but Ellis summed it up pretty well yesterday. Who needs Emmerdale or Coronation Street (soap operas here in the UK) when you walk in my shoes, which is very true.
He was being prepared yesterday to make the journey to the cemetery already. My heart can't take any more blows and this one from my mom was the last straw for me. My dad was a very morbid man, but he dreamed of the day he'd die and made plans for everything he wanted. He saw a casket he loved by Jonathan Fields and I was in talks with him to prepare one for my dad so that I could honour his wishes, then was going to fly home to help with funeral arrangements but there is no need for that now. Mom picked out a cheap casket and he's getting nothing from her.
I'll be flying out later in the year when I can properly afford it again because I've been kicked in the teeth by my mom from flying out in December, not worked properly since then and she won't help me come back out now because my dad left her nothing but our stake in a family hotel in Napa, so I can't change things even if I wanted to without borrowing more money off of Eliss's brother and I'm already not able to make my own ends meet here.
Honestly, I just want to curl up in a ball and wait for everything to blow over but I know that it'll do no good to anyone. I'm trying to finish my art as I can, but please understand that because my mind isn't in a good place I can't translate what I want in my mind to my hands and nothing has been turning out. I'm trying to stay strong for my mom and not let her know how much she's hurt me and that it'll be hard to forgive what she's doing with my father. I'm having to do a lot of this silently but Im so fortunate I have one aunt and an uncle who have cheered me on through this entire ordeal and in their eyes I've done enough. On the other hand I feel like my grandmother feels like I haven't done enough and I need to be the one to fix my mom when I know there is nothing I can do besides get in her way. She doesn't want comfort and doesn't want anyone around.
This is a very quick version of my life since December. A few of the local furs in the UK have been following my personal journey through facebook, and I thank them for cheering me on and their best wishes for my family after my dad went.
In any case with business matters, I'm getting there. Please bare with me while I slog through what I've already taken on and understand if I don't respond to any new requests until I'm ready.
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