Fuck you too

It feels like I'm going to screw up, every step along the way. But somehow, someone always finds a way to lead my uncertain foot. Someone out there should know how much of a angel she is, even if a fallen one

I realize how much I've disappeared lately, with alot of people. With doubt permeating every aspect of my life, the desire to keep in touch with the people I love and the prospect to meet new friends faded, leaving me only with uncertainty about what I want and want I do.

Now, I've finally started my transitioning after a whole year of waiting, and I "awoke anew". With body changes finally starting to happen, and a new life as my true myself opening for me, my doubts about what I truly want from my interactions with other people still remain.

I'm not glad to have stopped chatting or seeing some people, but I just want to point out that I did it only for myself and my health, and not because my feelings about friendship and care changed.

But yeah, yay, life is getting better, and it won't stop improving :>

So.. I got pretty sick last week, and I'm getting better just know, just in time for christmas, it seems :>

Anyway, merry christmas! It's time for me to gift myself something nice. I'd love to find somewhere a cute hair-pin, something birb or feathery related would be amazing, but every site I found happened to have pretty plain stuff.
So, I'll love forever whoever helps me find something interesting, a simple link will do! ^v^

If you lack the energy and the will for both the right and wrong decisions, how would you define your state of being?

So, my lovely friend  nyxapnea asked me to try this out, and here we are!

I don't know very well many of you and so I'll probably make something up along the way~

I will:

1. Tell you what animal/creature you remind me of.
2. Tell you what color I think fits you.
3. Tell you how I feel about you.
4. Insult you.
5. Tell you my favorite OC of yours. (If you have one...)
6. Tell you what season you remind me of.
7. Tell you what food you smell like in my head.
8. Think of a random nickname for you.
9. Tell you what element you remind me of.
10. Ask you to put this in your journal without using the word 'tag'

Prague is quite lovely. I'm having a couple of days of relax away from italy after this last stressing months.
Anyway, I'm going to face MtF sexual transitioning. I needed 8 years of confusion but I finally managed to accept what always laid under my nose. So yep, I'm seriously going to start a journey and I know it won't be easy. I'm slightly scared, to be honest.
But all of my love goes to my friends, already supporting me. I could't wish for something better

 NyxApnea isn't only a friend, but a awesome artist as well. You should check out her stuff~!

And... She is currently taking commissions! You should definitely go talk to her and claim the last slots available :>
I love her art style, and you should too. The burd commands you!

...No really, go and take a look. You won't regret it~

By H.P. Lovecraft
Recognition
"
The day had come again, when as a child
I saw—just once—that hollow of old oaks,
Grey with a ground-mist that enfolds and chokes
The slinking shapes which madness has defiled.
It was the same—an herbage rank and wild
Clings round an altar whose carved sign invokes
That Nameless One to whom a thousand smokes
Rose, aeons gone, from unclean towers up-piled.

I saw the body spread on that dank stone,
And knew those things which feasted were not men;
I knew this strange, grey world was not my own,
But Yuggoth, past the starry voids—and then
The body shrieked at me with a dead cry,
And all too late I knew that it was I!
"

Now the space probe being like: "Gtg and say hi to Azathoth now, lol"

I need someone to play with.
Because yes.
Come on! D:

My Vacuum cleaner died today.

RIP my trusted friend.
This is a sad day for my room.

Let's all take a minute to celebrate his long career.

...

Done.
Oh, you poor thing