Hey, to anybody who may know me or possibly miss me or whatever.
Anybody care to say hi?
I need to make a note whether or not I want to dissolve this account or not.
No point in keeping it open if I have no one to talk to. Partly my fault though.

Well it seems I'm drawing again. Due to my hiatus because of school means I'm pretty much back to shitscribbles but I'm slowly becoming better and remembering how to do things.
Feels much better drawing now. I've been missing a form of stress relief/output/vent system for a long time and now I think I found what was missing. I guess you could say that I thought I was no good for some reason.

Also I figured out one of my other thought process issues and that's the time I take doing these things. So I'm mainly going to be working on speed-drawing to fix that and try to find a more streamlined style as well as a detailed "time-consuming" style.

So bear with me.
I might have to make a new account and just move stuff.

On the real-life terms I'll be entering an internship at a wildlife reserve this upcoming Monday. Really excited as this is what I've been wanting to do since I was a child.

I'm making a spiny flower mantis character.
Project for now :)

On FA. I guess it's cheating? I dunno.
Anyway, second year in college (even though my credit level makes me basically a Junior) and things are doing much better.
I'm not really drawing anymore (sorry to those who liked my artwork :( ) mostly because I'm focusing more on school and painting miniatures (WH40K, Eldar and Tyranids, FTW). Anyway, even if I'm not drawing I'll probably still remain a friendly lurker and role-player. This will probably be my last journal for quite a while actually. >.>
So if anybody wants to say hi to me or anything relevant my Y!M has always been icarus2512.

So I got my Wisdom Teeth removed D:
Yup I am partially drugged up with painkillers :D
But I can't chew shit for at least one or one/half more days D:
I took a condom thinger from my university's "Student Health" stands and took the advice of many anon's to jack off into it...but I had a problem putting it on D: But I suppose that's a good thing.
So ya, Hope everybody enjoyed their December holiday.
Cheer, joy, laughs, <3, companions.
Cya later.

Is coming so I'll have more time to self and family, yey.
And I see that 3000 is coming close on me x.x so I might do something there.
...although I don't know what to do.
...and my new computer doesn't have the photoshops anymore. D:

Is "Gimp" really all that good?

Here are the rules.
You have to pick 3 species that are different in appearance than your species that you like or prefer, then name 3 different reasons per species why you like them.
(Cats can't choose other felines, Iguanas can't choose other lizards, Dogs can't choose other canines, etc).

Allow me to demonstrate:
Species I like:
1. Equines
2. Arthopods (general arthopods)
3. Dolphins

Why?
1.a. The booty
1.b. I once really got into the "Dragon x Unicorn" thing. Good times.
1.c. A general "Wild" sense to them.

2.a. Chitin is sexy.
2.b. Getting a BJ from a proboscis rules.
2.c. So limber...so fucking sexy.

3.a. Just a beautiful species overall.
3.b. Aquatic species
3.c. Intelligent

And that's all there is too it :D
Pass it around.
Have fun.
etc.

Has a confession to make...
I really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, REALLY like insect-like characters.
...Especially the female ones. :I
Yes...like that.
But the problem is that I don't know any segmented beauties anywhere.
So it's always just been a sort of closet-ish fetish of mine.
I don't know why.
I don't know how.
I just do.
Blame Giger.
Hell, I even had a segmented, chitinous character. But no one wanted to pal around with a giant, 6'5"-ish, plated nightmare.... Who'da thunk?
But...
I'm planning on bringing it back. And when I do shit will get very..."fucked up?"
Basically... of most the things I try to draw... I want you (the viewer) to be sexually attracted to them. It gives me a fucking -RISE- when I see people oogle at a xenomorph and they just "don't know why" they'd breed it. I get UBER kicks. It would make me feel like a fucking GOD if I made someone sexually attracted to something that they shouldn't be. I literally want to take something as repulsive as an insect, spider, scorpion, etc and make it sexually attractive to the average man and he doesn't know -why- he loves it.
Get it?
I want to -FUCK- with your brain.
I want to make your brain MY BITCH.
:I
Because I'm just weird like that. (as in, i used to like being hated because I knew that people feared me, again making me feel like a god.)
That is all.

...*chitter*

I have a psychological horror coming by that deals with xenomorphs.
I'm actually excited about it. :D weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
So, it's a story, I'll just write it :D

I'm just going to be on the prowl for gods know how long.
I'm just not receiving that "spark" that makes my art/music flow so instead I'm just going to be commenting like crazy.
I'm not going to fav/watch-whore so no, unless there's something in it for me XD.
[Just kidding, like I KNOW that would work...]
So yeah.
Sorry for all you who like my crap but I'm just not feeling it.

Yeah, well pretty much same old same old.
I'm going to see if I can't re-learn some psionics like i used to when I was a kid.
And for some really weird and odd reason, there's not a whole lot of homework 0.o
But meh, I'm happeh cause the dinning hall had some German meals :3 like ruben and stroganof. wewt :D
So yah.
there.
ha.

How come whenever a person draws their character for pr0nz, it almost always eventually leads to them COMPLETELY whoring off their character? 0.o

Is this supposed to be something of escapism or envy? Do some people whore of their perfect-looking characters because they themselves believe that they aren't good-looking-enough? Or is it just excessive amounts of hypersexuality with NO boundaries?
(Another thought comes to mind, could any psychological reprogramming occur if there is literally no boundaries from excessive sex? *aka pregnancy, STDS, stuff that's -supposed/should/will- happen?* )

Sorry but sometimes I browse artwork (What type? no durr hurr hurrrrr =B ) and then I see the fabled "IRL Picture." And most of the time, (hahahahah upper 50%) it appears as if the person has not only remodeled their physique, but attitude and self-limits. Is this just one of the marvelous freedoms that comes with internet anonymity? Or a curse that is actual social-phobia? The other constant theme is how all most characters I've seen are perfect. Perfect proportions, perfect face, perfect freakin everything. Whatever happened to what small or large differences that were of natural causes that made everybody unique in their own way. Sure, you may not have chiseled abs, sure you may not have that perfect hour-glass shape to your waist. But doesn't that make one human to have imperfections? Also, ten to one, you don't need an excessive sex-drive to impress or "subdue" your lover. Hell, if "lover" is involved sex should never (imho) be the source of love. Maybe, some people just need to get up, and meet other people IRL. Discover imperfections, know they exist, understand them and pro'lly most important understand who -you- are.

:I
...

TL ; DR
I'm sick of never seeing any pics of me. D: I can understand if I'm not liked but god damn I don't have ANYTHING to my name D:< It really fucking irks me for some godforsaken reason.

TL ; DR :: TL ; DR
I wants teh pr0nz drawn of me too 3: I feel "left out..."

Sorry about the double-posts, etc.
I can't edit my music just right...
I always get a "Network Timeout" or something.
So, if I re-look at something x.x then I re-make it, then...yeah
I promise only 1 remake tho :I
Sorry x.x

Hey.
I know I'm the quiet one.
But, just wanting to know.
Is there something someone -wants- me to create?
I'm going to be entering a 3 day weekend ^0^ and could possibly spare some time.
weee

Also.
How is everybody?
*anticipates the crickets chirping*

Hay.
3:
Honest question here.
Does anybody even come here to visit anymore?
I mean, I feel kinda ignored...makes me sad 3; .
I don't know what I did though 3:
Do I appear mean?
Do I appear bitter?
C'mon tell me but please say -something- D: .
Its kinda starting to hurt...

Could somebody pester me to draw stuff too?
Or does my stuff just make people look the other way more than it should?

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong...

Yus I am leaving for college FINALLY tomorrow.
It'll take me about 3 hours ish to drive over.
Kinda excited, kinda nervous.
More excited however.
I hope to do well.
I hope to make new friend.
And I REALLY hope that I won't get lost. ^0^
So ya.

<3 you all.
<3 my friends.
<3 my family.
Cuz I'm out. o.o




(no not out, out. Out, as in I'll be back, but as a college student XD )

Hey all.
I recently dl'd Magic Workstation (if you play magic, and you don't have it, get it. Then go to http://www.mwsgames.com/index.php/Main_Page to get the Magic cards on it.) and I was wondering who else plays?
I gotsa vintage insect deck that pwnz real well :} .
Jus pm me if you wish to play or message below for further questions.

Yup.
Title says it all.
I might even be uploading a couple of pencil sketches.
But atm, i'm working on stuff again.
^0^
yey :}

I just had a reboot so I'm officially missing all of my programs :D .
It might be a while before I can talk again >_>
like tomorrow o3o.

Seriously, I'm not.
It may look it.
I just feel like I never have enough time to draw though.
I feel a lack of inspiration most of the time I try to put pen to paper or digital pen to wacom 3: .

I actually made this journal to say...
well..
er...
sorry, actually.
Sorry if you feel like I'm pushing you aside. (mostly directed to friends and watchers, etc)
If I am, I honestly am not trying to do so.

Anyway, shit happened at work so I have the entire week of. Maybe this week I'll be able to "recollect" and "reflect" more here.
Whadya say?

The girl I met (should've seen dis coming) on the net (that said she was sooooo excited to meet me and that she basically lub'd me) hasn't replied back to me in over a month.

I skidded out of control on the highway (after it rained) to avoid hitting a dog and hit a ditch (minor vehicle damage methinks...).

I'm unharmed physically...
But I feel that psychological hurt inside...
I'm sick of feeling this.

first 15 people to post stop me from becoming an hero.
*spins the chamber*


...help me.

Yup I didn't even know I had one :D
Spiritual Family:

 Maliksr
 Ryunaker Sister
 synxirazu-niam Nephew
 Taliesin_the_dragoon Grandnephew (gods I'm old now 3: )
 frux <3

oh is growin X3

but yes...I don't know of any of my spiritual children, so if you look like me or are similar pm me XD

Love you all <3
^.=.^

Stop with the boob'ed reptiles.
PLEASE.
3:

It's not reptilian, it's not serpentine, it's not draconic (imo) it's just weird.

argh

blech

And also, tips/pointers for drawing them anatomically correct:

Don't thin the waist too much,
If you thin the waist too much, it looks more like a man. What is the first thing that pops into your mind when you see shoulders larger than the waist, yet no bewbage? guys.

Think Washboard.
If you add the six-pack to a female scalie, it won't look right. Why? Because mostly, the men are the body builders. Women look better smoother, try it.

Eggs.
They DO take up space. In some cases of female reptile "in season" the female swells up with eggs. It's a turn-on to some of the guy lizards. BUT! Don't make it stretch out like a human pregnancy. why? Because reptilian ovaries are at the sides, make them protrude to a minor tear-drop shape. Not too much but just right.

Cloaca.
Welcome to reptile anatomy 101. Reptiles have a uni-slit called a cloaca, it has the genitals and the waste exit thingers (such as the anus). It's horizontal for the gods' sakes. And only 1.

Snakes.
It's not a fucking woman in a god-damn sleeping bag! Dammit. The vent is located around the tail region. It's not around the waist of where the "woman" part ends and the "snake" part begins. (However, both parts should be scaled and scuted.)

Tails.
Just remember to keep them nice, meaty, and thick. Thin tails are a sign of anorexia or gastro-intestinal disease...which is FATAL to reptiles (believe me, 3 of my anoles died from it, the first thing that shrunk was their limbs and tail.)


Ok now if you're drawin a scalie, draw her right 3:
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btw i just graduated high-school.

http://furry.wikia.com/wiki/Special.....arus&go=Go

I can has page too?
I'm not good enough with words to make one O.=.o
I'll be ur best friend if joo halp me and even throw in guud stuff for you if you create a page of ur own o3o.

ANGER
1. With whom did you last get angry?
Some jock who was "watch-dog"-ing me after he got drunk and I started hitting on girls at a party.

2. What is your weapon of choice?
Punch-daggers, dual short-swords, assassin blades *the ones that slide out from the wrist), scythe, halberd, pole-sabre, dual-bladed sword, etc etc *melee weapons require more skill...I want to ENJOY the fight >:} *

3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
Only in self-defense. If a woman comes up to me and attempts to hit me to hurt me, I will defend myself as if I was fighting a man.

4. How about of the same sex?
Yeah, sparring is fun.

5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
I dunno.

6. What is your pet peeve?
Fat chicks/men who wear exposing clothing. Son of a bitch.

7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
Grudges kill your inner self, so no.

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?
I forgot, I procrastinated too long...

2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?
12:00 pm

3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't
I dunno, I'm to lazy to find out who wants to contact meh...

4. What is the last lame excuse you made?
Not now.

5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones)?
*laughs* hell no.

6. When was the last time you got a good workout in?
everyday in weights class

7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?
snooze button, I just turn off the alarm...

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
Root Beer/Cream Soda

2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat?
Dark. *softer, juicer, tender-er no-brained question*

3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
Alcohol sucks...it hurts my tongue :C

4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?
No they don't work.

5. Do you have an issue with your weight?
I feel like I'm fat, even though I'm medium in build 3: *sobs*

6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?
Tough question, depends on the day and how I feel.

7. Have you ever looked at a small house-pet or child and thought, LUNCH?
Wow, just...wow.

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?
3: I be virgin... ;_;

2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)?
O.o I'm not all too comfortable with my body... *see gluttony, question 5*

3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?
D= No . . .

4. Have you done it?
See Lust, question 1

5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?
Oh gaud...I am not turned on by breasts like I should be at my age... I am more turned on by the abdominal area *abs, torso* and legs than any other part of the body.


also vagina.

6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
Never seen one *is kinda sheltered*.

7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?
O.o no.

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own?
0

2. What's your guilty pleasure store?
Boarders, Game Stop, Wal Mart

3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?
Buy a few plants, Buy my own xbawkz, get a better bed, get a better compy, and save the rest *also college*

4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?
Rich.

5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?
No.

6. Have you ever stolen anything?
Not from a store.

7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?
I had my drive replaced so not that many anymore.

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?
My musicianship

2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?
Waaaay too many things to count... Grades, Art, Music.

3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?
Save the Rainforests, or create new ones :D . I wish to remind people why plants have been used for medicine loooooooooong before chemically made stuffs >=/

4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?
Not really, if I gave it my best then I can handle a second.
(also depends on the competition O3o )

5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?
Muahahahahahahahahaha!

6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?
Always.

7. What did you do today that you're proud of?
Kept a secret.

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
......moar friends.

2. Who would you want to go on Trading Spaces with?
The other person will totally trash my room.

3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?
That's stoopid, god damn.

4. Have you ever been cheated on?
No...

5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
See Gluttony, Question 5.

6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
None really...

7. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?
Wrath.