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Posted 10 years agoporn mostly. though once in a great while i become a poet.
i wish i could draw to express these feelings with visuals instead of on pen and paper with words.
wrote something, see how you like it :3
i wish i could draw to express these feelings with visuals instead of on pen and paper with words.
wrote something, see how you like it :3
No Subject
Posted 11 years agoHey there for anyone who reads these!
i am willing to trade/sell a ton of my manga!
and i do mean a ton!
i also have novels and other fun stuff for you to buy/trade me with! if you're interested..just keep paying attention, i will be posting images, shortly!
i am willing to trade/sell a ton of my manga!
and i do mean a ton!
i also have novels and other fun stuff for you to buy/trade me with! if you're interested..just keep paying attention, i will be posting images, shortly!
i just want to talk, i swear.
Posted 11 years agohttps://imgur.com/yTp0ZP0
i feel like this link explains how i am right now.
i'm frazzled i'm a wreck, i'm not broken.
i'm tearing to pieces, but i'm just fine.
Since rainfurrest i feel like things have just gone downhill. i was so glad to be there, and around people who were just great! (mostly) but now the magics over and i'm back home. and things are progressing so much worse than they were before. i want comfort, but i'm not the type of person who will just take or accept it. i will never ask for a hug, and when i do receive one its usually awkward and painful, but in the depths of me i enjoy those brief seconds of contact.
the hours i spend on skype with my friends, nay of them mean so much more to me than wasting my time in this little room, alone with all but my son. and thought i love him dearly, an intellectual conversation, some honest to the flying spaghetti monster other voices are acceptable, even enjoyable.
i live in a home with fur-haters and people who barely contain their disdain for a grown woman who likes anime, can reference most things that are nerdy and have a political argument, or three. so, in summary, if right now, i'm erratic, if i'm introverted, or down right crazy, please forgive me. just talk to me, talk me down, or up, from where i am. please. im not suicidal, but i'm so very in need of my friends, new ones or old.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpDXPu9-Kqo
like glass, so fragile, so broken, i fall from the frame of life...
and dance bare-footed in a field of flowers, with petals as sharps as the blades of a knife.
these words drip like poison from the lips of your once dearly beloved,
and buzz into your ears like fly's, with wings of doves.
burn me, beat me, eat me alive,
use me, bleed me, i need this pain to survive.
but please don't leave me, don't let your cloven hooves march away...
because the monster in my head, comes out from under my bed and makes my night into day.
i feel like this link explains how i am right now.
i'm frazzled i'm a wreck, i'm not broken.
i'm tearing to pieces, but i'm just fine.
Since rainfurrest i feel like things have just gone downhill. i was so glad to be there, and around people who were just great! (mostly) but now the magics over and i'm back home. and things are progressing so much worse than they were before. i want comfort, but i'm not the type of person who will just take or accept it. i will never ask for a hug, and when i do receive one its usually awkward and painful, but in the depths of me i enjoy those brief seconds of contact.
the hours i spend on skype with my friends, nay of them mean so much more to me than wasting my time in this little room, alone with all but my son. and thought i love him dearly, an intellectual conversation, some honest to the flying spaghetti monster other voices are acceptable, even enjoyable.
i live in a home with fur-haters and people who barely contain their disdain for a grown woman who likes anime, can reference most things that are nerdy and have a political argument, or three. so, in summary, if right now, i'm erratic, if i'm introverted, or down right crazy, please forgive me. just talk to me, talk me down, or up, from where i am. please. im not suicidal, but i'm so very in need of my friends, new ones or old.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpDXPu9-Kqo
like glass, so fragile, so broken, i fall from the frame of life...
and dance bare-footed in a field of flowers, with petals as sharps as the blades of a knife.
these words drip like poison from the lips of your once dearly beloved,
and buzz into your ears like fly's, with wings of doves.
burn me, beat me, eat me alive,
use me, bleed me, i need this pain to survive.
but please don't leave me, don't let your cloven hooves march away...
because the monster in my head, comes out from under my bed and makes my night into day.
so....
Posted 11 years agomy grandpa passed away a month ago, and i've been depressed about it.
like all the feelings i held onto, because i need to be strong just seem to keep trying to leak out.
his wife, i used to call her "ma" passed away 2 years prior, and this couple has raised me since i was six months old.
i keep acting normal, then swimming into low points of emotion, sometimes i even feel i might go mad, but then, just like that i'm fine.
on to less depressing stuff...
im still going to rainfurrest, and i have a friend who needs help finding roommates who have the ability to split the bill.
like all the feelings i held onto, because i need to be strong just seem to keep trying to leak out.
his wife, i used to call her "ma" passed away 2 years prior, and this couple has raised me since i was six months old.
i keep acting normal, then swimming into low points of emotion, sometimes i even feel i might go mad, but then, just like that i'm fine.
on to less depressing stuff...
im still going to rainfurrest, and i have a friend who needs help finding roommates who have the ability to split the bill.
5$ comissions?
Posted 11 years agoan artist in need, http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5801333/
i exist and i am alive!!!
Posted 11 years ago i've lost some watchers which makes me sad, but i haven't updated a journal since rainfurrest last year >///<.
i'm just never sure what to say in these things.
i haven't been writing, or doing much of anything but playing a lot of world of warcraft, and being a momma.
i'd really like to be more social tho, so if you ever get bored or lonely, send me a message, i'll be here ^_^
i'm just never sure what to say in these things.
i haven't been writing, or doing much of anything but playing a lot of world of warcraft, and being a momma.
i'd really like to be more social tho, so if you ever get bored or lonely, send me a message, i'll be here ^_^
RainFurrest thingybobberdoohikkie
Posted 12 years ago1. What are you attending?
RainFurrest 2013
2. Staying at:
Hilton
3. Arrival and Departure:
Thursday to Sunday
4. Mode of transportation:
Kage's vehicular device
5. Rooming with:
collaredpanda collaredpanda lecora lecora silver09 silver09 lonwulfe lonwulfe
and someone i dont know.
6. Con Plans:
panels, meeting people, eating foods! and having fun
7: How can I find you?
Look for black and white ears tail and tights. semi-chubby two toned longish red hair.
8. Do you do free art?
if i could draw, i would. prices are expensive!!
9. Do you have prints/Cds?
lololol. b...
10. Will you be fursuiting? if so: What suit(s)?
i'm jsut a poor fur, nobody loves me... (no)
11. Will you be going to parties?
some of them....but not marc the sharks room. no orgies for me.
12. Will you be performing?
not on you, :D
13. Smoke?
nope
14. Drink?
i need some vices!
15. Gender:
female. (i have boobs and a kid, so im just going with what my body tells me)
16. Can I hug you?
do you want to loose your face?
17. Can I talk to you?
yes i <3 meeting new poeple/
18. Will you be at any panels?
but of course!
19. Can I touch you?
Um...sexually. No, actually, i bite. do not feed the tigon.
20. Can I buy you drinks?
YES! i'm flat broke! i'd love some!
21. How old are you?
109. or 25....
22. Can I snuggle with you?
refer to the can i hug you questions.
23. If you're pissed off, should I approach you?
yes, becuase liek the hulk the secret is...i'm always angry! not really...just wanted to use that line.
24. Are you nice?
mostly.
25. Cliquey?
ahahahaaha no.
26. How tall?
5'10
27. Can I Take pictures of you?
no you may not steal my soul.
28. Will you get anything commissioned?
indeed
29. How can I get your attention?
screech lecora! at the top of your lungs, duck, roll left, jump, then flatten yourself against teh wall. i'll be there.
30. Can I ask you to dance at the raves?
CAt's don't DAnce
RainFurrest 2013
2. Staying at:
Hilton
3. Arrival and Departure:
Thursday to Sunday
4. Mode of transportation:
Kage's vehicular device
5. Rooming with:
collaredpanda collaredpanda lecora lecora silver09 silver09 lonwulfe lonwulfe
and someone i dont know.
6. Con Plans:
panels, meeting people, eating foods! and having fun
7: How can I find you?
Look for black and white ears tail and tights. semi-chubby two toned longish red hair.
8. Do you do free art?
if i could draw, i would. prices are expensive!!
9. Do you have prints/Cds?
lololol. b...
10. Will you be fursuiting? if so: What suit(s)?
i'm jsut a poor fur, nobody loves me... (no)
11. Will you be going to parties?
some of them....but not marc the sharks room. no orgies for me.
12. Will you be performing?
not on you, :D
13. Smoke?
nope
14. Drink?
i need some vices!
15. Gender:
female. (i have boobs and a kid, so im just going with what my body tells me)
16. Can I hug you?
do you want to loose your face?
17. Can I talk to you?
yes i <3 meeting new poeple/
18. Will you be at any panels?
but of course!
19. Can I touch you?
Um...sexually. No, actually, i bite. do not feed the tigon.
20. Can I buy you drinks?
YES! i'm flat broke! i'd love some!
21. How old are you?
109. or 25....
22. Can I snuggle with you?
refer to the can i hug you questions.
23. If you're pissed off, should I approach you?
yes, becuase liek the hulk the secret is...i'm always angry! not really...just wanted to use that line.
24. Are you nice?
mostly.
25. Cliquey?
ahahahaaha no.
26. How tall?
5'10
27. Can I Take pictures of you?
no you may not steal my soul.
28. Will you get anything commissioned?
indeed
29. How can I get your attention?
screech lecora! at the top of your lungs, duck, roll left, jump, then flatten yourself against teh wall. i'll be there.
30. Can I ask you to dance at the raves?
CAt's don't DAnce
art!!
Posted 12 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4853038/
go here! read more!
go here! read more!
free art raffle
Posted 12 years agoNo Subject
Posted 12 years agoI;m going insane
pinwheels in my brain
i cant stand, i can't sink,
I've held on so long, i can't think.
I've lost so much
i'm out of touch
i can not tell if you are enemy or friend..
how much more time will i expend
reaching out to you
dense, you've no clue...
i'm alone, i miss him and he's not here...
and all i taste is fear..
all the should have, could have would have done
can't rest int he darkness or play in the sun...
it's..all...gone....
pinwheels in my brain
i cant stand, i can't sink,
I've held on so long, i can't think.
I've lost so much
i'm out of touch
i can not tell if you are enemy or friend..
how much more time will i expend
reaching out to you
dense, you've no clue...
i'm alone, i miss him and he's not here...
and all i taste is fear..
all the should have, could have would have done
can't rest int he darkness or play in the sun...
it's..all...gone....
hi everyone!
Posted 12 years agohey guys, i am going to try and be more active, i just am really new at using this site and honestly, don't know how to navigate it.
it's different from all the other sites I've used before >_<
basically i had a request. i am wondering if there is an artist out there who would take a commission that was paid in lindens, a second life currency, rather than $$ for i am very... economically deficient at this time.
it's different from all the other sites I've used before >_<
basically i had a request. i am wondering if there is an artist out there who would take a commission that was paid in lindens, a second life currency, rather than $$ for i am very... economically deficient at this time.
