Commissions slots have been taken, I did get a lot of submissions. I tallied them on my Trello page. Patreon Commissions will take priority, I'm not taking reservations. However everyone in the "Noted for Next Round" Means that if still interested, they will be notified if they still want to commission me before I open for commissions on FA again.

📌 Price Sheet: https://imgur.com/AezlLQX 😉💜

Commissions Status

💵 Prices

Sketch: $50

Flats: $75

Shaded: $100

Extra characters: +50% of base price
⚠️ Heads up: a 6% sales tax is added at checkout.

❗ Quick Note

I’d originally planned to open on the 10th, sorry for the delay. Life threw me a few curveballs, but I’m back on track and ready to make some magic with you.

📬 How to Claim a Slot

Send me a DM with your refs + commission type and I’ll confirm availability.
Slots will be updated here as they’re claimed.

❤️ Thank You💜

Thank you for sticking with me through all the chaos, your patience means the world. I’m excited to dive into new pieces full of heart, humor, heat, and big tanuki energy.

2025 was supposed to be my "Year of Transcendence". Instead, the spring and summer turned into pure survival mode. This journal is a factual debrief so you understand why drawing output dropped and why some commitments slipped.

In early April I had 🩺oral surgery🩺 that required a couple weeks of soft foods🍲, meds💊, and recovery. It went well, but it drained my energy and set the tone for the months that followed. Soon after, a family trip ✈️ that should’ve been joyful devolved into crisis; I came home shaken and emotionally wiped out. (I'm now estranged from that side of the family, I'm their escape goat and partly due to my sexuality. My parents are cool with me being 🏳️‍🌈gay🏳️‍🌈, so I'm happy about that. They no longer speak to those relatives.)

Mid April to May brought a household emergency. Supporting someone in acute distress while keeping the home stable wasn’t sustainable, and the aftermath left my home feeling less like a refuge and more like triage. I tried to reset by traveling to FWA, which it ended up being a disaster, financially and creatively draining.

The hardest stretch came with the move 📦 to a new home in late July🏠. A too-small truck🚚 meant extra trips, a sprint to finish, and then unpacking in heat after the AC failed🥵 🌡️. I aggravated my back, bent a toe, and even lost a monitor in the chaos. Expenses spiked; by mid-August, the move was over budget💸, the new house needed minor repairs🛠️and we're still unpacking to this day📦. Every day the house feels like a home.✨🏠✨

All of this meant regular drawing was simply not possible at times. If you were waiting on me, you felt it and I’m sorry. I’m rebuilding systems so this kind of bottleneck doesn’t happen again. I was contributing a comic to and to , sadly due to all the back-to-back crisis it all slowed down. I aim to bring my contributions back online as I stabilize.

Right now I’m stabilizing the studio, catching up on outstanding work, and restoring a sustainable art rhythm. Commissions remain closed while I clear the queue; I’m aiming to reopen in September (watch the profile for the exact date🗓️). Patrons will see more WIPs and page progress as I lock back into flow. Thanks to “Project Zero” (clearing commission debt), I’m not in heavy art debt, but I am behind on Patreon and SubscribeStar content and will be catching up there first.📈

✨Thank you for reading this and for sticking with me through the storm. I believe in making things with heart and heat, and I still believe in the Year of Transcendence, just with more scars and better boundaries.✨

🏳️‍🌈🦝 Zandaka – Art Tanuki 🦝🏳️‍🌈

Hey everyone,

March has been a hell of a month. I wanted to take a moment to explain what’s been going on, why I’ve been quieter than usual, and what’s next.

1. Project Zero – Resetting My Creative Process
For a while, I’ve been stuck in a cycle of constantly playing catch-up, between commissions, Patreon rewards, and everything else, I had no time left to actually build the kind of content I want to make. That’s where Project Zero comes in. The goal? Rebuild my entire creative workflow so I can finally focus on the work that matters, instead of just treading water.

This means:
✅ Catching up on overdue work properly, without stretching myself too thin.
✅ Shifting my focus back to finished art, comics, and worldbuilding (Zippers fans, you’ve waited long enough).
✅ Making Patreon sustainable so it works for all of us, without burning me out.

2. Business Moves – I’m Legit Now!
On top of all that, I’ve also been handling taxes, finances, and setting up a full business account for Libra Labs Graphics. This means:
💳 I now have a full business credit line & account to keep things professional.
📑 Better financial planning so I can focus on creating, not stressing over bills.
🚀 More stability for the future, which means I can take bigger creative risks.

3. Patreon Restructuring
Because of Project Zero, I had to pause Patreon sketch rewards for March so I could catch up and plan a better, more sustainable reward system. When things return, expect:
🔹 Fewer sketch slots, but priced appropriately so I’m not drowning in work.
🔹 More behind-the-scenes content, WIPs, and early comic pages for supporters.
🔹 A focus on finished pieces, comics, and worldbuilding, the stuff you originally came here for.
🔹 Better tier structuring as well as even more rewards, while not triggering Patreon's "Trust and Safety."

4. Health & Recovery
If all that wasn’t enough, I overclocked my meat body to the point of getting sick. Between stress, lack of sleep, and pushing too hard, I ended up completely wiped out. I’ve been resting, recovering, and slowly getting back into it, but if I seem to have disappeared, just know I’m trying to take care of myself. I'm slowly recovering and making up for lost time

What’s Next?
📌 Catching up on art & commissions (Yes, Zippers is included!)
📌 Rolling out Patreon’s new structure & getting back on track
📌 Attending Furry Weekend Atlanta (and yes, I still need to register lmao)

5. 💙💙💙Zippers Update💙💙💙
For those of you who’ve been patiently waiting for Zippers, first of all, thank you. I know it’s been a long wait, but I want to be clear: Zippers is NOT dead. If anything, Project Zero is the reset I needed to finally give it the focus it deserves.

One of the biggest reasons Zippers slowed down was the overwhelming pressure of juggling commissions, monthly sketch rewards, and financial obligations. Every time I tried to sit down and really work on it, I’d have to push it aside just to keep up with everything else. That’s exactly what Project Zero is fixing.

Going forward, Zippers will no longer be something I try to squeeze in between other obligations, it’s going to be a priority. The restructuring of my Patreon means I’ll have more time to focus on actual comic pages, world-building, and lore development, instead of burning myself out trying to meet endless sketch quotas.

What does this mean for you?
✅ More consistent updates instead of waiting months between pages.
✅ More behind-the-scenes content for those who want to see the process.
✅ A healthier, more sustainable workflow so I can actually finish things without burning out.

Zippers has always been more than just a comic to me. It’s one of my passion projects, a world I want to fully explore and bring to life, and I refuse to let it get buried under everything else. If you’ve been here for the long haul, I appreciate your patience, and I promise: this reset is exactly what Zippers needed.

I appreciate everyone who's stuck around through all of this. Your patience, your support, it means the world to me. I’m still here, still creating, and with Project Zero in full effect, I’m finally setting myself up to thrive, not just survive.

Thank you for being here. More art, more stories, and more of the worlds I love are coming soon.

🤎 Zandaka – Art Tanuki 🤎

Hi, your friendly Art Tanuki here. I don’t normally make any politically leaning announcements, but I need to make an exception.

I know a lot of people are, well... disappointed by the results of the election. I can feel it, both in real life and online. I want all of you to know that my commitment to drawing has not changed. Despite whatever the future may hold, I will continue to draw.

Now, more than ever, I feel artists like myself need to keep creating to give people hope and escapism. I can’t see into the future; I don’t know what it may hold. I want, and choose, to believe that our destiny is still ours. Life is to be worn gloriously, and until our last moment—whenever that will be—life is to be worn gloriously.

I had to make a similar choice in the past: give up or continue and reach for the stars.

I made my choice. Go make yours.

Hi, my friend  Remleiz needs your help! Please give a like and a sub to his content. The Youtube algorithm is not kind to his content and I would like to help him by spreading the word.

Update: Thanks to Discord's support I was able to get my account recovered.

What happened: I just woke up, I was groggy and a friend messaged me about the false reporting (a friend's account got hacked) thinking it was talking a friend, I fell for the scam. By the time I realized it was a scam, it was too late. (watch the video for details) Basically they got me just at the right time, using a friend's account.

The Libra Labs Network server has been hacked my discord account has been taken over. In the meantime please just stay tuned to official Patreon messages from here for any updates. My old account Zandaka_arttanuki is messaging random people reporting that they have been accidentally reported.

I fell for this scam:



Please if you can, leave the current LLN server and block my old account.

The Libra Labs Network server has been hacked my discord account has been taken over. In the meantime please just stay tuned to official Patreon messages from here for any updates. My old account Zandaka_arttanuki is messaging random people reporting that they have been accidentally reported.

I fell for this scam:



Please if you can, leave the current LLN server and block my old account.

Please go to here for details: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55254279/

I would like to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! I would not be here without your support and help. <3

I need to vent and talk to you about some things because I've been drawing for years and I feel like I'm standing still. I know I've been drawing comics, but my progress is just embarrassing. I've stopped or given up on comics more often than I've finished them. I've seen other artists do several comics a year, and I'm struggling to get Zippers Season 2 going. Don't get me wrong, I'm not just wasting time playing COD or anything like that, lol. I draw ALL the time, non-stop. But where is my progress? The problem is that I'm trying to work on everything all the time, which means I'm not making much progress on anything. It could be just me, but I see the result of this method, the comics hardly progress, my ideas rarely get drawn or innovated.

Like I said, I'm always working on a little bit of everything, but why? Quite simply, I feel anxious and often paranoid about not being able to accomplish anything. I stress about not being able to do everything, I overwork myself, and when I don't meet my self-imposed goal, I feel bad about myself and get depressed, and it becomes a negative feedback loop that just turns into a big ball of anxiety. I admit that sometimes I bite off more than I can chew. All of this combined with my really bad time management skills and ADHD (yes, I've been diagnosed) makes it so that no matter if I draw 12 hours a day, every day, I make little to no progress on any single thing. Because I'm often working on 6 or 8 different images at the same time. I've been streaming, I'm sure some have noticed that I had a little countdown window in my old streams. Yes, that was to help me keep track of time, it unknowingly made my timing problem worse.

I'll be honest, I was really frustrated with myself, how come these artists get so much done and I struggle to finish anything. That was the question for me and I couldn't find an answer. Every schedule, every method just failed. The cycle starts like this, I make a schedule, I put time and effort into planning how long and what to draw, I start the schedule as planned, an unknown event happens, I struggle to keep the planned schedule, I give up on the schedule, I make myself feel like shit about it, wash, rinse and repeat. After really trying this year and months of trying to fix this problem, I have come to a conclusion... I'm insane.

Insane in the sense that I keep trying the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result. I've been making the same mistake that Disney, Hollywood, and most video game companies make all the time. I was trying to please everybody. I didn't see it before because I honestly didn't think that the core of how I worked was the problem, which was to draw a little bit of everything and hope to get something done. It didn't matter if I worked myself to exhaustion or artblocked myself. A little over a week ago, I was in the shower, thinking about why I can't be as productive as other artists, why I make clients wait forever for their commissions, I draw all the time, I know I'm fast, I know I could finish their commissions in a day. Then it hit me, what I said above, I was trying to do the same thing over and over again with the same result.

Around my last birthday I had a cold and it was terrible. Instead of feeling lazy and useless, I started drawing. Since I was sick, I said fuck it and draw one thing for as long as I was sick. I was working on Suit Printer at the time, only about... 3 pages actually inked and about 15 pages gestured sketched, thanks to some sporadic work since I started the comic. (Mind you, I gesture sketched the first 6 pages on my way back from ANE 2023, in January of 2023). I was sick around my birthday and worked on Suit Printer the first week of October, it went from having only 3 pages partially inked and about 15 of gesture sketches to 20 inked pages in just 5 days. Another week of work and I could have finished the whole comic. So, after this epiphany, I am going to change the way I do things starting this week.

I will dedicate whole weeks to just one project, I know it sounds counterproductive, but my mind is wired to feel good when I get something done and see progress. I won't be able to make everyone happy, but as I've seen and you've seen time and time again... it never works. As the Buddist saying goes: "The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.."

Hi, Remleiz needs your help with his youtube channel! Youtube and its infinite-smooth-brain wisdom changed the algorythm and views for non-corporate youtubers. 40K theories helped me get into Warhammer 40K! Please check out his latest video, please give it a like and subscribe to his channel.

I've hit a bit of a roadblock, and I could really use some professional help. Last time I asked for assistance, it was super helpful, but now I need a bit more. My Patreon and Subscribestar could use some serious optimizing. I've got friends and mates who have helped me, but I think I need someone with specialized skills for this. I've hit a plateau on Patreon, and I need to boost supporter count.

I'm already aware of posty birb, that's not really my issue, my biggest issue is that I'm a one man operation as hard as I'm working on getting done multiple things at once, I'm still one person and I can't do it all, all the time.

Of course, I know this kind of help isn't free. If you're interested, we can talk about rates and work out a deal. My main struggle is keeping organized with all my projects going on at once. Having someone to set up auto-posts and handle social media would be a game-changer.

So, if you know your way around Patreon, Subscribestar, and social media, let's chat and see how we can make this happen!

I wanted to say thank you for commenting on my last journal. I'm sorry for not personally replying to all the comments. I actually will very soon.

I'll keep this one short, after a lot of thinking I've narrowed what I need to do and what I need to learn and recap. The problem is that I have about a dozen damn comics and I can't do them all. I'll have to narrow my focus down to just a few. For those that will be posted here, Zippers Season 2 and Suit Printer 2 (I need a better title for this) there's a series of short comics less than 8 pages (what I call short, anything with 10+ pages are long) Strings will return. Again, too much and not enough time or resources to do with.

I wanted to use Skill Share, but thanks to a friend of mine warning me how much of a dump and a scam this is so I'll go with plan b.

Animation: If you can recommend any good tutorials on youtube that would be awesome, specifially for ClipStudio animation and Adobe Illustrator (the software that can animate images)

Blender: If you could also recommend any good tutorials, specially beginners and how to make models. Also reccomend a Blender artist that could take commissions for making simple, textureless models. That would be great. I don't want to make complex character models, I just want to make background assets

Colorist: I could use help with coloring comics, both with full coloring and gray tones please for black and white comics.

Please and thank you so much. I have a lot to reply to in the next few days.

I am sorry for the click baity title. It's not an emergency, but it's more like I don't know where to ask. I feel like I've reached a place where I need a boost to keep going. I don't know, I've been stuck for a long time and feel frustrated. I know it is bad to compare myself to others...but the frustration is there. What am I doing wrong where others are succeeding? I don't know if it's a good idea to open up about my insecurities here, but I don't know where else to turn. I have asked other artists about this, but they are either busy most of the time, or at worst just ignore me. I am hoping to find someone who can help me and give me a clear direction on how to do the following. I know there are tutorials out there, but I've had the worst luck finding good or relevant tutorials that could help.

Animation: I have animated in the past but those are like... baby's first animation and I haven't had time to practice too much before I've hit walls all over the place. I have used Open Toons, but mostly use Clip Studio EX. I would love to learn to bring my art to life and learning to animate would provide a new stream of commissions and content. I have found tutorials on how to animate, but their menus and interfaces are wildly different than the one I use as well as not being able to ask questions either. My biggest problem is not being able to ask the right questions. Another thing that I would love to learn is to animate still images like this If you know how or know anyone that is willing to teach me, please do let me know!

Blender: I have used Blender before but other than navigate and move around I can't do much. I have friends that I have both commissioned and done trades for blender models for me. For example The Zippers Restaurant Blender map that I use for backgrounds. What I need is how to make renders, right now I can move about and use screenshots for backgrounds. I'm working on projects that I'll need full renders for backgrounds. However, I don't know how to use or move the camera itself and other than View + Navigate and Walk function, there's not much I can do. I have used tutorials, but there are wildly different than the version I use and the menus being different as well making the use of Blender moot, I could really use the help. >w<

3D modeling: Why did you make this its own thing, you can use Blender for this, right? Yes and no, like I said before I have tried to use blender in the past, but it was extremely difficult for me. The tutorials I used had a totally different set up than the one I was using for blender so finding the right set of menus was very hard. Trying to do anything involved going to the edit menu, go to the navigation sub menus, press alt + shift+ F3, then go to view, look for grids then turn the setting to 4 and then go back to window press I+D+10+T and then go back to start, go to preferences and look for the green moose, guava juice, giant snake, birthday cake, large fries, chocolate shake to move the camera to the left. I would love to learn how to do this: I would love to make 3D models of my OCs maybe making a Zippers VR restaurant.

SFM: I would like to use it for background renders. There's assets that just wont work for Gmod and there's a whole world of SFM assets that I would like to put into use to make custom maps to use for comics and commissions. I would also like to know how to keep my custom maps saved. I know that steam liked to randomly delete them.

Hammer ++: I got Hammer ++ installed but I can't make head or tails of the software, there's only a handful of tutorials, however most of them are incomplete and most of them are how to install the software. I would love to learn how to make my own custom gmod maps to use as background and locations to have everything as consistent as possible!

Gmod: I have been using Gmod for a month now, however Steam likes to delete maps and assets, making a lot of my custom saves useless. I'm annoyed that some maps are basically useless due to the error messages spamming the whole map. I would like to learn how to keep the assets and maps safe from deletion or maybe how to keep everything saved locally on my PC? I hate that anytime I open my specialty maps that I use for other projects are just gone.

Banking: Well... I'm just worried and I feel like I've fallen into the propaganda in the past. However, I would like to either avoid or go around p@yp@l. I would like to not use a 3 party payment processor and not worry about using my ability to make income. I know I'm not the only one worried. I recently tried to apply for a business bank account, but that's still an ongoing process. However, if anyone has dealt with this or know how to navigate the system to get around 3rd party payment processors. Please let me know.

Patreon: I feel like I've reached a plateau there, I'd love to have more patrons join, but I feel like the number fluctuates and doesn't grow beyond a certain number. I have a new tier system, the old one was very complicated. The new one is easier to use and follow and less stressful for me. However, my patron count doesn't seem to be growing. Am I not doing something right or am I doing something wrong? I've tried asking other artists, but... it really hasn't helped. If you can suggest any ideas or anything that would help my follower count grow, it would really help. I feel like I'm missing the forest through the trees with his one and not seeing the obvious.

If you or someone you know can help, please let me know, every little bit of knowledge helps. Thanks for your time! <3

I'll start with the partial gallery purge. Under the instruction of my therapist and after talking to my lovely mates, I'll be deleting a part of my gallery. Unlike the trend of purging art galleries, I would like to give a curtesy warning for my audience. On 03-10-2023, I'll delete a dozen or so images as well as putting the remaining images in their own category and scraps. Why am I doing this? Its for my mental health, something that I've been neglecting for months. This was not an easy decision, I didn't like when my favorite artists wiped their galleries clean. Do not worry, I will not delete my whole gallery. I'm just removing myself from something that I'm no longer part of. The images that I'll be deleting, will still be on FA, if you look hard enough.

As for my mental health, its simple... I can't handle being social. I don't know... social anxiety?... agoraphobia or something?, I'm still trying to understand what did happen. The last few weeks I've been having chest pains (not heart related) trouble breathing, thoughts of overwhelming dread, like everything is closing around me as well as the room (any space really) getting overwhelmingly hot. Not even going outside in 40F temps was still not cool enough for me at those times. Aside from not resting and doing nothing but grind work over and over again.... I haven't really drawn for myself and had fun in a long time.

I want to make one thing clear to everyone. No, I do NOT waste time playing games, watch movies on the couch Homer Simpson style. No, I've been drawing, every day since Christmas, if I'm not drawing, I'm cooking. I'm also the cook of the apartment. Since Ota and Vixion have to go to work, they don't have time to cook so I make premade meals. I don't mean just making dinner every night, I make breakfast, lunch and dinner for them for a week plus in advance. Its usually 5 plus meals... 7 to 9 servings each and the cooking time is between 4 to 8 hours every monday after shopping. Don't worry, this is concensual, I get paid for this. I'm just telling you that no, I'm not just wasting time playing games. Honestly I miss playing Kerbal Space Program and Stellaris. I only play games... like once every 3 to 6 months?

My only outlet, coping mechanism and I guess... addiction is drawing, but I haven't been able to do it. You might ask.. "Zandaka, you overwhelmingly sexy tanuki... you have been drawing, what do you mean?"

I have been drawing, but not for me, I've been drawing for others and well... its not really my outlet. Thus, it hasn't been helping. I like to work on private drawings, experimental images and trying new things,. Working on clearing up my cueue the last few months have well... I've been burntout so... Plus being social when I'm not normally social. I thought going to ANE would help, well... it kinda didn't, I couldn't relax... I had to be social, run around to meet up with friends that I haven't seen in years since the pandemic, but... :T I couldn't decompress. ANE was more like Exhaustion-Con for me. Then every other day after that I had to be social or be outside at appointments, so no rest. For a month, its been like this and both my mind and body reached a saturation point and started having panic attacks/stress attacks. Its my mind saying: "Take a break...NOW!" This is a bad time, but I can't help it. I need to take a week, mandatory break for my mental wellbeing. Else I'll have to start taking pills and undo the years of progress that I've made for my issues, I don't want to be a pill popper. >w<


The Original plan was for me to use February to have the rest of my sketch rewards done, by the first week of February, have the art packs ready by the middle of month and use the rest of the time to work on content. However... due to this, I need to change the plans. I'll explain my plans for Patreon and Substar on there, but it safe to know that content will return, I just need the time to work on it.

I'll make another journal to properly update you about upcoming projects.

My friend  Raxkiyamato is facing a really bad personal crisis. I would like to help and signal boost it. He's currently in Puerto Rico and looking for a place to stay.

Original journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10423334 (please send your comments to the original journal post)

"End of Art Career.Homeless.Need Place to Stay.

Hi everyone, i honestly was dreading this day would come. Was hoping would never come. But, come next year i will stop drawing, will end my art job. The reason is because i'm effectively homeless on the streets due situation out of my control.

I have no where to go and i exhausted all my options on where to go. I'm sorry everyone i tried everything. But for the past 2 years it been a hell of a ride, trying to put brave front and keep trying be positive. But it all ran out this month. On X-mas eve the irony.

I wanna thanks all my friends and supports that been with me all this time It been quite the journey. Since 2011 art been my whole life, but things out of my control forced me to to put that to an end. I'm very sorry i did my best but wasn't not enough.

I'don't know where to go. Have almost to no money at all. Wish could explain all the situation but is just extremely complicated.

So if someone have a spare room where i can live please let me know.
If anyone can help me my telegram is RaxkiYamato.

And please don't come with the "motivation speech" I have that enough already, went to therapies and doctors etc. I just want a room, a bed where i can rest please.

I don't know what else to say. I'm desperate. If i somehow get out of this, i will get back to art work.

Edit: I m in USA Puerto Rico in the Caribbeans.

Edit: I didn't wanna put a PayPal. link in previous post because i didn't wanted to be seem as some beggar.
But after suggestions from others gonna post this.

Need any financial help i can get. I'm so sorry i don't like doing this at all.

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/RaxkiYamato";

Original journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10423334 (please send your comments to the original journal post)

I know that opening up emotionally in a public forum is sometimes in bad taste, but I feel explaining an issue to my audience.

A few are aware of my personal life and background, I've been dealing with a lot of a abusive people in my life even up to recent times. All of that baggage created a lot of self loathing and low self esteem issues that translated into my art. A lot of my friends and people that know about my art have asked the same question: "Why don't you draw more of..." Take your pick, High Gear Club, Bonding, Strings, Trick or Treat... etc?. Well, up to a month ago, I had a break through with my therapist about my issues. This very important breakthrough with my emotions explained why I did (didn't) do the things this way. I seem like I stalled or not really doing much of anything for a while. Well, I never stop drawing, in fact... I always draw, it has become my coopping mechanism and stress release. The truth is that I haven't posted most of my art at all. A few close friends have seen some of it, but over 80% to 85% of my art has never been posted (and never will). Why because its either vent art for myself or drawing other's characters and art styles for practice.

Why am I opening up about this? Because, its a symptom of an emotional issue that I've been dealing with, I don't love myself or my characters. I was drawing comics and pin ups of other's OCs and I realized, "why don't I draw my own? Why don't I show this level of love to my own characters?" All the practice in the world won't make up for the lack of attention to my own imagination and worlds. I saw what I was doing, it wasn't practice, it was just a way to dodge my own art and imagination. A coopping mechanism became just an escapist mechanism for me to justify abandoning my own concepts. This is why I didn't draw Libra outside of commissions or some (rare) vent art, this is why it takes me forever to draw comics that include my own characters. I feel like I've betrayed myself and let others down because of my own inactions on dealing with my emotional issues. I kept coming for excuses on why I didn't continue certain projects or why I never drew my OCs anymore... the reason, because I didn't like myself enough to draw them.

All of this stemed from years of abuse by my parents as a child and others later in life. Please don't take this journal as a "oh, woe is me." There are no victims, except for my audience, because I feel like I've let you down. Yes, there have been legitimate issues that have slowed down my progress, but I am at fault when there was opportinities to draw my own things I didn't take them. Too often I went "Oh, how about I draw this character, I would like to practice that style." Or "How about if I drew a short comic about this character and he was a suit all this time!" In most cases, I could have used my own characters and I could have double or trippled my gallary by now if I had. Thanks to this epiphany, I will close that chapter of my life and I have started to concentrate on my own art, OCs and concepts. Actually I'll start posting them very soon in fact.

I want to apologize to my audience for failing to deliver when I could have. I didn't mean to drag anyone into my own emotional baggage. I hope you can understand and you'll see changes pretty soon.

Yes, Finally! I will open for commissions for General Public

If you're on my Patreon Discord server or Telegram groups, you've been notified~ <3

I may do a few smaller YCHs for general public <3

Sadly,  Remleiz is not feeling too well, looks like Nurgle paid him a visit and he now has Covid along with other health issues. I feel like he could use some more lovings and support. He also has a YT channel and well... he's been feeling down about it. YT's algorithms has not been merciful on his channel. I can only do much to help. So, if you can give it a watch, a like and a sub it would help a lot! <3 <3 <3

Watch this video he worked really hard on this video and even when he was getting the worst of the symptoms.


Maybe a poke or two will help this sexy raptor smile and feel better <3

I would love to help  Remleiz's Youtube channel~

Please give his video a watch, like, and a sub. He works really hard on them and he needs a little love for them.



Please give go give him support and wish him a happy birthday! <3 (was on Halloween)

It's been a while since the last journal. I wanted to give a huge update about my current situation. The tax issues have been finally solved, after weeks of IRS calls, filling forms, sending forms back and forth. In the end I needed to wait till early august and after 10 calls I was placed on hold (for two and a half hours), finally getting an appointment to the IRS field office.

It turns out that my 2019 taxes were paid, but placed in an infinite pending loop (sounded like someone got in trouble for that). I was told that I will get more letters about it, but now I have a scanned check stamped front and back from the IRS that I can send back so I won't be charged for it. Just need to pay 2020 taxes in monthly payments. So all I have to do is keep track of 2021 and I won't have to deal with a horrible situation like this again.

First, I would like to thank the following people:
 Olbaid
 Cyb3rm0nk
last, but not least  flashmann

Thank you for your wonderful generosity for the donations/loans that have helped me covered a good chunk of the citizenship cost! I don't know how to thank you enough for your help <3 <3 <3

If I missed anyone else please forgive me, I have a lot of others that should be on this list. Even giving me a moment of your time to listen to me and give me some comfort has gone a long way for me. I really appreciate it so much.

All I have to deal with next is immigration, I have all the docs that the attorney has requested and I have submitted everything. All I'm missing is something called a “Financial Letter of Comfort” drawn by a CPA so the USCIS knows that I'm a productive member of society. However, that letter will cost.... between $800 to $1k+ depending on what the CPA firms ask. Yes, it's another expense, but... not as annoying as everything else. I can safely say that there is light at the end of the tunnel.

To be fair from April to August of 2021, it's been really hard for me mentally. There were weeks where I could only draw one image due to all the paperwork, stress, anxiety, and psychosomatic issues too. Now that this crisis has been handled, I can finally tackle what I should have been focusing on, which is art, content, and my future plans that (without this crisis) would have been in place by now.

Now I can start to heal and start to move on with my plans. I wanted to have Strings out again, a secondary comic, as well as more suit content too! Now that I can see my plans again, I can give it another swing, make it better than before. Thank you again for your support and I have faith that things will work out in the end.

Thanks for being there for me since the start and I appreciate it a lot. But, I'm falling on hard times and I feel like they are only getting worse.

Apologies for being extra dramatic about it, but I don't know where to turn or who to ask for help. I'll keep it short for the most part. I recently found out that I owe $8300 in taxes. ($6K Federal, $2K state) Plus, I got another bill from the IRS, saying that there was a miscalculation on their part and I owe an extra $900 in taxes...

Also at the same time, I need to apply for citizenship because I desperately need Medicaid/other health programs. (I'll explain why in a bit) I recently got a call from my attorney about it and I was quoted.... $1100 for the application, $1900 for the attorney to file it for me, $900 for him to be at the interview, and $500+ for the actual citizenship test...

Edit #1 (I called the attorney to check on the prices again... It got worse)

Green Card application cost:
$1760 Application
$1930 Attorney's Fee
$16 Credit Card Fee
$950 (optional)
$130-230 (if additional evidence needed)
$500-600 (Medical exam?)

I can thankfully pay 2020 taxes in chunks, but... the cost of the citizenship application... Well... it's too much. The cherry on top is that I've started getting health issues. The whole area of my shoulder, neck, back, and chest... have been starting to ache. Stinging, pulling sensations on my shoulder, dull aches in my trapezius muscle, and pulling/stinging sensation where my neck meets my clavicle as well as popping sensations when I move my arm a certain way. Soo... yeah...

There are friends that are helping me with a few things and a couple of friends that want to help financially with medical costs.

Do not worry, I'm not about to go homeless or anything. This has set back my plans a couple of years and I have to be more aware of taxes and now to take them out of any income I make from now on. If you can help with advice, like my business can be more efficient or how to manage taxes better, it's well welcomed.

Once I have my green card... I won't have to worry about this happening any minute:

 littlebird2 needs help, their cute doggo is in need of emergency surgery and I would like to help with signal boosting.

They are holding a YCHs to help fund the surgery: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/41915457/ <--- check it out, every little helps ^^

It looks like my friend https://www.youtube.com/user/remleiz made a theory that I think I should share here.

Felinids, they are human/cat hybrids, but I like to think they are uplifted felines from the dark age of technology. I only wish I could have contributed with the artwork.

Give it a look, a like and a sub for him~ <3

It's not a big secret that we're friends. It's been more than a year since give been friends and started drawing for him. He's been there for me, so I want to return the favor. Because Youtube's algorithm and other factors have caused a major issue with his sub count recently. I help, I would love to ask you to give this channel a watch and a sub, especially if you enjoy lore, in-depth explanations, and other goodies about the Warhammer 40K universe.

I often have these videos playing in the background when I draw, ever before we became friends. If you're not familiar with the 40K universe, no problem, he has in-depth explanations for newcomers to help. It's a well-detailed and put-together universe that I think people should give a try, why not you? ^^

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1.....x_9e9JoMe1m5iw <---- please give him a sub, likes, and lots of love~ :3

Yes, there's a game and I feel like the lack of exposure has been killing the project. So, I wanted to show that YES, there is a game. If you like the idea of the game, you could help.

This was a team effort with  Monxta  foxard  bucephalus  ShortSenpai, team leader:  chessolutions and many others (I'll post their accounts as soon as they link them to me ^^; ) I want to thank the whole team for working so hard on the game, even if its not a success, I had lots of fun working on the project and I'll be happy to work on any other future game projects.

Here's the demo: https://www.dropbox.com/s/w38nyje1s......2-pc.zip?dl=0 the game takes place in the Zippers universe and you get to play Alyx as he discovers the new restaurant that opened recently and that mysterious lion girl that he may or may not have a crush on. Please visit https://twitter.com/zippersgame and if you like what you see why not: https://www.indiegogo.com/projects/.....by-comicloud#/

I know its a barebones demo, but I hope you can see the potential of the game. I'll make an ad for it as well later this week. I hope you like the game~ <3

(Game only works on PC, I'm not the programer so that's all I know)