So yeah, been a bit since I've been on here. I honestly just forget to use this site these days. I've just been distracted constantly with a few things going on in life and I also don't really have much money for art lately either. It also doesn't help that my overall interest in the fandom kinda tanked after my local community (imo) more or less went to shit. There's still people I'm friends with, but I don't have much interest in getting to know too many more people here at this point. I've also never really been interested in going to furry cons either so who knows, that probably doesn't help either. I do however still talk to people on Telegram and am in a few chats on there so I'm still social for the most part, but I'm kinda just enjoying chatting with people more than anything and the furry thing is sorta a side thing nowadays for me.

For a more kinda personal update, I've been seeing a therapist for some mental health issues I've had since... lol probably I was around 11 years old that I'm sorta just now addressing. I'm hoping I can also get a few other tests done as well as I think I may have ADHD and maybe something else? Unsure there. I do have issues with staying focused on something and I get distracted pretty easily. I also feel pretty bad at times since there's moments I have were I cut people off who I'm directly speaking to, I don't mean to do this, but I for some reason will immediately forget what I'm talking about real quick in a conversation and if someone is talking to me and I think of something, if their sentence or what they're talking about goes on for too long I'll forget what I wanted to say by the time they're done. As for my job, I haven't been getting paid as much since the hours for night crew got messed up due to the pandemic and still really haven't gone back. Apparently they're being increased again this coming week... but it's not back to the original hours still. So even though I live in NY and minimum has gone up over and over again, I hilariously enough barely make what I used to when minimum was lower like 3 years ago. The increase that's about to happen will help, but not by much. The only thing I can resort to now is asking for a pay increase, but knowing how cheap my franchise owner is, we'll see how that goes lol. If it doesn't happen I'm just gonna seriously look for another job again like before the pandemic hit.

Anyways, I actually do have more art that I'm about to upload. There's just stuff I've forgotten to post over the past 2 years, it's not much but it's a few things. Just posting an update basically saying I'm not le ded and uh that's really it lol. So laterz.

So I'm finally going to be getting around to uploading all those pieces I mentioned like... almost a year ago if not longer than a year ago now. Some will be posted into the main gallery, while some will be posted as scraps. Since it's been awhile, there's even more to upload now though, so that's a bonus of waiting longer I guess lol.

I do also have 2 commissions in the works though one of them may not be posted here as one is of one of my Sonic OC's and I'm not sure if I want them posted on here.
That's more or less all I wanted to say for this journal. Just a small update on art basically! Stuff will be posted bit by bit over the next few days, so be on the lookout! :D

So it's been a bit over a year since the last time I posted any art and it's also been about 10 months since my last journal. I do keep a tab open on my browser for FA basically at all times, so it's not like I don't pay attention to the site at all, but I'm not too active on it, especially as of late.

I'm gonna be really honest, due to how a lot of my more "recent" experiences with my local furry community have been... pretty bad, it's sorta turned me off from the whole community. So I haven't really been in the mood to do things like be super active in the community like I was before, get art, etc. The friends that I actually have made in the local community are amazing, but it IS a rather small amount of people. About maybe half of my personal Telegram group chat is local friends with the other half being non-local and given that my Telegram chat has a bit under 20 people in it, says a lot about that imo. (I put quotes on recent, since it's really been about a year-ish or so now since I've slowly been feeling this way more and more towards my local furry community)

The current situation in the world also doesn't help. What was, at bare minimum, keeping me still decently connected with the community was still occasionally hanging out with my local friends that I do have in person. While for awhile we were doing an online hang out thing on Saturday's and Sunday's over the past few months, the last couple of times we were supposed to do them... I just really have not in the mood for it so I didn't join in on them. For the past few weeks I've really just been in a fairly antisocial mood and I only really respond when someone DM's me. Even then, depending on how I'm feeling at that exact moment, I may still take a bit to respond. I'm not really... "depressed" I don't think, I just kinda don't really know what to do anymore? Hard to describe it, I just feel "off" I guess. I do plan on being more active sooner than later, but whether that's the next week or the week after, etc, I don't really know.

As for art, I kinda do on occasion want to get a commission, but like... if there's no artists I'm interested in who are open by the time I finally feel like getting art again, thennn I just don't get any, which has happened multiple times now. I do actually have quite a lot of pieces, at least sketches that my girlfriend has drawn for me over the past year, buttt I keep forgetting to save them on my computer and upload them to here. So I'd have to essentially ask her to dig through all the art she's done for me and send me all of it, which I probably will ask of her sooner than later. You guys haven't even seen any art of the new character I own. Granted, I don't have a ton of it, but there's an ok amount of it.

Anyways, I think that's mostly it for now. If anyone's curious, as for what I've been doing as of late, it's mostly just been playing video games, watching stuff on YouTube or finally trying to catch up with a bunch of anime that I've missed out on over the years. If you took the time to read all of this and are actually still paying attention to this account, then I appreciate it, thanks.

It has come to my attention that I haven't written a journal in probably over a year at this point, so I guess I'm writing this one to... I guess do something about that? (Lol) and give peeps an update on things.

So you may have noticed I haven't uploaded any new art in like... *checks* geez, 8 months. So I wanted to talk about that and some life stuff.

Lack of Content: So to just say this right off the bat, I've been having money issues for... a good several months now. It hasn't been until a bit recently were things have been slowly getting better. I am predicting by the end of summer/more-so the fall, that I should be in a decent spot again. I'm currently living with my mom and her husband and I'm the only person in my house with a job. Soooo if mum needs shyt, I gotta buy/give her dat shyt. There's also the issue of... well, me being just bad with my money on occasion. I've been trying to be smarter about that lately and it's been slowly paying off. I would say that in August I should be fine again, but August is my birth month and I'm gonna be treating myself to a few things.

Anyways I actually do have a few things to upload. I have a new character who I enjoy quite a lot that I'll be posting the reference for soon and Kayl has done A LOT of sketches of Lukaz and even one or two of the new character I have. So I decided to give her some more attention on here by uploading them and actually having some new "content" to post. The sketches will of course be uploaded in my scraps, so they wont get a ton of attention, but hey, it's something lol.

Life Stuff: I'm just gonna start this by saying this year overall has been pretty garbage. I have had quite a few health issues (that are either resolved now or slowly getting resolved).

I don't wanna go into complete detail on like everything, but to name a few things that started off the year... I sprained my wrist really bad at work earlier this year when I fell off of a ladder and landed on my hand so bad that it was almost a fracture (and DID NOT receive workers comp for it because I was misinformed about how that works by my own boss, so that was "wonderful"). During the healing process of my wrist, I was just trying to relax and get really excited for my local convention that I've been going to consistently for the past few years anddddd that was basically a complete disappointment. I also found out the higher ups at the convention, not the normal staff themselves, basically want the convention to die off and that was why it was pretty bad this year. IMMEDIATELY AFTER my wrist started feeling really good (like basically the day it more or less felt normal again) I got into a car accident with some friends (I wasn't the driver) and got a concussion. THEN once the concussion went away I was told my Uncle, who got me into video games in the first place, was apparently having heart failure issues (it seems so far that he's alright now).

There's a decent amount of other things as well, but I don't really wanna go into all of that and make this journal even more depressing than it already is so far lol. Things have been slowly getting better and there HAVE been positives in this year so far, it just feels like the negatives have horribly outweighed them. I will say one of my fondest moments of this year was actually during the convention I mentioned earlier, but... it wasn't something related to the convention itself, so that's... pretty amusing the more I think about it. Most of my good moments this year have been with my friends and Kayl, I really can't thank them enough for being so awesome and pretty much keeping me mentally sane heh. Even if it's something as simple as shooting each other a message and having a good talk with them has been really nice and helpful.

The year is a bit more than halfway over, so I'm just hoping things continue to slowly ease up and go well for the rest of 2019.

Anyways, that's about it for this fairly lengthy journal. Hopefully the next one will be a bit more positive and I'll have more good things to say.

... Oh and... hopefully I won't take like another year+ to make a new journal after this one. lol

Woo! Hey! First Journal, 'bout damn time lol.

I want to thank everyone who's watched me over the past couple of months and left comments and enjoyed the art I've gotten.
It really means a lot to see a bunch of people who think Lukaz' design is either cute or interesting, makes me happy with the choices I made when designing him the first time.
Hitting 100 watchers felt really good and getting over 1,500k page views was pretty cool to see as well.

I'm sure a lot of you have noticed by now, but I enjoy doing the "What made you decide to watch me?" thing. I feel like it just lets me interact with my followers a bit more from the start and allows for some decent conversation from time to time. Plus, I don't see too many people doing it, aside from the simple "thanks for the watch" thing.
So I feel like it's a bit unique for me haha.

Lastly, I'd like to address the lack of art I've had for the past view months. See, the thing is, I've actually gotten a lot of art over the past few months, but a lot of it is gift art. I haven't had the money really to afford stuff lately and it's really due to my own stupidity and bad money management honestly. I'm currently working on that. ^^;

But, I would like to say that sooner than later, you'll be at least seeing some of the gifts I've received over the past few months. That way it doesn't seem like I'm pretty much dead, minus the fact I occasionally fav things and talk to people who've recently watched me. lol

Anyways, that's all for now, thanks to everyone who took the time to read this!~