ok so for my school, today we got the report cards. im such an idiot. i got 3 f's. and two of which were NOT right. i shouldnt have even gotten f's. i did all my homework for one of those classes but she said i dont work hard enough on them. then, the other class, is just horrid. My teacher doesnt grade fairly.

anyways, i just got of the phone with my mom about these grades and now i feel like an idiot. im so stupid! why can't i be smart? WHY? just for once in my life, i want at least all a's and b's. but no. that will never happen because im a stupid, idiot girl who cant work on ANYTHING i dont understand the work so, when i dont, i dont do it, which results in zeros. now i feel bad because i cant be the perfect, normal, smart, daughter my mom wants. no, im a girl who draws hidious art, never does her work, and wants to dress up in a fursuit.

im gonna go cry to death now.

well, my parakeet popeye, yes she is a girl, may die. i known her since she was a chick as my dad used to breed parakeets. She has an egg (yes she has a mate which happens to be her brother, angel) that wont pass. this happened to another one of our parakeets and she died soonly after.

im crying my eyes out. she is the sweetest little thing. the reason why we call her popeye is because when she was young, her mother, who died of old age a couple months ago, stepped on her eye and it remained closed shut and her mother abandoned her because she was deformed. so my dad hand-fed her. now she may die. i need some comfort right now. sure we had other parakeets die but i cried the same for each of them. especially two very special ones named cricket (who was handicapped) and buddy, both girls. cricket died because she got very sick. oh goodness, i miss that little girl. we buried her at our old apartment beside a tree. buddy, buddy was very special. At first we thought she was a boy (because the thing above her nose was blue but turned pink) so, we called her buddy. that thing turned pink and the name stuck. Well, my dad used to take buddy outside for car rides and she wouldn't even fly away. she used to ride with me to school. i could hold her and cuddle with her sometimes. but that changed one night. one day, my dad woke me up. i believe i was 11 at the time. he led me to buddy's cage and told me she died by brakeing her neck. i was absolutely heart-broken. i went in my room and refused to come out for the whole day. oh goodness, im tearing up now. i better wrap this journal up.

Now, popeye may make it through the night if she passes the egg but we arent sure. let us hope and pray. good night everyone

so, i planned on livestreaming a movie on sunday, but i want to test it out with the movie 'pokemon heroes' i will start when there is at least 2 people

http://www.livestream.com/lunahowto.....emoon?t=591313

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Sweet! I've just received my free minecraft giftcode!

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go to this awesome journal and check it out!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2879479/

A friend of mine has created a site for furries and would like you to check it out! http://www.wix.com/afurriesplace/a-furries-place#! its pretty cool, but its still under construction

well, just a couple min ago, my mom called me, as she usually does at this time and told me my brother's dog got hit by a car. I never met the dog but i have seen pictures of the little guy and he was so adorable. now he's gone. My brother has a 2 year old son and he is devastated. I may have never met the dog, but i am still crying.

R.I.P my brother's dog (havent heard the dog's name yet)

so, a couple days ago, i was having a really horrid nightmare and it was about 1 month before the world was supposed to end, so i killed myself by cutting my throat. i woke up, sweating and i had a thought; if i killed myself, i wouldnt have to be afraid of the world ending. I almost did it too, but a little voice inside me said 'dont do it! think about all the things that would happen! the world might not even end and you would have killed yourself for nothing!' so i didnt kill myself. i climbed back into bed and curled into a little ball, shaking.

Now, i was afraid to post this. idk, but i just was. Please, i would REALLY appreciate some comforting words right now. in other words, im having a panic attack.

well, i got onto trasnformice a second before if crashed and in room survivor is beastcub! idk if its the real beastcub but shes there! can someone go and ask her if shes the real one? Dont comment if you have any clue what im talking about