Yes, I took that test as well. :D Here's my result:

84% Slave
79% Degradation Receiver
71% Brat
66% Submissive
63% Bondage Receiver
63% Girl/Boy
56% Primal (Prey)
54% Vanilla
50% Experimentalist
45% Non-monogamist
43% Primal (Predator)
33% Masochist
26% Pervert
19% Brat Tamer
16% All-Rounder
16% Switch
9% Dominant
4% Exhibitionist
4% Voyeur

What do you think of it? I found it rather surprising. lol
I love doing those quizzes n stuff. It's very funny :D

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! Happy Halloween all! =D

Halloween and Christmas are my favorite time of the year hehe. Unfortunately we don't celebrate Halloween on my country though. So since I don't have anyone to hang out and go into peoples' houses saying "Trick or treat" and since there's no Halloween party for me to go nor a haunted mansion to visit with friends while we search for Mario, I decided I will do something rather common to celebrate it. xP

I'm going to do a speed run on Luigi's Mansion (GC) starting from midnight and see if I can beat the game before dawn. It won't be easy, but at least I'll try. XD

So, Happy Halloween everybody and I wish you many many candies today haha XD I've already bought some for me =p Right now I'm gonna watch Nightmare Before Christmas, yep, that amazing movie that everyone watches at Halloween. x3 And don't scream if you hear some weird noises on your bedroom tonight, it will probably be just a couple of ghosts trying to scare the shit out of you :3

I have some good and bad news. Starting with the good news: I've been thinking about writting some kind of book about the story of my fursona. I thought about posting the chapters one by one on fa as soon as I finish them. There'll be some paw plays during the story, but it isn't anything erotic, after all it's not an erotic story, but it's an adventure story :3
Now the bad news: I recently've been through a couple of exams such as blood test and stuff like that. 2 months later I finally have the courage to tell you that there was something wrong with the electrocardiogram results. It says that some amount of my heart is blocked. According to my doctor this isn't critical, at least not yet. But there's some risk that I might have a heart attack at some point. I'm trying to fight it though. I've been trying to contact a cardiologist. My heart's been shattered many times, now it finally is showing how hurt it is, it seems. I haven't been alright recently as well. Actually there's been a lot of time since the last time I felt happy. I don't even remember how it feels. Nevertheless, I'll fight this disease and I'll beat it. My life was a total shit to date and I don't wanna look back on my last moments and say that it wasn't worth all the pain. Well anyways, that's it. Thanks for reading :3 Paw kisses for everybody~

"But I'll never survive with dead memories in my heart", nobody knows how much it hurts to see the person that destroyed your life and your heart laughing, having fun with other furries (specially when you were the one that presented the furry fandom to that person) while you stay depressed without any furries near your home, having no friends irl and drowning on a sea of books studying for an exam. Life is just not fair, he was the one who should be on my place, I've almost killed myself twice because of what he did to me, he needs to pay for what he's done and is still doing to me... What I've been feeling is pretty much the same as narrated on the song "Dead Memories" by Slipknot, actually it's the same. "The other me is dead, I hear his voice inside my head".

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2mttg1W92Iw

Yep, it's on October 15th... The problem is that I'm not in the mood for it right now, I've been facing "dark" times irl, my heart is broken, my family hates me, I have no friends irl, the usual. So I just came here to ask you guys a favor: Please do not say "Happy b-day" to me or anything, I want it to be a day like any other, after all I wish I wasn't alive anymore so I wouldn't be going through all this pain and stuff right now... I might get better 'til next year maybe. 2012 and 2013 were and are being terrible years for me, everything is going wrong on my life and I just need to get ahold of it... It may sound like I'm addicted to sadness because all of my journal entries until now are sad, but I really hate being sad all the time, even though I pretend that everything is okay with me, like, I smile and laugh, try to forget, some of you might not even notice that I'm sad, maybe I'm the most sarcastic being in the whole world, I dunno XD Well this is all, thanks for reading anyways and sorry to bother you with another sad journal entry >.>" Paw kisses for y'all

Well, I've tried to hold this one inside of me, but I can't take it anymore I need to let it out in the open, I've got my heart shattered to pieces once again, but this time though it was different... It's been 1 month already and still I'm not feeling okay, actually I'm only getting worse and worse as time goes by... I know everyone is full of all these sad journals I've been uploading, but well... Welcome to my life... Only a few knew that this was happening to me, but really I can't swallow this anymore, it's hurting too much! I'm going to tell exactly what happened... And what's been happening bellow:

After losing my ex boyfriend I swore to myself that I wouldn't fall in love anymore, but unfortunately it happened, I fell in love with my best friend 1, maybe 2 months later... When we first met, 9 months ago, both of us were feeling down... We talked to each other and we both felt better, we felt like we'd be friends for forever... After some weeks I came to know that he was st8 and that he was homophobic and also very close-minded (He even used to hate hugs), I felt so bad after learning all of these things about him, I felt like crying and giving up on him... But something inside me said that he was worth the fight... I decided then that I would try and change him for the better... It was tough, but I actually made it, I made him understand that gay people can be nice too and also he started to enjoy giving and recieving hugs... We were like best friends even though we lived far from each other... He told me his secrets and I told him mine, I told him that I'm gay and that I like feet and he accepted me... He told me that he is dominant and I told him that I'm a subby, I asked him to dominate him a couple of times using his feet and he did it, I felt happy again having him by my side... When I was sad and then I saw him logging on the msn I used to smile... I was in love and I didn't know... He promissed me two things: 1st: I'd be the only one to play with this footpaws and 2nd if he ever felt the need to yiff with a male, I'd be the first one... When he started dating his ex girlfriend I felt jealous about it, but I didn't let it interfere with our friendship... As days goes by he actually starts to feel like I'm more important to him then his ex-girlfriend... When they broke up I was there by his side and I helped him feel better... I even introduced him to the fandom... Everything was going so great between us... I used to protect him from anyone that hurt his feelings, although he didn't do the same I didn't care for that, I was loving him... One day I told him that when we first met I thought that he was gay... Oh damn why did I tell him that? He was mad at me... He said that he'd get away from me and would not come back... I fell to my kness and begged him for forgiviness, I started crying irl and I told him that and then I left... He felt guilty for the tears I've shed and then he promissed me that all of the tears I shed wouldn't be in vain... And then our bonds were stronger than never before... If someone saw the way we chatted they'd think that we were each other's boyfriend... I was so happy, but then things irl started to get bad again for me (it was when I wrote the journal "I.Wanna.Die") and I wasn't okay, I wasn't asking him to dominate me anymore and I wasn't playing with his paws, actually I was waiting to see if he'd ask me to do so, because he told me that he loved when I played with his paws... One day sadly he told me that he had asked to one of his friends to lick his paw, breaking the first promisse, we argued 2 days later, I was really upset with all of that, I also told him that he never protected me when other people hurt me... I said I was going to get some time away for me because I wasn't alright... But that wasn't what I did, I couldn't stay away from him... I came back and the whole week he ignored me and posted on facebook saying that he hated me... I was so bad, I cried the whole night, I only fell asleep at 8 A.M on that day... On the following days I learned that he'd broke the second promisse and yiffed 4 times with 2 males... I almost killed myself that day... My friends were worried about me, 2 of them went to talk with him about me and told him that I wasn't okay, he felt guilty again and decided to come and chat with me... I told him that I love him, he said the same thing to me and... We kissed each other twice... He promissed me that he'd fight for me for now on... On the next day all that I could think about was how I wanted to talk to him... After 3 weeks I had so many things I wanted to talk with him... But then... He ignored me once again... He only told me that he was going to start working and wouldn't be able to spend the nights awake with me again... I was sad because that was everything he told me in 2 days after we said "I love you to each other"... On this wednesday is goinf to be 2 weeks from the day we kissed and sayed lovely things to each other and he's still ignoring me like he doesn't care and also he's saying that now he's a mean wolf that haunts foxes and kills them... He also sayed on a post on facebook that he had changed and that he didn't care... I've never loved anyone like I love him, it's been 1 month since everything suddendly changed I can't stand this anymore... He's the love of my life, he's the one I want to spend the rest of my life with, I just cry every night now while I think about him... I thought that I'd finally be happy... All of my life I've been sad, nothing good ever happened to me, I've no friends irl, my parents hate me, I have a couple of psychological disturbs and a disfuction in my liver which I'm going to have to live with during my whole life and now I lost the love of my life... What reasons do I have to live? Hope? I've already lost all of my hopes with decieving myself and waiting for a miracle that'd never happen... All I wanted was him... He was all I need to be happy... And then he suddendly turned his back on me after everything I did to him... And still I care for him and ask for his friends to take care of him for me... I wish I knew how it feels to be happy...

So go ahead, ask me.

'Cause mine is being a total shit. But anyways, happy paw's day everyone, hope you're enjoying it as much as I'd like to~

I've just had a fight with my parents, they don't listen to me, they don't really care about me, if they could they'd just get rid of me and live their fucking-stupid life because to them I'm the mistake that they made on their lives... I've been wanting to adopt a dog for 5 years now, I wanted either a husky or a border collie or even an Akita, but they don't want me to, they keep saying that I'm nothing but a irresponsible child (and I'm 18 already) and that they wouldn't trust a dog to me, because they think that I'd leave the dog for them to take care, I try to have a dialogue with them, but it's just not worth it! I'm completely lost I don't know what to do, I wish I could live by my own, but I can't. I have depression, some panic attacks and even a dependent personality darangement and they don't give me any support at all, I only have my grandmother on my family that I count on, because the rest are all jerks! I was telling my gramma that I want to die because I can't see a way of overcoming the problems I've been facing and I just know that it won't get better at all and my mother heard that and said "I can bring you some poison if you want to" like I'm just shit to her... I spend my every day-by-day wishing for a miracle that I know that won't happen... I just wish that life was like it is on the video games, you can erase your current save file and start a new one, but unfortunally it isn't... I don't know what to do, I need help... I can't stand this anymore, I just can't, due to the depression it's hard for me to cry, even though I always feel like it, but today the pain was so big that I shattered into a million pieces and finally cried... But it didn't last long, I've already stoped crying, I can't even scream my pain out. I need a dog, but those idiots don't understand that! I'm all alone, I don't have friends, nobody likes me I'm just a freak for everyone, I'm shy and don't like walking outside by myself and I don't have a fucking boyfriend that'd stay with me for more than one month, and everything got worse after I got reproved on the university exam, a dog could help me overcome all of that... A true friend... Maybe that's what I need, but I can't have that because my so-called parents don't like the species I chose. Somebody, anybody... Please, help me, save me before all of this pain drives me insane... Please, I beg... Ease my pain, please... I just wanna be happy...

Why do people lie?
Why do people hate?
Why do people fight?
Why do people destroy?
Why all those tiny hearts?
Why do people kill?
Why all those poor imbeciles?

- English below -

Sabe quando você olha ao redor e mesmo tendo gente perto de tí você sente-se sozinho? É como se você estivesse entre estranhos... Bem, é assim que eu venho me sentindo atualmente... Amigos... Amizade... Qual o significado disto afinal? Eu sempre pensei que amigos apoiavam um ao outro e ajudavam o outro a passar por momentos difíceis e também a ajudá-lo se divertir nos momentos alegres... Na teoria era pra ser assim, já na prática... Eu sempre dei o meu melhor para ajudá-los nos momentos mais difíceis e para dar apoio a eles, mesmo eu não tendo condições devido à depressão que eu tenho e aos problemas com a minha família na vida real... E o que eu ganho em troca? Nada. Se importar pra quê né? Pena é a única coisa que eles sentem de mim e isso vem me destruindo cada vez mais. Ninguém nunca me disse "Luny, eu tenho orgulho de você" nem mesmo meus próprios pais na vida real... E meus amigos cadê? Uns me abandonam porque estão apaixonados por outra pessoa e eu não sou tão bom quanto essa pessoa, outros sentiam atração e depois de descubrir como é meu corpo nem falam mais comigo, outros não mantêm contato porque mudaram pro skype e o msn ta dando defeito para com os que usam Skype, outros porque estão preocupados de mais com a sua própria espécie para se importar ou porque eu sou um esquisito que gosta de pés ou porque não gostam de gente grudenta... Na verdade ninguém nunca nem se quer veio me vizitar... Se alguém descubrir o significado da palavra "amor" por favor, lembrem de me dizer porque eu acho que eu estou errado sobre o significado... Acho que eu apenas sonho de mais em ter pessoas que realmente se importem comigo... Eu tento ser o melhor pra eles, queria que eles tentassem ser o melhor pra mim também... Eu sinceramente não vejo mais sentido em viver, vivo apenas com esperança de algum dia realizar meus sonhos... Se eu cometesse suicídio o motivo da minha morte seria solidão. E não preciso de sua compaixão, obrigado, se quer ter compaixão por alguém, tenha de sí mesmo por ser tão egoísta... "Eu estou morrendo, eu espero que você esteja também..."

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Do you know when you look around you and even though you see people near you, you feel like you're all alone? It's almost like you were among strangers... Well, that's how I've been feeling lately... Friends... Friendship... What is the meaning of this after all? I always thought that friends should support each other and help them to keep on walking even during the hardest moments of their life and also have fun with them during the moments of joy... In theory it should be like this, but actually... I've always given my best to support them through hard moments, even though I couldn't because I have depression and because of the problems that I have been facing with my family... And what do I gain from all of that? Nothing. Why bother, right? Pity is the only thing they feel for me actually and this's been destroying me even more. Nobody ever told me "Luny, I'm proud of you" not even my parents irl... And my friends, where are they? Some left me behind because they fell in love for someone else and I'm not good enough as the person they fell in love for, some only felt attracted by me and after finding out how I looked irl they almost stopped talking to me, some doesn't talk to me because they moved to Skype and MSN's not been working properly for people that uses skype, some are more concerned about their own species than me, some because I'm freak that loves feet and paws in my own way or because they don't like "gummy" people... In fact, nobody ever came to pay me a visit... If somebody ever finds out what's the true meaning of the word "love" please tell me, because I think I'm wrong about it's meaning... I just think that I dream to much about finding people that's truly care about me... I try my best to be good enough for them, I just wish that they'd try to be the best for me too... I honestly don't see a point in living anymore, I'm just alive thanks to my hopes to have my dreams come true someday... If I commit suicide, the reason of my death would be "loneliness". And I don't need your pity, thanks. If you want something to take your pity out on than take it out on yourself for being so selfish... "I'm dying, I hope you're dying too..."

-English below-

É, terminei meu namoro... Já havia algum tempo que eu notei que não tava dando certo... Nem chegamos a fazer 1 mês de namoro, como sempre acontece com meus relacionamentos... Nos 2 primeiros dias de namoro foi tão bom, eu tava tão feliz eu pensava que ele me amava de verdade... Mas depois de viajar no Ano Novo, assim que voltei já notei algo de estranho... Ele me disse que eu estava sufocando ele e nós quase terminamos, mas ele me convenceu a continuar o namoro dizendo que ele me amava muito e que iria se arrepender para sempre daquele dia caso eu terminasse com ele... Então continuamos o namoro. No dia seguinte foi tudo bem, mas o resto da semana nem tanto. Passamos mais 2 semanas tendo discussões o tempo todo, ele tentava me fazer ter raiva dele a qualquer custo... Hoje eu não aguentei e fui conversar com ele sobre nós dois o que eu ouvi dele foi "Eu tenho coração mole, eu preciso parar de confundir compaixão com amor. Devia ter feito algo para você sentir raiva de mim" E me disse que havia perdido o respeito por mim também por eu não gostar das mesmas coisas que ele... É sempre assim comigo, ninguém é capaz de me amar como namorado... Eu só queria morrer agora... Não quero mais me sentir um lixo...

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Yeah, I broke up with my mate... I've been noticing that our relationship wasn't going so well... It hasn't even been a whole month since we've started dating, this always happens in my relationships... On the first 2 days it was so perfect, I was so happy, I thought that he really loved me... But then I went on a trip during the New Year and when I came back I noticed that something wasn't right... He told me that I was suffocating him e we almost broke up on that day, but he convinced me to keep on dating with him saying that he loved me so much and that he'd regret that day for the rest of his life if I'd broken up with him... And we continued together... On the following day everything seemed fine, but the rest of the week wasn't... And after that we've spent 2 whole weeks arguing, he tried to make me hate him at any cost... Today I couldn't hold on and I talked with him about us and what I heard from him was: "I have a soft heart, I must stop mistakin' compassion with love. I should have done something to make you hate me" And he told me that he had also lost his respect for me for I didn't like the same stuff that he likes... It's always like that with me, nobody's able to truly love me as a boyfriend... I just wish I could die now... I don't wanna feel like I'm a trash anymore...