Doubt, Reluctancy, Feeling Craptastic
Posted 6 years agoA big hello to you if you happen to be reading this.
Starting to wonder if anyone does actually read these or if they are just my own personal echo chamber but here I am with more updates. X3
As a couple of you have noticed I have added to the comissions tab on my profile ready for when I start doing these. As of yet I'm not sure when they'll be open, I am a little hesitant about it - A) Because I've never done this before and new things are scary! - And B) I'm often wondering if my work is even good enough.
Don't get me wrong, I enjoy writing and am going to continue regardless, it makes me feel like I have a purpose on here and while verbal support hasn't been too prevelant, the faves and watches mean so much to me and I'm greatful to each and every one of you. I think I'm just in a bit of a slump at the moment and in that nasty cycle of seemingly endless self-doubt, which is making me a little depressed. There are a lot of IRL personal factors at play here as well.
I think I need to work through some stuff mentally before I cut that red ribbon, so to speak. I've had a few notes asking about comissions and I have responded saying they will be coming soon. I thank you all for your patience and there is another story on the way! Hoping to have it done by the end of next week. Sort of created extra work for myself by deciding to do a SFW version alongside it, but it's fun to experiment I guess.
Also, unrelated but I have the worst cold I think I have ever had right now too, send tissues pls.
Anyway, thank you for reading.
also, side note - I started a twitter for my furry-self which may or may not be a better place to put updates regarding comissions etc. when I start them. I know a lot of users tend to just nuke journals (I've been guilty of that myself so no shade being thrown at all) so it may be the better place to catch those updates if you wanted to take a looksee.
https://twitter.com/JayFairyFox1
Buh byes you boo'full beasties!
Starting to wonder if anyone does actually read these or if they are just my own personal echo chamber but here I am with more updates. X3
As a couple of you have noticed I have added to the comissions tab on my profile ready for when I start doing these. As of yet I'm not sure when they'll be open, I am a little hesitant about it - A) Because I've never done this before and new things are scary! - And B) I'm often wondering if my work is even good enough.
Don't get me wrong, I enjoy writing and am going to continue regardless, it makes me feel like I have a purpose on here and while verbal support hasn't been too prevelant, the faves and watches mean so much to me and I'm greatful to each and every one of you. I think I'm just in a bit of a slump at the moment and in that nasty cycle of seemingly endless self-doubt, which is making me a little depressed. There are a lot of IRL personal factors at play here as well.
I think I need to work through some stuff mentally before I cut that red ribbon, so to speak. I've had a few notes asking about comissions and I have responded saying they will be coming soon. I thank you all for your patience and there is another story on the way! Hoping to have it done by the end of next week. Sort of created extra work for myself by deciding to do a SFW version alongside it, but it's fun to experiment I guess.
Also, unrelated but I have the worst cold I think I have ever had right now too, send tissues pls.
Anyway, thank you for reading.
also, side note - I started a twitter for my furry-self which may or may not be a better place to put updates regarding comissions etc. when I start them. I know a lot of users tend to just nuke journals (I've been guilty of that myself so no shade being thrown at all) so it may be the better place to catch those updates if you wanted to take a looksee.
https://twitter.com/JayFairyFox1
Buh byes you boo'full beasties!
Jay is on Twitter Now!
Posted 6 years agoHi all,
Decided to give in to the pressures of modernity and create a Twitter account for my furry little self. If anyone would like to follow me on there for updates, shitposting, ramblings, pictures of mushrooms and excessive self-deprecation it's https://twitter.com/JayFairyFox1?s=08
By extension, also have a Curious Cat synced up to it - https://curiouscat.me/JayFairyFox1
That be all, folks 💜
Decided to give in to the pressures of modernity and create a Twitter account for my furry little self. If anyone would like to follow me on there for updates, shitposting, ramblings, pictures of mushrooms and excessive self-deprecation it's https://twitter.com/JayFairyFox1?s=08
By extension, also have a Curious Cat synced up to it - https://curiouscat.me/JayFairyFox1
That be all, folks 💜
Apologies for Inactivity
Posted 6 years agoHey there everyone,
I quickly wanted to say a quick apology to you all for my lack of online presence this past month, a mixture of life stuff, technical issues and just overall feeling kind of crappy have resulted in me being pretty absent both on here and on discord.
Just wanted to let you know I am still about and am working on stories still. Admittedly I'm hitting a few blocks here and there and getting very easily distracted but I hope to have something up in the next day or two. It's different from my usual, I'll let you be the judge of whether that's a good or bad thing but it's a little out of my usual comfort zone, heh.
-Jay
I quickly wanted to say a quick apology to you all for my lack of online presence this past month, a mixture of life stuff, technical issues and just overall feeling kind of crappy have resulted in me being pretty absent both on here and on discord.
Just wanted to let you know I am still about and am working on stories still. Admittedly I'm hitting a few blocks here and there and getting very easily distracted but I hope to have something up in the next day or two. It's different from my usual, I'll let you be the judge of whether that's a good or bad thing but it's a little out of my usual comfort zone, heh.
-Jay
I'll be Back Tomorrow :3
Posted 6 years agoHi all,
It's been an awesome week away, Dartmoor is a super pretty place (in fact Devon is a gorgeous county overall, had a little adventure in Plymouth today.. And by adventure I mean I bought a bunch of tat, hehe). I took some photos which I'm sure I'll be uploading when I get home.
I have a LOT of notifications to go through, like over 30 faves which I had to do a double take of and then pick my jaw up off the floor! Haha. So thank you all very much if I don't get round to thanking you all individually. It means a lot that you are enjoying my writing. You'll be pleased to know my little adventure has me all pumped up and inspired so expect a whole lot more on the way :3
I'll try and respond to as much as I can tonight with my limited connection and see y'all tomorrow
Much love
Jay
It's been an awesome week away, Dartmoor is a super pretty place (in fact Devon is a gorgeous county overall, had a little adventure in Plymouth today.. And by adventure I mean I bought a bunch of tat, hehe). I took some photos which I'm sure I'll be uploading when I get home.
I have a LOT of notifications to go through, like over 30 faves which I had to do a double take of and then pick my jaw up off the floor! Haha. So thank you all very much if I don't get round to thanking you all individually. It means a lot that you are enjoying my writing. You'll be pleased to know my little adventure has me all pumped up and inspired so expect a whole lot more on the way :3
I'll try and respond to as much as I can tonight with my limited connection and see y'all tomorrow
Much love
Jay
Going Away for a Week..
Posted 6 years agoHello you beautiful creatures, you :3 <3
I know I posted a journal about this last week but just thought I would remind you all that after today I shall be gone for a week. Going on a little trip down south for my birthday (Which is on Sunday) and will be exploring Devonshire, more specifically Dartmoor. What? Y'all don't go on hiking/exploration adventures for your birthdays?.. Okay I get it, I'm weird! X3
I'm gonna take a wild guess and say I probably won't have much of a data signal while I'm there, it is a bit middle-of-nowhere outside of the nearby towns. But I'll be back next week and I'll be sure to get myself back into the writing zone~
So I have moved into the new house, still not fully unpacked (Which I had hoped to have gotten done before leaving for this little excursion; but there will be time when I get back) but my little office/hippe den is slowly coming together. May post photos once it's complete :3
Anyways, that's it for life updates. As for FA related updates, I have recieved a couple of notes inquiring about story commissions, I'll say here what I said to them, this is something I am looking into starting in the near future. I've always said that if enough interest was shown in me doing them, I'd do em. So staying true to that.
Peace
Jay
I know I posted a journal about this last week but just thought I would remind you all that after today I shall be gone for a week. Going on a little trip down south for my birthday (Which is on Sunday) and will be exploring Devonshire, more specifically Dartmoor. What? Y'all don't go on hiking/exploration adventures for your birthdays?.. Okay I get it, I'm weird! X3
I'm gonna take a wild guess and say I probably won't have much of a data signal while I'm there, it is a bit middle-of-nowhere outside of the nearby towns. But I'll be back next week and I'll be sure to get myself back into the writing zone~
So I have moved into the new house, still not fully unpacked (Which I had hoped to have gotten done before leaving for this little excursion; but there will be time when I get back) but my little office/hippe den is slowly coming together. May post photos once it's complete :3
Anyways, that's it for life updates. As for FA related updates, I have recieved a couple of notes inquiring about story commissions, I'll say here what I said to them, this is something I am looking into starting in the near future. I've always said that if enough interest was shown in me doing them, I'd do em. So staying true to that.
Peace
Jay
Todays the Day :V
Posted 6 years agoHi everybody
Today is the day of the big scary move! I still have a bunch of clothes I need to wash and pack! ;3; May need to just take the dirty laundry and wash it when I get there to be honest. The previous owner of the house was kind enough to leave us his washing machine, so it should be okay o.o (we had a nose around in there last night after picking up the keys)
As for the internet situation, Zach has been in contact with our new ISP, they'll be sending someone out on Tuesday to fit the new box in so we'll only be without for a couple of days. Thank gawd for that, I tend to go a bit stircrazy without a constant connection, haha!
So I'll be relying on my mobile data until then, I do have Discord on my phone so I will be able to chat still but expect very delayed responses @.@ and I'll be sure to check up on FA from time to time as well. It's just super slow typing out comments, notes and journals on a phone X3
See you all laters~
Jay
Today is the day of the big scary move! I still have a bunch of clothes I need to wash and pack! ;3; May need to just take the dirty laundry and wash it when I get there to be honest. The previous owner of the house was kind enough to leave us his washing machine, so it should be okay o.o (we had a nose around in there last night after picking up the keys)
As for the internet situation, Zach has been in contact with our new ISP, they'll be sending someone out on Tuesday to fit the new box in so we'll only be without for a couple of days. Thank gawd for that, I tend to go a bit stircrazy without a constant connection, haha!
So I'll be relying on my mobile data until then, I do have Discord on my phone so I will be able to chat still but expect very delayed responses @.@ and I'll be sure to check up on FA from time to time as well. It's just super slow typing out comments, notes and journals on a phone X3
See you all laters~
Jay
Birthday Coming Up / Moving House / Adventure! / Updates
Posted 6 years agoGooood Morning, Afternoon or Evening depending on your timezone, readers.
This is likely going to be a bit lengthy, so I have seperated it into neat little sections with centered squigglies. Yay for squillgies ~ <-- Look at that pretty squiggly boi. :3
So this is just a quick update journal to let you know that I may be somewhat absent online for the next week and a bit. So I am moving house this weekend (We're picking the keys up later today actually), I'll still be in the same town, just a different part of it, Northamptonshire isn't getting rid of me that easily!
Those of you I have been chatting with are probably sick to death of hearing me complain about how much I hate packing so rest assured, that ends now. You'll get to hear me complain about unpacking instead and I apologize in advance! Hehehe. X3
But yes, it may take a few days for the internet to get set up in the new place, I'll still have my mobile data so can check in on my phone from time to time but there won't be any uploads from me for the next little while. Don't worry, I have plenty of lovely lewd stories in the pipeline so I'm hoping it will be worth the wait.
On the subject of those, I just want to say a bit welcome/thank you to all the new watchers that have appeared since I started writing here on FA (Fourteen of ya! Wow! I must be doing something right, haha!). You've had some lovely comments and things to say about my work and it really has helped me become more confident in my abilities and gives me the motivation to keep it up. I love getting the feedback as it helps me improve and create better stories for you to read. You've all been lovely and I wish I could hug you all! ;3;
In other news, my birthday is coming up, not this Sunday but the Sunday afterwards (September 1st) May post a journal on the day if I can but that may be difficult as I'll be in the Devonshire wilderness at that point. Going to Dartmoor for a week at the end of the month (The national park, not the prison, I'm a good boy.. Mostly) and I doubt those big old moors have very good data signal.
If there is signal however, I'll totally pop online with a further and hopefully shorter update. Super psyched about exploring there though, it's a really pretty part of the UK with a lot of fun folklore surrounding it. Allegedly there are pixies in the woodland (so I'll feel righta t home) and hellhounds that stalk the moors at night so if I see one and it doesn't eat me, I'll snap a picture for you all, haha x3
To my all my friends and buddies, Sadly with all of this going on, I may not be able to chat on discord all that much for the next two weeks, but I'll be back, don't panic! Expect lots of apologetic cuddles between asterisks on my return! <3
Welp, that was a long and rambling one, congrats if you read through all that! I'm off to tripple check that I haven't forgotten to pack anything important and I'll be on my merry way. New home ahoy! With a garden! Just need to continue to plead with Zach to let me get a puppy (Or even a dog from a shelter, I like the idea of giving a sad little doggo a new loving home) and I'll be the happiest little fairy in the world. With a dog to coo over and shower with love. Hehehe X3
Thank you all for reading and I'll see you when I have internet access once again.
Buh byes :D
Jay~
[[[Happy fox noises]]]
This is likely going to be a bit lengthy, so I have seperated it into neat little sections with centered squigglies. Yay for squillgies ~ <-- Look at that pretty squiggly boi. :3
So this is just a quick update journal to let you know that I may be somewhat absent online for the next week and a bit. So I am moving house this weekend (We're picking the keys up later today actually), I'll still be in the same town, just a different part of it, Northamptonshire isn't getting rid of me that easily!
Those of you I have been chatting with are probably sick to death of hearing me complain about how much I hate packing so rest assured, that ends now. You'll get to hear me complain about unpacking instead and I apologize in advance! Hehehe. X3
But yes, it may take a few days for the internet to get set up in the new place, I'll still have my mobile data so can check in on my phone from time to time but there won't be any uploads from me for the next little while. Don't worry, I have plenty of lovely lewd stories in the pipeline so I'm hoping it will be worth the wait.
On the subject of those, I just want to say a bit welcome/thank you to all the new watchers that have appeared since I started writing here on FA (Fourteen of ya! Wow! I must be doing something right, haha!). You've had some lovely comments and things to say about my work and it really has helped me become more confident in my abilities and gives me the motivation to keep it up. I love getting the feedback as it helps me improve and create better stories for you to read. You've all been lovely and I wish I could hug you all! ;3;
~ ~ ~ In other news, my birthday is coming up, not this Sunday but the Sunday afterwards (September 1st) May post a journal on the day if I can but that may be difficult as I'll be in the Devonshire wilderness at that point. Going to Dartmoor for a week at the end of the month (The national park, not the prison, I'm a good boy.. Mostly) and I doubt those big old moors have very good data signal.
If there is signal however, I'll totally pop online with a further and hopefully shorter update. Super psyched about exploring there though, it's a really pretty part of the UK with a lot of fun folklore surrounding it. Allegedly there are pixies in the woodland (so I'll feel righta t home) and hellhounds that stalk the moors at night so if I see one and it doesn't eat me, I'll snap a picture for you all, haha x3
To my all my friends and buddies, Sadly with all of this going on, I may not be able to chat on discord all that much for the next two weeks, but I'll be back, don't panic! Expect lots of apologetic cuddles between asterisks on my return! <3
~ ~ ~ Welp, that was a long and rambling one, congrats if you read through all that! I'm off to tripple check that I haven't forgotten to pack anything important and I'll be on my merry way. New home ahoy! With a garden! Just need to continue to plead with Zach to let me get a puppy (Or even a dog from a shelter, I like the idea of giving a sad little doggo a new loving home) and I'll be the happiest little fairy in the world. With a dog to coo over and shower with love. Hehehe X3
Thank you all for reading and I'll see you when I have internet access once again.
Buh byes :D
Jay~
[[[Happy fox noises]]]
So.. Regarding The Writing Thing
Posted 6 years agoHi all,
Just submitted my second story to the site which I had a total blast writing. I initially started this to help me overcome writers block I was having with my personal non-furry related projects, and it's totally helping with that, but I committed way more than I expected to the most recent one and thoroughly enjoyed the experience of creating it. Already noticing a few errors here and there that I am fixing. (Note to self - proof read before hitting that submit button).
As such, I'm going to eventually change that overly self-critical section on my profile (about how I hate everything I create and never share it) and start writing on a more regular basis on here. I plan to explore some more kinks, themes etc so if you like what you've seen so far, stay tuned.
In other news however, moving house next week (still in the same area, just a different part of town) so there may be a bit of a disappearance until the internet gets all set up.
A huge thank you to those who have given me feedback and support on my recent writing adventures, I'll be putting that feedback to good use.
Hope you all have a marvelous day
Jay
Just submitted my second story to the site which I had a total blast writing. I initially started this to help me overcome writers block I was having with my personal non-furry related projects, and it's totally helping with that, but I committed way more than I expected to the most recent one and thoroughly enjoyed the experience of creating it. Already noticing a few errors here and there that I am fixing. (Note to self - proof read before hitting that submit button).
As such, I'm going to eventually change that overly self-critical section on my profile (about how I hate everything I create and never share it) and start writing on a more regular basis on here. I plan to explore some more kinks, themes etc so if you like what you've seen so far, stay tuned.
In other news however, moving house next week (still in the same area, just a different part of town) so there may be a bit of a disappearance until the internet gets all set up.
A huge thank you to those who have given me feedback and support on my recent writing adventures, I'll be putting that feedback to good use.
Hope you all have a marvelous day
Jay
Thinking I Might Start Writing Stories Here
Posted 6 years agoHello you lovely journal readers~
Just to let you know I'm currently brainstorming ideas for potential stories I can write here on FA, so hooray for content!
This has mostly come about because my main, non-furry related personal writing projects have hit a bit of a brick wall, I figure giving myself some side projects will probably help me get back into the swing of things and hopefully entertain you all in the process.
Can't say for certain when I'll be writing and uploading these but will say it'll be the very near future.
- Jay
P.S. - In other news, I made an F-List, just so you can laugh at what a weirdo I am :p
https://www.f-list.net/c/jay%20fairy%20fox
Just to let you know I'm currently brainstorming ideas for potential stories I can write here on FA, so hooray for content!
This has mostly come about because my main, non-furry related personal writing projects have hit a bit of a brick wall, I figure giving myself some side projects will probably help me get back into the swing of things and hopefully entertain you all in the process.
Can't say for certain when I'll be writing and uploading these but will say it'll be the very near future.
- Jay
P.S. - In other news, I made an F-List, just so you can laugh at what a weirdo I am :p
https://www.f-list.net/c/jay%20fairy%20fox
Lame Puns and Dad Jokes Needed To Ease My Crippling Boredom
Posted 6 years agoBored, lonely and in need of a good giggle, fire away pls o3o
Ramble Ramble Ramble
Posted 7 years agoHello fuzzy folk of the internet.
Here we have the first of many installments of the ponderings of a human being who likes to pretend he's a fairy fox on the internet. Whether you read or not is entirely up to you. That being said if you choose to do so, be warned I am a notorious rambler.
So today I'mma talk about ghosting, something which I am very guilty of doing, albeit unintentionally. Hey, the fact that I am on my third account and am only now making attempts to reconnect with people should tell you that! but allow me to poorly justify my actions to you.
My mind works in very peculiar ways, I definitely have some strong avoidant traits that kind of make me scared to talk to people if I haven't done so in a long while. I guess I have this inner voice telling me that they are definitely going to be disappointment, hurt or angry with me for not talking to them for so long and will immediately reject my communication. Which may be true in some cases but thankfully some of you on here have welcomed me back very kindly.
It's not just FA either, my best friend lives who lives all the way up in Nottinghamshire who I regularly communicated with via Facebook Messenger has also had to put up with my silly mind doing it's silly things and convincing me that she would hate me. Took up the courage to finally talk to her and she's totally cool with it all. I guess I'm letting my negative thoughts kind of dictate my actions, which is something that I have now acknowledged and will work toward fixing.
I think now that I am living independently (or as independently as one can consider a room in a house of multiple occupation) things should be easier, I have a lot more free time and can use that time to work on various writing and video projects and of course reconnect with those who wish.
Anyway, that's my ramble for the day~
Here we have the first of many installments of the ponderings of a human being who likes to pretend he's a fairy fox on the internet. Whether you read or not is entirely up to you. That being said if you choose to do so, be warned I am a notorious rambler.
So today I'mma talk about ghosting, something which I am very guilty of doing, albeit unintentionally. Hey, the fact that I am on my third account and am only now making attempts to reconnect with people should tell you that! but allow me to poorly justify my actions to you.
My mind works in very peculiar ways, I definitely have some strong avoidant traits that kind of make me scared to talk to people if I haven't done so in a long while. I guess I have this inner voice telling me that they are definitely going to be disappointment, hurt or angry with me for not talking to them for so long and will immediately reject my communication. Which may be true in some cases but thankfully some of you on here have welcomed me back very kindly.
It's not just FA either, my best friend lives who lives all the way up in Nottinghamshire who I regularly communicated with via Facebook Messenger has also had to put up with my silly mind doing it's silly things and convincing me that she would hate me. Took up the courage to finally talk to her and she's totally cool with it all. I guess I'm letting my negative thoughts kind of dictate my actions, which is something that I have now acknowledged and will work toward fixing.
I think now that I am living independently (or as independently as one can consider a room in a house of multiple occupation) things should be easier, I have a lot more free time and can use that time to work on various writing and video projects and of course reconnect with those who wish.
Anyway, that's my ramble for the day~
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