Working on another character AV in Second Life. This time specifically for the pose comic. It's slow going for me 'cause of how things have changed in SL since the last time I did any work of this kind. Also some of the components are hard to find this time, because I guess some makers don't like the MP or something. Oh well.

This time it's a character from Katrice's past. Who could it be? Oooooh.

NSFW is a sacred thing. We should hold it close to our hearts. It's a reminder that we should not let others around us dictate what we can and cannot enjoy. The very enjoyment of it is an act of rebellion. It's in the name! "Not Safe For Work". Fuck work. You're only there because you have to be. Don't let it command your entire life.

I'm very much NSFW and I will continue to be until I leave this god forsaken planet!

katricemetaluna.bsky.social

Someone gave me a code!

Thank you to all you peeps who like watersports mixed in with their body control. Or at least tolerate it. Every time one of you faves or comments on something I put up here like that it makes me feeling a little less alone in that. Weird but that is important to me.

I see you all faving the stuff I upload but all those comment sections are such deserts! I'm starved for attention feedback! >:P

Those on Second Life will be feeling this one hard. One of the biggest providers of avatars and avatar accessories suddenly closed up shop yesterday. I mean, you know, I've read their reasons why and I understand them. But they made the announcement yesterday, and they closed up shop YESTERDAY. And I do mean closed. They pulled everything they were selling. I don't know what that would mean for people in need of a update or redelivery. I kinda assume they're hosed.

Don't do that kinda thing if you can help it. Give people ample time to prepare for your store's demise. The way they did it, I'm sure it put a bad taste in a lot of people's mouths. 15 years of built up customer loyalty only to be met with an "ok bye" and a yoink! is not a good look.

I use Slink bits on Katrice and Endora. Getting new outfits for either of them will probably be doable for now, but that might get ever more difficult later on. I might have to find alternatives, which means a complete overhaul of their avatars. Have I ever mentioned how long it took to tweak both their appearances to get them right? Ungh.

Here's the announcement:

https://slinkstyle.com/2023/01/01/s.....sing-1-1-2023/

Yes, I can't get a break, can I? What I originally thought was upper back pain that came out of freaking nowhere actually turned out to be freaking pneumonia! Sepsis of the lungs, the docs said. It came as a complete surprise to me when they said it. I have NO idea what I even did to cause that to happen, and the docs have no answer for me either. So... yeah that sucks.

This one malady completely dominated the month of November for me. I originally felt the pain on the 11th but since it didn't even occur to me that what felt like back pain was actually an infection in my lungs, I didn't even think to seek any medical attention. And on the 16th the pain got so bad that I ended up in the emergency. My insurance sent me to another hospital that night where I spent the next two days. Then I got to spend a week at my sister's house where I had to try sleeping sitting up until I could breathe more properly again.

I wasn't able to properly relax until I was back in my own bedroom though. Only then did I really start to recover. And now here I am going back into work physically the week after that. So, yay!

Looking at my journals here right now it seems like I'm only ever driven to say something when there's some kind of calamity going on in my life. Which in the last three years especially has been quite a lot. It's very depressing and frustrating. But I guess I got a vivid fantasy life I'm still able to escape into. It's only too bad I can't actually do so, lol.

I've had what I originally thought was just a cold since about a week ago. It started off like a cold. I felt a bit weak and tired, then I woke up last Saturday with a sore throat that lasted about two days. Then that got replaced with chills and a fever. Then later that got replaced with a stuffy, runny nose and a cough. Then sneeziness came a bit later. It was all very cold like.

So imagine my surprise when I decided to take one of those home COVID tests I had lying around and it came back positive. The last time I had to suffer through COVID there was no guessing. It had knocked me out pretty badly. And it definitely felt like a bad flu. This only ever felt like a most annoying cold. And now it's almost beaten. I'm almost well again. And it only lasted a bit over a week.

So... hooray for small victories, yes? I'm guessing my being vaccinated must have helped! Yay!

EDIT: I just took another test right now and it came back negative. So that's it. It's over! Whee.

C/P'd from my Patreon:

Hihi my few loyal fans! It's been a little while so I wanted to take some time to let you know what's up.

I have been working on the next few pages and I got more planned out after that. It's been real slow working on them though, especially lately. A lot has happened in my personal life.

Four months ago the mother of my friend, whose house we had been living in, died suddenly. I'd been helping out as much as I could. Things were starting to look good... until this last Saturday when my friend died almost as suddenly. :(

I'm now in a mad scramble to get my shit together. Because I can't live in this house for that much longer. So that's all kind of, shall we say.... VERY distracting. But I haven't forgotten about Katrice and Mayhem and Endora. They are a part of me and I will continue on with them as soon as I can!

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For you folks here on FA, I do got three more pages to post here. I've been working on the three more after that. But, you know, having to suddenly find a new place to live while mourning the death of my friend is... uh... yeah. :\

I must say, sometimes I miss being more in-character like I used to be ages ago. Real life is so terrible. Why do I let it leak through so much?

I've finally figured out I can use the mesh transformation tool in Clip Studio to fix the inner thigh shape distortions that happen with screenshots of certain SL poses on that particular avatar. I'm talking about Katrice's body, lol. So now all the old pose shots I have up here look horrendous to me! Ah, progress...

I just wanted to say hi to the folks who still watch me here. While I check out this site on a regular basis, I only seldom make any journal posts.

A lot happened to me in the past two years. The biggest being the loss of my mom. That hit me harder than I could have imagined. That was followed by a string of unfortunate events, all during an emerging global pandemic. That all essentially knocked me down, and I didn't really wanna get back up. So I really didn't. It's only NOW in the past three months or so that I am ever so slowly starting to put the pieces of my life back together again. And I really don't want or need yet another bad thing to happen. At least not for a long time now. I feel like I've filled my quota for that for many years to come. >:P

I was looking through my notes here. There's a number of people I've lost touch with. Most of my friends talk to me on Discord, or on Twitter. But some people I've only ever talked with here. And a couple of people just went away without so much as a goodbye. But even on Discord, I realized I'm terrible at keeping in touch with so many. I just... forget. I'm not trying to be careless or malicious. Even so, I wanna try and make it a point to at least say "hi" every now and then, lol.

My fantasy world of Katrice, Endora and Mayhem and all the others has stayed with me. And I've been reminded by more than one person that I should not treat them as if they were frivolous and did not matter. They certainly matter to me. Katrice in particular is the only character I've kept alive for such a long time. Endora comes in a close second. Yeah, the whole thing is often silly and outlandish. That's kinda the point! They're important to me.

That's pretty much it. I'm still trying to make stuff for my Patreon and I'm much more vociferous on Twitter, despite not liking that place very much. I may or may not try another venue at some point. We'll see!

Happy 2022! May it be better than 2020 or 2021 were.

Looks like I need to step up my more lewd creative thingers. I got a Patreon that I set up and nowadays when I make things up I share them there first for the delight of subscribers. If you're really interested in supporting me then you'll sign up! It's only a buck a month. It'll help encourage me to make up more silly kinky lewd stuff and such. I know some of you like that!

https://www.patreon.com/katrice_metaluna

OK I am sick and tired of seeing that near two year old journal post. I've been making occasional (very occasional) postings I've shared here. I made up a Patron where I post those first and then I share them here later. I'm TRYING to share my story things over there as well but gods, it's been hard for me to put that stuff together in way anyone else would even understand. I mean, who knew kinky body control tales could be so confusing? When you're like me, it can be.

How many terrible things have happened since October 14, 2019? Quite a lot! I had a lot of bad things happen to me on top of the world wide crud. I lost my mom. I lost my drivers license. I threw away my decrepit old car. I even ended up getting the dreaded sickness myself. But I survived. For some reason.

I love my characters and the world I'm trying to make for them. Katrice, Endora, Mayhem. Every day I love to imagine Mayhem making Katrice do silly kinky things to herself and keeping her all worked up and flustered. And Endora just kinda shaking her head at such shenanigans!

And I got alternate realities, or canons or whatever you'd call them. The faerie queen's forest instead? Or the wolf mage's. Stuff about demon goat is prolly about as dark as I like to get. Based on old RPs I'd had. It's always slightly different. That's the stuff I'm trying to share on my Patreon. It's just I always end up making up something completely new and different in the process. Because again, that is me! I am always mired in chaos.

If you like this silly stuff then please tell me! Getting positive reinforcement can really get me going sometimes. And I really don't wanna stay mired in the great big nothing.

OK I haven't done anything significant in about a year now. I should probably like, actually make stuff. ;P

I set up a Patreon almost two weeks ago but so far I haven't done anything with it yet. Mostly I started it now so I could avoid the price hikes and whatevers that are gonna happen soon.

So now I plan for this to be something to help me FINALLY develop the epic tale of the enchanted coyote slave girl. I'm still unsure how I will proceed exactly tho. For sure that any new stuff I come up with is gonna be put there first from now on!

https://www.patreon.com/katrice_metaluna

Imma gonna delete probably most of my older SL shots from here. Mostly because I've gotten better at stitching them together and so now the older ones look really terrible to me now, lol.

I've been writing lots. Like, finally. Because I wasn't for a while. You probably can guess why. I've come up with more stuff built up from the old stuff. Stuff and things about Katrice and Endora and Mayhem and even Thistle now. Not sure her name is gonna stay Thistle, lol.

Anyways, I probably ought to share some of that here at some point. You all deserve to see more kinky body control magic stuffs.

I'd said I was writing two little stories. Work on them kinda fell behind, because reasons.

I'll be going back to working on them soon. They might be a bit late tho.

Feeling slightly more normal. Slightly.

I made up an SL pose thing the other night. Might share it here later. I meant to make another one last night but I got way too tired and crashed.

This is mostly just to push the previous journal entry out of the top spot. ;P

I know what I have to do and I'm trying to do it. It's just... rough. I wish I was more myself. I guess I just need time!

I said I'd make another longer post about it and here it is.

From: https://katricemetaluna.tumblr.com/.....4/heart-attack

About nine days ago now, the Thursday before this last one, I’d noticed it was hurting the breathe. I thought I was getting sick with the flu or something. By the next day, I was feeling myself get a lot more tired a lot more quickly. By that weekend, I was so tired I couldn’t really do much of anything. I mostly just sat and played Tropico 5 (when I wasn’t sleeping, ‘cause I slept a lot), because you know, I like city builders. They can be soothing… some of the time.

On Monday I felt OK to go to work but I was still feeling tired and it still hurt to breathe. I was thinking maybe soon I’d be over whatever was making me sick. On Tuesday I decided not to go to work and did a few of my more crucial work tasks from home because that’s possible for me. Still hurt to breathe. Exerting myself in the slightest made me feel real tired really fast.

That evening I played some more Tropico 5, and the game being what it is, it threw my plans for a glorious tropican island nation with a general revolt. Then another one. And another one. And another one. I grumbled and I got super upset at the game and was getting ready to lay down some serious shit and whatever…

Except I couldn’t. I felt pain in my chest and my back. Pain in my arms. For a time I even felt it in my teeth. These weren’t sharp pains but it was ongoing and it felt like I was aching all over. I couldn’t even stand to look at my screen anymore so I just switched that off and got into my bed. I thought maybe if I could just rest for a while then it would subside.

The pain kinda did subside after a little while, residing mostly in my chest and my left elbow and wrist. By then I was in full-on anxiety mode and that just made things worse. I’m not certain what prompted me to call my sister on my phone, but I did and I must’ve sounded really really bad, because she talked me into letting her take me to the ER.

I got lots of tests at the ER, and they gave me an Aspirin. At the time I was entirely unsure why. Eventually they told me they were certain I’d suffered a heart attack and I was just like… what, really? It didn’t make sense to me. Surely something else was going on. My insurance wanted me transferred to a different facility so I figured I’d learn more once that happened. By then all the pain and tiredness I’d been feeling had subsided.

The doctors at the hospital examined my heart in several different ways, and it showed up as being just fine in all of them. Yet my bloodwork was telling them a different story so they were suspicious that something was up and they needed to get to the bottom of it. An angiogram showed that my carotid artery is slightly blocked. Somewhere around 25%, they said. My heart must’ve spazzed at that. Not sure why this never happened before? I don’t know.

They decided the best way to go was to medicate me as if I’d had a full-on heart attack, and that I should undergo what they call a “lifestyle change”. Which means eating a hell of a lot less junk and maintaining some moderate exercise. And that’s where I am right now. I got out of the hospital yesterday afternoon and I’m home again. I’m nervous, anxious and gun shy. I’m afraid the exact same thing is gonna happen again even though I’m taking many pills now and not eating any junk. I’m pretty sure I know what I have to do but that doesn’t help me feel any less lost.

That’s pretty much it. I just needed to type this up somewhere.

Hey, so... I had a mild heart attack. And I am back from the hospital. Didn't even know that's what it was at first. Mostly I was very tired and it hurt to breathe.

I'll say more later. I've only been home for half an hour and I need to chill for a bit.

Don't be alarmed. I was making up some more thumbnails for my submissions and I decided to remove some of the older SL shots I'd uploaded before. They look terrible compared to the more recent ones, lol.

You know that old trope in fantasy kink stories about how some apprentice spell-casters mess up whatever enchantment they're trying to weave and it ends up causing something weird to happen? A lot of the times something silly and embarrassing. Sometimes outlandishly lewd.

Usually that's one of the go-to plots for causing TG/TF stuff to happen. I see it used a lot with that. More rarely do I see it being used with body control stuffs. It's not something most people think about... for people who think about things like this at all, anyway. I'd certainly love to see more of that. For reasons.

Seriously if you find any silly-kinky-lewd body control stuffs because magic then please please let me know about it? kthnx. :D