so yesterday around 6-7 pm i had a customer come in. everything was fine and i had noticed her child was acting kinda slow. i had politely is everything OK for everyone and she responded that her child was dehydrated because he ended up staying up past his bedtime from yesterday and was gaming all day and all night to the point he came into my restaurant. OK this tipped me off into RED FLAG territory. i tried to make sure the lil guy was OK feeling comfortable in the restaurant making sure everything was OK water filled constantly for the lil dude i felt bad for him. they had their food and everything. nothing was wrong. then i went to pick up plates as i'm picking up the plates i ask the young guy is it OK if i take your plate. he didn't respond and his mother ended up responding for him. suddenly lil dude just puked a bit on the floor. this was now at the point where in my head OK this isn't looking good i should notify the mother. i stepped away put the plates in the back i came back asked his mother do i need to call an ambulance cause your child did just vomit a bit. she looked at me and responded no everything is fine hes really OK. well i go back to work finishing up cleaning the plates in the back i come back out and i see the family leaving. the mother then attacks me.

"hey yeah...uhmmmm you fucked up. there was no need to ask for that you were in the wrong. because of you and just you i will never eat here again." i tried to apologize and tell her why i asked but then. "no there is no need for an apology what you did was stepping past your boundaries. you royally fucked yourself and your restaurant. i will never come here again to eat just because of you." so yeah after that i tried to shake it off but its bugging me to the point i had to make this journal...

i gotta ask...did i really overstep my boundaries just because i saw him thow up and you told me he was massively dehydrated from gaming?

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SO HAPPY SO FUCKIN HAPPY. i was finally able to buy one of my dream items ive been wanting since i have been in the furry art fandom for awhile. back when i first started doing art in the fandom i had a bamboo touch and play tablet. it was great till one day i saw one of my favorite artists  nightfaux had put up a journal about what kinda of tablet he used. i looked it up it was a cintiq 12wx and i had used one of those when i was in college in my graphics art and design class one semester. i fell in love with that tablet i wanted a tablet that had a screen so badly. but i had always looked up the prices and i was just not able to afford at the time due to i just got out of highschool and i had no job and couldnt afford one. well i just bought 1 on saturday and i will be getting it on friday. i bought it on ebay never used never opened out of the box. i countacted the seller to see if i could haggle the price down a bit and asked if i could get extra pictures to make sure it was never opened. to my surprise i skype called the person he showed me everything that there were no signs of ever being opened. i asked him why he never used it and he told me flat out that this is what happened.

the tablet was a birthday gift he got for someone but it turned out to be that this friend was using him at the time. i felt for the dude. basically he was not happy with this and decided to keep it for himself and he felt he wasted his money on this person. sadly he was not interested in art and never had the time to do anything like that. so he wanted to get rid of the eye sore that just left a bad taste in his mouth. i asked for a couple days kept talking back and forth and we worked out a price. i was able to buy it for $240 instead of $500 what he wanted to originally get for it was around the money he spent on it but no one at the time wanted to spend $600 on it so he went with my price and i am getting a perfectly unused tablet ive been wanting for so fucking long.

this THIS IS WHY YOU ALWAYS TRY TO MAKE GOOD WITH SELLERS ON EBAY THIS IS WHY!!!!!!

so this friday when i do get it ill be setting it up and trying to do art as soon as possible in my free time. please to be ready to expect lots of art when i can and streams here and there when i can off my job.

so yeah this happaned and im very happy with myself and not impulse buying one at $300-$400 and taking time to try to haggle it. so yeah
im HAPPY AS FUCK RIGHT NOW!!!

so new job is great.... im doing well making lots of cash and what not so pretty soon i can start buying art instead of being mister cheapo like i used to do. i will finally be able to afford my dream tablet and try to come back to doing art here and there when i can. ive been able to afford things i couldn't buy before like my ejuice and stuff.

as for the tablet ive been wanting to get is the wacom cintiq 12wx tablet. it used to be an expensive tablet but now that its been a couple years i can now afford the tablet since it dropped to a reasonable price.

so other than that. i really enjoy my job at BELISSIMO an italian fine wine and dine restaurant. so yeah life had been doing really well for me lately.

so as everyone knows by now i have a job. well since getting this job ive lost about 25 lbs. and i may not look like i lost that but its mainly my legs that lost all that weight due to being a waiter. im constantly moving i have great pay for a waiter due to the fact when we get no customers our pay goes from $2.30 to 7.50 an hour when we get no customers. thank god for my boss for doing this he has a soul. but other than that ive been cutting back on soda and sweets.....the reason why!!!

I FUCKIN VAPE!!!

since i started to vape i have actually eaten less sweets cause the sweet flavors im rocking are the REBEL from the Breakfast Club group. im also rocking like a donut flavor from the vape juice company THE ONE and im really digging these flavors. it cuts back on my sweet tooth and my nicotine hits i need due to when i was smoking the cancer sticks. not to mention the vaping thing is not bad at all for your health. since vaping lets see ive cut back on sweets and soda, my acne has cleared up to the point i no longer need that face cream to get rid of them. and I CAN FUCKIN BREATH LORD HAVE MERCY I CAN BREATH!!!

vaping has actually helped me out with clearing out my sinus's meaning all that heavy liquid vape pulls on all my mucus and helps break it up cause im vaping citric and sour vapes here and there.

so yeah to anyone who says vaping is worse than smoking....take a look at what its done for me.!!!!

im happy

im no longer feeling depressed

im outside alot more

and constant exercise

it feels good to finally feel like i can do something and not feel like im trash.


so yeah thats pretty much it.

yeah so this has finally come true. so im looking to buy art of 2 pictures of my horse character that is my icon. im looking to get a pinup and then a pic of her being mounted and pinned by someones character cause ive been developing a story for her for awhile in my brain now and ive been writing down things.

so im looking for someone who is within my price range of willing to do 2 pictures that are flat within 25 as a flat drawing and im willing to pay half of the picture for her being pinned down and ravaged. so if anyone will help me find a decent artist for this would be great and anyone who wants to help toss in their character and pay the other half of the second picture with my character.

So best news ever....i got a job... im a full time waiter at an italian resturaunt called Bellisimo here in houston. So if your in houston looking for a fine wine and dine place come by and drop in and be my table. 2nd biggest announcement ever.....

IM ENGAGED TO MY GIRL SHE SAID YES... its currently a long distance relation but i popped the question while live cam chat with her at lunch i popped the question amd she said yes. So i am now engaged to the sweetest girl ive ever been with. So yeah life update i guess. Haha i cant stop grinning from ear to ear cause she said yes. SO FUCKING HAPPY RIGHT NOW.. i also have to ask if there is anyone in arizona pheonix that i can ask if i can stay with for maybe a couple days to a week with if i visit her again this summer or during a holiday.

ok selling myself for 4 months ill be yoour art slave note me ideas when you get an idea ill try to my best to do flat rate commissions for you for a total of 4 months i really need this mooney to get my tooth pulled this pain is litterally making me start to cry some times. i cant breath through my mouth without being in pain. i cant eat hard crunchy food at all either and its getting painful to rinse my mouth here and there after each meal.

PLEASE HELP ME THIS IS EXCRUCIATING PAIN!!!!!

ok its getting painful to eat lately and i really need to make $80 this tooth is hurting way to much. so please if anyone can commission me or help me out in spreadinng the word would help i need too make 80 to get this tooth pulled ad the university of houston dental school.

PLEASE HELP ITS SERIOUSLY GETTING PAINFUL!!

seriously all i was doing was stating about the cub porn that is around the furry community that not everyone is into it and that yes its not ok that i even blocked some artist pages on other sites cause i don't wanna see that that i think its gross as well. i even admitted hey im a sex offender as well and i have no issue with what artists wanna draw and what people wanna buy. its their choice not yours but this person has the audacity to attackk me just cause i admitted i did wrong and i myself don't wanna see that in our community some times. i don't wanna go to someone else's account that shows this and so i blocked them on inkbunny or weasyl or what ever. but now i get attacked for voiced that get over it take it in strides there are people like that in this world and it will never change. i mean seriously its the fuckin furry community and you have the audacity to attack me over stupid petty issues you cant accept are there. fuck you and your whole ideal that this world should revolve around you ya fuckin attention whore. serious this person has made me furious over the littlest of bullshit ive ever seen someone type about here on furaffinty. seriously this person needs to grow up stop attacking people because of what they like and just fuckin mellow the fuck out and god damn deal with it.

serious i admit to everyone that watches me that yeah im a sex offender. do you think im happy with my choices in life....NOOOOOOOO what i did was wrong and ill still admit to this day that its wrong. nothing can be justified about what i did. but seriously attacking someone just to try and make them depressed and to attack them just because it was in the past and you cant get over the past. your a fuckin cunt then.

if you wanna know who im tallking about your more than welcome to ask in notes atm im beyond livid this person is even on fa.

major issue earlier last week went to eat out with my mother at a sushi place called sushi choochoo... while eating an entire tooth broke down to the root and its now exposed im in pain constantly and i cant keep going with this pain like this. i have to swish salt water HOT salt water and mouth wash after every fuckin meal now to kill any pain after i eat then i take a bit of cotton ball dip it in clove oil and shove that in the hole of the once good tooth to kill all pain for the rest of the day till my next meal.

i have found out that the university of houston dental school will take me but i have to pay for my own tooth extraction which is gonna cost me around $85 to get a fuckin tooth just 1 tooth extracted. this pain is so fuckiin unbearable. serious dental medical emergency until i can make the $85 to get the tooth extracted i cant make an appointment


here is a link to my tooth that recently broke if you dont beleive that im in dire need of this tooth extracted.
https://www.dropbox.com/s/4uep8m5kg.....02024.jpg?dl=0

if i tried to go for drawing thicc and plump characters would you commission me more often or would you prefer toned, or even thicc as FUCK? im curious so ill do a straw poll for it down below.

vote if you would like to see what kind of art i try to do from now on.

http://www.strawpoll.me/15041550

ok heres the deal today i got a gift card from a good friend of mine which is a steam gift card $20 well i spent $5 of the card but i have $15 left. so i tried to buy a month of eve time but found out i cant buy it for the account i currently have so im asking. can anyone gift me a month of game time for eve from amazon in exchange what money i have on my account on steam ill buy you your game of your chosing please. it would really be a big help anyone has a bit of cash to spare on a game they would like to get in exchange if anyone woould like to.

so i got back home on friday saturday i was just to wipe from being at her place. family was huge and stuff and i had a wonderful time with her. and if you have to ask no fuk fuk happened there. but later on today or tonight i will be trying to do art and finish commissions i already owe as well as the ych for val i still owe. one more thing...

i get cash from my moms bf for christmas gift and im $10+tax short so im will be trying to make the money i need as well after im done with the ych and commissions so i can buy the pokemon ultra moon

currently with my gf in vegas at her parents house i am dropping in to tell everyeone im here safe next to her and sucking up to her mom and dad trying to be sweet and tolerate the roasting im getting from 2 parents that are high off their asses but still having fun.

so lil update ill be going home on friday and saturday is when i will try to stream some art. i took my tablet for drawing and my usb with my csp and sai thinking i could use their computer or my girls laptop....big mistake but other than that happy i get to spend time with her.

so before i even buy my ticket to see gf soon i get a package addressed to me. i read the description on the shipping to find it is from a company i enjoy buying vape juices from and some nice lil coil replacements for my smok starter pen kit. well i open up the package what do i see.. the joyetech penguin SE......OH BOY WHEN PEOPLE WANT JUICE IN THEIR VAPE GO TO THE PENGUIN LADIES AND GENTS!!!. i gotta say getting this in the mail was a great suprise. none the less i found out it was my own flesh and blood mother bought me this. i had mentioned how much i had been wanting to buy a good kit that is light looks nice and goes with my style of clothing. and i couldnt have picked a better one she bought me the jet black model and im happier than a monkey in a banana factory.

whooooooooooeeeeeey.
lets get started
ive had this less than maybe 6 hours more or less. gotta say im gonna give this baby a 10/10. why you may ask well this sucker comes with 8.8ml cartridge that can constantly be refilled and doesnt have lingering flavors on the plastic. the battery life though give or take if your a bit of a flavorful but thick cloud chaser like me your gonna go through juice fast. ive already gone through maybe 50% of a 120ml bottle of my favorite juice the glorious blend i made myself CHOCOLATE DONUT!!. granted my vg/pg is around 85/15 but still this thing is running smoother than a porn stars ass. not to mention oh major pro BIG TANK...

over all very happy i got the mod ive been looking forward to getting.

thought i would drop a lil starter kit down in my journals as a review cause im very pleased. oh and no leaking best part. so if your looking for a nice starter kit to go with if you start vaping go with the penguin from joyetech!!! its cheap its sleek and its got good use.

1 con though your probably gonna need to look up how to clean your coils or learn to stock up on coil heads apparently.

here are some rules if you want to join my stream.
1. if you join my stream do not ask for a request unless you are asking for pwyw picutre
2. i cannot do any rainbow characters im partially colorblind so it really messes with me
3.if you are here for a freebie please stay in my stream till i have all the info i need of the character and you so i can post it on fa with your information of who the character belongs to.
4. please respect me and everyone in the stream

pwyw stream info is here
1. $5 gets you 30 minutes of art
2. $10 gets you to 10 minutes of art
3. $15 gets you an 1 hour and 30 minutes of time on said peice.
if you have read everything then stream is here
https://picarto.tv/MatuTV

come join in if you would like to buy cheap art or just get a freekin sketch

im bawling right now...my big cat thing 2 who has outlived all his family is only 13-14 years old and im crying...the last of his family and hes breaking down. hes losing his hair hes barely eating anything. hes constantly vomitting up everything he eats. he feels so frail.. im gonna lose it. i swear

i knew this day would come but not like this. i dont want him to suffer like this. IT HURTS MY HEART... i pray he goes in his sleep and doesnt suffer anymore i cant bear to put him down by vet or by any other means... im serious breaking down here and it hurts to see him like this...

thing 2 my loving cat since he was first born in my house in mississippi to texas your journal in life was full of love and i caring.

again im still taking commissoins the money goes to my trip for visiting my girlfriend i need $135 for a trip to las vegas to visit her. PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD IM FAIRLY CHEAP AND REASONABLE!!

so trying to make money i am currently trying to make enough cash to go to my gfs place in las vegas for christmas. i plan to surprise her and be with her for the christmas week and be with her and her parents and try to be festive instead of being in my house depressed like an old crank.

so here is what im going to be doing. ill be doing free art streams sketchs only but here is what im taking for prices. please help me out even donating will help out.

donate or commission me. please help me reach my goal

GOAL IS 0/$135 to get to vegas from houston,tx. while there i will be staying with some family friends for a week at most while im visiting her and being with her.

COMMISSION PRICES AND TERMS OF SERVICE!!

commissions $5 for flat if you want your freebie to be upgraded from a sketch. if you want to commission me taking commissions like this flat headshots/busts=$5

full color and shading headshots/busts=$10

full body color and shading=$15-20 depending on difficulty

ref sheet= $25

Terms Of Service:

Any art I draw is for You, the commissioner.

Please allow for a reasonable amount of time from the time of payment to let me finish your piece. You may ask for the occasional status update. There may be others in queue before you, which I'll communicate to you. Currently, I estimate that work should be completed: within seven days of payment. This can vary based on the length of my queue and real life interferences.

I'll attempt to provide a work in progress as I work on your piece. When I provide you with a WIP, at that time, please tell me if something is wrong, so that it can be corrected for the final version. Please note, I am providing artistic services, and cannot read minds. So, I need you to do your part: give me good details before I start, and tell me if something is wrong during the work in progress.

If you would like for another artist to color my works after you have received them, please be respectful and ask me first. There are no refunds for asking someone else to work on content I have rendered for you, because I too have worked on the image.

If you are not able to be professional in our conversations, I reserve the right to fire you as a client and refund any payment minus a portion equal to what I've spent in time working on the commission. Continued lack of professionalism may also result in my blocking you. I am an artist, not a doormat.

Please make note of what I DO NOT draw before commissioning:cub porn, chakats, and taurs,vore,scat and/or watersports,rainbow colored characters,killing of one's character, mobians( aka sonic based characters)

so tomorrow i will be working on art. i completely forgot today was black friday so i completely forgot to try do art earlier today to try and make $50 for my gfs ring...kinda pissed at myself for not realizing that FRIDAY WAS LITTERALLY BLACK FRIDAY....i swear im sllow as fuck some times. so i will be doing art on stream taking commissions as i work on a quick commission so i can try and start earning money to the bus trip to visit my sweet heart around christmas. so yeah gonna try and earn some mula tomorrow.

so pissed forgot to save on a pic just now while nearly complete about to start lines i stop stream for a second to check something on skype for personal reasons and sai just up and crashed on me.... im beyond pissed at myself for not saving. im about to just leave sai all together and stay on manga clip studio cause ive had enough of random shut downs on me from sai.

so i guess this day would come. i am finally going to get back into doing art as im going to try and go back to college as im having no luck with getting a job. so as i finish my current commissions for someone because i needed the money to finish a purchase on ebay i will be gettting back into art. the reason why........new races in WoW made me jizz my pants. im wanting to get into gaming arts graphic and design for my degree as i want to be on a team for developing games or try to develop my own game. so once i am finished with my current pic ill be doing commissions again to start earning money so i can use on helping pay what i can as rent to my mother. i think the biggest issue i have is i still dont have drivers license i have the money to get it but the issue is here in houston you need so much paperwork to get it. i have the money for that but other than that i think that is the main issue as to why no job at all.

so with that all said and done. school seems the right choice for right now.

so 10 dollars short for payingg for shipping fee that im trying to buy some new headphones for lil cousins bday which will be in 3 weeks and i just wanna make sure i can get them. the money goes to shipping fees i didnt see at first cause im oblivious some times. so ill do 2 full color and shading busts for $5 each or if you would like to you can buy a full color and shading full body pic for $10. im doding this to buy a gift so the money goes to a good cause. help a brother out please.