so lately i havent really been on FA in awhile except to just fave art alot. other than that ive been depressed as fuck trying to get a job so i can buy things i want to buy and help pay bills. but as of late ive been procrastinating like fuck. because of my procrastination ive been making myself feel depressed and making myself feel like i dont deserve a job. but im trying my ass off applying for jobs constantly. thing is i want to get a job be able to get the money to pay for my own things i want to buy a new computer, buy new clothing i like and other things. i would also like to buy a nice computer which i really want to buy is this https://ironsidecomputers.com/series/fiend/ because i want to start streaming art at a better quality and have no issues. thing is tomorrow im going to throw my myself at the employers feet to try and show im willing do bathroom work for months before i get real work. so wish me luck as i try tomorrow my best to go get a job.

ok i am not happy with this. i know i havent been around much and i know thats bad and i havent been doing much art but im in serious need of help right now. this is utter horse shit. supposedly one of my best friends just fucked me over. basically me and him have been playing GW2 for awhile now and i saw i wanted the expansion. well he ends up buying it for me and i told him its my birthday and shit...my birthday doesnt matter he ends up telling me over skype " you have 3 days to get me the first $15 you owe me of the $30 dollars or you pay me back in fingers. Austin i have your address i know where you live. i live in dallas i will drivve down there and and break your fingers if you dont pay me back." right now im scared shitless. im home alone for a month. my mother has the key to the gun safe. my 7 dogs are useless and are complete pussies (not joking) and i have no security.

i am beyond scared shitless i am willing to do 6 slots $5 each i dont care what you want im do it im scared and just want to pay him and then block him from everything i dont want him coming near me. im actually fuckin terrified.

EDIT: already paid by someone and they helped out i have sent the money to the guy and i said good bye to him and blocked him on everything skype, discord, telegram,kik everything and i mean everything.

Its my birthday shower me with love and lets get this eclipse on YEAH

so today we found out that i might officially need to see a dentist...we found a cheap no dental insurance place that will take $50 for each extraction so thats $150 i need. well i already have $100 and i had a $100 check that i needed to cash out but ive been to busy to go to a bank to cash it..so i talk to my old boss who was still my friend at the time. well find out that the fucker doesnt know how to do his books. hes got no fuckin money hasnt made any money since i quit. hmmm good to see that you dont know how to work here in Texas dumb ass. find out that he cant pay me until he makes the money. well first off if you knew how to make money here in Houston you wouldnt be charging such stupid cheap prices here in Texas. to make money down here is fuckin hard this is fuckin new York like where he used to live. its his fault he lost me as a worker in the fuckin first place. its not my fault you dont know how to do the books on how much things cost. so i text him asking if he can just send the payment he owes when he can to my paypal. oh find out his paypal has been frozen. oh jeezus fuckin christ this man cant do fuckin anything. so i told him hey im just asking like my mother asked me to do cause i need to go see a fuckin dentist. what does he do tells me to go to a fuckin ghetto area where there are free clinics....are you fuckin serious how retarded are you. this man is pushing my buttons at this point. i told him herer in houston they have closed down pretty much all free clinics because the ghetto areas are to violent in texas. no clinics will go near the ghettos here for fear of being targeted for robbery or being held at gunpoint. this is yet again not fuckin new york i told him. so i told him like my mother asked to tell him to talk to him.....what does he do oh he shows how fuckin two faced someone can be. he accuses me for the fuck ups of his jobs, im the person to blame cause a customer was pissed off. im the fall guy cause of some bullshit. i told him after finding out about that. this is what i said.

"its nice to see how two faced someone can be. i trusted you as my boss to helpful and teach me things. instead you expected me to know everything yet turned around and blamed me for your missfortunes. i expect my payment sooner or later or i will be sending you an invoice for labor fraud. expect me to never talk to you or help your ass again. i truely respected you till now. never talk to me or even visit me for help. your number is officially blocked and you will be seeing on your site who it was you fucked over on your customer review. i workred for you and you treated me poorly and never properly instructed any of your workers what to do. im no longer your friend. im no longer your pall. FUCK YOU!!!!"

hey guys ive actually been doing well. as of late ive been working a job but since i dont have my drivers license ive been taking the bus every day for a temp job working for a family friend. at this point its costing a bit to much from my usually payment from working for our family friend. basically the money is coming out of my pay im anually putting $30 a week on my bus card and im going back and forth on the bus at least 2-5 times a day to get to my house using multiple bus's. so me and my mom have worked out a deal. i need to raise $29 or $30 so i can get my drivers license. granted this will all be cheaper for me cause gas isnt as much as 2-5 trips on a bus at $1.50 and i can work with that since our car gets almost 40 miles on $20 of gas. so my mother will be putting insurance on the car for me to ride in it and use it for business. so if you can please help spread the word that im needing $30 at most to get my drivers license. with this job ive been saving money and ive been pulling myself together and im happy that i finally have somewhat of a job

i will gladly take 6 commissions for $5 each basically headshots.
3 commissions instead if you want a full body picture.
guys really help me out here i could use all this help in getting a bit of money and everything is going so well for me right now. so please spread the word and help a guy out. once i get my drivers license ill gladly show proof i got my texas drivers license to prove i spent my money that you sent me to get my drivers license. granted i will blur our all the information that is important and what not but still PLEASE HELP ME OUT THIS JOB IS HELPING ME!!!! ALOT!!! deadline to get the cash is in 2-3 weeks from now....

please help out ill be doing an art stream shortly to start taking commissions and doing sketch freebies.

hey guys ive actually been doing well. as of late ive been working a job but since i dont have my drivers license ive been taking the bus every day for a temp job working for a family friend. at this point its costing a bit to much from my usually payment from working for our family friend. basically the money is coming out of my pay im anually putting $30 a week on my bus card and im going back and forth on the bus at least 2-5 times a day to get to my house using multiple bus's. so me and my mom have worked out a deal. i need to raise $29 or $30 so i can get my drivers license. granted this will all be cheaper for me cause gas isnt as much as 2-5 trips on a bus at $1.50 and i can work with that since our car gets almost 40 miles on $20 of gas. so my mother will be putting insurance on the car for me to ride in it and use it for business. so if you can please help spread the word that im needing $30 at most to get my drivers license. with this job ive been saving money and ive been pulling myself together and im happy that i finally have somewhat of a job

i will gladly take 6 commissions for $5 each basically headshots.
3 commissions instead if you want a full body picture.
guys really help me out here i could use all this help in getting a bit of money and everything is going so well for me right now. so please spread the word and help a guy out. once i get my drivers license ill gladly show proof i got my texas drivers license to prove i spent my money that you sent me to get my drivers license. granted i will blur our all the information that is important and what not but still PLEASE HELP ME OUT THIS JOB IS HELPING ME!!!! ALOT!!! deadline to get the cash is in 2-3 weeks from now....

or even tip me if you could even the littlest will help me out paypal.me/matutv

as of late reason why i have not done shit and stuff such as art and what not. i just cant anymore. the money ive taken for commissions i cant even pay back cause ive had to use it to pay my fuckin bills. i am broke beyond all reasons atm i dont wanna take any more commissoins as art cause i dont wanna be in anymore debt for taking money from 2 people that i still owe art too. i feel like scum. i feel like ive been used because the one girl i was dating as of late basically fuckin used me for what lil money i did have. i paid for dinner for the both of us. i paid for movies at most twice when i could. and what lil money i did have i went to her place and spent it on a cab so i could visit her. i cant take feeling like utter shit. not being able to work with my hands and make art when i have no passion or drive for it feels like when i draw something that its utter shit. the only things ive posted up for pictures was 2 2ds colours pictures i did cause i felt a lil artistic. this is infuriating. i have no words in how dissappointed i am with myself. im beating myself up whenever i get near my computer and try to even remotely draw i basically get halfway through a fuckin sketch and i just erase the whole thing cause it looks like shit. i basically jusut draw it erase cause im like this is shit i can do better but every single flying shit tit fuck time i try to redo it i just feel like it is shit.

i dont know what else i can do. ive lost all insterest in attempting to draw. ive lost all respect with a bitch fuckin harlet for using me then dumping me when i couldnt afford her something. its like IT JUST KEEPS GETTING FUCKIN WORSE AND WORSE IM FUCKIN STARTING TO LOSE MY SHIT HERE. not even playing a game helps me out of my slump or reading a book or even going to school at this point. i just want it all to fuckin end please. someone end my fuckin missery already. im tired of this shit when i act nice and try to help someone out or even remotely help someone out of the kindness of my heart that i just get this instant backlash of fuckin shitty luck, getting treated like shit, basically getting used as someones ass rag, and all this other shit.

 dirvish if you guys or anyone else i supposedly owe art too see this and stuff if you so chose to try and report me for scamming or some shit i dont blame you im disgusted with myself as is. at this point i wouldnt be surprised if you did already or not. i just cant win in life no matter how fuckin hard i try. im seriously starting to get paranoid as shit.

so as of late i have no internet. the only way im currently talking to everyone now is that im at the public library using their computers. dont worry i put my account on sfw till otherwise. i no longer have phone service the only way im currently able to talk to anyone via skype telegram kik is due to im mooching off one of my neighbors wifi which i got permission to use but its pretty spotty cause im not getting full wifi its like half a bar of wifi from them due to the distance and it sucks ass. me and my mother are currently in debt. ive had to sell some of my stuff here and there at garage sales to make ends meet. i do sometimes kinda mooch off anyone using hotspot though when i can cause i have no service,no internet, no way to really connect to anyone to tell them that i have not been able to do jack shit. i have gotten turned down from multiple jobs and my last line to get a job is applying for something i absolutely cant stomach which is bio cleanup which hires anyone background past can be anything but i just cant stand the sight of real accidents. the first time i ever saw a dead body which was when i went to visit a friend in fort worth Texas and there was a pile up and i watched a person fly out of their car into the air head first into the ground and i saw the head splatter. i vomited violently. so as well as that i'm losing all spark to even draw, right, play games, communicate with anyone. im becoming mentally unstable to the point ive started to gain weight again instead of losing it.

so yeah this year by far is worse than last year. it just keeps getting worse for me and i honestly dont know how long i can take it before i fuckin snap. the only thing currently keeping me sane right now is being able to play on my 2ds and drawing what little i can.

litteral break down is imminent and i honestly dont know what i can do to stop it. unless some miracle happens my psyche is just going to plummet to the depths.

a good friend and a wonderful person be it his stubbornness or his big heart. RAISE YOUR BEARS RAISE YOUR WHISKEY TO A FALLEN BROTHER OF THE HAMMER. A WARRIOR AT MOST A GENTLE GIANT AT BEST CHRIS PRITZKAW MAY YOUR BATTLES IN VALHALLA WITH YOUR FALLEN BROTHERS AND FALLEN SISTERS DO MIGHTY BRAWLS IN BATTLE.

a good man died today he passed away due to a respiratory system infection. the man was a good person no matter how much i was an ass to him. Chris we will miss you here on dwarfish planet. i hope your battles with cancer and this infection caused you no pain. may your battles with thor and odin be mighty and wonder battles. may your feast in the halls of the warriors be the mightiest of feasts. you were my brother and most of all a fatherly figure in my life. you no longer have to struggle with the trifles of this mortal plain.

Chris i will miss you most of all brother.

so bad news my headpones are starting to go out and i am trying to finish these pictures up. right now im having a bit of distractions in life. right now im trying my best to get shit done and i know  arkblonable and  dirvish are waiting on their pictures. i swear guys im sorry for these delays i know this isnt fair. im gonna try and get art done as fast as i can. freekin hell my headphones are starting to break and i may have to take on more commissions once these 3 images are done. so please bear with me.

i might have to take another 4 $10 full color and shading simple background based pictures.

so expect an update.

well the relationship i just had...ended today i am afraid. the girl i was in a distance relationship ended it by blocking my number skype and kik after she was expecting me to konw what was wrong. i triedto find out
but as of no avail she just wouldnt open up and i tried to call but i get ,"dear user your number has been blocked as per request of the owner of this number."

so hey guys. well on monday or tuesday dont remember shitty memory. i went under to actually get the cyst removed due to its size it actually went deeper into my muscle a bit so it looked a bit like this
top here was around a golf ball before opened up
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the thing was actually 2 hair folicals that fused into one singular unit. and because of the sheer size i had to be put to sleep so they could remove it. when they pulled it out with the sack intact they showed me it was at least 2-3 inches in length. it was disgusting and stuff. they told me later on they called me up and stuff told me the damn thing was a majority of 10 hairs that from when i first hit puberty that the hairs didnt grow in right and just sat there since then. and its been roughly about 11 years since i first hit puberty.

so yeah that thing was disgusting. i now have wound packaging in my back where it was and i have lots of pain when i do anything with my right arm. that includes drawing which sucks ass. they have me on pain killers and antibiotics and i will be drawing slowly so far i have started the other 3 commissions as sketches in my sketch book and i will try and do computer art when i can. as of now im gonna go back and zonk out from the biotics and pain killers.

oh and because of where its at on my back i have to either sleep on my side or my belly i cant sleep on my back due to the risk of infection.. FUCKIN SUCKS DONKEY BALLS.

and when i can i try to play some WoW to forget the pain.

hey guys. so heres the low down. tomorrow i want to try and do some art streaming and get my commissions done and out of the way so people can see some wonderful steamy hot mess of art XD lol. but i am kinda not feeling well here and there lately due to around this time of year i go through maybe 3-4 days of constant phlem and hot flashes and cold sweats due to like the time of the year when it starts to cool down i go through this shit every fuckin year. so hopefully if i have the energy ill try and stream.

on another note i have a doctors appointment on tuesday next week to go see about a cystic zit that is now the size between a golf ball and something a bit bigger than 3 inches in diameter. its not alarming but it keeps oozing stuff that is like a zit head or puss or what ever. so hopefully praying its just a cystic zit they can lance and then gut out and stuff with wound packing. thing is right on the back of my shoulder and has been causing me discomfort in sleeping for quite some time. so lets hope this goes over with out any real pain for me.

so heres the deal im giving in to this. im gonna take 3 full body color and shading pictures including a simple background like in a house or on a balcony or so forth.

the 3 commissions will cost a total of $10 so yeah its cheap. so while doing these commission i will have stream up to have the commissioner(s) come in and help me draw the character correctly. doing this will help me get a better image of the character so its easier to draw and having help from the commissioner will help further the production of this art peice. these images can be from general rating to porn rated if you so chose. so its open to all forms. all images will be a single person image.

Terms Of Service:

Any art I draw is for You, the commissioner.

Please allow for a reasonable amount of time from the time of payment to let me finish your piece. You may ask for the occasional status update. There may be others in queue before you, which I'll communicate to you.
Currently, I estimate that work should be completed:
within seven days of payment.

This can vary based on the length of my queue and real life interferences.

I'll attempt to provide a work in progress as I work on your piece.
When I provide you with a WIP, at that time, please tell me if something is wrong so that it can be corrected for the final version.
Please note, I am providing artistic services, and cannot read minds.
Therefore, I need you to do your part: give me good details on what you'd like before I start, and tell me if something is wrong during the work in progress.

If you would like for another artist to color my works after you have received them, please be respectful and ask me first.
There are no refunds for asking someone else to work on content I have rendered for you, because I too have worked on the image.

If you are not able to be professional in our conversations, I reserve the right to fire you as a client and refund any payment minus a portion equal to what I've spent in time working on the commission.
Continued lack of professionalism may also result in my blocking you. I am an artist, not a doormat.

Please make note of what I DO NOT DRAW before commissioning:
* cubs in sexual situations
* chakats and taurs
* vore
* scat and/or watersports
* rainbow colored characters
* killing of one's character

IF YOU STILL WISH TO COMMISSION ME PLEASE COMMENT DOWN BELOW FOR THE SLOT

1. tanglethewilddog

2. dirvish

3.

so heres the deal im giving in to this. im gonna take 3 full body color and shading pictures including a simple background like in a house or on a balcony or so forth.

the 3 commissions will cost a total of $10 so yeah its cheap. so while doing these commission i will have stream up to have the commissioner(s) come in and help me draw the character correctly. doing this will help me get a better image of the character so its easier to draw and having help from the commissioner will help further the production of this art peice. these images can be from general rating to porn rated if you so chose. so its open to all forms. all images will be a single person image.

Terms Of Service:

Any art I draw is for You, the commissioner.

Please allow for a reasonable amount of time from the time of payment to let me finish your piece. You may ask for the occasional status update. There may be others in queue before you, which I'll communicate to you.
Currently, I estimate that work should be completed:
within seven days of payment.

This can vary based on the length of my queue and real life interferences.

I'll attempt to provide a work in progress as I work on your piece.
When I provide you with a WIP, at that time, please tell me if something is wrong so that it can be corrected for the final version.
Please note, I am providing artistic services, and cannot read minds.
Therefore, I need you to do your part: give me good details on what you'd like before I start, and tell me if something is wrong during the work in progress.

If you would like for another artist to color my works after you have received them, please be respectful and ask me first.
There are no refunds for asking someone else to work on content I have rendered for you, because I too have worked on the image.

If you are not able to be professional in our conversations, I reserve the right to fire you as a client and refund any payment minus a portion equal to what I've spent in time working on the commission.
Continued lack of professionalism may also result in my blocking you. I am an artist, not a doormat.

Please make note of what I DO NOT DRAW before commissioning:
* cubs in sexual situations
* chakats and taurs
* vore
* scat and/or watersports
* rainbow colored characters
* killing of one's character

IF YOU STILL WISH TO COMMISSION ME PLEASE COMMENT DOWN BELOW FOR THE SLOT

1. tanglethewilddog

2.

3.

im thinking ill take like 3 commissions for full color and shading pictures and i am thinking i might try and make a ych with tentacles in possibly a newd pose of the tentacles or something tame. im not quite sure but i will try. and if i make the ych it would probably be $15 for each one. so im probably gonna pop stream back up and do some freebies for the mean time and after that ill try and see about a ych.

well with me needing new headphones and badly cause the current ones i have are dying out i need to get started on making art. i might do some tomorrow in a stream like a free art stream with people getting sketches and if anyone wants to get them flat colored and all that cause freekin hell i need new headphones badly im tired of yanking my cord on the current ones and they drop on the ground or when i turn around they get yanked and end up falling off my head.

so if i end up doing any art streaming its gonna be sketches only for free everything else will cost money.

SHOWER ME WITH LOVE AND GIVE ME HUGS AND OR KISSES CAUSE IM 24 BABY WOOOOOOOOO *chugs glass of beer*

yeah as the title says happy bday to me on sunday yay im not liking the outcomes already.

im curious where is everyone who is watching me coming from?

well long storyshort... ive lost all motivation. the person i was using as a muse for some art i tried to draw has disappeared off the face of the earth. i have tried to contact her via email, her cell which is no longer in use, and where she lives the house is vacant and is no longer in the house. im honestly worried about her she was a good friend and i never asked for her to show her body for my images i just asked if she could show me some poses like stretching and all that. so right now i havent been arting or even to try and do anything is mainly because she disappeared and i cant find her. her facebook is active but she hasnt made a post since april. i have also setup a twitch creative art account cause i plan to end my drawing of porn for a bit due to lack of any artistic ability to draw anything and not to mention ive been more interested in computers as of late. i am thinking of going back to college to pursue a degree in computer science to try and apply for a computer based job at any place that needs help with computer techies that know game lingo.

i have been playing WoW alot as well due to a friend gave me a couple of game cards adding up to 8 months of time and i really dont want to squander that gift he gave me since his account got perm banned which when he was perm banned he gave up on ever playing WoW.

so no drive to art, been playing games. trying to get into college, and trying to find my friend.

i am still here i still have skype i rarely get on and im sorry for my disappearance to everyone if you were trying to get ahold of me for anything.

0276-1768-0039

ad me yo add me

this person annoys the shit out of me with their narrow minded ness. this person thinks that child safety is the only thing that should be delt with in this world. im sorry but there are things that come first cause trying to protect a child is harder than it seems. in order to protect them you have to deal with who is the source of the problem. the person attacking the child. earlier this morning there was someone who posted pictures of dead mutilated bodies of babies and animals. granted i screen capped all their posts and responses and sent it to the cops cause its against the law in texas to show animal mutilation of this caliber or even posting of dead bodies of children on public places. so i notified someone in their journal that its against the law to do this here in the USA. they care more about me reporting child abuse than child murder. is this person fuckin retarded. i would rather report a murderer than a fuckin abuser at this moment. i mean the person who was posting these pictures could have been a murderer and this person wanted me to look the other way and ignore it and focus on reporting child abuse. im sorry who the fuck are you. are you a fuckin nazi. do you not care about the people around you. for instance if someoen you new was suddenly stabbed to death and you watched your just going to blatantly ingore it and you would rather focus on a fuckin child rapist or something. im sorry but yeah both are wrong still they all needed to be reported. theft, murder, rape, child pornography, anything that is against the law is to be reported. fuck your methods i dont fuckin care who you are. murder is murder no other fuckin way. ive blocked both these people and ive reported the person who was saying murder is nothing. or how animal cruelty si nothing.i rescue animals on a daily basis now cause i work at the texas bark center for rescuing animals off the streets. the fact this person said to me in the note that animal cruelty is nothing... FUCK YOU IN THE ASS BITCH.

im gonna be off the computer for awhile if i get reported i fuckin dont care you can find me on other sites as Matuscha, matutv,matlynx. so yeah fuck anyone who thinks posting animal cruelty should be waved off. fuck you.

as the title says i was in an accident today. i was debating wether or not to post this but guess i should just to keep yall updated on me.
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today i was hit by a car. i was bicycling to the gas station to get some soda with the last bit of money my mom gave me before she went camping with friends. so i was bout to get to the curb on the very right lane for turning this guy hit me cause he was on the damn phone. granted i wasnt really injured he rushed me to the hospital and had me get checked up and i told him i dont have insurance but he still insisted on taking me. so we loaded my bike on the back of his car with his bike. and asked me to lay down in the back seat. granted this guy was shaking in horror for hitting me. his car did recieve a bit of damage on the front bumper from my peddel hitting it pretty hard and taking a chunk off. so he had them scan me make sure nothing was broken and everything. the kind man out of his generosity and kindness paid for it all in hard cash. i litterally watched him pay with hundred dollar bills. i was really shocked. i dont know if it was cause i looked homeless cause i threw on some old raggy clothes i had that i normally wear at home. but yeah he paid for the stuff and everything he then took me back to my place after i gave him directions. he then dropped me off and out of kindness gave me his bike. ive never met a kind person before like that. i honestly think he thought i was poor or homeless. but i did get a bike but not an expensive one. his was more worn out and i could tell it was a mountain bike by the treds and by the coloration of the bike due to prior work of me being a bicycle worker.

well that was pretty much the highlight of my day i guess you could say.

i have too much shit in my room and i want to save up to buy my freekin 2ds since my old first model 3ds died about a year ago i had it since 3ds first came out cause i had money from doing chores when my grandmother was still alive that i bought it with my own money... regret ever doing it but i want to get a 2ds and im close to getting it im currently at like $30 and im about mmmmm $50 short plus tax. so guess ill be selling crap here and there when i can get to it.

might sell some old gameboy games and other electronic games i have lying around the house that i no longer play. hmmmm wonder how much a nintendo 64 would go for.

i currently have a nintendo ds lite that is lightly used it has only 1 crack but it is still very useable. and i have pokemon heart gold. ide like to try and sell these 2 together and just get $80 so that i can have some money prepared for when pokemon moon and sun come out.