I'm always trying to find ways to give me that boost I need to pick up and draw something, perhaps I just try to hard and always see everything that is incorrect instead of enjoying myself while I draw. Maybe I begin to make drawing feel like work instead of relaxing and letting my creativity flow. But I really hope I can break that barrier and really just start enjoying it for its creativity and fun! I love art so much and I need to stop setting standards on myself that begin to become a burden, it may even make everything I draw look to forced? I do certainly hope I can create a new path that can give me the enjoyment I so much want, one that will have me looking forward to sketching and drawing for the shear fun of it! Yup, I just needed to write something to ease my mind a little. Hope everybody is doing great!!! =D

We may be down, but were not out! Ya can't count us out were liven underground in prairie dog town!

https://youtu.be/PnrZug7yZ3Q

I have decided to take a look at Siri's Design and fix some things. I am making a Reference sheet for him and adjusting his Fur Pattern, not much will change but i am going to just be cleaning him up. I am mostly doing this because he doesn't have a reference sheet, and i wanted his stars to represent something more so he will have exactly twelve blue stars! so fun! fun! =D

I'm gonna update why profile soon when i get a chance, i am temporary out of work so if i can manage to catch a Commission or two it would be super helpful in the mean time~ ^-^

i have done nothing but sit in front of my computer endlessly reading and drawing a few doodles, i'm learning how to use video editing software and uploading YouTube stuff. i'm having so much fun now and i feel like my creativity is finally coming back to light, thank you everyone who helped me get over my stuiped depressing slump, why must i be so emotional. hopefully i'll be back to uploading art again real soon! =3 LETS BEE CREATAVE!!!

I really need to learn to obsessively hit save when i'm drawing stuff.... =[ pain!!!!
I've been fighting for inspiration lately but i just can't bring myself to do anything, i wish i could shake it off. i just wish i could go back to being my happy go lucky self but the truth is no matter how hard i try i can't, i can pretend to be happy or shed some happiness upon others but i'm just so bummed for some reason and i'm just trying to fix it. i hate being depressed.

So what a day, worked my butt of all day and impressed the big guy i suppose. been thinking a lot, well i always do think a lot but gosh getting rid of all the negative people in my life has been such an improvement in my life. iv'e made a lot of amazing furry friends sense i opened up to the community and its just the greatest feeling in the worlds, i used to be this depressed lonely person that hid himself from everybody. But look at me know strong and glowing like a star in my own happiness, giving all my new friends a smile is just the most amazing feeling in the world to me and i continue to do just that until my final breath has been taken. all my old friends sit and say who are you, well i'm me and iv'e finally broke free from my shell, and i love me so i'll never change a thing. i can finally express myself thanks to all you who have inspired me and shown me that what i was so afraid to show was just negative people in my life suppressing me to be all i can be. thank you all and i'm still working on my thank you picture for the special few that have meant so much to me these past months, thank you!

No matter how hard I try to make everybody happy it always seems like somebody is always left unsatisfied with me, I try to make room for everybody but I'm only one person and I can't tend to everybody. Then attack me and make me feel like shit because I didn't get to you? Make me feel like the biggest piece of shit in the world because I can't be in two places at once?? Why must people be so mean, I'm sensitive and it hurts. I tried ok! But for real, why do you gotta make me cry... I just want everybody to be happy, and be that person who could make some bodies day a little brighter. I can only do so much....

I apologize, something came up so my stream will be taking place all afternoon tomarrow. I'm gonna draw as long as possible tomarrow sense I have no plans!

If anybody is interested I would like to stream on Picarto.tv later tonight, I have fiddled with the streaming program so it should be a better quality stream then last time. I need to motivate my butt to start and finish a project I have had in mind for awhile so feel free to watch if you like! =3 I will post again when I'm live! Don't feel obligated to watch if your a busy bee xD

I won a raffle from the amazing ShoatGeep! I'm so happy and thankful x3

So I got me a Boom Mic and a Logitech computer camera! Can't wait to find reasons to use it! I'll probably have to adjust my mic and junk as I go but I have no idea, it's all new for me xD

I'm so sorry i don't post any art much during the week. i work a full time job and its physically exhausting everyday leaving me with little drive and focus at the end of each day, i go throughout the day wanting to draw when i get home but as soon as i finally get let loose the tiredness catches up with me. i hope you guys understand, though i will push to, at least put one or two things out every weekend as best i can. i feel like such a let down everyday i don't post something so i figured doing a little bit more journal action may balance things out a little. its just so hard to put everything into my art when i can barley move my arm or keep my eyes open, but on a brighter note i have an amazing tribute piece i'm gonna work on soon to thank all my close friends here at FA that have given me such a warm, loving welcome so, stay tuned you guys. ;D

Oh!! And if anybody has any fun questions, writing activities, anything at all please do ask or suggest! I need to spice this boring page up some what!! perhaps I could make use of this journal and so on, I can post on this much easier then drawing after a tiresome day of work x3

well ,that was a learning experience i suppose. and sorry if i bored you all to tears...

drawing tonight after work, maybe I should stream? feeling creative! working on a concept for Anthro Sirius, and perhaps begin my art trade with Chari! =3

So Brush got me to download the Skype so now I havz the Skype!

My Skype is of course Mega_Ferret x3