I’ve been following the Artemis Program for several years at this point. Launch of Artemis 2 is a big deal since this was NASA’s first manned mission to the moon since Apollo 17 back in 1972. On top of that, most of the people who are alive today weren’t even around during the Apollo Program. The Artemis 2 mission was supposed to launch in February but got postponed by 2 months because of a fuel leak. Luckily that was fixed and the crew went to space on April 1 of all days. The mission was not a manned moon landing because NASA doesn’t have a lunar module that’s currently operational. So the mission itself was similar to Apollo 8 where they did a flyby of the moon before returning to earth. Speaking of which, one of the Apollo 8 astronauts, Frank Borman, was on my dad’s radio show about 20 years ago. Another thing about Artemis 2 is that the crew actually traveled farther from earth compared to any previous crew. The previous record was held by Apollo 13, and it stood there for 56 years. What’s ironic is that the crew of Artemis 2 returned to earth on the day before the 56th anniversary of the launch of Apollo 13. If that’s not enough, the movie Apollo 13 was released in 1995, just 25 years after the real mission. It’s strange how the movie’s release date is closer to the launch date of the actual mission compared to the present day.

Song for This Journal Entry: https://youtu.be/Hi3mrhdc1_k?si=uL2GlRfHuw1YI_2_

DeviantArt has been around since 2000. I first heard of it in 2007. Not only did I see artwork on there, but also flash games back in the days when Adobe Flash Player was a thing. Around 2018, I considered signing up for DeviantArt so I could upload my stories and try to reach more people with them. The thing is I never went through with it because I never found the time to sign up for it. Years after that, videos on YouTube started popping up about the site’s downfall. A friend of mine on Facebook said that he deleted his DeviantArt account because of the creeps on the site and because the site allows AI slop to be posted. The way I see it, I’m glad I never joined DeviantArt. At least FurAffinity and Newgrounds had the decency to ban AI slop from being posted. As for DeviantArt, that’s just gonna steer people away. Things are only getting worse for the site with them discontinuing their mobile app, limiting downloads to only 10 per week, and various other issues. I don’t see the point in signing up for DeviantArt, and I’m glad I never went through with it. One of my Bluesky mutuals said that he is considering deleting his DeviantArt account. The downside is that his artwork dating back to 2007 will become lost if he goes through with that. He does have the option of backing that stuff up however. That being said, I’ll never sign up for DeviantArt, and I don’t know how much longer the site will last.

Song for This Journal Entry: https://youtu.be/SSJUcASLHjE?si=TY8yEiTAofQDxoEe

I compiled a playlist of my all time favorite Ministry songs. Feel free to check it out for yourself.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....a3bJl6sAoUsd8k

The newest part of my album review series is focused on the albums by Ministry. Below is a link to my review of their debut album.

https://youtu.be/jSpnF_PqE78?si=NSe-CnyuX_tla2Py

I just uploaded the latest episode of Every Album Ranked. This time, it’s on the albums by Fear Factory.
https://youtu.be/hOOoFVaVmPQ?si=qE_O_RbGkalm8G84

Recently, two associates of mine started rewatching Brickleberry on Tubi. The show aired on Comedy Central between 2012 and 2015 over the course of 3 seasons. Admittedly, I’ve only seen the first two seasons. Season 1 was bad, but season 2 was even worse. I never bothered watching season 3. It wasn’t until sometime after the show ended when I saw videos popping up on YouTube saying that it’s one of the worst adult animated series. The way I see it, Brickleberry is a prime example of a show that tried WAY too hard to be edgy. A running gag on the show was all the animals getting killed, but I never found that to be funny despite the fact that they’re not real. Shock humor can be done right, but Brickleberry fails spectacularly in this case. It’s like Comedy Central wanted the show to be South Park 2.0, but most people including myself view South Park as being superior in just about every way. People bring up Ugly Americans and Drawn Together by pointing out the positives of those shows, even though I’ve only seen a handful of episodes of those two shows. Comedy Central has had other failed experiments including Legends of Chamberlain Heights and Fairview, which faded away and I never bothered watching them. So is Brickleberry the worst Comedy Central show? Well, it is the worst that I’ve ever personally seen. I didn’t bother with season 3, and I don’t give a shit. The show aged worse than any other show I’ve seen, it demonstrates why the 2010s sucked worse than the 2000s, and I won’t be revisiting the show anytime soon. I don’t condone harassing or threatening anyone involved with the making of the show. Just do the smart thing and leave them alone.

Song for This Journal Entry: https://youtu.be/Ah0eU7U5cXo?si=3Bo5KgPegrJp3_mw

I recently got my Foxy Youtooz plush in the mail, and here’s my review.
https://youtu.be/ih2fAGn02F4?si=530si_b3DkIql6B9

I recently got my Diane Foxington Youtooz plush in the mail, and below is a link to my review.
https://youtu.be/jpiTd9ppNQ8?si=j2zu6LoaN1zZMTTt

Recently I read online that Disney has pulled the plug on their live action remake of the film Robin Hood from 1973. I first heard about the project in 2020, and I had mixed feelings about it. The film from 1973 is a cult classic, especially among furries. Hell, I’ve met my share of Gen X’ers and millennials who became furries thanks to that movie. My mom once told me that she saw it in the theater back in 1973, and she enjoyed it. On top of that, I have a friend on Facebook who portrayed Robin Hood at Disneyland decades ago, and he provided proof of this. I had mixed feelings about the remake when it was announced because I didn’t really see the point of it. Little was heard about the project over the next 6 years, and I was starting to question whether or not the film had fallen into development hell or got flat out canceled. Now we finally have an answer. From what I’ve seen is that most people are glad that the remake was canceled. I brought up the remake’s cancellation to one of my Twitter mutuals, and he said that if the 1973 Robin Hood was going to get remade, then they should get the team behind Zootopia to make it. That would be interesting to see, but I don’t think it’s gonna happen. Furries sure as hell are glad the remake was canceled, and a lot of whom grew up with the 1973 film. That being said, the cancellation of Disney’s Robin Hood is the kind of positivity we need with all the fucked up shit going on in the world.

Song for this Journal Entry: https://youtu.be/42_her_xr_g?si=Oh5C3JIMazkoqzSl

Lately, the current war against Iran has had me thinking about the album Year Zero by Nine Inch Nails. The album was released in 2007, and it’s a concept album set in 2022. Part of the concept focuses on a war between the US and Iran, hence all the military themes. Nine Inch Nails were just off by 4 years. Granted the album was made during that shitshow that was the Bush Administration, and Nine Inch Nails were far from being the only band saying “fuck you” to that administration. It’s one of several anti-Bush albums that were released during the 2000s as well as one of the very best. It is my favorite Nine Inch Nails album, even though The Downward Spiral is still the best. With the way shit is going on in this fucked up world, Year Zero could just as easily apply to Trump as would be the case with various other anti-Bush songs and albums. I have considered making a video about what I think are the best anti-Bush albums. Really one of the only good things about that shitshow of a decade that was the 2000s were the various rock and metal albums that came out, especially the anti-Bush albums. I did review Year Zero 5 years ago, and it’s one of my favorite reviews that I’ve done partially because of how fascinated I was by the story behind the album. Granted my favorite anti-Bush album is The Last Sucker by Ministry, and I’ll get around to reviewing it eventually.

Song for this Journal Entry: https://youtu.be/qSsRt_1l740?si=OicjiyAn75Tnc83f

Over the past week and a half, I’ve been battling influenza-A. I got it from some piece of trash at my store who was coughing on everything without covering its mouth. My dad and my brother also got it, but their symptoms were worse than mine. Before this shitshow, February 17 of this bullshit year was my most disgusting day at work. What made it so disgusting was that flu spreaders were coughing and sneezing without covering their mouths. To make things worse, some kid was throwing up all over the floor near my register, and I felt bad for the coworker who was unfortunate enough to clean it up. Even though it was my most disgusting day at work, it was far from being my worst. The pattern is that every time I have a disgusting day, it’s always followed by something worse. The flu is something worse. I was taking Mucinex, Airborne, ibuprofen, and cough medicine on a daily basis. This illness was much worse than what I suffered back in November. Having the flu made me realize that the most disgusting customers aren’t the ones who smell like they’ve never heard of a shower; the worst and most disgusting customers are actually the ones who deliberately cough and sneeze everywhere without covering their mouths. Everyone who does that is a biohazard to the general public. I had to put a mask on and wear it for the rest of the store hours the moment I saw some kid coughing without covering his mouth. Seriously, I can’t deal with those people that are trying to get literally everyone sick. Those people are the reason why influenza-A is spreading everywhere, and they make me want to start carrying Lysol with me wherever I go 😷☣️

Song for this journal entry: https://youtu.be/U7G6GbTMOtg?si=Zbzr8cxLnXY7C5-4

Recently on YouTube, I uploaded my review of the Verosika premium plush. Below is a link to my review.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kKTvxPIoWzE

The next part of my album review series is focusing on the albums by Fear Factory, starting with their debut album Soul of a New Machine. Below is a link to my review.

https://youtu.be/x9YpwlLxnNo?si=5DGsrc1P1HxjUvP2

February 14, 2006 was the last time I ever celebrated Valentines Day. Things went normal during the day. It was at night when shit hit the fan. Me and my brother were watching tv. We started arguing about something, but I can’t remember what it was. My dad came in piss ass drunk, grabbed me, and slammed me against my dresser, causing me to bleed all over my school folder. The motherfucker doesn’t even remember what he did to me because he blacked out after assaulting me. Earlier that day, my mom gave me a sticker that she claimed was worth $10. I destroyed it after being assaulted. After that traumatic event, I swore to never celebrate Valentines Day ever again. Easter of 2009 wasn’t as bad given the fact that my dad got drunk off his ass and threw me against the wall. That assault wasn’t as bad as what happened 3 years earlier given the fact that I wasn’t bleeding this time, and I still celebrate Easter. However, I can’t celebrate Valentines Day, especially with all those scammers, conformists, and corporate pigs shoving it down people’s throats. My hatred towards Valentines Day elevated in 2018, and you can probably guess why. 2021 marked the 15th anniversary of when I stopped celebrating Valentines Day. As you may have guessed, my dad got drunk off his ass again. This time, he was harassing me for no apparent reason. My hatred towards Valentines Day has only grown since. Every time I see my dad on this bullshit scam of a holiday, I look at him with rage because of what he did to me. I’ll never buy any Valentines Day shit. I’ll never give anyone gifts for this bullshit holiday. I’ll never ask anyone to be my valentine, and there’s no fucking way I’ll ever accept an offer from some empty headed fuck nugget making a post asking to be someone’s valentine. What fucking moron asks a question like that? The dumbfucks that ask people to be their valentine just want to treat people like shit because every single one of them is full of shit. In the words of Mike Muir: “I’d rather feel like shit than be full of shit!” My dad is the reason why I don’t celebrate Valentines Day anymore. I have photographed the dresser that he slammed me against 20 years ago. Even if he were to somehow apologize for what he did to me, there’s no fucking way I could ever accept his apology. That is what domestic violence does to you. In the words of Jonathan Davis: “Fuck you. I’m fed up with you. I’m not as good as you. Fuck no, I’m better than you.” That being said, fuck Valentines Day into oblivion! 🖕🏻🤬

Song for this Journal Entry: https://youtu.be/HDNcwfdSlhQ?si=2dsvWFAVG0318SUV

This afternoon, I finished and proofread Hell’s Archangel 6: The Insane Beginning. It was initially going to be a prequel to the first story. It does start out that way, but also bridges the gap between the first and second stories. The rest of the story takes place after the events of Hell’s Archangel 5: Desensitized to Violence. Although Hell’s Archangel 6 is the most fucked up story I’ve ever written, I don’t think I went too far. Some of the things that happened to Layne Shadows were based on things that actually happened to me. One example being Layne being assaulted by his father on Valentines Day when he was 11, effectively destroying the holiday for him. This is based on something that happened to me on Valentines Day of 2006. Another example was when Layne was 14 on Sinsmas, and his father got drunk off his ass. This was based on my dad’s drunk behavior on Christmas 2025. One of the most fucked up parts of the story was Layne described as the “parade of disasters”, directly referencing that particular level from Postal. Like I said before, the stories were influenced by Natural Born Killers, Helluva Boss, the Postal games, Hatred, the Manhunt games, and The Punisher. Natural Born Killers essentially became the basis for me to start writing these stories. The part of Hell’s Archangel 6 where Arlandria Kilmister burns her ex-boyfriend, Victor, to death is a direct reference to Natural Born Killers. The final showdown between The Hellhounds and The Heavenhounds does have some inspiration from Hazbin Hotel, and that scene was very bloody. The part where Arlandria Kilmister killed Arlen Keller was a reference to the movie Timecop. Just as a disclaimer, I don’t write these stories to be edgy; I write them to blow off some fucking steam. The blood and gore is primarily for shock value, as is the case with every other story I’ve written containing strong, bloody violence. While I feel like I may have gone a little too far with Hell’s Archangel 5, I don’t feel that way with number 6 despite the fact that it’s way more fucked up. Hell’s Archangel 6 is also tied with Hell’s Archangel 2 for being the longest story I’ve ever written, and I had no idea just how long it was until I converted it to a PDF file. Whether or not I’ll write a 7th installment in the saga has yet to be seen. I’m not gonna stop writing stories anytime soon. Although I’ll never write as many stories as Harlan Ellison ever wrote, I’m gonna keep writing the stuff that I feel like I need to write, especially if they help to flesh out the characters more.

Song for this Journal Entry:
https://youtu.be/PIlpwuu3NlA?si=qzKSUm1zg0r0o0_R

Last night, I uploaded my video where I ranked all of the albums by Black Veil Brides from weakest to best.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MeYXIw_vdxE

For the next part of my album review series, I’m reviewing the albums by Black Veil Brides, one of the most misjudged bands of the 2010s. Below is a link to my review of their debut album.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bo12I2bj2Ss

It’s that time of year again where I compile a list of what I think are the best albums of the year. Below is a link to my video about my picks for the best albums of 2025.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E0Ld6Kug9tM

A few days ago, I posted a hot take on Facebook, Twitter, and Bluesky. My hot take was that I find National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation to be a better Christmas movie than Elf. I posted it expecting backlash, but no. People who saw my posts agreed with me. Hell, one of my mutuals on Twitter replied to me saying that he grew up with Christmas Vacation, and I ended up liking his reply since the film is regarded as a Christmas classic. As for Elf, I never really gave a shit about it. Hell, I never even finished watching the damn movie. Every time I see memes related to Elf, I just keep scrolling because it’s like Napoleon Dynamite. What I mean is that I find it to be among the most overrated films of the 2000s. Some people from my shitty generation claim that the 2000s was a good time to be alive, but they’re completely ignoring the fact that the majority of that shitshow of a decade was during the Bush Administration. I was born in 1994, and I’m not ashamed to admit that I do enjoy my share of movies that are years or even decades older than I am. Hell, I watch the first two Die Hard movies this time of year because they are in fact Christmas movies. That being said, Christmas Vacation is superior to Elf in just about every way, and I need to rewatch it at some point.

I recently uploaded a video where I rank all the albums by Pearl Jam from weakest to best. Below is a link to my video, though some of my opinions may be controversial. I hope you enjoy it!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JptnZ5zhLmU

I’ve been planning on writing this journal entry for some time. Christmas of 2014 was in fact my worst Christmas. This is because that morning, my computer crashed and I lost everything. I had that laptop for 2 years. August of 2014 was when the screen became too dark for me to see anything. After that, it was rare when the screen would light up normally. Fast forward to Christmas when my computer shit itself and deleted everything. Nothing could be recovered. One thing I need to mention is that on that computer, there was a secret folder titled “Past Assignments”. That folder was where I stored furry porn that I had downloaded from FurAffinity, Tumblr, and e621. The reason why it was titled “Past Assignments” was to trick anyone into thinking that was where I kept assignments that I had completed for college. No one ever found that folder. One time, I was almost caught when my stalker opened my door and nearly caused me to suffer a heart attack. When my computer crashed, everything including the contents of that folder was gone. Looking back, it’s for the best that everything was deleted because some of the artwork in there was made by artists who turned out to be scammers or zoophiles, and I just didn’t realize it until years later. I haven’t had a folder like that on any computer since, and no Christmas I had was as catastrophic as 2014. Christmas of 2015 was when I had received a new laptop. This one lasted until October of 2022, but that’s a story for another day.

I just uploaded my 500th album review, and it’s on Pearl Jam’s Unplugged album.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bNZMVE4Ope8

Some of you probably know about Michael Racer (my fursona and main protagonist of my series of stories called The Blacklist) and Layne Shadows (the main protagonist of my Hell’s Archangel stories). Both characters have their share of similarities with each other: they’re both guys are bisexual, they have a lot of martial arts and weapons training, they’re always bare pawed, they each have a paw fetish, their lovers love paws, they’re professional musicians, they both own black 1982 Pontiac Trans Ams, and they wear black trench coats and black jeans. However, they also have their share of differences:
- Michael is a raccoon while Layne is a hellhound.
- Layne is the biggest horn dog in my roster while Michael isn’t quite as horny
- Layne is my most muscular OC while Michael is slender looking
- Layne is a mass murderer and an arsonist while Michael is a contract killer
- Michael uses armor piercing bullets while Layne switched from armor piercing to hollow point bullets

Both characters have their shares of similarities and differences from one another. Now I’m going to explain which characters inspired their creations:

Michael was originally going to be called Michael Racer Raccoon and was going to be more comedic. The name was simplified to Michael Racer and he evolved into a serious character with a pretty messed up sense of humor. The reason why I wanted him to be a raccoon is because I thought that’d be the best fit for my personality. He was conceptualized in 2010, and first appeared in artwork and a story in 2014. The two characters who influenced him were Rocket Raccoon and John Wick. It makes sense why I would compare Michael to Rocket since they’re both anthro raccoons, they’re very skilled with guns, they swear a lot (though Michael swears more), they have that “don’t fuck with me” appearance and attitude, they’ve been shot multiple times, and they’re always bare pawed. Michael is usually calmer than Rocket, but can get significantly more pissed off than him. It is fair to compare Michael to John Wick since both characters have been through hell, they’ve killed hundreds of dickheads, they really like muscle cars, and they each used pencils to kill enemies. In fact, Michael and John will use just about anything they can get a hold of in order to kill the enemy. The fact that Michael and several other characters of mine wear trench coats is mainly because they look cool and I like to pay homage to The Matrix films.

Layne Shadows was originally gonna be called Michael Shadows, but I already have two other OCs named Michael. I was also considering Chris to be his first name, but I figured that name was too common. I ultimately decided to name him Layne after Layne Staley. His middle name Weiland comes from the surname of Scott Weiland, and the last name Shadows comes from that of M. Shadows. Layne was conceptualized in late 2021, except he was created out of rage and that I needed to write a story starring him. That story was Hell’s Archangel, which I had written the following year. June of 2024 was when I finally got artwork of him. His design looks like a combination of Loona and The Antagonist (the character the player controls in Hatred). I wanted Layne to have Loona’s fur colors and patterns while also dressed similar to The Antagonist and having his hairstyle. Layne also has elements of Postal Dude, which does make sense because the Postal games helped inspire me to write the Hell’s Archangel stories. Layne may look like a furry version of The Antagonist, but he’s actually more like The Punisher because of some of his execution methods and the fact that he doesn’t kill innocents. It would also be fair to compare Layne to Trevor Philips from GTA V since they’re both psychotic mass murderers who are on drugs. It’s just that Trevor does meth while Layne does amphetamines. Trevor also kills cops indiscriminately since he’s a GTA protagonist. Layne on the other hand only kills dirty cops. Layne may look like a male version of Loona, but he looks drastically different from her. He’s not 100% a Helluva Boss OC since I primarily created him for the Hell’s Archangel Saga, but he has appeared in most of my Helluva Boss fanfics. I know that a lot of people ship their Helluva Boss OCs to be in a relationship with Loona, but Layne is a step below that and is only friends with her despite having sex with her and having fun with her paws. Some people’s OCs are close to Loona’s age, but Layne is way older than her. I don’t judge people who ship their OCs with Loona and just let them do what they want. While Layne is a psychotic mass murderer on amphetamines, he does show love for his wife and bandmates.

So that’s basically all I have to say about the inspirations for Michael Racer and Layne Shadows. I’m gonna leave links to where you can read about their bios:

Michael Racer: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59354158/
Layne Shadows: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57086653/

Last night, I uploaded a video expressing my thoughts on the recent investigation type videos from Mr. Enter.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4itzsUl91fI

Over the years, a number of false accusations have been made against me with no evidence to back them up. One example was in 2012 when I was in therapy. My mom told the therapist that I was enrolled in a catholic school at one time. She didn’t give a shit that she lied to the therapist. Obviously, I’ve been an Atheist my entire life and I never once set foot on the campus of any religious schools. She also said something about my enjoying wearing a uniform, which was another false claim because no school I ever attended required students to wear uniforms. I did eventually forgive my mom despite the fact that there are no records of me attending any catholic schools. Hell, I don’t even know the names of any. My brother once made some shit up about me going to something called Our Lady of Lords. What the actual fuck is he even talking about, and how much absinthe did he drink? Our Lady of Lords sounds like the name of a cult that he made up. In 2018, he accused me of being a zoophile, which doesn’t even make any sense. Hell, I’ve never even kissed an animal. A lot of false accusations that were made against me came from my dad. He once accused me of having ass burgers, despite the fact that there’s never been any burgers in my ass. He also accused me of having an abusive mouth, which is one of many examples of him pinning his bullshit on me. How the fuck am I the one with an abusive mouth when he has a long track record of harassment, death threats, gaslighting, body shaming, false accusations, playing the victim card, binge drinking, domestic violence, and stalking? The motherfucker is the most problematic person in my toxic ass family, and he destroyed Valentines Day for me in 2006. When I was battling depression, the motherfucker accused me of making myself depressed. How the fuck is that supposed to make sense? That son of a bitch treats mental illness as a joke. Seriously, that motherfucker needs to stop with the false accusations unless he wants me to file a restraining order. Don’t even get me started on the transphobes that accused me of misogyny in May of this bullshit year. Some of the transphobes even accused me of being creepy as if I was a serial killer or some shit like that. People like that are the reason why restraining orders exist.