yay, I'm 30 now. *waves cane around* all you dang furs get off mah lawn!

Hey everyone, I know it's been a long while since I've posted anything actually like...personal to me (geeze, over a year ago...) here, but something popped up that even if I can't do much, I want to help as much as I can.

one of my good friends, Askir/Skully, ran into some issues, and is struggling to stay afloat financially atm. he needs to raise enough money to..hopefully get him to a point where he can recover. I don't normally post a lot of stuff like this, but he's a good friend and anything you guys can do to support him would be much appreciated. I don't have a job right now, so the most I can do is spread the word. If any of you guys are willing to do so as well, I know he and I would appreciate it greatly

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9716452

here's his journal with more information. Even if you can't donate or spread the word, thank you for taking the time to read this guys. Happy holidays, and stay safe during the insanity that is this year.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37592565/
Always good to enter! And with an amazing artist too!

happy birthday to me.

Alright so, I'm gonna try to explain this as best I can without my usual rambling. I'll give a TL:DR at the bottom as well so if you don't wanna read it all, by all means skip down there.

First and foremost, a lot of you may have noticed I've gotten quite a few pictures of Axel done in a short amount of time, despite him being a semi-new character. (Some of which I actually havent posted)

Full disclosure, Axel is actually my main character from an rp universe with someone who I'm no longer friends with, but I loved being him too much to let him go, so I reworked/revamped his story a bit to fit outside of that universe (this is also why he cannot "return to his previous dimension" in any rps, for those of you who have met him. His dimension is literally an rp universe with someone I'm no longer friends with).

Axel is a character who in that universe, and in general, I just kinda...clicked with. The reasoning behind it is something more personal and I really only feel comfortable telling to very close friends, I do appologize. If you want to know, ask me.

That being said, with how dear he is to me and how much I kinda...click with him....sometimes more deeply than even Midnight, I've done a lot of thinking over, and I've decided that Axel will be my tertiary sona. Midnight will still be my main, and Dawex my secondary.

Each of my three sonas represent me in different ways.

My friend  orn_navnik actually explained it in a way far better than I can, so I'm going to copy-paste what he said to me.

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I can very much tell, whereas Dawex and Midnight represent certain aspects of you, Axel feels more synced up with who you really are


like... I'm just spitballing here so don't take it personally, but like, dawex seems a lot like this retreated, soft and hurt character, a lot of a representation of your struggles and your desire to just retreat from everything, and through RP you kind of in a way give that part of you some love.
Midnight represents in many ways how you'd like to see yourself, wronged, hurt, but still standing and stronger than ever, not afraid of anything or anyone, doing what's right.
But Axel... he kinda seems a lot like how you really are, you're hurt, gone through a lot of shit, but still moving foreward, curious, excitable, and very good natured

At the same time ofc, being your characters, and aspects of yourself, you only share them with people you trust... like... I just kinda feel that if you would not be resitricted by all the bullshit of the world, you'd be a lot like axel just in your day to day life"

Midnight is a lot of what I wish I could be more like, Dawex is my vulnerable side and the one I use to feel loved and cared for, and Axel is the one who most resonates as just...who I actually am. I know this may seem hypocritical of me considering my feelings on people who have like 5 bajillion sonas, but I feel like 3 (and for these reasons) is at least semi-reasonable.

NOW, on to subject two:

I am going to be revamping my entire profile, slowly but surely. My profile has been cluttered and messy and unorganized for years, even after the release of the folders. I don't tag my images, my stories don't have any thumbnail whatsoever, etc. So, with the help of Spirit, due to my own struggles with organization, I plan to completely revamp and reorganize my profile slowly but surely. Tagging images, rewriting my profile introduction thing on the front page, making folders for characters and/or kinks, changing descriptions of some images to give brief insight onto the characters, as well as other quality of life changes.

Please bare with me everyone on this, as it will be a bit of an adjustment for me to on both fronts (Axel and the Revamp), but I hope that the page (and I) come out feeling more accomplished in the end.

TL;DR-Axel is now my tertiary sona, and my page is getting a revamp.

Hope you all have a wonderful day, and wish me luck!

*Stumbles in weakly, sighing as I flick my hand, Nature Within Darkness slowly flashing out of my claws with a mixture of green and black mists, collapsing onto one knee* done...

Advanced warning to all! Starting tomorrow, 1/28/19, at appx 10 PM EST...I am essentially going internet dark. That means sites, IMs, etc. even if you have my phone number responding to texts will likely be rare.
I am holing myself up in my room and playing the everloving HELL out of Kingdom Hearts 3. See you all soon!

Just wanted to put this here, because looking through pictures and things recently I realized this may be a misconception about some of my characters that I wanted to clarify.

by default, most of my characters who are a dom or a pred, are more of the loving/soft/gentle giant/protective pred who just wants to keep loved ones safe in their belly (while also enjoying feeling so full and big, hefty and soft), than they are a rampaging, digestion loving monster who just loves causing fear and destruction.

While they can get moods like this, by default they are more gentle and caring about those fetishes unless others show more of an intrest in...other aspects of it.

So I'll keep this fairly short.

This has only happened to me twice (once it turned out better, once worse), but as such I feel it needs to be brought to attention.

If you want to talk with me, or try to get to know me or be my friend, please, by all means NOTE me and perhaps chat a bit there, or ask a bit plainly if I'd be up for discussing on IMs and getting to know you. I really don't take too kindly to random people I have never met looking up my Telegram or Discord, and then sending me a message without any warning.
Bonus weirdness points if the message is instantly flirty or "murrpurr" without even knowing me. I want friends, not fuck buddies. By all means, shoot me a note or if you NEED to directly message me via IMs, feel free, I love making friends! But please know I want to make FRIENDS, not just find random people to murr rp with.

I know that in a lot of my descriptions and comments I appear flirty or very...sexual so to speak. Especially in pictures with Midnight. So I'll add a clarification here:

Anytime that I am commenting on one of my pictures with something flirtatious or dominant or something of the like, I am playing Midngiht in character. Midnight himself is very flirtatious and sexual and loves others 'appreciating' all that he has. But that does not mean it translates to me, as a person.

So in short: please try to keep starting messaging or friendships with me as that, starting a friendship, and err on the side of caution as opposed to diving in full force.

Hey all, just wanted to give you all a warning that if I seem a bit...off in the next few days I'm...trying to kinda deal with a big hit that my mood took earlier today. I found out my grandmother died and...it was the grandmother I'm closest to. The one who Midnight's grandmother was based off of. The reason Steele and Lumera would refer to grandparents as Nanny and Papa...
So...I lost Papa many years ago and now Nanny too...so...I may be kinda...sad for a few days...

Just figured I'd let everyone know I'm leaving on friday to go LARPing for a weekend, so I wont be too available. See you all soon!

Just figured I'd let everyone know I'm gonna be heading off to Florida for a family vacation on Sunday, and we plan to stay there till...I think Wednesday is when we are flying home? so I'll be scarce to find on my usual IM services most likely, so please keep that in mind if I dont seem to be responding!

Until Hatchday derg on the 26th. *pops party popper* yaaaay. I'm getting old @.@
oh well. another year, another few feet. not like I'm complaining~ Doubt any of you will either.

So I'll keep it fairly short, and simple since I gotta finish preparing to leave but just wanted to let everyone know that I'm going to be going to visit my girlfriend,  neffertity for the next 5 days! So if you dont see me online much on Discord, Telegram, Skype or here, it's likely cuz I'm busy spending time with her. I'll get back to everyone as soon as possible but just know that the next few days I may be slow to respond! See you all soon!

Rest in Peace Chester Bennington, you will be sorely missed.
For those of you who don't know, Chester Bennington, the lead singer of Linkin Park, my favorite band killed himself today.
He meant a lot to me as far as inspiration goes toward a major character of mine, Sivu, and as far as him being a lead singer of my favorite band.
we'll miss you Chester, keep living life and rocking on in the next life.

Alright everyone, I really think I should be uploading a bit more, so I wanted to get some opinions on what people wanna see more of. I've got hyper, fat, macro, you all know the stuff I like. Varying characters, qualities of art, artists, etc. I just wanna know what people want to see more of, and I'll try to start posting art I've gotten a bit more often

When I try to explain the plot to a non-fan:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYMO4f0AsjM

When I try to explain the xeanorts:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ydq.....IQ&index=1

So here's the short of it:
I'm considering making Dawex a male-herm by default. I've been playing him as a male-herm...as in like...a male who just...has a slit and teets on his belly fairly often in some rps recently and...I'm really liking it, it just feels...good. When I'm playing Dawex that way it feels kinda nice since he's kinda my more "subby" side, to have a slit and be able to use that o get a big, hefty preggy belly >///<
so...I was just wondering on everyone's thoughts. I'm considering basically making him a male herm, but still with a respectable package, about this size: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/22797884/
So...thoughts?

This is something I've wanted to bring up for a while but...really could never find the words. At work earlier today I thought of a quote that really set me off to explaining this.

And this goes for most any of my characters really but Midnight hears this flack the most.

*clears throat*

MIDNIGHT. IS NOT. OP. He is not a sue, and he is not some godly character.

He might be more powerful than your character yes, but you need to keep in mind...ALL characters in my universe who are proficient at fighting, fight near his level. EVERYONE in my universe is powerful. If somebody wasnt, they would be destroyed very quickly. My universe is not one of weak creatures no...almost any creature in my universe can NATURALLY become extremely powerful.

So yes, to your characters maybe he is overtuned and strong...but to help you understand how, in the context of the world they are from, my characters are not overpowered...allow me to turn you to a quote from Disney's The Incredibles:

"And when everyone's super? *chuckles softly* ...no one will be"-Syndrome

That there...describes this issue perfectly. In my universe being that powerful doesnt make you powerful...it makes you...average. If everyone in a universe is a superhero...is anybody really a superhero? No...because it is normal. It's not "super" or out of hte ordinary. in that universe...it is the norm, and widely accepted as such.
My universe is much like that. So to anyone who has ever thought Midnight is overpowered, please, think about it from that perspective.

You all know the mission and what is at stake. I have come to trust each of you with my life, but I have also heard murmurs of discontent. I share your concerns.
We are trained for espionage. We would be legends, but the records are sealed. Glory in battle is not our way.
Think of our heroes: the Silent Step, who defeated a nation with a single shot. Or the Ever Alert, who kept armies at bay with hidden facts.
These giants do not seem to give us solace here, but they are not all that we are. Before the network, there was the fleet. Before diplomacy, there were soldiers.
Our influence stopped the Force Awakens, but before that, we held the line. Our influence stopped the Hunger Games, but before that, we held the line!
Our influence will stop Rouge One! in the battle today, we will hold the line!

*roars, as I fly off into the theater, broom drawn*

WARNING. WARNING. MAJOR WINGS OF FIRE SPOILERS AHEAD. UNLESS YOU HAVE READ UP UNTIL BOOK 8 IN THE SERIES DO NOT READ THE FOLLOWING. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.


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So consideing how IN LOVE I have become with the Wings of Fire series...I decided to make my own fan character. I just couldn't NOT have one. and I may have more incoming. I'm definitely gonna need to have Neffy draw him, but I just wanted to get Mireshaker out there. Please forgive any errors or inconsistencies as I just kinda whipped this up in like 10 minutes, letting my mind flow. But without further ado, allow me to introduce...Mireshaker.

Name: Mireshaker

Gender: Male

Age: 6

Species: Nightwing/Mudwing hybrid

Personality: Mireshaker is a dragon who is very…complex to figure out for most others. He appears to be like most Nightwings. Gruff, rude and uncaring…but his body language tells a different story, that of one who refuses to let anyone come to harm. His parents chose to have him live with the Mudwings in the wetlands, and as such he grew to care greatly for his siblings and his family. That did not change though, how his mother’s rough personality rubbed off on him. He will defend his family, and his friends at the cost of his own life without hesitation. Just don’t expect him to be all sappy about it.

Background: Mireshaker’s parents not long after Queen Glory had taken control of the Nightwings under her own wing, and as such, the Nightwings were granted a bit more freedom as time went on. Clay brought Mudwings to visit occasionally, and help them explore the world. Eventually, this led to two of them taking quite a liking to eachother, and deciding to have a clutch back home with the Mudwings. Mireshaker himself was the BigWings of his clutch of eggs, and so he chose to do just that, protect him. His family very much considers themselves powerful, and protective allies of anyone who would give that same kindness back. And upon feeling the earth itself shake beneath their paws, they had turned their heads toward the source of the sound. The Jade Mountain Academy. Mireshaker took one look at his winglet, and they all nodded without hesitation. As they spread their wings and flew toward the mountain, where they knew surely no good would soon come, and they would need every bit of help they could get to defeat the massive, black figure slowly emerging from the mountain below.

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Yes, I have written him to basically be reacting to the ending of book 8. but I can edit things and such for rps.
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SPOILERS ARE OVER, BUT SO IS THE JOURNAL

http://midnight-yamikidate.devianta.....elow-649643111
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21912770/
Please help her if you can, trust me the plane tickets are important!

Yay.

good, now that the clickbaity title is gone since people never seen to read my journals....
the short version is this: I need opinions. Gaik and Sivu for the longest time have basically been best friends, and really close. But I'm...considering changing their relationship up a bit to one of three options.

1) they are mates. plain and simple, they love eachother, are mates, etc.
2) They consider eachother brother/sister, and share a VERY deep bond as if they grew up in the same family (much like Mid and Trigger)
3) romantic tension. Basically they both sorta have feelings, and dont even quite realize it themselves, but others see it is there and it's one of those, at the end of a story and they finally get together the audience is happy kinda thing (think DannyXSam (Danny Phantom), RonXKim (kim possible), etc)

I'm not sure if I should go for one of these three, or keep it as is for their canon selves. thoughts?