It's a slow process. I'm uploading everything that's here to there, and then I'll be uploading everything that I haven't yet uploaded over the last year or so.

Mainly doing this because of FA's resolution limits. Uploading here is a pain in the tail. It's not enough that the resolution limits are sub HD, the site can't even automatically scale things down for you, you have to do it yourself, save two versions of the same image... what a hassle

https://www.weasyl.com/~loonfrof

Edit: ohhhhkay, sub-hd was an exaggeration. But the sentiment stands. Lemme upload in 4k at least

Hi everyone. I have bad news. If you knew Aurida, that is, Geistault , or Maribelle, then you might already know. But you have the right to know. The night before last, we lost him. To suicide.

Who was Aurida? Nothing short of a legend. Everyone I know who knew him has stories. Of his ability to exploit games to absurd lengths. Or the time we all destroyed a Smash 4 request wiki and he made it so that if an article about a Waddle Dee with shutter shades were to be deleted, the whole thing would implode. Some Final Fantasy 14 glitch I don't understand. Just how much he was the embodiment of fun. Always had something fun to say. Everyone loved Aurida.

He and I connected over our mutual transformation interest, though. It's hard to describe to just anyone without it coming across like "oh, that's all he was to you?" Only we really understand, I think. It was a large part of ourselves and something that brought us joy to share, and each know the other felt the same. Becoming his friend made me feel understood and like I should be happy to be who I am. There was excitement in making stories and stuff with him. Drawing Maribelle. In just bouncing ideas off with him and having the same pitched my way. And then the tabletop games we were in together. He was an active presence and a source of joy to me up until the end, even though I never met him in person. And I am so honored to know that he considered me one of his closest friends. And I'm never going to know anyone quite like him again.

It hurts. I'm gonna get through it. But it hurts. I've never suffered a loss this close before, least of all as an adult. I am so lucky to have the friends I do who will help me through this, and likewise I'm there for them.

What will this mean for what I do here though? I am not sure. Before I talked to Aurida, I didn't draw TF often. It's been a lifelong fascination, but it takes context. It never used to be fulfilling to me to draw it before knowing Aurida and building context with Maribelle and Figaro that would give it meaning. Without him, I do not know how it will feel to draw them. Part of me thinks he would want me to. The other part, I just don't know how it would feel. Without Maribelle, I don't know if Figs' life can go on, or if I am retiring the character. It may depend on what is done with the game we were both in as those characters, when the other players and I are ready to face that. I don't see it picking up where it left off without him and Maribelle. But they may want, and may make me want, Figaro to "live". I just don't know yet.

Aurida, Aurida... I am going to miss you so much. I can't thank you enough for what you've done for me. You did transform me into a better person. A happier one. You're taking a lot with you, but not everything.

This is a thing I always struggle with. I pay attention to how I think my characters speak but when I hear it in my head their voices aren't really concrete, and it's that I hear them using words and phrases in the same way I heard them used once.

Two exceptions: Sam is not a character, he is me, and I have a voice, so. I sound like that. The other is Patch. He sounds like Filburt from Rocko's Modern Life, of all things. That's just the way it is.

So, what do you think, for Rok, Figaro, Graham and so on? Gimme some ideas! Except, if you're gonna say something from an anime, I probably won't know it, and it better be a good dub. Like Space Dandy good. And... don't say any Sonic characters if you can help it. Pretty please.

Edit: We got it, it was Narnia: Voyage of the Dawn Treader. So now we know that C.S Lewis and Houghton Mifflin conspired to make me what I am today. Yay.

This is a question for all the TF people. I vividly remember, in maybe the third to fifth grade, an excerpt of a story in a reading comprehension textbook at school, so that would place it as existing in 2000 to 2003. The excerpt starts with the lead character awakening in a dragon's treasure hoard room, not remembering everything that happened before he'd fallen asleep. Looking to his left and right he sees a dragon's claws, and hears a dragon breathing, and believes the dragon must have returned to its treasure pile while he was asleep. He soon realizes there's no sleeping dragon behind him--those claws and breaths are his own. He realizes that what must have happened, is that in excitement at finding the treasure, he greedily put on a cursed bracelet that made him transform. In dragon form, the bracelet is too tight to remove. He reunites with a friend, but cannot speak, and he struggles to convey who he is and what happened... and then I think the excerpt ends with them setting out to remove the bracelet.

Does anyone know of this story, and what this book is called? I've been fascinated with transformation since I was a tiny child, long before the interest would grow up with me. This story has stuck with me for a long time and probably deepened the fascination, and I'd love to find it and give it a full read, if it is even a complete novel, but I am pretty sure it must be.

I know this story must be at least 20 years old, in English, and probably aimed at kids. Not a lot to go off of for anyone who doesn't already know it. I've tried looking it up with no success. But if you know it, and can tell me the title, I'll be so grateful that I'll promise to draw you something as if it were a commission.

Nonsexual kink art shouldn't be marked NSFW and FA should be 18+ to join.

AND/OR, this website needs more filter settings than NSFW on and off.

I don't wanna have to turn off the NSFW filter to see the clean inflation and stuff I'm here for, and see penises and nipples along with it. I am not the only asexual person who is disgusted by sexual content.

But the NSFW filter is all we have. I doubt this flintstones-ass website is ever gonna have more advanced filters. It'd be a viable solution, but this place thinks 1280 is a big number for a PNG's dimensions in 2021. The rules disallow uploading 1080p images, in 4k times. It just seems unlikely that anything mechanical will ever change.

So barring that, can we make FA 18+? Why isn't it?

Well, let's be realistic: minors are still gonna get in and see whatever it is they want, allowed or not. Puberty comes before adulthood. Teenagers, of any type, look at porn, or their equivalent. It's a thing. Outwardly, as a culture, we try to discourage that. In practice, this enforces that they do it secretly and alone, which I think? probably? is the best we're gonna get... Trying to actually stop them, though, is probably not healthy for anyone involved.

Our responsibilities as adults are to not talk to minors about these things (preferably to not talk to minors on the internet at all), to disengage if we suspect someone who says they're over 18 actually isn't, and to keep an eye on other adults to keep them from engaging with minors. And this is something we must be mindful of, all the time, even when minors are supposed to not be somewhere, because, I repeat:

they're still gonna get in. It is impossible to stop. I think the best that can be done is to ban 'em if anyone finds out, so that they lurk, talk to no one and are talked to by no one until they are of age. Can you honestly tell me that anything else would work any better?

And some of those lurking minors are gonna be asexual though, and will come here wanting to see inflation or TF because a Nintendo game made them feel weird. They will come, because no rule and no filter is a magical barrier that will stop them. And when they do, do you want them to not be able to filter out the penises and nipples?

Well?

This is gonna be disorganized, oh well.

First off, sorry everyone who I've been keeping waiting. Over the last few months I have slowed down a lot with regards to art. Life's been treating me well otherwise so don't worry about me, and I mean since I haven't taken any payment for work that I've yet to do, I don't feel any debilitating guilt over how long the comms are taking, so everything's all cool there.

I've been working and my days off for now are M-T-W. Last week I wanted to commit to a pattern where I would get a commission done rather than burn my weekend playing viddygames. What I came up with last week did work, chipping away at Raquao's each time I died in Dark Souls. Then I kinda completely blew that off this week. Whoops! Then I completed all the achievements in DkS1 so I won't be playing that anymore. But fear not--I have a PS3 now, and a copy of Demon's Souls I've never played. So I wanna try and knock out a commission every week till they're all done.

After that... I'm not sure. I feel like I might want to try a more fluid and small slot system. I wanna do more stuff with other people and their characters and whatnot. Something like, if I open a soft 3 slots (so officially 3 but I might actually take 4 or 5), and do that more often? I still need to mull it over, but something like that sounds conducive to what I want.

Thanks everybody! I am going to make it a goal to make significant progress on these every day. I don't want it to take too long to wrap up.

For the future, if I don't have commissions open but you do want one, feel free to send me a note anyway, and if you don't mind waiting for when I decide I wanna do em, and I'll let you know when I do.

15 slots this time.

The piece will be inked, colored, shaded, and a "snowglobe-style" background Just check out my gallery and you'll get what I mean by my recent pieces. It's your choice if you want the outlines all one color or colored differently by what it is.

Base: 40 USD
First additional character: +20
Other additional characters: +15 each
2- or 3-parters: just count them by how many characters it makes in total

I'm not keen on: vore, diapers, uhh age regression, nsfw, my little pony, other usual suspects

If there is a specific piece I or anyone else has done that gives you an idea, I encourage mentioning it. More references never hurt, so if it helps you convey the kind of perspective or color palette or whatever you want, I welcome it.

Drop me a note and then I'll probably tell you to hit me up on Discord if you can!

Firstly, I apologize for not replying to any of the notes I've received regarding commissions. The answer was just "no not yet" anyway but yeah, it's sucky of me not to take the time for that at least. Oh well.

Secondly, my desktop computer won't turn on. All of its parts are pretty old but it's probably the PSU. Those aren't horribly expensive but then what computer part sold in isolation is? But anyway, it means I can't work on the viddygame until it's fixed. Which is something I was doing every day for about five hours.

What I can still do is draw, because my art tablet is a Cintiq Companion 2, a standalone computer that doesn't care if my desktop is working or not. So to give myself something to do and cover possibly having to buy more PC parts than expected, I'll open commissions. How many, dunno, and how many consecutive times, dunno! Prices dunno, I feel a little like I sold myself short last time. So stay turned and give me some hours to put together the official slot-opening post if you wanna help me out here.

On the 25th of February. I was born by c-section. 1992 was a leap year. My mom wanted to push it four more days so I could be born on February 29th. The doctor said no. That doctor is my eternal hero. I can't imagine the agony when everyone around you thinks they're the first person to joke that your birthday only comes once every four years and therefore you're turning 7, not 28. Ha ha hee hee :gun:

Well, anyway! I'm not posting this cause I expect anything from anybody, just that if anyone wanted to wish me a happy birthday, it'd be easier to do that if they know when it is.

Praise me. PRAISE ME!!

Haha the previous journal had been up since before... well, before Sword and Shield became the most divisive game of the year. So every time I saw that on my page here I thought "I should probably say a little more on that topic."

Don't read this if you're going to play Sword or Shield and enjoy it and don't want to read the thoughts of someone who won't. I in no way want to take your excitement away from you. I don't wanna piss anybody off, I just wanna put my thoughts here since I draw a lot of Pokémon and am not the kind of person who pretends to feel nothing

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So let me start with... My expectations and wishes with each new generation of Pokémon. If you ask me, I think there was a pattern with each generation that was consistent until Sun and Moon broke it: each odd generation was focused on the new Pokémon and new region, and each even one was focused on adding to old ones and polishing things up.

Kanto was first and had nothing to build on.
Johto added lots of new evolutions, pre-evolutions, two new types, and Kanto returned.
Hoenn didn't make you look at Pidgey and Rattata again and was wrapped up in new legendary lore and a more foreign feel to the new Pokémon.
Sinnoh had a smaller pool of new Pokémon than Hoenn, and a great big chunk of them were new evolutions and pre-evolutions once again. Even one of the legendaries was related to the golems of Hoenn.
Unova was obviously steeped in itself. For the first time since the first games, you could not rely on any Pokémon you were familiar with. You had to catch something new and figure out what it was capable of. I loved this. I felt like a kid again, that element of discovery was back.
Kalos was amazing in its own way. You can immediately tell where the care and attention went. All 720 Pokémon in 3D, with clean high-poly models and slick animations for battle and for the virtual pet side of things. A new type, base stat rebalancing for the first time ever, the most user-friendly online system ever seen in the series, the promise of cloud storage as the ultimate streamlining of generational transfers from 5 to 6 and the future! So it was easy to swallow that the batch of new Pokémon was the smallest it had ever been, and the game used nostalgia as a crutch. You could build your all-star team pretty easily in Kalos. At launch, before Bank started working, it seemed easier to list what you didn't have access to than what you did.

Then Alola. I like the story and the designs of the new Pokémon quite a lot. I like Alola itself. It has a lot of the makings of an odd generation for this pattern. But the batch of new Pokémon is small once again. The game seems insistent on getting me to use a Fearow. The NPCs talk a lot about Kanto. Every Alolan form is a gen 1 Pokémon. It breaks the pattern.

Now, Galar. Oh boy... oh boy. I've been hoping for another generation as bold as gen 5 since X and Y launched. But it couldn't be clearer: this is the third generation in a row that's like this. Focus on the old, especially gen 1, and introduce a small batch of new Pokémon. Even ignoring all the other grievances, this is stagnation. Even without all the other grievances, I would be complaining.

But let's not ignore those grievances. This is a Nintendo Switch game being made for the most profitable media franchise in existence. And yet it's... this. Its most major attraction is the Wild Area... a foggy bland field with Wii-quality textures at best. The great new wow factor for battles is... just scratching at the surface of how cool mega evolutions were. Not in addition to them, either, those had to go and so did Z-Moves.

And then there's the big one. The Thanos snap for Pokémon species and the refusal to patch them in later. Inexcusable. The models made for the 3DS games were designed to be future-proof, and even if they weren't, it wasn't too hard to make them for X and Y--why is it too hard now? And I would argue that yes, we are entitled to transfer our Pokémon forward. It's been an implicit promise since generation 3. You had Ruby and Sapphire and didn't even know Charizard could be in the game until FireRed and LeafGreen came out, and they planned ahead for that. You worried Unova wouldn't let your old Pokémon in and of course that wasn't the case, and you didn't even have to wait until postgame to trade if you had a pokémon in another gen 5 game. The big one that makes this a slap in the face is Bank. A paid service, don't forget. It seemed like the final answer to transfers for the future. Because that's a main, expected feature of the franchise. But that's not the case anymore. So what now?

What if let's say, Spheal isn't in gen 8 but is in gen 9, and you find a shiny one in a Ruby replay. You transfer it via pal park to Diamond, you use the Transfer Lab to get it into Black, and then, what? It's 2022 and you still have Bank? I mean you have to, right, to transfer this Spheal from Black to Sun. Then into Home and to gen 9? Or is Bank a link in the chain they can take away whenever they want, leaving the Spheal stuck in gen 5?

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I was really mad about all this about two months ago. But now I'm just dead inside thinking about it. And I don't think about it most days. I think about Luigi's Mansion 3, the Breath of the Wild sequel, ... Pizza Tower. I don't really care about gen 8 spoilers anymore. I'm not going to be getting Sword or Shield but it's like how I didn't get New Super Mario Bros. 2, Kirby Star Allies, any Animal Crossing between Wild World and New Horizons, Hey Pikmin, that sort of thing. It's less like how I'm sick to death of Star Wars and more like how even though I like Thor, I wouldn't have seen Ragnarok if it looked more like The Dark World.

Obviously I'm not done with the franchise altogether. I'll be waiting for when TPC changes their tune and starts acting like the multi-billion-dollar company they are. I'll be waiting when Mystery Dungeon comes back (it better!) and is still firing on all the barrels it was in Super. I'll probably be playing around with Showdown with "National Gen 8 OU". I'll still be maining Greninja in Smash. I mean, if my tirade here didn't make it obvious, I'm the kind of person who already had a lot to complain about in the core series before Sword and Shield. It pretty much started as soon as X and Y didn't have the World Tournament.

Until gen 7 it seemed like Game Freak was doing a pattern where every odd pokémon generation was focused on new pokémon, and every even one was less so, with more cross-generational relatives and stuff. Gen 5 being the pinnacle... I liked that so much. If there's anything I do really miss about the older generations, it's being able to play the games without so much prior knowledge. Not having a compulsion to check Bulbapedia for every little detail. I want to know as little as possible. But I figure the three or four new ones I've seen via Twitter are probably about 8% of the set of gen 8 pokémon, given the pattern set by gens 6 and 7.

Basically don't expect any gen 8 balloons till I've played it.

Thanks everybody who ever has and ever will comment on my stuff. Like especially on the nonfetish stuff, it's not easy to get eyes on that, but also on the rest because, hey, balloons are fun and I love them and love to know they're loved

Hey.

There's a lot to say.

I'm sorry for what I did, or rather, what I didn't do. Taking a commission and then not doing it for three years is a shit thing to do, any way you cut it. Every time I thought "Time to do this" I thought about how long it had already been and the guilt and weight of it all just. Stopped me again. And again. Please believe me, it was never, ever my intention to "take it and run." It just, either for real or in my head, grew into a large, disgusting, horrible anxiety monster... which isn't a valid excuse

I've refunded both but that doesn't change those three years much. I'm not taking commissions again.

Also, I wasn't really acting like myself before. When I started this account I worried people I knew would find out and stuff, so I presented myself as anonymously as I could. Now things are different... my friends all know I'm a silly balloon and still love me... too bad I'm the only one. So what I want now is kind of the opposite of how it started, to not take commissions and just be around. If I'm wanted.

i have been living in the dining room of a one-bedroom apartment with a roommate for the last two years and had no privacy whatsoever. not what i was expecting when i moved here.

now the apartment is mine, and i live in a bedroom.

i have not forgotten about the two commissions i owe. and i feel terrible for vanishing like i did but i just didn't know what to say. they'll be completed. i probably won't take commissions again. but will just do my own thing.

hey hey. i'm settled in at my new place and ready to burn plastic.

i mean... i mean like how when you're going to drive somewhere really fast you say "burn rubber" only i'm thinking about the plastic nib on my drawing tablet pen, like, i'm going to draw a lot, yeah

commission me! i've still got two more to knock out first but do it do it!

^ yup

so yeah my friend and i picked a place and we're moving into it in two months. i don't, you know, desperately need the commissions to survive, but it would definitely be helpful if you'd have my services.

and the thing is, i put that effort in, because that's just in my nature. when you commission me and i ask "is there anything you'd like changed?" i'm not here secretly thinking "please say no and get out of my face." i want to have done the job right and never want to take anything i didn't earn.

thank you, and have a nice night

because i am away from home. i'll still check my notes when i can, though, so if you want to commission me you still can and i will get on it when i get back.

incidentally, what i'm doing while not home is looking for a new home. i'm not moving right away, but when i do, the money i'm making off of commissions is what i will use to stay afloat (hahahaaaaaaaaa) while i'm in the process of getting a real job. so, thank you very very so so much everyone who has commissioned something from me, and everyone who will.

heads-up: i will be away from home from july 5th to probably the 10th. in that time i will still gladly accept and negotiate commissions, but i'm not taking my tablet with me, and even if i were i'd be way too busy to draw anyway, so it would have to wait until i got home. if you're thinking about getting a commission from me and don't want to be kept waiting, then don't wait! let's get it done before i go.

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what time is it? it is satan o'clock