I think it's time to lock myself away in a nice padded room. Preferably BEFORE I break myself. Work seems to be becoming increasingly full of danger as of late. In the last 2 weeks alone I've fallen down stairs twice, got bashed in the head by a door, and almost had my hand busted... Love where I work, but being by myself so much is beginning to be hazardous...

Normally I'm content with my life... But more and more lately I find myself thinking about things from my past (more of a person really). My closest friends constantly tell me to let it (her, more specifically) go. It's something I'm still struggling with, have been for years. Despite the way she hurt me, I just can't seem to let the memory of her go. It's unheallthy, as many of my friends tell me. I know that, but it doesn't change anything. Even though so many years have passed, sometimes the pain still feels fresh, and it scares me that one person can still have that much affect on me after all this time.
I feel like it's beginning to drive me crazy. But I don't know where to turn.
Maybe it wouldn't be this way if things had ended differently, if she hadn't just walked away the way she did. If she hadn't cut all ties completely, if she'd given me a reason...


And that will be enough baring of my soul for one night... May happiness follow you through your days.

So, two of my friends are dating, have been for several years now. Recently they've started fighting... a lot. And for some reason they've decided I should play mediator between them. 'Tell her....' he says. 'Would you talk to him?' she asks.
What I wanna know is.... Why me? What do they think I'm gonna be able to do? How do they expect me to fix their problems when I can't even fix my own?
I know this probably isn't the place for this, but it's driving me crazy and I need to just....get it off my chest. Preferably BEFORE I lose my mind.
Anyway, thanks to anyone for listening to my whining.