i just love it when all you try to do is care about someone and love then and check on them but yet when you say you wish u could spend time with them like they do with other people u get hell for it .... and you try calling them one time one night and they flip on you and block u really makes you think badly about yourself :'( makes you think that there is something wrong with you ...... i guess i am just to be used for people the hurt i don't know what else to say fuck everything .....

sometimes is it here and wonder to my self how easy it would be ......... to take my self out of the world and everyone life i sit and think that my wishes and dreams will never come true and i feel like everyone just acts like they like me when they don't i don't know how much longer i can put on a mask and act happy i don't know if i would have to strenth to even do anything even if i wanted to ......