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copy-pasting from dA so the names mentioned are friends from dA, not FA

ALL | ABOUT | ME
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- Name: Zachary (Zack)
- Single or taken: happily taken by *faezocarina
- Sex: male (ftm trans)
- Birthday: august 1st
- Sign: leo
- Hair color: auburn
- Eye color: green/gray with gold flecks
- Height: 5'3
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: i like girls lol.
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S P E C I F I C S
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: whatever i grab first at the store :T
- What are you listening to right now?: music on my itunes
- Who is the last person that called you?: UHHH probably my dad
- How many buddies are online right now?: not gonna check xD
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F A V O R I T E S
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- Animal: armadillos, canines
- Color: any shade of blue
- Drink: vitamin water or orange juice
- Element: fire
- Food: german or asian food
- Game: pokemon and metroid
- Movie: disney 8T
- Song: ggg
- Subjects in school: science
- T.V.: crime and medical dramas
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H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
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- Given anyone a bath: ~RelexRae when we were toddlers |D
- Smoked?: nope
- Bungee jumped?: nope
- Made yourself throw up?: nope
- Skinny dipped?: in the bathtub, if that counts... >.>
- Ever been in love?: eyep
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: no, i can't make myself cry D:
- Pictured your crush naked?: nope
- Actually seen your crush naked?: nope
- Cried when someone died?: yes
- Lied: yes
- Fallen for your best friend?: yush
- Used someone?: my best friend, but she knew and i wasn't manipulative |D
- Done something you regret?: gah, who doesn't have regrets?
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C U R R E N T
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- Clothes: my new hoodie, blue shinny jeans, star wars shirt, studded belt, boxers
- Desktop picture: sherlock yaoi >.>
- CD in player: i don't own one lol
- DVD in player: none right now, but i was watching the lion king <:

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L A S T | P E R S O N
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- You touched: my mom, i think
- Hugged: my mom
- You kissed: i don't remember xD possibly my gf
- You IMed: uhh hachi at like 4am today
- Talk to online: ^
- You sexed it up with: not into that stuff
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A R E | Y O U
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- Understanding?: i try to be
- Open-minded?: again, i try
- Arrogant?: i can be
- Insecure?: not overall, but in a few areas
- Random?: only when i'm manic
- Hungry?: not really D:
- Smart?: in academics. but it ends there.
- Moody?: depends
- Organized?: LOL you should see my bedroom. junk piles galore.
- Shy?: until recently
- Difficult?: stubborn.
- Bored easily?: yes
- Entertained easily?: depends
- Obsessed?: when i get into fandoms i tend to obsess over them
- Lazy?: can be
- Angry?: depends if i feel emotional about the conflict. i'm mostly a logic person.
- Happy?: i try to be
- Hyper?: only when manic
- Trusting?: i struggle a lot in this area
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R A N D O M
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- In the morning I: lay around in bed and go on my laptop/draw
- Love is: fucking complicated
- I dream about: crack dreams that make zero sense ftw
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: personality. or hair style. xD
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W H O
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- Makes you laugh the most: mah besties <3
- Makes you smile: my girlfriend <3
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: see above question
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D O | Y O U | E V E R
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- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: uhm >.> my girlfriend
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: ;-;
- Wish you were younger?: nope :T
- Cry because someone said something to you?: /sigh
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N U M B E R
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: a few times
- Of Cd's I own: probably over 40
- Of scars on my body: ... a lot
- Of bones I've broken: 6 or 7?

my grades currently suck due to all the migraines that i've been having
plus i'm signing up for a traditional samurai swords class that starts after christmas break
and i'm going to have to be even more devoted to karate

so between catching up in school and taking on more martial arts i'm going to have very little free time

which means even less art and activity
oops
8T

sorry guys ^^;

i'll probably only be able to doodle shtuff in school once my grades are up

but i dunno

we'll just have to see what happens when 2012 starts!

btw merry early christmas everyone!
i'm actually celebrating christmas tonight because i'll be going on a road trip over break
i'll have my laptop and internet, so i'll be able to finish commissions and other art

/over and out

everything just sucks so much right now and i have this massive list of things that are just going wrong for me

a few being i’m now failing classes and i haven’t spoken to my gf in a month and i keep hallucinating

god. fucking. dammit.

i hate everything

yesterday sucked so much

i went to church and were learning about how the wife must submit to husband and how the bible says that only the man can be the head of the household and i was like

WTF??????

isn’t that a wee bit sexist? assigned me a position that i don’t want?

so then i asked about homosexual relationships

who would be the “head of the household” then?

half a second later i had 6437347 people telling me that all gays burn in hell

uhm

thanks a lot

so i got home

and had the worst psychotic episode of my life at 12:30 am

._.

sigh


there were dry, scabbed, decaying hands grabbing and tearing at me and touching my face and there were people in the dark and my mom was having a seizure next to me and i was so scared so i screamed at my dad to turn a light on and then there was no one in the room and i was panicking and my mom was fine so it wasn’t real and i could barely talk i was so upset and oh my god it was just so scary

https://www.facebook.com/profile.ph.....00003251679402

ugh i'm so lazy and need to clean out my messages on here

howdy everyone

i'm currently visiting family in southern alabama :T the weather is absolutely wonderful amg
i don't need a hoodie outside
aaaaaaaaaaaaa
so much sun
<333

bluh

so
happy (late) thanksgiving
i didn't see much family this year but oh well
i still had fun

originally i was going to go to the midnight black friday sales but at the last minute i was like screw it
plus no one was excited about having to drive me lol.

i was only going to see if i could snag a 3DS /shruggg

i got so lucky, though
i woke up at 9am today and was convinced that there would be no more 3DS in stock
buti called the local target and they still had a few so i RUSHED there and gabbed one~
my grandma paid for it as my christmas gift and holy shit i just love the graphics and the 3D and everythingdfhshjf
i got a fancy red one ono

too bad i left all my DS games at home. /beatsheadonlaptop
oh well, i'm going home on sunday, then i can bring my fancy 3DS to school and show it off xD

soooo
my friends
and watchers
thanks for sticking with me all this time <3

now tell me
how was your thanksgiving/black friday? do anything cool? find a good deal anywhere?
go ahead- spill it

haha over and out~

okay so this is going to be a long entry
prepare yourselves

first order of business... i'm going to alabama over thanksgiving break! i'm waking up early tomorrow and driving there.
i /will/ have internet and i /will/ try to get art done while i'm away
i'll be gone until sunday, i think
and i might be playing hooky on monday just because

maybe i'll even give black friday shopping a go??? sounds like it would be a neat experience to tell mah buddies

---

next up in line is a couple meme quiz thingy that i found


1. Who eats more?
jessie always complains about how much she eats so i'll give her this award

2. Who said "I love you" first?
me >8T

3. Who is the morning person?
she stays up until 5 AM to chat with me so she's a night owl
i just sleep whenever the fuck i can so

4. Who sings better?
she did theater back in michigan and my babby can sing really well ;-;

5. Who's older?
i am... by a year? idk she must like older women

6. Who's smarter?
good question

7. Whose temper is worse?
uhmmmm
we both have our triggers and we both pick our battles
so idk, actually

8. Who does the laundry?
/lazylazylazy

9. Who does the dishes?
i do at my house lol

10. Who sleeps on what side of the bed?
we don't live together so i have no clue
she'd likely be a butt and hog the covers, though

11. Whose feet are bigger?
mine

12. Whose hair is longer?
CHRIST, HOW SHOULD I KNOW-
jk i keep my hair really short and her hair is really long and pretty ono i play with it

13. Who's better with the computer?
me
she struggles with skype

14. Do you have pets
each of our families have 2 dogs
jessie and i want a corgi puppy when she's back in michigan for good <3

15. Who pays the bills?
fft, not living together

16. Who cooks dinner?
i microwave stuff?

17. Who drives when you are together?
i'm the only one with a license in this relationship lol.

18. Who pays when you go out to dinner?
depends on who has cash
the person with cash pays

19. Who's the most stubborn?
JESSICA.

20. Who is the first one to admit when they're wrong?
uhm
me?

21. Whose family do you see more?
mine
i think i'v met her mom and sister... twice?
and never her dad or older bro

22. Who named your pet?
we're getting a corgi and she'll probably name it some sort of anime or video game references because her current dog is ZELDA

23. Who kissed who first?
i kissed her >:3

24. Who asked who out?
i asked her and it was really scary okay

25. What did you do on your first date?
uhhhhh
i guess we trick-or-treated? lol

26. Who's more sensitive?
probably jessica

27. Who's taller?
she's like 3-4 inches taller than me SOBS

28. Who has more friends?
no clue derp

29. Who has more siblings?
her ono

30. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
we bicker over this all the time-
so don't get us started
you will deeply regret it


ahhhhhh crap i need to go run errands and stuff now so i'll finish this when i'm back-

okay i'm back
i don't have long before i need to get packing for tomorrow morning, so i have to make this quick
here i go
embarrassing myself

letter to my darling girlfriend:::

jessica
wow
i asked you out almost 4 months ago
when i did, i thought i was setting myself up to fail
i thought you wouldn't even say 'yes'
but then you did
and i decided to just go with it
thinking our relationship would end soon anyway
might as well humor myself
because i didn't think you thought of me as any more than a friend

then i found out that you did like me
and it was the best thing that i had heard in ages
i was on cloud nine for a good while
but i still hadn't expected to get this far

baby, i love you so much <3 you're all that i ever think about
all day i wait and wait for my chances to catch you on skype

my life may be shit and chaos
but when i talk to you, the storm just... dies down and i can make sense of things

you were there for me last winter, when i really did need people and most of 'em left me behind
i can never thank you enough for just your friendship during that stage of my life

i'm a mess
my life is easily made into a mess
but you just idk how to say it
you're more helpful than any med
you're just so wonderful
we compliment each other perfectly
you are perfect in my eyes
you always have been

i was so scared to say 'i love you' or to commit again
i still am
i don't want to make promises that i can't keep
but as each day passes, i feel more and more confident that you and i will be together for a very long time

so let me say what i was uncomfortable with saying before

you're damn right we're going to buy that corgi pup
and we're leavin' this state asap to go to college together
we can pull through the next 2 years
i know we can

this relationship has, in a good way, proven me wrong countless times
so here's to more surprises and whatever adventures out future together holds

again, i just love you so much <3

xoxo,
your proud boyfriend,
morgan "zachary" geisler

i recorded myself drawing "shout! let it all out!" as a speedpaint
and i finally got around to editing it and uploading it to youtube

i promised i wouldn't update my journal often, so i'm really sorry about this, but i just thought somebody might be interested in watching me draw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wWrBWMCYDVU
^ watch here ^

i think i'm getting close to finishing submitting the drawings saved on my laptop that i actually like, so things are really gonna slow down to only a couple drawings per week
and won't update my journal often, haha

oh wow so many watches <3 thanks everyone!
i've submitted a good chunk of my digital art that i like a lot
but i have some traditional art, too
mostly just stuff done with micron pens in my sketchbook

would anyone be interested in seeing that art, too?

p.s. thanks for the warm welcome <3