before my birthday, gonna be going to a Pan-Asian Buffet Restaurant called Cosmo and I'll be watching live wrestling too.

I'm only writing this note because I know FA doesn't really have a ticker to remind people of friend's birthdays on here but yeah just in case people don't know my birthday will be next month on the 2nd.

Also I hope to be drawing some pics for #Pectober and something that  Tails-n-Doll had come up with #Asstober.

How's everyone's days been so far?

I've been reading this journal http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8863863/ by  Valentine_Eisenburg and it really got me thinking about my own presence in this community, most of what she has said resonates with me and echoes my thoughts too. I don't know who actually reads these journals, these fragments of my thoughts that I put onto the web to share with others but I put them out there in case there is someone who deeply cares about what I say.

I've come to accept that I'm not a popular or famous artist, I'm certainly no brand name in this community with thousands of followers and the more I thought about it, the more I came to actually feel blessed by this revelation. I honestly would not know how to cope with the overload of notifications, it'd be like a sensory overload for me.

True, there are a lot of famous artists who inspired me to draw and if you take a look at my style of drawing/colouring, you can tell who inspired me the most and I wanted that feeling too, to be recognized within the community and several years ago, it brought me to a really low point, I eventually realized that art should be for fun and by forcing others to like my work only would serve to antagonize me and make more enemies than friends.

I know that not everyone likes the thought of muscular anthros especially in a community that is driven mainly by people who have a display of multicoloured creatures big and small but characters like for example Demian, Reptile, Galen and others like them have been my gateway into the fandom and I find enjoyment out of drawing these kinds of characters as well as incorporating them into the design of Mike. I know that FA might have its issues but I've noticed they're more accepting of the things I like to draw, I don't get as many nasty comments on here as I do on DeviantART (and believe me some of those comments aren't even trying)

I know some people see me for the art I commission while others see me for my own creations and honestly, I respect and appreciate each and every single one of you, I might not be swimming in a money bin from commissions I take from others but I'm okay with that, I'd rather it come naturally and enjoy the process.

To those that have stood and stuck by me even when I've had episodes where I became such a whiny manchild, thank you so much.

I'm thinking about starting to take commissions but I want to know about your thoughts on my idea for the prices I would suggest I would offer my services in exchange for.

I'm thinking of structuring it this way

€10 for a pencil sketch of a character
€15 for it to be inked lined
€20 for it to be coloured with the copics I have in my collection
+€5 for a background


Now for those who are interested in getting a literature commission I'm thinking about this

$20 for a one-shot story
+€5 for a NSFW story.

This is based on commissions I've seen at conventions and I hope to replicate it.

If there is an interest in this I'll see about opening some slots so I don't have to overbear myself, I do have my actual job and other commitments to take care of as you may understand.

Please let me know what you think, I would honestly like to know.

If anyone wants to be friends with me on that PM me your friend codes, just so I know who's who, I get anxious when random people send me requests

I forgot that trades mean making effort.

Heya everyone I got a better phone now I can play Pokemon Go again and here's my trainer code for the game 8082 6641 2407

For a while now I've been seeing this constant theme of King from Tekken being drawn in comics and in artwork where he's depicted as subservient to another wrestler character or just being dominated like a common Jobber, I mean what the hell is the problem with King that furries and Kemo's just want to pump out material of him being treated like a sex slave!?

Is it some sort of power fantasy that some people have of seeing champion caliber wrestlers being dominated or is it for some trend in Kemo culture like how Leo from Red Earth is constantly being fucked by some weird ooze monster?

As much as I enjoy commissioning other artists to draw things for me, mainly of Mike, I'm going to have to put a hold on it for a while at least until after I've come back from a holiday in July, I need to save money for that so I don't spend my month's wage on it.

I'll still be drawing and writing my own stuff so keep an eye out for that, I know it's not as good as the art I commission off others but at least it's better than a kick up the backside.

Oh also I'm saving up for a gaming Laptop, something prebuilt since I just want to play games on Steam in near perfect speeds with hardly any slowdowns but also I just don't want the hassle of fitting the bits and bobs into a pc.

https://youtu.be/Ny3Y4SX0nEk

Way better than any dumb bikini mod.

I'm going into work in about 10-20 minutes, I want to know if you would like me to keep my current profile pic for a while longer or go back to my old Pec Flex pic?

I'll count the votes as soon as I get back from work.

Vote for Pecs for pec flex picture
OR
Vote for Sweets for the current pic

I hope you all have a safe night and not get drunk too badly

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING, HOPE YOU ALL GET WHAT YOU WANTED THIS YEAR AND STAY SAFE!!!!

Aka: It's my birthday today, I'm now 25 years old and I hope i have a great day, unlike the time I was in hospital on my 21st x3

I've been getting a lot of messages on PSN by people with blank avatars and apparently coming from the states saying nothing but "Hi" on chats, I don't know if anyone else has been getting that problem.

My good friend  cactua is running a Macro YCH Commission, I'm wondering if anyone would be interested in it.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24299262/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24299262/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24299262/

A friend of a friend of mine is holding a YCH for help with raising money to keep them afloat after losing their job, maybe you might like this http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24074173/

(If I offend anyone here I'm sorry but I've reached boiling point)

I've been spending some time to myself and I'm starting to get the feeling like hardly anyone wants to speak to me anymore, that or someone has been spreading nasty rumours about me that has caused users here on FA and DA to not speak to me at all.

I've just had my mum ask me if I'm doing anything for the week off I have from work next week and when I said "Not exactly" since I don't want to tell her I had the week off booked since last summer for a plan I doubt will never happen again in this lifetime, she suggested that I organize a trip with my old school friends, the only problem here is that most of them have all moved out from the town I live in to the surroundings cities and they're all working so that I can't even contact them since most of them rarely respond to my messages on Facebook, she then has the temerity and the audacity to suggest how about your online friends, I said no because of the VERY SAME REASONS!!!

It just gets to a point where I feel like some people are showing their true thoughts about me and that I feel they're actively trying to keep away from me and the most aggravating thing about this is when I don't even get the dignity of a response...

There is a petition online that has been created by  Wolf-Moon to gather support from the fans to help convince Capcom to add Jon Talbain into Marvel vs Capcom Infinite.

Here is the journal http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8019127/

Is there a reason or a cultural significance as to why most anthro wolves in Japanese media have blue fur or at least some blue motife about them ?

Here's a site detailing what I have and how I have to deal with it for the rest of my life.

http://www.autism.org.uk/about/what-is/asd.aspx

And here's an easy read version http://www.autism.org.uk/about/what.....-easyread.aspx

Hopefully this clears up any misconceptions about the things I say and stops people getting offended by what I think or say just because I don't know better.

(I'm only writing this journal as a way to get something off my chest)

Just...STOP!!

How dare you threaten and cause panic among your peers by saying that you're going to end your own life...and for what reason, just so you can get a kick out of it, as some thinly veiled attempt at getting people to notice you, or as a vile way to test and question the apparent loyalty of people?

I don't care what you do, you don't use suicide as an excuse to get people to interact with you, it simply shows that you're severely lacking in testicles and it shows how insensitive you're truly are.

People might be wondering "Strider, why should you care?" and I'll tell you...

I CARE because a few years back, while I was studying in college, I had one of my closest friends since Infant's School text me at 1AM to say that he was going to kill himself by jumping off a bridge, I knew him enough to know that he was struggling with family issues and that the pressure of trying to make his life better for himself was getting overwhelming, add that he was seriously suffering from depression due to being cheated on by past girlfriends didn't help either, WHEN I FOUND OUT, I was panicking and tried ringing him all through the night, even ringing my other friend to help find him based on his usual whereabouts, and when I couldn't find him at all, I feared for the worst, the day after I received a text from my friend asking if I could let him in my house and you can understand when I was furious with him, he told me that he was legitimately close to jumping off a bridge over a bypass before he convinced himself to stop, it did little to stop me from being scared for his safety.

Also my dad nearly committed suicide after being divorced from my mother and that it got to a point where he nearly tried to overdose.

These two scenarios of nearly losing my close friend and my FATHER, has made me develop a strong hatred to suicide, when celebrities and commonfolk alike kill themselves and I hear it on the news it saddens me, but when people PRETEND TO KILL THEMSELVES, LIE AND FAKE THEIR DEATHS just to either seek attention or to cheat people out of money or property, I feel nothing but hatred and anger towards them.

What you're basically doing is mocking those who genuinely suffer from depression, you insult the memory of those who took their own lives and most importantly, YOUR ATTEMPT OF GAINING SYMPATHY THROUGH THIS ACT DIMINISHES THE IMPORTANCE AND SEVERITY OF THIS ISSUE!!!

If you feel that faking your own death is the only way to gain attention and validation from your friends...then you shouldn't have any...


(I will be keeping the comments open on this journal but if I start getting these kind of people who try to justify faking death, I will disable them promptly)