Blessed 6 month Angel day my dear Charles Bellamy


Things are festive and blessed as you would love. I know you are watching all of us. We miss you greatly, but are so proud you are flying high.

aka

Noah has a bad heart as most know. And even with my upkeep has some plaque on back i need get rid. I can't risk a cleaning due to his heart plus anesthesia.

On my amazon wish is a sonic pet tooth scaler. I can doodle something but won't be super fancy or detailed. As atm my art supplies minus a few pencils w me are all on my back porch lol.

I can't find my record of purchaser of the diamond art shipping info ugh I all the chaos I think it was tossed sorry please if see re 😭 so sorry

Today was emotional as heck...

The house was gutted for repairs

20 plus yrs of needed work only thing left is re wire electric and updating kitchen in time.

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Noah is doing well ty also for prayers

Also ty to the kind soul that sent me raspberry powder and some coffee candy. Was very kind of you. I owe ya

Im at my folks till repairs etc and remodeling done. Should be about 2 weeks total. <been here 3 or 4 days already>

Once things get less chaotic I hope to open small sketch commissions etc.

If want anything till then I'll have to take photos and upload that way. And only can do pencil work or if dare I try digital that. < I swear someday I'll get over that ptsd from.art school i hope >

He's been having horrible breathing issues due to his chf and mvd. Probably will need meds adjusted but I just hope we can fix. I really can't fathom loosing him so close after hub.

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Crying....


This hurts 💔 so much
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With some sweeties I was able to grab up his Pimobenden for the month. Yall didnt have to but it was so kind to offor a hand. Soon I think ill be balancing easier I hope. But still also still selling stuff dont need for funds.

This being a needed med at 100 a month is one reason Im selling stuff, (he has 4 meds twice daily the others arent as costly thankfully) I want to keep ahead while still being able to help or do things without stress. Not overly crazy extra crazy stuff I mean but yeah ty. It means the world. To have kind ppl that have been supporting me all my years in the fandom when one falls we all try to rise and help. I just feel so bad asking for it at times .. but know im very very greatful and love all of yall. Even the ppl that cant donate or such your words of encouragment and keeping me company these years and esp in the harsh years of aka cancer you have all been irreplaceable. And I wish to take even just a fraction of a time to say thank you and I love each and every one of you very much.

You words your faith your laughs your funny vids everything. Thank you


4 months since hes passed on 15th .... :(

Slowly uploading some art have had done over last 6 months ish or so.

Along with any other stuff comes to mind. I need to get un scared of drawing ugh and do more I miss it. And start frigging practicing on my iPad 9 mom gave me a year plus ago -,-

Trauma sucks n does annoying crap

Cb's letter of study says he assisted students with specialized care. I bet on reguards his ostomy, etc , and with ER surgical training. He is home, but God i am missing him. I'll be putting ashes in necklace when I've the mental capacity.

Can't stop crying today. Been horribly hard. If it wasn't for our local partner and some online friends today I'd be a very bad wreck. took me to my 30th hs reunion last night to distract me, was nice. He liked seeing me being social knowing I'm normally very shy. Got to genuine big hug few friends not seen since graduation. Sad that half my friends I hung with were on the memorial table. Seeing my HS bf there to hurt lots. As I'd just found out around time of hubs death he had died in Feb 24" of "sudden illness" 😔

He may have damaged me a lot. But last I saw him after broke up 5 plus ish years later... he formaly apologised. I forgive but can't forget. And shook his hand.

That was gosh... 2000 ish ?

Anyway.


I miss him. So. Damn . Much... I love ya aka

I regret to inform everyone my husband lost his battle with stage 4 Colon Cancer. <w full body n bone spread> He passed 7/15/24 1:20 pm ...



No more pain.


No more suffering.....
No more full body riddled In sickness.

I miss him. But am happy he is safe.

After discussion w his nurse today she belives Charles is starting his Transition to God. Please note He isn't at this time near passing. However, I am stepping away for now. I'm still on messenger and if need my number etc can msg me. If you've any questions



And right after his beautiful jedi cerimony saturday.... <ill post that stuff when have mental capacity. Atm it's on my FB IG and Tok .

Fuck Cancer!

Hub is now in home hospice. They suspect the cancer has migrated into his lower spine to possibly. But we only knew of lymphatic systems.

He is doing as best can but very weak. Even going out for my birthday lunch w parents was difficult for him. Poor fella.

His new bed helps he can prop up etc they brought table wheelchair and oxygen for just in case.

Hubs still in hospital
Updates seem to be maintenance type. And hopefully getting him on the cancer pill. Galbladder issues seemingly to be not as high as cancer care and pain relife. Hopefully if my fever stops I can visit tomorrow I miss him.

There still arguing on if drain him or cut him open -,-3rd transfer and asked for advocate due to Dr basicaly refusing to operate on him

<galbladder issues but they are trying to say oh it's cus you've cancer. Um duh... but still he's having gb issues!>

Hub went to er Sunday then again yesterday. He was finnaly moved from ER at 4 pm today. Plans to do galbladder drainage since surgery is to high risk for him. Good vibes....

He will be in at least 2 days or so.

I miss him

From Husband:

I honestly debated posting this or not.
Though resently saw a friend post and through her bravery figured I should do the same.

My cancer battle is not going good. Hers is worse currently.

The last treatment was working. My CEA started at around 4000 dropped to around 2000. Before the break in treatment, due to the rash, it went back up to around 3500. That is why they wanted to push for new scans. My last update as of yesterday showed a CEA of 7100. That's the highest I have yet. For those that do not know. CEA is a count of cancer cells.

Scans reveal growth in the lymphnods in my chest. The cancer in my liver has grown to the point some the cells have merged. The ones my doctor most concerned with is the lymphnods in my back have grown significantly. There also fluid build up in my abdomen they are concerned with.

Yesterday is when I recieved this news. I am emotionally exhausted. There was no treatment as one it's not working and two the doctor is concerned about the toll the chemo is taking on me.

There is one other treatment they are looking to put me on pending insurance approval. Though my chances are not high as the success rate only around 15% to 20%.

I am fighting, but it is not looking good. Just know I love everyone of you and really appreciate all yours support. Wish I had better news for you. If I seem distant please do not take personally. My wonderful wife and I are just really emotionally drained and trying to crawl out with hope.

Love is the key to a good life.

Husband last scans show slight improvements! Shrink in liver, sadly lungs staying same good, and his lymphatic system is still heavy with cancer.

 

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I'm dealing with a lot right now. Hubs has severe back pain and constipation. Just got scans done to see if it's just need strongee drugs or blockage / stoma related.

Other news his scans are definitely worse, confirm two nodes now in his lungs, a new node in his liver, and his lympodes are heavy with cancer. No chemo this week. They want to switch to a pill.

If yall can give this traction I'd be greatful.

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For the last 4 wonderful years, we have sweat and tolled owning a local business. This week we passed the torch, into the hands of a kind and supportive man. We will still call the place home always. But our focus now aside from casualy I may open for art etc is Husbands cancer! More info and the name of the place can be asked in private.


It was an amazing ride.

Yall the awesome artist that did Moons new ref has a raffle up. Go support them!


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Current update from the cancer. Husband's still receiving chemo this week. Scans show no shrinking in the liver, but no growth either.
Next time he comes in for the two week visit, we are to talk to Dr. Ready about long-term care.