Just a remnder that I'm still hosting a contest if anyone is interested in joining .u. Win art and points from me and other people

http://fav.me/d8zcrys

"The songs are always growing inside of my own brain
But I decided to repeat it but that was a big mistake

Just listen to the sounds around you
Maybe using your headphones

Such annoying music around you
But why are they so catchy?

Help me please, help me please
I keep getting songs in my head, remove it please

First I get game songs in my head
Now I'm getting Disney songs

I think I'm screaming
I cannot take it
Let me sleep pleaseeeee"



3am and I ended up typing this on the spot xDD

Things I need to hopefully do this year u.u

1. Go see a doctor soon (which may lead me to having some therapy sessions or anti-depressants) also must be with my sister and not my parents

2. Try make new friends in RL along with building confidence *no.1 may be linked to this*

3. Experiment on drawing themes like fantasy (which includes human-like creatures such as dwarves), no NSFW drawings though since I don't draw those things.

4. Do well at my next college course

5. Make a PayPal account so I could open up commissions or even buy commissions

6. Go to my very first Furry Convention (hopefully I won't get panicky or anything there)

7. Go to the cinemas with my best friend (possibly to see Minions or Inside Out because I REALLY don't want to see Magic Mike XXL xDDD I'm not into that kind of stuff and unfortunately got dragged into something similar to that in RL about a year ago <w> Ann Summers party)

8. Try not overwork myself with art, take my time

9. *related to 1* Think of more things to occupy myself such as music, videos.etc. Possibly calm instrumental music

10. Once I get better at confidence and stuff, go outside more .3.

My friend  Letipup is hosting two auctions!

Feel free to check them out :3

YCH= http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17061488/ (NSFW)

Adoptable= http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17144663/

http://scottishredwolf.deviantart.c.....DOPT-547079924

(It's ok if you don't have DA Points or even an account, you can offer artwork and/or designs along with letting me know here .u.)

Thanks to a few people (both DA and FA), I really want to draw game characters from my childhood like Crash Bandicoot, Rayman, Spyro (the first one).etc. but they will be in my style, however I think drawing Rayman in my style would be hard xDD Well to make it look like my style.


>:C I feel like playing the games now, I want my PS1 ;7;


I don't know when exactly I'll draw them and I don't know if I'd draw them separately or in a batch but I will draw them |D

I've been in meme moods recently .3.


Below 10 = Total Tomboy
Below 20 = Boyish
Below 30 = Not girly.
Above 30 = Girly.
Above 55 = Paris Hilton.

[ ] My fingernails/toenails are almost always painted.
[ ] During the summer pretty much the only shoes I wear are flip flops.
[x] My favorite toy as a child were Barbies/Bratz.
[x] My favorite color is pink or purple.
[ ] I did Gymnastics.
[ ] I love skirts.
[ ] Hollister is one my favorite places to shop.
[ ] Tight jeans are the only jeans I'll wear.
[x] I love chocolate.
TOTAL SO FAR: 3

[/] My hair is mostly always straightened. (Usually it's just brushed but there are times when I get told to straighten it ¬.¬)
[ ] I usually go shopping once a week.
[x] I love to hang out with friends. (;w; Whenever they're free)
[ ] I have a piece of real diamond jewelry.
[ ] I've gone to a tanning salon.
[ ] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim.
[ ] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] I watch Gossip Girl.
[ ] I change my profile picture weekly.
[ ] I wear a shower cap.
TOTAL SO FAR: 4.5

[x] I would NEVER set foot into Hot Topic.
[x] My cell phone might as well become a part of me. (IF INTERNET COUNTS XDD)
[ ] I wear mascara everyday.
[ ] Bathing suits are adorable.
[ ] I don't know the difference between a sheep and a goat. (Seriously? ._.)
[ ] Big sunglasses are awesome.
[ ] I have gotten my nails done.
[ ] I own over 10 purses.
[ ] MuchMusic is my one of my favorite channels. (I don't think there's a "MuchMusic" channel on my Sky box xD)
TOTAL SO FAR: 6.5

[x] I love to have other people do my hair. (Unless it is my mother at times, you'd hear me go "OW!" along with angry noises)
[x] I like to give and receive hugs from all my friends.
[/] I hate bugs. (Well I'd say most but there's some I don't mind xD)
[/] Carnivals are fun.
[x] Summer is THE best season. (If it's sunny here in Scotland then mother of god ono What is that bright thing in the sky? xDD)
[ ] My swimsuit has 2 pieces. (I'll never wear a two piece)
[ ] Musicians are hot.
[ ] You write me a poem and tell me I'm beautiful and I'm all yours. (owo...? That a song lyric?)
TOTAL SO FAR: 10.5

[x] I'm self-conscious.
[ ] My room smells like vanilla.
[x] I don't do sports.
[x] I HATE to run.
[ ] I squeal when I am surprised or angry.
[ ] I eat dried fruit as a snack.
[ ] I love romance novels.
[ ] Drew Barrymore is so cute.
TOTAL SO FAR: 13.5

[/] I dance randomly around the house. (DEPENDS ON MY MOOD XDD Usually when sitting though)
[x] I usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house. (I'm at a turtle pace)
[ ] I only have like 5 billion hair products.
[ ] I love to get dressed up. (I think the only exception is dressing up for a laugh xD But this doesn't count I'd imagine)
[ ] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends.
[/] I would love to have a photo shoot of myself. (Omfg imagine if I had a "Moxy look" XDD Aka sort of punk-rock/pop-rock or something)
[ ] My parents buy me everything I want, whenever I want it.
[ ] I apply lip gloss 50-a million times a day.
TOTAL SO FAR: 15.5

[ ] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton.
[ ] R&B is the best music.
[ ] I pop my collar.
[x] Horses are beautiful.
[x] Kittens are adorable.
TOTAL SO FAR: 17.5

[/] I write my own music. (I actually used to xD Now I just randomly parody a song as a joke with my friends...oh god my Blank Space versions owo)
[ ] I would love to visit Hawaii.
[ ] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black. (Pretty much 98% of my clothes are black xDDDD)
[x] My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes. (It needs a clear out since some are getting small)
[ ] I hate beards.
[ ] I love to read magazines.
TOTAL SO FAR: 19

[ ] I love to gossip.
[ ] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters as a kid.
[/] I love Celine Dion. (She has an amazing voice but idk if "love" would be the word, especially since I haven't heard a lot of her music xD)
[ ] My showers are 2 hours long.
[ ] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned.
[ ] I refuse to eat at McDonald's.
TOTAL SO FAR: 19.5

[ ] I LOVE life!
[ ] I have a lot of jewelry.
[ ] Much of my jewelry comes from Claire's.
[x] My screen name(s) has or had x's in them. (USED TO xDDD My username before ScottishRedWolf was "XxAnthro16xX", I'm sick of Xs now however I don't mind other people using it, I just mean I'm sick of myself using it xD)
[x] I have more than 3 pillows on my bed.
TOTAL SO FAR: 21.5

[x] I like the color pink.
[ ] I want to BE Paris Hilton.
[ ] I scope the room for hot guys.
[ ] I love the mall.
[/] I love the beach.
[ ] You modeled as a little kid.
[/] You love receiving compliments. (It brightens my day but some compliments make me uneasy or suspicious xD If it include "sexy" or something then I'm like ._. ...*moves away*)
[/] You've been to a wedding and loved it.
Total: 24



I'm not girly as expected xDD

For those who have listening to P!nk's music, what's your favourite song of hers? .u.

Random question since I'm currently listening to her music plus she's my favourite singer (I can't think of a song I don't like from her albums to be honest XD)

My favourite might be "F*cking Perfect" because it reminds me of my friends and people I know who have had a tough time and I want to let them know that they are perfect to me. It also reminds me a bit of myself with some lyrics uwu But it relates to my best friend more.
(I actually plan on getting a tattoo with "Perfect" on it but I'm still thinking, if I was getting it then it would be on my wrist with a small design beside it like a butterfly or something)

I've decided to make it official of who my fourth fursona is .w. She has been a fursona before but she was more of a minor at the time.

My side fursona is Kori the Vokueno Devil (made up species of mine based on a Tasmanian devil), so that explains why I have a marsupial group icon above in the journal since my species and Tasmanian devils are marsupials~

She represents a side of me and also my anger (however in reality I try to not show it and just brush it off), however she isn't a bad aggressive character xD She's only like this if there's a reason.


In this case, my chibi account's main fursona would be back to Kori instead of ZoZo the Red Panda (I'll still keep her though). It makes more sense too since my account is called ToxicKori |D


So yeah, my main fursona is a red wolf, my secondary is a border collie mix, my tertiary is a wolf-dog and my side/fourth is a vokueno devil .w.

She's now added to my fursona links on my page~

As I am going to my Grandad's funeral tomorrow (16th) uwu

I'll need to bring a lot of tissues but I know I'll be crying xwx May give tissues to people next to me if they need one.

I feel like it's going to be a sad day .3. But things might be better in the evening once we're occupied. If I come back online in a low mood then this is why u.u

I don't know how long the funeral would last since usually there's a little party thing afterwards and I haven't been to a funeral since my other Grandad died (2011) but I'd imagine I'd be home in the evening UK time .3.

I thought I'd let people know in case people wonder why I'm taking a while to reply on other sites.

- Finish a few pixel icon raffles

- Digital sketch Jovan sitting (funny position)

- Possibly make a pixel Rhys (animated) from TFTB, might add Vaughn with him

- Doodles based on songs that are playing (random songs)


Not too many things today .3. And these are sort of more simplistic to me (even though animated pixels take a while to do)

Me and my sister seen this on TV the other day and we ended up laughing x'D

I have Grease songs in my head now D:

In my last journal I asked people to pick a number between 1-100 along with a ref sheet and action.

Why did I do this and what was I planning?

Because I'm in a pixel art mood so I thought I'd make sprites for free :D HOWEVER I can't promise that it could work as a FA icon because KB is a pain but hopefully it does work so it's usable .w.

There were so many awesome characters so sadly I can't draw them all :c But there's always next time!

I asked both people on FA and DA and it looks like no one asked for the same numbers except 69 (I see what you guys did there |D)

Here are the 10 winners :D I used random.org to generate numbers and this is what came up.

1. 19 -  Kiawerewolf
2. 13 -  SnappleFox (completed)
3. 43 - Q-M-B (completed)
4. 98 -  Bloodwolf817
5. 77 - Lilybreeze12 (completed)
6. 83 -  MurphyAlter
7. 21 -  Angelwolf
8. 52 - Maonii (completed)
9. 42 - enigmaticanimal
10. 22 -  SeilunaOmega


I'll be working on them now, congratulations~

Comment with:
- A number between 1-100
- A clear coloured ref. sheet (preferably not shaded unless it's cell, I need to see the colours) - Can be human, anthro, mythical.etc.
- An action of what the character would be doing

Closing this at 9pm tonight UK time (almost 4 hours from now of this journal)



I think you guys know what I'm up to |D

Thank you from me and the family with the comments uwu

Sorry that I couldn't reply to all the comments but I thought I'd say thank you here .w.

It's been really hard but we're trying to stay strong.

I had trouble sleeping last night and my eyes felt like they were burning from tears /u.u\;


Art from me will be slow since I'm still recovering from the sad news. I'm pretty sensitive so I cry easily, even when it has nothing to do with me (I cried over people on art sites before :C)

The funeral is next week so I'm definitely not missing that.

I'm thinking of adding a drawing to his coffin since he always loved seeing my artwork so I think he would've liked that (it will be traditional non-cartoon art)


That's all I have to say u.u

Oh also sorry if I'm slow at responding to messages as I am on my phone plus in a low mood .3. I'll try reply tomorrow or the next day

;; I wrote a journal about how I was freaking out about my Grandad...

He has now passed away u.u There was nothing anyone could do...

We aren't sure what the cause was but we're guessing it would've been a heart attack.


That's two Grandads gone now...2011 and 2015...now there's just Grandma McKay (my other Grandma died before me or my sister was born due to cancer, I think Mum was in her early 20s then)


I feel like I'll be having difficulty drawing for a couple of weeks or even more u.u; I'll probably do a chibi of Zoe upset but I don't know


At least he's at peace now and isn't suffering.


I feel so sh*tty right now and my eyes burn from crying xnx


R.I.P Grandad McKay - 8th July 2015

;; I don't know what exactly happened but there's something wrong with my Grandad

All I know is that my Dad had a phone call, he gasped and went "No no no no" getting all panicky, my Mum asked "What's wrong?" and I think Dad mentioned something about my Grandad being "suscitated" ;; I'm terrible at terms but I know it's a bad thing, I didn't have time to ask since my parents rushed out the door. I looked it up and I think it meant "resuscitate" so I'm guessing he's unconscious/close to death ;;;;


I'm freaking out ;n; I feel all shaky and close to crying a river. If something does happen then I know I'll be in my down corner for a few months or something like what happened when my Mum's father passed away a few years ago ;n;


Sorry for the journal ;; I needed to let it out, I'm scared at the moment

Doing cheap point adopts over at DA~

http://scottishredwolf.deviantart.c.....OPEN-544794463

I also have a contest over there as well .w.

Expectation: I have more free time so that means more art :'D

Reality: *forever sleeps, always sleepy, not doing much*

Seriously I feel more sleepy than usual since mid-June .-. And I haven't drawn in a few days

I should be finishing stuff including my own art D:

http://scottishredwolf.deviantart.c.....TEST-543112084

Saying DA related since points are part of the prizes and FA doesn't do points xD

There is also free art in it~

Saying "possible" because I'm overly stressed and a lot of stuff is happening like the kitchen getting sorted out x.x Loud noises and stuff make me shaky at times and uneasy (this is the time when it's hard to draw since it feels more pressure somehow so I don't draw during those moments).

Anyway, here are the drawing plans that I'm planning on doing this week:

- Complete 3 birthday gift drawings (I'm afraid it would have to be headshots :c I would've done a larger pic if I could)

- Custom red panda for someone over at me and Moi's adoptable account (I'm hardly on that account /.3.\)

- Art trade with Divine-Marshal

- Doodle/sketch dump of my character Vincent (he would be human, kemo, anthro and feral in it)



I may do more things but we'll see



On a random note, today is my FA anniversary .w. 2 years today since I'm been on here!

Name a character (or more) of mine and I'll tell you their sexual orientation and birthday c: (Note: I base the birthday on the date I first drew them except when it comes to my fursonas but I would say when I first drew them)

I have a link to my characters on my page if anyone is wondering what they look like .w.


Random journal but I felt like sharing these two info |'D

First Drawing of her= http://scottishredwolf.deviantart.c.....yone-257950015

Second= http://scottishredwolf.deviantart.c.....work-258074237

Third= http://scottishredwolf.deviantart.c.....yday-258390224

Manga/Anime attempt= http://scottishredwolf.deviantart.c.....anga-275281637

First time using SAI to draw Zoe= http://scottishredwolf.deviantart.c.....form-292798310




What Zoe looks like now:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16807846/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15969764/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16833363/ (This is a cosplay outfit though so it's not her outfit xD She was cosplaying Fiona from Tales From the Borderlands)



I felt like sharing this and it feels weird looking back at my old art ._. 4 years ago along with the 2012 SAI drawing...the same year when I was still getting used to the tablet but it didn't always work XD Same with traditional art. I ended up improving on my anatomy and trying to memorize stuff that I see to help. I'm still learning and I'm curious how my art would look 4 years from now o-o

I'm thinking of drawing Zoe and Moxy (since I named my account after her) because tomorrow is my FurAffinity anniversary :D 2 years of being on FA.

I'm not sure what they should be doing though D: But they'll be in a chibi style since it's quicker.

Any suggestions?

Note: Nothing sexual/NSFW

I felt like making a random journal of a few fursonas of mine and what they represent .u.

Here we go~

MAINS

Zoe the Red Wolf
She is my main fursona and represents RL me so in a way she's a red wolf version of myself xD Her shapeshifting ability represents my weird/awesome dreams when I am different animals or even rarely people but sometimes it may not be accurate...which explains why some of her ability can be limited .w. Another thing about Zoe is that she is more like me in appearance such as her dyed red hair, blue eyes, birthmark on paw pad (my corner palm), gap between two front teeth, missing molar and my weight, even my clothing and RL name. She was my very first official fursona and even though she is simple in design, sometimes simple can be a good thing! I never got tired of her design and the only thing I changed more are her clothing xD

Roxie the Border Collie/Husky/German Shepherd mix
She is a secondary fursona of mine who represents some traits of mine that reminds me of a dog xD I see myself relate to a dog at times but in a human way. I also picture myself to be playful yet lazy if I was a dog. Like Zoe, she is like RL me. The name Roxie was a name that I liked at the time but I thought she looked like a Roxie by appearance.

Biscotti the Red Wolf/Border Collie mix
She is my tertiary fursona who represents my internet self (random) yet at the same time shares my RL traits as well including being very shy. Her name is based on my nickname "Scotti" which reminds me of the word "Biscotti" (biSCOTTI) just by the spelling I think xD She reminded me of a biscuit so it matched. Random side note, she has a birthmark which relates to mines that sort of reminds me of an imperfect heart or a guitar pick xD It's hard to tell at times.
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SIDE/MINOR FURSONAS

Kori the Vokueno Devil
She represents my anger side yet she can be shy at times so she isn't bad, just protective over people she cares about. Like me, she can be silent yet speak when people talk to her and she thinks of friends like a "clan" (family). She doesn't relate to me too much as her lifestyle is different since she lives in the wild and not in a city but she sort of represents a part of me. Funny enough, I've been getting dreams recently that I WAS Kori o-o And the dreams were awesome too xD Another thing about Kori that relates to me is that we get confused of the world xDD Like some things I'm like "Why? D:" or "Wtf?! ono" or "I don't even...!" or "Ok, I'm done with life" or even a mix of all of them xD This is either by some trends, people nearly killing themselves because "yolo"/"lol", people doing anything to get attention even if it will cause harm.etc.

Zo-ball the Tabby mix
She represents my lazy side xD People say that I can be like a cat, just laze around all day in my free time, taking too many naps, I drink a lot of milk.etc. Her name is actually based on my RL nickname given by my close friends and a few family members and I thought it sounded like a cat name thus Zo-ball was created xD For the stereotypical cats loving fish trait, she has the same favourite seafood as me which includes prawns/shrimps, tuna, salmon, mackerel, sushi and pickled mussels. The interesting thing about Zo-ball compared to my main fursona Zoe is that Zo-ball has my natural hair colour which is brunette so she never dyed her hair.

Moxy the Red Wolf
She is Zoe's clone that represents my: easily angered, bubbly/silly, protective and "exaggerated thoughts" side. If you're wondering what I mean by exaggerated thoughts then basically something I wouldn't say out loud but it would be more exaggerated compared to when I'm serious (if that makes sense), sometimes it comes out being sarcastic or being random/funny. The biggest difference that Moxy and I do not share in common are our ages and nationality (she is 2 years younger than me/Zoe and she is Scottish-American but there's a reason for that behind her story). Her hairstyle and outfits are the kind of thing I have a little weakness for because I love punk-rock/pop-rock style characters xD I do love wearing leather jackets and fingerless gloves too but I hardly wear my gloves much (I have a couple of favourite pairs but my most favourite are the pink & black striped ones). Above all, Moxy just represents another side of me yet may not relate much with info.

Zack the Red Wolf
Like Moxy, he is Zoe's clone but only he is male and he is the same age as myself and Zoe. He is basically like a genderbent Zoe but art-wise he leans more to traditional art, so that was what I was into at my young/mid-teen years (I do enjoy it don't get me wrong but I feel like I don't do it much at home unless it's college stuff). Like me, he loves photography especially when it's nature based or landscapes. He is a sweet guy who looks out for people so he's the type of red wolf who would give his loved one cuddles and a kiss on the forehead.