Refering to my old journals:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1323809/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1465570/

<rant>
I can never be number 1-5 with anyone.
I'm getting really sick of just being bitch slapped with words when i have an opinion just because mr macho razor blade penis had a -slightly- different opinion.

Stop not considering my emotions and opinions jsut because the other guy you've "known longer" or is sexier.

and im not saying fuck your other friends and listen to me me me.

you could just LOOK at me when i talk.

GUH

And I still get that problem when its obvious i'm upset with someone and i get a "shows juston her ass to make him feel better" response.

blah

</rant>

normal day in a nutshell

4am: wake up
5am - 9am: work
9:30: get home, bathe, obssessively IM everyone online to see if there is anything to do,
usally give up and play video games
filler
filler
filler.
8-10 pm: decide when to go to bed.

blah.

heh

well since i have my own room and ots of it, i may start attempting to draw, for my new years resoultion.

I have a questionable drawing of me and my mate  dyingvisionary as well as a normal one in mind, and then a sketch of my sister.  tehfizzle

i like that 2 of the 3 most important people to me are wolves.
<3

woo >:O

as of late, i can only really say that my mate,  dyingvisionary and my sister  tehfizzle and my best friend  felcane-studios are the only ones i ever see any more.

i barely see them as it is, and when im not around them im really just sitting alone.
in the actualization that my friends list arent really my friends.
i never see anyone,

so if out of nowhere i just seem to snap at you.
im lonely, im crabby, im grumpy, i dont even know what i want anymore.

i dont think my head is on straight anymore.

i may be quitting second life.
or at least my jobs at IYC.
i need to find a place where tits arent recognized before talent.

along with being lonely i have the problem of being over shadowed.

and blah blah blah, half of you guys probably closed out the journal by now.

long story short, i think im losing my mind.

<rant>my brother.
girls with penisess.
pickles
random gay people confessing their love for me.
penises on second life that point straight fucking up.
penises on second life
penises
people that message you and only respond with emotes or "lol"
signing on second life and this conversation
>hey whats up
<nothing
>why nothing
<i dunno cuz i just fucking got on? lets try that

people that egg me on about how cute i apparently am.
if i say im not cute, don't try to convince me.
let me keep my dam opinion.
names on second life that aren't names like
shadowfire snowflake
ITS NOT A FUCKING NAME! ITS A BUNCH OF ADJECTIVES
shit fuck.

girls who know of my butt fetish and think wagging their ass at me will make me shut up, calm me down, or something like a "get me to do whatever they want" card.

television

people who are 15 years old or less on xbox live.

going into a chat room, and everyone and there mom asks me "asl"

when i ask someone if they like something, they flip the fuck out with hatred like i was suppose to research what to ask.

people with names for both men and woman, and no sign of gender identification in their profiles and murder my pronouns.

poorly raised people.

children.

having to child proof things.

if lil timmy wants to lick a power outlet and his dippy parents didnt teach him otherwise, dont stop him. k thanks.

fatter men that pick on me for my weight.

xbox live gamerscore.

the xbox live gamerscore is like a dick hat.
everyone gloats about having a bigger one but nobody's dick hat does anything.

halo 3:odst
seriously wtf

disney video games
disney

does dumb shit paparazzi TV shows about stalking celebrities on who gives a shit.

people that over use the term "derp"

having to be penetrate-able in anyway to get some god damn existence acknowledgment

all this "oh im a hard working woman in a man's world"
its the year 2 thousand fricken 10, where is there male dominance?</rant>

ok so apparently with my lack of talent i have gained a few more watchers, and i am definately still looking for some furry gamers to play nintendo and xbox games.

friend codes + gamertags please :D

not drawing, no.

on second life, i am a DJ for IYC, If i post the stream url would anyone listen?

After a days work, and working on the computer, I though I'd like to relax and just simply play left 4 dead 2 with my $60 turtle beach headset.
...
...
...
Oh wait, my brother thought it'd be a good idea to keep leaving my shit on the floor when he's done playing, so the tip of the headset jack snapped clean off and now I'm pissed because I don't get to throw out $60 and not have a job, and sit at home, complain and fart.

So, I'm getting the fuck out of here asap.

I will still have internet, so you shouldn't stop seeing me.

I love my new mate, everytime we're having a lil chat on yahoo she's drawing whatever goober thing we're doing.

I love you
 Dyingvisionary

she keeps drawing me cute though.
And it makes it hard for me to convince people otherwise. XP

she makes me feel so loved.

and a special shout out to my sister  tehfizzle

she's one of the few people that put up with me enough to come over on second life to watch a movie.
She's a wonderful artist, too bashful for her own good and if you were in arms length i'd poke you until you at least look at her talent.

special shoutout to all the others that im gonna just be too lazy and not individually name them and give credit.
because i know you wouldn't do the same, get over it. <3
and besides i'd run out material, people proably already closed this journal because they probably dont give a shit.

*points dramatically at those moving they're mouse to leave the page*

I love all of my friends, they've been a good help getting me out of my slump.

This isn't one of though "oh im emo, and ima kill myself" attention cries.

Having a life that most if not all my friends, are through the internet only.

What if I suddenly died, lost my internet for a long period of time, or whatever reason I'd lose contact with everyone.

That's my biggest fear.

I don't want to vanish without reason,
I don't want everyone I care about to just think I abandoned them.

I've been abandoned before.

It's not a happy feeling.

I love you guys.

Even if I'm an ass hole.

Whenever I try to confide i get the following responses:

WHAT Juston, would it be better if I just asked you to yiff?

Well that's nothing compared to my problems BLAH BLAH BLAH~

Well he said she said blah blah blah~

1: I'm not a fucking yiff slut, just because i like girl ass does not mean i'm talking to you for yours.

2: bringing up your own problems when someone's trying to vent isn't going to make them feel better. you're just adding drama to the unnecessary.

3: what other people said about what happened if its a multi person hissy fit, is not important.
I just want to talk about it, to get things out of my head.

I do not always want to fuck.
I would like people to listen or to talk to.
Very recently it just seems like:

I'm alone.

short deal: I cleared my block list. for those i blocked for pretty much being childish.


unrelated long deal:
I am an early bird.
i get up at 4 am, and work from 5am-9am

i usually am in bed by 9.

so in case all of the late night faces, are wondering where i am all the time.

thats it. bascially.

im on aol yahoo msn all the time from my phone and all offline Second Life messages are forwarded its way to my phone as well.

ok?

so no more "omfg juston where teh eff is you" or "Juston why dont you ever talk to me DX"

especially when in reality i message around can get no response. >.>

taken from  Erinkitty

1. (x) Have you ever howled at the moon?
2. (x) Have you ever barked at someone?
3. (x) Have you ever found yourself drawing or scribbling furry art when you're supposed to be doing something else?
4. (x) Have you ever worn an animal costume or tail as a child and pretended to be an animal?
5. (x) Have you ever eaten out of a dog bowl? (it was on top of the clean dish pile x3
6. ( ) Have you been to at least one furry con?
7. (x) Do you like to look at furry porn all the time?
8. (x) Do you RP or play second life as a furry character?
9. (x) Do you own a fursuit or at least a tail?
10. (x) Do you know what all these words mean or have used them at least once?
11. ( ) Do you have at least 5 videos of you acting or doing something furry on youtube?
12. (x) Has your anthropersona/character been drawn in a furry porn type manner?
13. (x) Are you well known in the furry fandom? (i like to think im a lil popular >"<)
14. (x) Do you dream furry while you sleep?
15. (x) Would you transform into your character/fursona if you were given the chance to live like that for the rest of your life? Be a super cute little ghost girl forever? ffff yeah!
16. (x) Have you ever worn a collar?
17. ( ) Do you own more than 20 art badges of your fursonas or characters?
18. ( ) Have you been to more than 20 furry cons in your lifetime?
19. (x) Do you think that deep down you have the spirit of an animal within you?
20. (x) Do you enjoy hanging out with other furries?
21. (x) Do you think we should have a furry run for president of the USA?
22. (x) If you ever became rich would you own a room in your house that was just to display your fursuits or furry art?
23. (x) Is your best friend furry?
24. (x) Does your furry friends call you by your furry name in public?
25. (x) Have you been in the furry fandom for at least 5 years?

1 to 5 = Furry wannabe.
6 to 10 = Furry newbie.
11 to 15 = Furry.
16 to 20 = Hardened Furry.
21 to 25 = Hardcore Furry.



I think its silly that such lil things get me fur points, heh.

<rant>I hate how many people, in left 4 dead 2 think its ok, you come save the day -slowly_with_a_melee_weapon- when you're being strangled by a special.</rant>

I love you.

10 friends and the odd 1 out.

they all get together, do the same stuff, like the same things, laugh at the same jokes.
they all care for each other exactly the same.
they all even share the same thoughts.

when it eventually came time for a sacrifice.
the 10 all agreed to let it be the 1.
the 1 also decided to let himself go.
so the 10 can stay happy.

the 1 would have rather died then live alone, or make the 10 split up.

I am the 1.

I am still alive.

I've become fast friends, and she made me this drawing so i formed an icon out of it.

 DyingVisionary

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3895626

I definatly needed a new friend =3

have actually played the phoenix wright games, are do they just use to to gain slight popularity from the fan base.

i had a guy thinking i was trying to be a wanna-be, on second life, when i used a "take that" gesture, which is from the same game.

I really wish people would appreciate the phoenix wright series for their pretty good stories, before they would just spam the fuck out of "objection" and pretend to know what they're talking about.

I find myself staring at them for hours going :Q_____

These are just peeves I have listed in my profile.
Continuing to read, you agree to
-not get pissed off if you apply to 1 or more peeves
-not give a shit and just let me have my peeves cuz im sure i apply to a few of your own peeves.

this is mostly listed for the fact that alot of people like to tell me how i state some of my peeves, is hilarious.

and... iunno, couldn't hurt to know a lil more about me.

These are just peeves, im not gonna just ignore you for them.
-Names without capitol first letters, numbers, and compound words that are clearly not names.
SammiJo = ok
DarkWolf = not ok
These are examples, im not picking on anyone
Gendershifters and Shapeshifiters
-People who start a conversation and only say lol
-Alts, if you need a second life from your second life, maybe its time to just quit.
-Couples that are like "OMFG MAH PHUCKING SIGNIFICANT OTHER IS HERE *humps air*"
-people who talk or joke about castration like its not the most distubing thing to talk to a man, like talking to an animal about being "fixed"
-Guys who walk around naked with a constant hard-on
-The :/ :\ faces
-Cock blockers, pussy shielders
-The herms that are just herms for sex appeal.
-People who over react to my butt love.


^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

thats all the ones i could fit before running out of space.

other things that pissed me off over the years at various occasions

In runescape, a guy 3 or so lvls over me, would want to buy a piece of armor off of my back, (the armor maybe one level better than theres) and when i refuse they'd just be like
"Noob
Noob
Noob
Hey everybody, this guy.
This guy right here, DCJuston.
He's a total ****** noob."

It went on to the point where someone asked him why i was a newb.
"he wouldn't give me the armor i wanted to buy"
>...
<...
>...
<...
"if he's a noob for not giving it away, then you're a noob for not already having it"

im just like
\o/ support.

Lets see

sldrama
sldrama
sldrama

My best friend is going to the army *boo*
He's leaving me his van we had all our adventures in *yay*

I DJ at IYC, (club on second life) I don't think alot of the poeple care for my video game and anime music.

I've been stabbed in all sorts of terrible, by a horrible man lady. *emotionally*

uh~~~

I've been playing FFXI finally made lvl 26.

I'm still looking for people to play pokemon with.

<.<
>.>

I'm trying to find a way out of being a "background character"

I got a micro AV on SL, much better quality, the limbs actually move and actually does animations.

still hate call of duty 4-2 on xbox 360
love call of duty 5 on wii.

I find myself going "merf" alot

Still not caring about having a butt curse.

Girls are evil, most of which, and no i dont mean the ones on my friends list who clearly show affection to me, most of which.

And I need better friends, ones that wont be like "Not now Juston i'm being penetrated."

and yeah this is all random stuff about me, that isnt really enough to make a whole journal for each individual thing.

I've been posting on a forum for FFXI and most of them are dull as fuck.

DEFIANTLY NOT LIKE YOU GUYS. But I'm sure half of you deleted this jorunal from your notifications, not giving a shit. Cheers.



I joined FFXI about a week ago, I pretty much get the gist of how to play, and I do have my own set of goals which is currently

-make lvl 18
-start and finish the subjob quest (items already required)
-join a team that doesn't have a meticulously cliche name
-get lvl 30
-do the quests that lead up to becoming a BLU (Blue Mage)
-work on from there.

Currently I'm a Hume lvl 16 RDM (Red Mage) in the Bastok area waitng randomly to be recruited by a random party, hoping to play with till i at least make lvl 18.

It's been really difficult to be new and get a party.

I use Xbox Live (gamertag: Demon Cat Lord) to play, and I'm 19 years old, in case you guys are flimsy in terms of playing with children.

If anyone wants to help me, I'll be around.

Feeling like the first Newb in years, I wandered aimlessly doing the beginning training tutorial.
_______________________________________

I have made a few friends already.

One of which has offered to be my~~~ how to say~~

teach sensai person guy.

he's been helping me level up buy Power-Leveling i think he called it.

we're working on training my white mage to i can use it as a sub job until i eventually get the combo
BLU/RDM thing going.

I'm looking forward to lvl 30 in BLU, that's when we're going to start really questing together. me him and his linkshell.

Needless to say tis game has become so much more enjoyable with peers.

i'm looking forward to becomeing -useful- and doing my best to not being the guy chosen merely becuase i was -available-

i'm still looking forward to having a separate party from the linkshell with my own lil clique.
maybe end up forming on with in the linkshell.
hoping for 2 or 3 mithras, cuz they are just beautiful.
and like most men you enjoy the company of woman.

*hides from any slapping woman in the vincinity*

more or less i want a team of not jerks, which is my ultamate goal.

the only goal i can think of to surpass that one would be to actually have a clan of my own.

_________________________________
>lul you know most of the girls on the internet are men right?
<derderderder
_________________________________

Well of course I thought of that.

Cheers.

Just a game, might as well have fun with it.

Well if anyone's actually interested in my lil newb adventure log

Yesterday I made lvl 17 in Red mage and started training in white mage to use it as my sub job for now.

Going into not stop training with me sensai man guy going to get white mage to lvl 25, i beleive he said and then resuming game play as a RDM/WHT, until my dreams of BLU become virtual reality.

an im the only new player for years.


stop being lvl 75, its not fair.

fucking of a registration code isn't working and the damn website doesn't even have a support line. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFf

I play the wii and xbox360

and today i decided im going to play final fantasy 11.

or at least do the month trial on it.

I am looking for people to play on the wii: Mario Kart, Animal Crossing, and smash bros.

Xbox I wouldn't mind playing halo 3, normal and odst, left 4 dead 1-2, castle crashers, aegis wing (this one is free to download) and perfect dark (arcade).

Lemme know if you wanna play.