Check latest journal - she sells a part of her art collection. There are various pieces there including some of my art.

My little town is literally infested with raccoons. They are a plague but they are so cute.

I'm still in the process of upgrading my gallery. Colour quality, contrast etc. Experimenting with vatious settings. So my artworks might change their look. I strive for more livid and clean look, close to original.

I dropped on shortly during Saturday to visit my brothers wedding. Haven't attended much due to wife at work (she can't take day off freely due to the nature of so called junk work contract) so well, I just vidited shortly with my kid and left soon.

Wep, life, our work and our kid cpndition succesfully destroying our any attempt to have social lives.

Maybe you have noticed but I reuploaded a multitude of my artworks and I consider doing more.
Thanks to chatgpt protips and handy mobile apps I have upgraded the quality of scans - better colour hue, better contrast. It looks more similar to irl. Hope you like it as the previous files often had washed-out kinda colors esp black and dark ones.

Do you ride a bicycle? Which kind/model?
I own retro steel road bike, fat bike and budget mtb bike converted into urban commuter.

Btw as always an commission info - I am available
Colored portrait - 50 usd plus shipment
Larger A4 scene - up from 150 usd plus shipment.
All done per hand, this is traditional art. Copicmarkers, metallic paints, fluids, ink. Can do SFW and NSFW. Can do complicated bacgrounds, machinery, all themes. Progress sent and consulted online. It might take awhile to complete the art as I'm busy.

Again sorry I kinda traumadump you. Wiish I could share somethibg positive but there isn't much.

I might take some commissions if you want somethibg from me.
Colored portrait - 50 usd plus shipment
Largeer A4 scene - up from 150 usd pkus shipment.
All done per hand, this is traditional art. Copicmarkers, metallic paints, fluids, ink. Can do SFW and NSFW. Can do complicated bacgrounds, machinery, all themes. Progress sent and consulted online. It might take wahile to complete the art as I'm busy.

Our kiddo is sick. Again, 4th time this year. We are so tired often as he can't sleep. He is nonverbal so often we have to deduce what helps him or not. Add horrifying tantrums and shrieking - do you remember the zombified newborn from the Dawn of the Living Dead from 2004? Or those pale mutants from I am legend?

As I mentioned we don't have family support. Np grandmas grandpas etc.
M brother fiancee kinda manipulated everyone against us, my wife's mother and sister are classical entitled narcissists. Everyone just has hurtful comments/advices, orders and demands so fuck them honestly - they shown their true colours.

We dealt recently with multiple equipment failures at work so I've spent multiple hours servicing the hardware.

I wish I could share something positive but there isn't much. I just do commishes for money and that's it. I do photos of the surroundings and I share them with some folks from here but that's all. I kinda stopped and forgotten how to be funny and interesting. I have almost nothing to talk about with 99% of people and honestly I'm sorry that maybe some of you are trauma dumped/bombed.

I've played the new Silent Hill 2 remake since October - still havent finished the game. Watched some Black Mirror new episodes. This year we have maybe a 4 days of warmth since the January. Really. This May is one of the coldest in history. Rain, frost, snow.

And what's about you folks?

Due to our kid tantrums and screams I developed tinnitus in right ear so ouch. Weird and annoying.

Dear watchers, do you drive? I, despite being almost 40, never. Did the course and ditched the subject. Lack of money and poor results/progress. After 15-30minutes of driving through the town, my brain is melting. I have the same thing while riding a bicycle - I'm very distracted and prone to falls/accidents.
After knowing my kid possiible autism diagnosis, I think I might be neurodiverse too and well, that could explain a lot. I learned to ride a bicycle at 12. Can't swim, ski etc. Often tripping and falling (recently had to repair my bike again after I broke the handlebar). Migraines. Losing the consciouness. It's difficult you know as the lack of driving skill and licence restricted me very much. No trips, no family vacations, dealing with nasty weather, poor public transport, multiple job offers declined, being kinda locked. Also cycling is pretty dangerous due to reckless drivers, icy roads, rain and cold, lack of infrastructure. Wife is afraid of driving after surviving accident as passenger (totaled car).

It sucks. I wish I could but it would demand a medications for adhd, assesments, multiple paid hours, paying the exams. I just have to live without car in the most car obsessed country in UE.

I just view currently the car/mototbike driving as some superfeat. I could never grab it properly. It is so tiring. It's so easy for others.

Landed safely in the new place. Ofc there were trouble with one old hag neighbour but I just told her to gtfo as my kid is probably special needs/autistic. There was a first night tonight that our kid slept continuously. We are putting him in theraphy and stuff. I've renovated/repaired my old road bike.

Our kid behaved weirdly and was sick, we took him to new pediatrician. We were worried duecto his speech problems and unusual traits - lack of fear, putting toys in lines. The doc strongly suspects autism spectrum.

Ouch. What a bomb. Probably my son has inherited this from me as I consider diagnosis too. It would explain a lot. But I'm worried about his future. It's mild but he will face social isolation, loneliness, bullies etc.

Honestly I don't know what to do now. I'm kinda stunned.

We gonna move into next flat in upcoming week - sadly the procedures and real estate agents are so damn flaky (except one old guy who was top notch and very helpful).
Of course our neighbour attacked me yesterday and the dude literally chased me because I took the kid to my family home so we are staying there until we hot a new flat open and keys handed.
Dude is just so crazy. He just calling me names and cursing because I recorded him again. Cope and seethe, he's losing his composure and it's pleasure to watch him going mad. The best punishment for such bullies is exposing them and bringing them into accountability.
I got new that the dude has served in uniformed services - so uh oh another crazy ex-border guard or whatever who thinks that he can bully others into obedience just like in his old military days. Very common occurrence here where we live as the area holds multiple garrisons incl us army barracks. Anyway, I got a lawyer hired and we gonna press the charges.
Therefore I stopped artmaking for some time as we have to settle down in a new place.

Thank good they it's over. I hate this feast. Crowds, drunken people, lack of magic, just stress. Adding our noisy and tedious kid (he is overstimulated and all children premises are empty/closed so he has nowhere to go and play).

Merry Christmas to my watchers and friends. Wesołych świąt kochani.

Today we have to put our flat for sale. The estate agent visited us and did his job.
We want to buy a flat very near, just literally on the opposite of my old family home.
Our conflict with the neighbours reached the nadir and we reported them to our district policeman and they received the warning and non contact advice. Currently I don't want to issue a RO for them and start a court case. They are so mad, they look on us with so much hate. Cope and seethe you damn bullies.
The reason was our kid - it was noisy and they complained, harassed us. It has escalated from friendly warnings to verbal assaults. When we finally snapped and reported them to he police - as they yelled and engaged in drinking and loud parties, they harassed us on the street and staircases (we live in multifamily building). How dare we to report them. That we are liars and scum (despite my proofs and recordings).
Now there is the silence. And those people I considered my friends in past and yet, another bullies and snakes.

I just want to sell this place, collect money, pay for the new place and do the moving. Take the pots, laptops, toys, our clothes, bicycles and my handyman tools. And leave, as I don't want to see that place again. In general, except one very nice family and one old lady, all tenants gave us a headache. They are bossy, yelling types. I considered a move 2 years ago but now, enough is enough. I cannot imagine myself to live there for the next years as those people are vindictive, vengenful and crazy. We just want to live unbothered in peace. No stupid conflict and being yelled on. Anyway, it has taught us to stand for yourself and we know now how to use lawyers, law enforcement, courts, documenting and mental strategu to deflect various attacks and do not be involved in DARVO. It's something that sadly most people don't know and they are involved in long feuds.

1. I do commishes to supply my income. A steady amount of work commissioned by really helps us to stay afloat. Thanks man.
2. Raising a child is difficult, time and energy consuming.
3. We have to deal with yelling, abusive, bullying neighbours unfortunately, police is involved as thosr guys are crazy - they probably have the drinking problem.
4. No social life, gaming, cycling, just work, kid, chores. No vacations and help. Yep it sucks. For my wife especially.
5. I lost a lot of weight and gained stamina so it's positive.
6. I enjoy being a dad really.
7. Gave up on many bad habits.
8. I lost few teeths due to injuries and have to wear dentures (partial). It's much cheaper than implants.
9. AI'm aways open for commissions.


and you folks? How are you?

What do you think? Are you scared of the Orange Man?

I know that here in Poland we are going to get fucked anyway by Russia soon. I just grabbed a popcorn and smiled, watching memes (yep, right can meme, left cannot).

It's a failure of liberalism and the left wing, as the modern left is out of touch with reality. An ordinary, common wage earner doesn't give much a fuck about women's rights, reproductive rights, feminism, racism, lgbt, trans rights and so on. People want safety, jobs, food, affordable healthcare and education to buy nice things for themselves and thrive in prosperity, consume, raise their children, you know the whole thing. Add religion to it - religion gives many people hope, it's their only refuge, and you cannot fight that. Also, the right-wingers know better how to channel hate, how to use conspiracies, how to blame others.

The old school left (communists, socialists) knew this too but they are the margin now or they just died.

For example - doctors/dentist getting extremely rich and the pharma industry funding the research while ordinary people are fucked by the treatment/procedures costs, drug prices. And now many turn into conspiracies and quackery from desperation (alt-med, Burzyński Clinic, antivaxxers etc.). Far right used that fear perfectly.

Hope you are not offended. My political and religious views are very eclectic. I generally dislike fanatics. Democrats should think about giving people the basics of living security - jobs, affordable healthcare, education. This should be the priority. I'm generally disappointed with the current state of the world and politics. It goes against the interest, welfare and survival of humanity. Take care folks. We all deserve better regardless of our religion, status, sexuality, race etc. But nobody cares about us, simple, average, law abiding citizens. We are just cattle and cannon fodder.

How are you, my dear watchers? Have you experienced something interesting? Any new music/movies/games to share?
I'm looking for inspiration and stuff. Like the Silent Hill 2 remake, but my time for entertainment is very scarce, unfortunately. Had to deal with nasty neighbors (police was involved, they helped us) and family dramas. I have too many shitty and mean/abusive people in my life, but unfortunately I cannot separate from them and go completely no contact.



btw I'm open for commision of course

I believe that Blake Shelton found a new fan today.
Yes, I got my internal redneck satisfied.

My wife has created a new profile as she forgot the email/passwords for the last one, so here she is, give her a watch and warm welcome.
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My mother has passed away today, I saw her last breath and my father laments and the cancer made her emaciated and disfigured, like a zombie. An awful experience

My mother fell ill a week ago, it was cosidered by doctors as post-covid syndrome, but unfortunately her state worsened, she is unable to move and weak. After further diagnosis, unfortunately this is the last stage cancer and she is dying. Its awful to watch my mum thin, emaciated, suffering, unable to move and speak. That will be a death combo strike in my family, 3 deaths and 2 in my family home, just in over a month.

Quick reminder that I am available for commissions.

To make thing worse, majority of my family incl me, we got covid and this was probably the reason of my grandma's sudden death.

Itsl feels like a common cold, but much nastier.

My dear watchers and friends from telegram, how are you? I'm trying to find a sidejob and therefore I have to pass some qualification exams (Appen, Tellus web evaluator gigs to earn even a few USDs).
Also my grandma has died yesterday so we have the funeral expenses and organisation.
My wife is suffering from depression as she is lonely and I work long hours. I might give you her discord/telegram handle, she will appreciate the chat with some friendly females.
Hit me up on telegram if you want.