https://www.gofundme.com/f/in-lovin.....family-support

The other night, a friend took their life. Another friend of theirs began a gofundme to help support the family he left behind in this time.
If you could, please donate.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uvlgy3InWA0
Many tributes were made in his discord server, here is mine.
He will not be forgotten by those truly touched by his presence.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oACB8WnLE5U
Rest in peace, you Prince of Darkness.
You are certainly missed already.
rock on, you legend.

At least he was able to be surrounded by loved ones and got to have a farewell concert. He went on his terms and that is amazing for the life he lived.

I am presently open to taking on PWYW commissions :) So please, if you're interested, don't be afraid to drop a line!
Main payment method is CashApp! $nattiedraws

My birthday is nearing, would anyone like me to make any art for them so me could get some treats for meself? :3

tips also greatly appreciated, my cashapp is $NattieDraws

https://bsky.app/profile/nattiepuff.bsky.social
:3

https://sta.sh/027g5hrs1ps
Here be them!

Also, as it is day one of what usually would be considered "Giftmas" by me each year for the last like five or six years, I will like to announce that this year I just don't think I will be doing it.
It takes such a large amount of energy to do it and I just don't have that ability to draw fully detailed pieces every single day anymore. The last few years have been a huge slog for me to get through, energy-wise.
I am sorry, but I don't think I will be doing it this year. Hope this is understood. If someone else would like to take up Giftmas and start doing it for their friends, you're free to do so. I enjoy seeing people make something nice for their friends, squeek. I would love to see someone else do a Giftmas of their own, I just will not be able myself to do it.

Remember, after you post a piece to fa, if the canvas is larger than 1280x___, be sure to click "Change submission file" in order to post the full sized piece and not a crunched down jpeg version :3 if it's larger than 1280x___, the site will at first crunch down to it being 1280x whatever, leaving your piece crunched down and in crunchy crunchy jpeg. Especially for a ref, it makes it very difficult to get the proper sized piece to work with.

This has been a psa for yall, since I see so many people think they posted the full sized versions but actually haven't~

a reminder: i still need to be got out of here like asap guys. the situation here is increasingly shitter by the day. every single comment turns into a war by this point. the constant lying also isnt helping. things keep getting physical, this seriously is getting worse, guys.
i NEED to be away from here. just because i am sharing memes or posting art doesnt mean the abuse isnt still going on.

From December 1st to January 1st of next year, i will be putting commissions on hold and being closed for now to commissions (unless otherwise stated)
It be Giftmas time! so I shall be rather busy~

For those who don't know, Giftmas is a thing I have done every year for five years. I created it as a way to give something special to the special people in my life. I do a daily drawing for each person usually over the course of December or the 12 days leading up to christmas, depending on how the feelings are. (maybe even the whole 31 days if i ever had the time and energy)
so squeek! if ya have any other questions, do be sure to ask~

I may have drawn a lot of art tonight on stream, but I am not safe to post them at present moment. more pressing matters are at hand. I am being threatened by my abusive parents and could wind up dead. the living situation here has steadily gotten worse
I am certainly putting art, videos, streams, etc on hold for the time being. right now is certainly not a good time. my life is at stake here.

Yo, what are some things you would like to see me take a look at for my Nat Reviews series on YouTube?
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....72402wD34xQ5m4 (to see what I have reviewed over the years)
Same with if you have suggestions for the Nat at the Movies series~

Well, i been pondering the idea around all year, two commissions i have done for others this year have been paid by people gifting me games on steam, it's a steam sale rn so i figured... good time to gauge interest?
It's the only way i can accept payments rn, so meep, anyone interested?

i would draw whatever it is ya desired me to draw (as long as it's within tos) then the payment is done by gifting a game or multiple games that equal the amount the piece is. idk, i never done anything big scale before like it so idk how to do any of this, but wont learn without trying i suppose.
iamalsoterribleatexplainingsorry

it mah birfday :3

It isn't exactly confirmed as of yet (it is a hurricane, they can be unpredictable at times)
but at the current moment it does appear I will at least get some portion of the hurricane here, if so I am sorry for any silences or such (power likely would go out, and all that)

Not sure how bad it'll be when it gets here (if it does at all), but I hope it isn't too much.
I wish all affected are safe. Wishing you all the best out there!

Since i recently got GIMP, i have been trying to use it some. made some pieces thus far and I find it very neat!
However, does anyone got any brushes I should use in it? :o I only got the basics so far :3
any leaves/plants, etc? :o (and other brushes you would often use)

also, how do ya like install brushes exactly (sorry, kinda new to all this xD)

(been meaning to ask for a while but, obvious stuff got in the way first.)
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as for a small update: currently a fair bit sick xP
bleh, and had a nightmare earlier but I'm awake for now~

over the next few days, i will be posting art, even if my output is drastically reduced since the event the other day. (i still have some art made before the incident, and etc. i also have a piece of new art as well)

youtube videos have also come to essentially a halt for the time being as well.
like i said in one of the last videos posted (so far), updates about me personally are primarily on my facebook. so if you've been following on there, yeah, things have been all over the place ^^"

and bleh, i wanna say more but my brain is drawing blanks, having a rather depressed day as is >>
sorry for this being short, but mew, i am trying.

but yes, in short: life is whack xP i am still trying to do art, videos, etc, but it's just really hard to ^^" i also am feeling rather depressed. sorry this is short ^^"

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also, i do wanna thank the friends who have actually maintained contact and helped me and reached out so far, it does mean a lot, i wish i could thank you all sufficiently ^^"
but i am very grateful for you all, thank you. you've all been enormous helps.

i also wish to apologise if i scared anyone with my posts, but things were (and still are) really serious, it's alot to handle.
but if wondering, i am still here, i am not gone. i am trying my best.

this is very likely the end, police will be coming soon, or so i think
i've had abusive parents for years, they wont leave me alone today, i cant take it anymore, if worse comes to worse, know i loved and cared for you all.
i am scared and terrified of death but i fear it may be coming sooner than i hoped...
so if this is goodbye, please know i cared for you all, love you all. take care, please.

sorry for the topics of this journal but i had to say something for you all
i wish you all the best, all these years, you've been great.

i really have hated today, i cant just have peace, i cant.
all the threats and physical abuse, i cant handle this anymore.
police havent cared for years, never listened to me, always let them continue, thinking 'it wasnt an issue'
i cant take this anymore
i cant

but please, please know, even if you hate me now or have for years, or were a friend or currently are a friend, i have cared and still care about you all.
i want you all to have the best lives, everyone.
please, take care. If this is the end, i will miss you all, but i have loved you all.
all of you, every single one of you.

thanks for all the support, i am sorry how this has gone, sorry.
but please, please take care.

I have gotten gimp and krita after many years of difficulty in trying to get them, mew
buuut, what do i do with them, i have zero idea how to use em o-o
could anyone help, please? :o


also, for those wondering how i am, bleh, things could be much better over here xP

flood is over, don't worry
i now uploaded all the pics i feel to post for both accounts for now ^-^
sorry for so much art being posted so fast XD been holding back a while because of general 'ugh' feels

Also, as a mini update, still a bit sick, tryin anything to get a positive mindset goin tho!
Wishing ya all well, and thanks for all the help <3

Some friends know lately how stressed out n all i been, my mind has been dealing with loads of stressful stuff n all lately, i do feel i need a me day where i just relax and all. so that's what i am gonna be doing, so for all those whom message me, sorry ^^"
hopefully understandable to ya all tho, mewww

could make a drawing to say all this but mew xP
issues still ongoing here, water is now shut off (joy)
in a very bad mood, lots of depression n much more (as explained on fb)
very lonely feeling and feeling hopeless
this last day especially, ugh, roughness. very bad day.
tons of additional personal events have come up and mew...

i havent reaaally been drawing, kinda have a lot on my plate currently, so those expecting trades (you know who ya are~) and other art, please do bare with me.
I haven't even been making videos as much either, too unmotivated, too depressed and just this huge useless and lousy feeling that has come over me just makes me really not wanna do much of anything.

to add, i may of gotten sick from whatever is going around, yipeee, add more to the pile.

i will be headed to sleep but i wanted to give a brief update before i go pass out. long night, rawr.
sorry if my attitude is a bit snappy or anything, not my intent, i am just extremely out of it currently when i am not in general panic state, mewww
night/morning (goodness, sun will come up real soon here)

if i were to stream, be it a game or art or whatev, would anyone wanna watch

like, i got obs n such, so like, i couuuld
i dont know how to operate it but like, mew



*also, lots more stuff has been going on increasingly each day now, so mrew, but i tryin to not talk of negativeees, so mew, lotsa stress and bad stuff goin on but rawrrr*

guys, rough day. no art from me or such for now.
stuff is going on and all... mew...
in pain