It's my first con and so far its been amazing. Awesome art and artists, great fursuits, and pretty fantastic panels. So glad I'm able to be here!

I'm really really sick
not just cold or flu or mono sick
god I would give anything to be that kind of sick

I cant eat,
I cant shower
I can barely smoke
I have problems holding things
even simple things like cups take too much energy to hold
I stumble when I walk
my stomach feel like its trying to claw its way out of my body
I wish it would

I want all of this pain to stop
No one even knows whats wrong
If I get much worse
I'll end up in the hospital

im sorry im so whiney
ill be going now

She left a week to roam
Your protector's coming home
Keep your secrets with you, girl
Safe from the outside world

You walk along the stream
Your head caught in a waking dream
Your protector's coming home
Coming home

My Cage

IT comes again

the longing

I rattle my cage

The lady shaves my head


She thinks I'm

crazy or butch

Would she love me


if I WAS butch?

They love you

if you are boi

but not boy

It comes again


THE longing

and I can only

rattle my cage

So we laughed
Compared notes
We had a drink
We had a smoke
She took off her over coat
I kissed a girl

And we laughed at the world
They can have their diamonds
And we'll have our pearls.
I kissed a girl

I kissed a girl here lips were sweet
She was just like kissing me
Kissed a girl won't change the world
But I'm so glad I
Kissed a girl

"I'm sorry I'm bad
I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back.

I love how you kiss
I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say
I'm sorry."

"I want you to have sex with me, but more importantly,
I want you to tell me your deepest thoughts at 3 am, and get goosebumps when I kiss your ear, and hold my hand when I’m nervous. I want for you to read me your favorite books, and to help me study.
I want you

to exist"

I did not write this but it still pertains to...us.

Two years ago, I met a man named Mark Wooldridge. He did a talk at my camp about how he tried to kill himself. He was so funny, and I decided to talk to him privately about how I was suicidal. He took me in his arms, and told me that everything was going to be ok. He told me that it wasn't my fault. He told me that he felt lonely too and that he gets sad that he's a virgin, but that it'll happen some day. He assured me that suicide is never the answer.

On October 26th, the man that convinced me that suicide wasn't the answer, killed himself. Apparently it was very respectful, how he did it. I was shocked. I sobbed for an hour. I was numb. I didn't know what to do.... But, when he killed himself, it clicked in my mind. Suicide isn't the answer. Mental illness is no ones fault.

If I had never met him, I would've killed myself by now. I would've continued to hurt myself. It is because of him that I haven't, and it's because of me. I loved this man, and it's a shame he is gone but I am so greatful for him

This is him.


This is a video I made for him. None of the art is mine.


REMEMBER there is always someone out there that you mean the world to, and thanks to you, someone may still be alive.

Wanna be a bird? I doooo.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5043361/

GET FRISKEYYYYYY?

Held by the awesome Korth

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5036179/

is confusing and stuff. So are girls. And gender...

Anyway, I guess this is me saying you should use male pronouns for me and stuff

build me up, Buttercup baby? Just to let me down.

i just get lonely.

MAI. BIRFF.DAY

Im just emotional tonight, crying about everything, so maybe it's just me but recently I feel territorial(Like with a friend of mine who I may sleep with one day) and I get really extreme, like I want to punch the other person. And I get jealous, like honestly what is going on? I just want to attack anyone who tries to have a closer bond than me and my friends.

Anal gets me off more than clit...

thought you ought to know.

This song reminds me of you. You should know who you are.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZIANBamMgas

Dude, what if all paper companies grew a tree for every tree they tear down?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b_mwlrkBPTk

nsfw
http://25.media.tumblr.com/67ebb5a3.....rl61o1_400.gif

http://24.media.tumblr.com/e9432eda.....rl61o1_400.gif

http://25.media.tumblr.com/7d1ff1f5.....qy3bo1_500.jpg

http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=Y3uDt-J854-

Do you ever just sit on your bed, staring at a wall and wonder 'Does anyone truly love me?'

Where I will lose 50 pounds in one year