Bal'Kar Patreon Updates!
Posted 8 years agoWell...ive posted an update on my own art up on Pateon but im down to one pledger and thats my fiance.
Ive got a long way to go in my dreams ...and thats all i can really say.
I think im going to have to post less of my WIP's to telegram and make it a bit more exclusive.
I have been drawing a ton lately and ive neglected the pareon aspect waay out. So... Ill try again.
If you wanna see what i get up to art wise, you know what to do!, its all a good Chunk of Bal'Kar stuff straight from the mind of its creator.
the more support i get, the more i will improve!. Im learning my lessons!
https://www.patreon.com/NeoxNorris
Ive got a long way to go in my dreams ...and thats all i can really say.
I think im going to have to post less of my WIP's to telegram and make it a bit more exclusive.
I have been drawing a ton lately and ive neglected the pareon aspect waay out. So... Ill try again.
If you wanna see what i get up to art wise, you know what to do!, its all a good Chunk of Bal'Kar stuff straight from the mind of its creator.
the more support i get, the more i will improve!. Im learning my lessons!
https://www.patreon.com/NeoxNorris
Bal'Kar Exile
Posted 8 years agoIts amazing how i can feel Exiled in my own creation.
"Doubt" is a horrid thing
"Doubt" is a horrid thing
Neox Life update and things
Posted 8 years agoHey everyone.
Just making a journal to update you all on my current standings.
In all honesty, things have not been good all round. Being away from Gola has made me rather miserable, there is only so much he can do for me tight now being so far away. There are times we struggle to see how this journey of ours is ever gonna work being so far apart and many of my friends here in Australia have seen me less than desirable to hang around with. I feel extradited here in Australia, like no one gives a shit about me apart from Pierric. Most of my friends are now overseas, and while i have so many of you to support me with all your words to comforting to me, i still feel physically alone. Ive been gardening a lot, growing my own army of succulents to help me meditate and remove those bad thoughts.
My patron got off to a less than desirable start last month, and work has been murder on my body. I come home from 50+ hour weeks including travel in busy Sydney traffic (the infrastructure is so shit right now).Not to mention how expensive it has become to live here , its just a joke right now. My body hates me for it all, my ankles are so stiff and my shoulder has been playing up with pinching nerves. The body aches suck and is incredibly sore from all the strenuous work activities Ive been doing to keep myself living and breathing. Its given me next to no time to work on art and my dreams to become an artists. My move to Canada is a slow and strenuous one. Right now I'm able to save about $45 per week which means i need to be consistent with this current plan for a couple of years, and i dont think i can do that...yet i must to show Gola that this move is definitely something i want. Ive left most telegram and social media chats because I'm sick of seeing photos of everyone having fun in rubber gear and fursuits, and having fun with each other in a scene I've long desired to be part of. It all just makes me angry that im not involved, I dont feel part of any physical play right now which i guess is my own fault.
I need to get to Canada by the time I'm 30 and im already 29.
My passport has arrived in the mail and i have applied for a Canadian holiday/working Visa and the wait time is currently about 8 weeks.
Ive had a lot of people contact me in recent days for their own reasons wanting me to take part in joint commissions ect, and i just dont have the funds. Ive even had to cancel my trip to Defqon.1 so i can continue saving. Defqon.1 has been a yearly ritual for me ever since its conception and im extremely disappointed I'm going to miss out this year. My plan was to do a 10 year dedication, but i'll just have to settle with 8 years. I suppose i should be lucky i got to go to them at all.
Anyways, Life is hard right now and I'm not in a comfortable position for me to be able to focus on art and Bal'Kar things right now. Some people expect me to just somehow magically be available to cater to their own needs which in turn deflates me beyond belief. It had definitely been a major contribution towards my depression. The need to help everyone is there inside me, yet im so caught up in trying to scrape by living. There are even days where i have to skip meals to make sure i have enough to pay my way here in Sydney.
The hope is that all the struggles i endure right now will pay off for things far more positive in the future.
Just making a journal to update you all on my current standings.
In all honesty, things have not been good all round. Being away from Gola has made me rather miserable, there is only so much he can do for me tight now being so far away. There are times we struggle to see how this journey of ours is ever gonna work being so far apart and many of my friends here in Australia have seen me less than desirable to hang around with. I feel extradited here in Australia, like no one gives a shit about me apart from Pierric. Most of my friends are now overseas, and while i have so many of you to support me with all your words to comforting to me, i still feel physically alone. Ive been gardening a lot, growing my own army of succulents to help me meditate and remove those bad thoughts.
My patron got off to a less than desirable start last month, and work has been murder on my body. I come home from 50+ hour weeks including travel in busy Sydney traffic (the infrastructure is so shit right now).Not to mention how expensive it has become to live here , its just a joke right now. My body hates me for it all, my ankles are so stiff and my shoulder has been playing up with pinching nerves. The body aches suck and is incredibly sore from all the strenuous work activities Ive been doing to keep myself living and breathing. Its given me next to no time to work on art and my dreams to become an artists. My move to Canada is a slow and strenuous one. Right now I'm able to save about $45 per week which means i need to be consistent with this current plan for a couple of years, and i dont think i can do that...yet i must to show Gola that this move is definitely something i want. Ive left most telegram and social media chats because I'm sick of seeing photos of everyone having fun in rubber gear and fursuits, and having fun with each other in a scene I've long desired to be part of. It all just makes me angry that im not involved, I dont feel part of any physical play right now which i guess is my own fault.
I need to get to Canada by the time I'm 30 and im already 29.
My passport has arrived in the mail and i have applied for a Canadian holiday/working Visa and the wait time is currently about 8 weeks.
Ive had a lot of people contact me in recent days for their own reasons wanting me to take part in joint commissions ect, and i just dont have the funds. Ive even had to cancel my trip to Defqon.1 so i can continue saving. Defqon.1 has been a yearly ritual for me ever since its conception and im extremely disappointed I'm going to miss out this year. My plan was to do a 10 year dedication, but i'll just have to settle with 8 years. I suppose i should be lucky i got to go to them at all.
Anyways, Life is hard right now and I'm not in a comfortable position for me to be able to focus on art and Bal'Kar things right now. Some people expect me to just somehow magically be available to cater to their own needs which in turn deflates me beyond belief. It had definitely been a major contribution towards my depression. The need to help everyone is there inside me, yet im so caught up in trying to scrape by living. There are even days where i have to skip meals to make sure i have enough to pay my way here in Sydney.
The hope is that all the struggles i endure right now will pay off for things far more positive in the future.
Ive created a patreon For Bal'Kar art and content
Posted 8 years agohttps://www.patreon.com/NeoxNorris
https://www.patreon.com/NeoxNorris
https://www.patreon.com/NeoxNorris
So....This is a long shot
But for the longest time Ive had my own dream! To take over the world!!!!! MUAHAHA!....okay...its all in my head...
However...i see some potential...small...but its something.
My dream is to create a world for myself and a growing community of Bal'Kar by my side using my art and story writing skills to excite those interested in learning more about my creation! The Bal'Kar!.
Having support for this will help me get inspired to carry this dream into the skies above.
The more that pledge, the more i will be inspired to do. I hope to get into making Bal'Kar plushie merch!, shirts! stories! art! and earn a living of all of this so i can Kick my shitty retail life goodbye! Further creation onto my Bal'Kar Wikipedia so all of you can have a juicy read into all this
I'm New to all this! But getting started is the first big step! Hopefully i can get big enough to even pay money to have some admin support! holy!...im a genius! Ruling the world is gonna be so cool!.....all in my head...*breathes deep*
I actually have some art of my own coming in the weeks to come to show you all what im capable of Ive actually surprised even myself.
So help me realize my dreams on a realistic front here. Support me and the Bal'Kar world in this lovely generation we are moving into! i would absolutely love it if i could also get funded to go to Art school too!
I'd love to work on this more but time is unfortunately money. But man...i can dream of this going places right?
You all wanna see more Bal'Kar stuff?
I can't do this for free forever...or continue to commission my hard earned retail cash on other artists to realize my dreams.
Anyways, ill start pledges small and see how i stand. Could end up being an entire botch. But there's no harm in trying.
PS: I just want to clarify this will be money towards supporting my own skills being made from my own two hands and will NOT be going towards commissioning other artists.
https://www.patreon.com/NeoxNorris
https://www.patreon.com/NeoxNorris
So....This is a long shot
But for the longest time Ive had my own dream! To take over the world!!!!! MUAHAHA!....okay...its all in my head...
However...i see some potential...small...but its something.
My dream is to create a world for myself and a growing community of Bal'Kar by my side using my art and story writing skills to excite those interested in learning more about my creation! The Bal'Kar!.
Having support for this will help me get inspired to carry this dream into the skies above.
The more that pledge, the more i will be inspired to do. I hope to get into making Bal'Kar plushie merch!, shirts! stories! art! and earn a living of all of this so i can Kick my shitty retail life goodbye! Further creation onto my Bal'Kar Wikipedia so all of you can have a juicy read into all this
I'm New to all this! But getting started is the first big step! Hopefully i can get big enough to even pay money to have some admin support! holy!...im a genius! Ruling the world is gonna be so cool!.....all in my head...*breathes deep*
I actually have some art of my own coming in the weeks to come to show you all what im capable of Ive actually surprised even myself.
So help me realize my dreams on a realistic front here. Support me and the Bal'Kar world in this lovely generation we are moving into! i would absolutely love it if i could also get funded to go to Art school too!
I'd love to work on this more but time is unfortunately money. But man...i can dream of this going places right?
You all wanna see more Bal'Kar stuff?
I can't do this for free forever...or continue to commission my hard earned retail cash on other artists to realize my dreams.
Anyways, ill start pledges small and see how i stand. Could end up being an entire botch. But there's no harm in trying.
PS: I just want to clarify this will be money towards supporting my own skills being made from my own two hands and will NOT be going towards commissioning other artists.
Neox is Engaged!
Posted 8 years agoFor the past 2 years, I have slowly been falling in love with
golawaya We met on furaffinity just as many furries do, and it was out of the passion from my Bal'kar creation that ended up gluing us together. Gola and i decided to pursue our love and he decided to make his way to Australia all the way from Canada to physically reaffirm our love and dedication to each other. There was worries we would not like each other the way we intended. Online relationships play out very differently from face to face. But we were proven wrong! For the last 5 weeks we have only made our bond stronger. And so, on the 2nd last day, we took a dinner cruise out on Sydney harbor where I proposed to gola in front of the vivid lit opera house! At that moment, tentacles swarmed all over the Opera house as if it was a sign of the Bal'kar uniting in a monstrous way in Sydney harbor.
Unfortunately for all the Aussies, this may come as bad news, but because of Australia's archaic laws. This means I will also be immigrating to Canada to legally marry him. I'm also not happy in this country anymore. Australia seems to have less and less to offer me in ways of friends or people that are into the things i like, even in the furry community.
So ya! i am engaged to my love
golawaya and will be Moving to Canada in roughly 2 years!
Thats the plan! This is my path!
golawaya We met on furaffinity just as many furries do, and it was out of the passion from my Bal'kar creation that ended up gluing us together. Gola and i decided to pursue our love and he decided to make his way to Australia all the way from Canada to physically reaffirm our love and dedication to each other. There was worries we would not like each other the way we intended. Online relationships play out very differently from face to face. But we were proven wrong! For the last 5 weeks we have only made our bond stronger. And so, on the 2nd last day, we took a dinner cruise out on Sydney harbor where I proposed to gola in front of the vivid lit opera house! At that moment, tentacles swarmed all over the Opera house as if it was a sign of the Bal'kar uniting in a monstrous way in Sydney harbor. Unfortunately for all the Aussies, this may come as bad news, but because of Australia's archaic laws. This means I will also be immigrating to Canada to legally marry him. I'm also not happy in this country anymore. Australia seems to have less and less to offer me in ways of friends or people that are into the things i like, even in the furry community.
So ya! i am engaged to my love
golawaya and will be Moving to Canada in roughly 2 years!Thats the plan! This is my path!
New Bal'Kar Wiki update next week
Posted 8 years agoHey everyone!
We have updates! specifically for the Feeders and related articles around the feeder tentacles.
Gola has been visiting me in Australia where we have been on holiday brainstorming Bal'kar at every turn!
Right now we are releasing the new draft updates on PDF templates to the bal'kar community where we will be getting feedback!
The new templates will be then go through a final revision with the communities feedback in mind and getting it all published to the Bal'Kar website in about 1 - 2 weeks from now!
So far we have 20,100 words over 29 pages of information covering:
Feeder Tentacle (Updates)
Protofeeder
Fed'rak & Bio-rubber
Feeder glans
Life cycle of the feeder and the introduction of the Bal'Kin
We have updates! specifically for the Feeders and related articles around the feeder tentacles.
Gola has been visiting me in Australia where we have been on holiday brainstorming Bal'kar at every turn!
Right now we are releasing the new draft updates on PDF templates to the bal'kar community where we will be getting feedback!
The new templates will be then go through a final revision with the communities feedback in mind and getting it all published to the Bal'Kar website in about 1 - 2 weeks from now!
So far we have 20,100 words over 29 pages of information covering:
Feeder Tentacle (Updates)
Protofeeder
Fed'rak & Bio-rubber
Feeder glans
Life cycle of the feeder and the introduction of the Bal'Kin
Just to make things clear.
Posted 8 years agoI just want everyone to know.
If the Bal'kar were real. They would fight to protect this world along side you all...and eveything else on it. We would protect it like a hive... Just like humans are starting to learn.
I say this in absolute positiveness.
Growth is eternal.
No matter what walk of life you are from.
If the Bal'kar were real. They would fight to protect this world along side you all...and eveything else on it. We would protect it like a hive... Just like humans are starting to learn.
I say this in absolute positiveness.
Growth is eternal.
No matter what walk of life you are from.
Ask Me Anything! V.1
Posted 8 years agoOkay! so you get ONE question!
I will answer it as best i can with what i know!
This is your chance to find out Dark Secrets of the Bal'Kar!
I will answer it as best i can with what i know!
This is your chance to find out Dark Secrets of the Bal'Kar!
Bal'kar 3 year anniversary
Posted 9 years agoIt's been a wild ride so far, but I've managed to grow from a Bal'kar chrysalis and maintain its existence for 3 years now.
I never imagined I'd get this far with it and it's all thanks to everyone's love and support for it.
I cant help but notice the fandon here has become a bit more monstery over time themselves.
The Bal'kar is still young and has..... Sooooo much potential.
I cant wait to see where all this leads too!
I never imagined I'd get this far with it and it's all thanks to everyone's love and support for it.
I cant help but notice the fandon here has become a bit more monstery over time themselves.
The Bal'kar is still young and has..... Sooooo much potential.
I cant wait to see where all this leads too!
Taking a break to play Final Fantasy XV
Posted 9 years agoIt's basically in the title.
All im gonna say Is I freaking love those adorable Chocobos. Square Enix have outdone themselves on the animations and personality they incorporated into them.
I want to see if I can work out a Chocobo TF and have someone saddle me up. I dont mind being this bird.
And the Behemoth known as "Deadeye".......
Yeah.......i think you all know where this is going....
All im gonna say Is I freaking love those adorable Chocobos. Square Enix have outdone themselves on the animations and personality they incorporated into them.
I want to see if I can work out a Chocobo TF and have someone saddle me up. I dont mind being this bird.
And the Behemoth known as "Deadeye".......
Yeah.......i think you all know where this is going....
Neox now has a Bal'Kar Tumblr
Posted 9 years agoSo ive decided to start up a Tumblr page specifically for the Bal'Kar.
I'm hoping i can use this to help me further shape the lore and story i have set in motion for the world of Bal'Kar.
You can follow along with it if you would like to keep updated on Bal'Kar stuff on a deeper, more closer term.
The goal is to get a story flowing with commissioned works.
http://neox88.tumblr.com/
http://neox88.tumblr.com/
http://neox88.tumblr.com/
There is the Wiki still but is can be somewhat hard to navigate in its current state.
http://www.the-balkar.com
I'm hoping i can use this to help me further shape the lore and story i have set in motion for the world of Bal'Kar.
You can follow along with it if you would like to keep updated on Bal'Kar stuff on a deeper, more closer term.
The goal is to get a story flowing with commissioned works.
http://neox88.tumblr.com/
http://neox88.tumblr.com/
http://neox88.tumblr.com/
There is the Wiki still but is can be somewhat hard to navigate in its current state.
http://www.the-balkar.com
I have to become more strict with myself....and all of you..
Posted 9 years agoI have some major problems....all of which Ive convinced myself i am the cause, when I'm actually not.
Being the person i am revolved around the things i have created, I'm receiving attention from others that i actually dont like.
And that's saying a lot since I've never really been in this position ever in life before. I've always been the black sheep at school, within my own family. Ive only ever really known isolation. (Which is why the Bal'Kar exists today. Its a monster spawned from isolation)
But I'm not the kind of person that wants to say "Hey you are annoying me, please stop", because i see it as disrespectful to those that simply want to be friends and mingle because they TOO might be experiencing isolation
And that's just it! At the end of the day i know its just all of you wanting to find an interest in the things i do because you can relate to what the Bal'Kar represents, but it is literally killing my creative vibes.
I'm just 1 person, from my perspective it can sometimes feel I'm surrounded by a bunch of Zombies reaching out to me with their grabby hands. I dont mean that in a disrespectful way, that's literally how it sometimes feels inside of me. For someone who has been in a shell their whole life to now receiving all this attention. People dont actually realize how uncomfortable that makes me feel.
With so many questions being asked from so many people, i feel I'm in a permanent interview state and the creation i have made has stopped progressing because I'm spending more time answering people than i am spending that time creating more on my universe i initially set out to create from within MYSELF. Suddenly The Bal'Kar is now all about the people that love it and any changes i want to make, i now have to consider the reactions of those that watch it to prevent backlash and disappointment.
People are making their own stories within my universe and i need to be there for them to make sure they so not stray afar from my initial visions of the lore Ive set. because people will see these stories, and if they are not correct, it can cause confusion, leading to people asking EVEN MORE questions. Its all very taxing and it is something i never ever saw coming.
SO
I have goals. Some which involve a physical move to a different country in order to pursue these goals, i need to work on them like my life depends on it and a lot of the time i feel im not getting any leeway on even these goals because of the situation im currently in here in Australia.
If you have any questions about me or the Bal'Kar you can also direct them towards other close friends of mine like
vene and
golawaya
I also have a WIKI [www.the-balkar.com] you can all read. And yes, i know, people that read the wiki simply come back with more questions because it is unfinished and its simply in the nature of human minds to be curious. But I'm never going to get it finished if I'm answering questions on the Bal'Kar all the time.
I will be answering people less and less because i need to focus. I cannot be there for every single tom dick and harry, as much as id like to! I can't! It is simply impossible!
Its causing me a great deal of stress that's leading me down the path of depression with MY OWN DREAMS.
What makes this whole thing even worse is my ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). I tend to hyper-focus, which makes me hyper-forget. If i begin talking to someone, the previous person i was talking to can sometimes be left in limbo, leaving them a bit sad, which makes me feel even worse when I'm told this. Same goes for chat rooms, I'll be in one chat room, then check on another, then realize 30 minutes have gone by and I've missed a whole bunch of more important stuff from the previous chat i would have rather been there for, making me feel left out.
I would blame myself for this, leaving me and my mind at a complete blank on the situation...i have no idea how to remedy the situation and ill just curl up into a ball.
All in all i am simply talking to far too many people, leaving me no time to do the things i know you all want to see more of.
I truly appreciate all the love the Bal'Kar has been getting, but if i dont answer, please dont get upset, because that just upsets me more in return. (That's just me and how i was raised)
I read and cherish every comment. Never in my wildest dreams did i think the Bal'Kar would be what it is today....and that's just within the furry fandom.
There are days i just sit back and go "Wow there are soo many people on this planet!". The Bal'Kar is a niche thing within an already niche community.
With that in mind knowing how many like it fuels my passion to push this thing further (maybe even outside the community in future years to come).
But this passion of mine is being drowned by the attention too, its a double edged sword. Its very hard to balance that's for sure.
I'm not saying i wont be around to talk and the likes. I just need to find the right balance.
Anyways, thanks for listening to this weird alien soul of mine! you all rock!
Being the person i am revolved around the things i have created, I'm receiving attention from others that i actually dont like.
And that's saying a lot since I've never really been in this position ever in life before. I've always been the black sheep at school, within my own family. Ive only ever really known isolation. (Which is why the Bal'Kar exists today. Its a monster spawned from isolation)
But I'm not the kind of person that wants to say "Hey you are annoying me, please stop", because i see it as disrespectful to those that simply want to be friends and mingle because they TOO might be experiencing isolation
And that's just it! At the end of the day i know its just all of you wanting to find an interest in the things i do because you can relate to what the Bal'Kar represents, but it is literally killing my creative vibes.
I'm just 1 person, from my perspective it can sometimes feel I'm surrounded by a bunch of Zombies reaching out to me with their grabby hands. I dont mean that in a disrespectful way, that's literally how it sometimes feels inside of me. For someone who has been in a shell their whole life to now receiving all this attention. People dont actually realize how uncomfortable that makes me feel.
With so many questions being asked from so many people, i feel I'm in a permanent interview state and the creation i have made has stopped progressing because I'm spending more time answering people than i am spending that time creating more on my universe i initially set out to create from within MYSELF. Suddenly The Bal'Kar is now all about the people that love it and any changes i want to make, i now have to consider the reactions of those that watch it to prevent backlash and disappointment.
People are making their own stories within my universe and i need to be there for them to make sure they so not stray afar from my initial visions of the lore Ive set. because people will see these stories, and if they are not correct, it can cause confusion, leading to people asking EVEN MORE questions. Its all very taxing and it is something i never ever saw coming.
SO
I have goals. Some which involve a physical move to a different country in order to pursue these goals, i need to work on them like my life depends on it and a lot of the time i feel im not getting any leeway on even these goals because of the situation im currently in here in Australia.
If you have any questions about me or the Bal'Kar you can also direct them towards other close friends of mine like
vene and
golawayaI also have a WIKI [www.the-balkar.com] you can all read. And yes, i know, people that read the wiki simply come back with more questions because it is unfinished and its simply in the nature of human minds to be curious. But I'm never going to get it finished if I'm answering questions on the Bal'Kar all the time.
I will be answering people less and less because i need to focus. I cannot be there for every single tom dick and harry, as much as id like to! I can't! It is simply impossible!
Its causing me a great deal of stress that's leading me down the path of depression with MY OWN DREAMS.
What makes this whole thing even worse is my ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). I tend to hyper-focus, which makes me hyper-forget. If i begin talking to someone, the previous person i was talking to can sometimes be left in limbo, leaving them a bit sad, which makes me feel even worse when I'm told this. Same goes for chat rooms, I'll be in one chat room, then check on another, then realize 30 minutes have gone by and I've missed a whole bunch of more important stuff from the previous chat i would have rather been there for, making me feel left out.
I would blame myself for this, leaving me and my mind at a complete blank on the situation...i have no idea how to remedy the situation and ill just curl up into a ball.
All in all i am simply talking to far too many people, leaving me no time to do the things i know you all want to see more of.
I truly appreciate all the love the Bal'Kar has been getting, but if i dont answer, please dont get upset, because that just upsets me more in return. (That's just me and how i was raised)
I read and cherish every comment. Never in my wildest dreams did i think the Bal'Kar would be what it is today....and that's just within the furry fandom.
There are days i just sit back and go "Wow there are soo many people on this planet!". The Bal'Kar is a niche thing within an already niche community.
With that in mind knowing how many like it fuels my passion to push this thing further (maybe even outside the community in future years to come).
But this passion of mine is being drowned by the attention too, its a double edged sword. Its very hard to balance that's for sure.
I'm not saying i wont be around to talk and the likes. I just need to find the right balance.
Anyways, thanks for listening to this weird alien soul of mine! you all rock!
Bit of a Bal'Kar update. Current thoughts on things.
Posted 9 years agoHey everyone!
Thought id give you an update on myself and whats been going on with me in general.
I'll just come out and say it all upfront, feedback and support is always welcome!
Recently i had to step down from the position i was in at work. I was getting up at 4am in the morning, and coming home at 7pm.
Work had given me their expectations that certain things must be completed by 8am in the fucking morning, which meant 5am starts.
Because i lived 45 minutes away (No traffic) it meant really early starts.
on top of that i was expected to stay till 5pm. Being on a salary wage i was being paid for 40 hours a week, but i ended up hitting around 60 a week.
Thats 20 unpaid hours....not including commute time. Finishing at 5pm (Peak hour time) meant an easy 2 hour drive home in traffic.
Ill be honest...I was literally going insane, i felt i had no time to relax and do the things i wanted to do. I started using weed as a crutch and i was quickly discovering the edge of my universe. I was beginning to develop serious mental issues, when i realized that some of these thoughts i had were becoming suicidal, i had to step away.
Its hard coming to terms with yourself admitting you have a mental illness...even now i refuse to believe i have such issues.
The only things keeping me together is my pride for the Bal'Kar and the community i have been part of in developing it as not just a crazy slimy creature, but as a thing that is forming a community of the friendliest people i have ever met in my life. We talk about normal things, and "Role play" into a universe somewhat unknown to most.
Lately there has been lots of world messages going around "not to give up" on who you are and "Being yourself".
I really want to believe in this but my creation literally gives me absolutely no income. In fact it does quite the opposite...
Being consumed by the necessity to work all the time, I've had no time to develop my own skills in helping me work on the Bal'Kar and Ive had to pay others to help illiterate my ideas.
Whats more is i look around the Fandom and I'm starting to see "Similar things". Something inside me looks at images and i cant help but think "Wait a minute, this is eerily close to the Bal'Kar Concepts". Some Ive found AND been told by others that are blatant ripoffs too.
Its disheartening to see, but also tells me my ideas must be good enough to form something out of.
more concerning things i hear are those spreading rumors that im forming some kind of "Cult".
Perhaps its the way i sell the Bal'Kars motives, but i think its people just taking my "Fictional" stories too literal.
Anyway i just want to say cause yanno...."Furries".... NO IM NOT A DOOMSDAY PERSON!
NO im not an ancient hidden master out to control you all.
NO im not manipulating peoples consciousnesses...
Perhaps i am sending a message that we ARE in a system where we feel like puppets to to a system that is out to annihilate our greater purposes in life.
(Which is to just be yourselves and tell YOUR story)
I'm creating a new world within the one we already live in, A Story for people to delve into at their own choice, just like you had the choice to watch Starwars or Stranger Things.
Going back to the start of my journal. yes i have stepped down in hopes my stress levels come down and i can once again start focusing on developing my wiki page and making story and lore for you to all enjoy.
I have a lot of work to do in trying to better sell off the Bal'Kar to others.
Hopefully now i have an extra 5 hours in each of my days as i now work a standard 38 hours and it only takes me 15 mins to get home.
More Bal'Kar stuff is coming!
Thought id give you an update on myself and whats been going on with me in general.
I'll just come out and say it all upfront, feedback and support is always welcome!
Recently i had to step down from the position i was in at work. I was getting up at 4am in the morning, and coming home at 7pm.
Work had given me their expectations that certain things must be completed by 8am in the fucking morning, which meant 5am starts.
Because i lived 45 minutes away (No traffic) it meant really early starts.
on top of that i was expected to stay till 5pm. Being on a salary wage i was being paid for 40 hours a week, but i ended up hitting around 60 a week.
Thats 20 unpaid hours....not including commute time. Finishing at 5pm (Peak hour time) meant an easy 2 hour drive home in traffic.
Ill be honest...I was literally going insane, i felt i had no time to relax and do the things i wanted to do. I started using weed as a crutch and i was quickly discovering the edge of my universe. I was beginning to develop serious mental issues, when i realized that some of these thoughts i had were becoming suicidal, i had to step away.
Its hard coming to terms with yourself admitting you have a mental illness...even now i refuse to believe i have such issues.
The only things keeping me together is my pride for the Bal'Kar and the community i have been part of in developing it as not just a crazy slimy creature, but as a thing that is forming a community of the friendliest people i have ever met in my life. We talk about normal things, and "Role play" into a universe somewhat unknown to most.
Lately there has been lots of world messages going around "not to give up" on who you are and "Being yourself".
I really want to believe in this but my creation literally gives me absolutely no income. In fact it does quite the opposite...
Being consumed by the necessity to work all the time, I've had no time to develop my own skills in helping me work on the Bal'Kar and Ive had to pay others to help illiterate my ideas.
Whats more is i look around the Fandom and I'm starting to see "Similar things". Something inside me looks at images and i cant help but think "Wait a minute, this is eerily close to the Bal'Kar Concepts". Some Ive found AND been told by others that are blatant ripoffs too.
Its disheartening to see, but also tells me my ideas must be good enough to form something out of.
more concerning things i hear are those spreading rumors that im forming some kind of "Cult".
Perhaps its the way i sell the Bal'Kars motives, but i think its people just taking my "Fictional" stories too literal.
Anyway i just want to say cause yanno...."Furries".... NO IM NOT A DOOMSDAY PERSON!
NO im not an ancient hidden master out to control you all.
NO im not manipulating peoples consciousnesses...
Perhaps i am sending a message that we ARE in a system where we feel like puppets to to a system that is out to annihilate our greater purposes in life.
(Which is to just be yourselves and tell YOUR story)
I'm creating a new world within the one we already live in, A Story for people to delve into at their own choice, just like you had the choice to watch Starwars or Stranger Things.
Going back to the start of my journal. yes i have stepped down in hopes my stress levels come down and i can once again start focusing on developing my wiki page and making story and lore for you to all enjoy.
I have a lot of work to do in trying to better sell off the Bal'Kar to others.
Hopefully now i have an extra 5 hours in each of my days as i now work a standard 38 hours and it only takes me 15 mins to get home.
More Bal'Kar stuff is coming!
Just an FYI
Posted 9 years agoJust reminding everyone that robots make us who we really are.
Just sayin...
Just sayin...
The pen is mightier than the sword
Posted 9 years agoThe sentence was coined by English author Edward Bulwer-Lytton in 1839
True, This! —
Beneath the rule of men entirely great
The pen is mightier than the sword. Behold
The arch-enchanters wand! — itself is nothing! —
But taking sorcery from the master-hand
To paralyse the Cæsars, and to strike
The loud earth breathless! — Take away the sword —
States can be saved without it!
True, This! —
Beneath the rule of men entirely great
The pen is mightier than the sword. Behold
The arch-enchanters wand! — itself is nothing! —
But taking sorcery from the master-hand
To paralyse the Cæsars, and to strike
The loud earth breathless! — Take away the sword —
States can be saved without it!
Its an Inner Thing
Posted 9 years agoHey guys its
neox
So Ill Quote something in
Kimono-Box-Foxs PM that smacks it bang on the head.
"But I wonder--in your persistence in 'spreading' this species, and in such deep articulation--is this merely an elaborate game of roleplay, or are you perhaps probing within yourself for answers, to a longstanding craving--for change of self? It seems as if you are spiritually seeking, as I have been. Desiring to be 'more' than you are already. I wished to confirm such suspicions. We may, in fact, be kindred souls."
I want answers to life. Why can we never have enough satisfaction in life?. We want truth of the universe. Of life.
We as a species (or any species really) have always desired more. To go up to a place where it all goes down And it leads me and my crazy fucked up head to the hive mind.
Think about it. We have the internet now. We are connected in more ways than ever, and its just going to get bigger and bigger, Faster and Faster.
I use everything around me to push me forward in the here and now.
I feel my body and when i Delve into my mind, Deep Down this is what i find.
Millions of Paths.
In my eyes it is both the past and future of us spreading so far.
So i want to know how that all fits within the cosmos.
Why i would think of things like the Bal'Kar.
Why Slug sex is so appealing to me.
Why i am so god damn weird with primal instinct.
Why do i see a world of flesh slip over us? A world of flesh Dancing to music...in pleasure together as one.
Thats our bodies right? its what our bodies tell us to do and it gives us pleasure through emotion.
All emotion is physical, There is a balance between every single one.
Even the emotions of Fear and Hunger. And that is Change... Change Spirals us.
Accepting and needing Change, balances out fear and hunger.
We seek it from everyone and everything around us.
If someone Cheats on you...its because they are hungry for something else. Accept it like a doe has got to when a tiger takes its young. Move on.
You fear loosing something or someone. Need it. It's gonna! Happen no matter what you do.
This is part of the fight around the world. Things are taken from us, and we as humans fester in those moments. It's imperfect.
Go ahead! Call me Crazy!
You have seen what i am with my art!
I "Hypothesize" that the Furry community becomes part of an historical change. When we have Cybernetics, we can make our suits out of getting more realistic and natural as the years go on. We already have the blueprints here on this website here at Furaffinity. Get inspired by images! Keep watching animals on the internet. Never let go of your phone.
We are already making our virtual worlds in games. They too get better and better as time goes on.
Connect with animals on a deeper need. We are already saving the animals all over the planet. We take them into Space.
People go in different paths and become new stars...New worlds through the ejaculation of life.
Does our world Really Exist? I want answers. And everyone of you needs to grab hold of everyone and work together.
So ya. I see the Bal'Kar as a path that can innocently tell people of the Truth. Make a "Fan Thing" show us into the Future.
Like everything else we see is.
neoxSo Ill Quote something in
Kimono-Box-Foxs PM that smacks it bang on the head."But I wonder--in your persistence in 'spreading' this species, and in such deep articulation--is this merely an elaborate game of roleplay, or are you perhaps probing within yourself for answers, to a longstanding craving--for change of self? It seems as if you are spiritually seeking, as I have been. Desiring to be 'more' than you are already. I wished to confirm such suspicions. We may, in fact, be kindred souls."
I want answers to life. Why can we never have enough satisfaction in life?. We want truth of the universe. Of life.
We as a species (or any species really) have always desired more. To go up to a place where it all goes down And it leads me and my crazy fucked up head to the hive mind.
Think about it. We have the internet now. We are connected in more ways than ever, and its just going to get bigger and bigger, Faster and Faster.
I use everything around me to push me forward in the here and now.
I feel my body and when i Delve into my mind, Deep Down this is what i find.
Millions of Paths.
In my eyes it is both the past and future of us spreading so far.
So i want to know how that all fits within the cosmos.
Why i would think of things like the Bal'Kar.
Why Slug sex is so appealing to me.
Why i am so god damn weird with primal instinct.
Why do i see a world of flesh slip over us? A world of flesh Dancing to music...in pleasure together as one.
Thats our bodies right? its what our bodies tell us to do and it gives us pleasure through emotion.
All emotion is physical, There is a balance between every single one.
Even the emotions of Fear and Hunger. And that is Change... Change Spirals us.
Accepting and needing Change, balances out fear and hunger.
We seek it from everyone and everything around us.
If someone Cheats on you...its because they are hungry for something else. Accept it like a doe has got to when a tiger takes its young. Move on.
You fear loosing something or someone. Need it. It's gonna! Happen no matter what you do.
This is part of the fight around the world. Things are taken from us, and we as humans fester in those moments. It's imperfect.
Go ahead! Call me Crazy!
You have seen what i am with my art!
I "Hypothesize" that the Furry community becomes part of an historical change. When we have Cybernetics, we can make our suits out of getting more realistic and natural as the years go on. We already have the blueprints here on this website here at Furaffinity. Get inspired by images! Keep watching animals on the internet. Never let go of your phone.
We are already making our virtual worlds in games. They too get better and better as time goes on.
Connect with animals on a deeper need. We are already saving the animals all over the planet. We take them into Space.
People go in different paths and become new stars...New worlds through the ejaculation of life.
Does our world Really Exist? I want answers. And everyone of you needs to grab hold of everyone and work together.
So ya. I see the Bal'Kar as a path that can innocently tell people of the Truth. Make a "Fan Thing" show us into the Future.
Like everything else we see is.
Self Realization about the Bal'Kar
Posted 9 years agoIt is a creature within me that knows great knowledge... too much knowledge for me to learn in 1 human lifetime. We might as well call it (Light)
But it is also has a great evil, a darkness that i cannot see from whence it came. It is a creature with incredible lust. So much lust its scarily dangerous for the "human me" to delve too deep into.
I must be extremely careful my creation does not consume too much lust at once. In turn, it will most definitely make me consume myself in the process.
I must maintain its balance at all costs.
I'm not suicidal over that fact. Ive come to terms with it and realized...
The pathway that stretches between its monstrous darkness, and its blinding light are soo damn far apart...
That my own lifespan will possibly not be long enough to go after it in this human lifetime of mine.
Ive seen it though my own visions.
For its hive mentality to exist, i would most likely need to unify the world we live in first... A task...... WAAY too big for me to bare by myself. it is possible... but the work involved is beyond imagining...It's time to face the facts.
SO!
Instead i will use the Bal'Kar as my own deity in this timeline to keep me energized, posetive, balanced and sharply focused on my own realistic small stepping stones in life.
~
Admittedly i have not been in the best mindset in the last 6 months but i know its just fear of loosing a Future ive already set in motion.
To move to Canada and be with my Gola.
Ive spoken to many people of the last few months...all have helped me make life changing decisions.
For all of you in the Bal'Kar hive... You all know who you are!
From the bottom of my heart....Thank you for your Support.
But it is also has a great evil, a darkness that i cannot see from whence it came. It is a creature with incredible lust. So much lust its scarily dangerous for the "human me" to delve too deep into.
I must be extremely careful my creation does not consume too much lust at once. In turn, it will most definitely make me consume myself in the process.
I must maintain its balance at all costs.
I'm not suicidal over that fact. Ive come to terms with it and realized...
The pathway that stretches between its monstrous darkness, and its blinding light are soo damn far apart...
That my own lifespan will possibly not be long enough to go after it in this human lifetime of mine.
Ive seen it though my own visions.
For its hive mentality to exist, i would most likely need to unify the world we live in first... A task...... WAAY too big for me to bare by myself. it is possible... but the work involved is beyond imagining...It's time to face the facts.
SO!
Instead i will use the Bal'Kar as my own deity in this timeline to keep me energized, posetive, balanced and sharply focused on my own realistic small stepping stones in life.
~
Admittedly i have not been in the best mindset in the last 6 months but i know its just fear of loosing a Future ive already set in motion.
To move to Canada and be with my Gola.
Ive spoken to many people of the last few months...all have helped me make life changing decisions.
For all of you in the Bal'Kar hive... You all know who you are!
From the bottom of my heart....Thank you for your Support.
Pillars of the swarm
Posted 9 years agoThe will of the hive pounds in its truest form through me, it Forever will.
Ive Seen the answers... We are a single beating heart.
A True hive has no Queen.
A True hive has no leader.
All of us together create the pillars on which we stand.
We have our own pillar to stand on. YOU are in control of its Direction.
Yet we all stand together as one network. Slowly working with our scientific minds through calculations and edits to achieve our gender less desires in equality.
Ive Seen the answers... We are a single beating heart.
A True hive has no Queen.
A True hive has no leader.
All of us together create the pillars on which we stand.
We have our own pillar to stand on. YOU are in control of its Direction.
Yet we all stand together as one network. Slowly working with our scientific minds through calculations and edits to achieve our gender less desires in equality.
Starting up my FurryNetwork
Posted 9 years agohttps://beta.furrynetwork.com/neox/
Come see me over there!
Its a migration! Ahhh!
I dunno what all the commotion is but ill tag along.
Ill continue uploading alongside FA alongside FN as long as its booming.
Come see me over there!
Its a migration! Ahhh!
I dunno what all the commotion is but ill tag along.
Ill continue uploading alongside FA alongside FN as long as its booming.
My Thoughts On the New Starfox Zero
Posted 9 years agoAbsolutely Fantastic! Nintendo went all out on this one.
I felt like a child again watching that short anime clip.
The story is really well written so far. I wont spoil anything but.....there's lots of lovely hidden gems in this game.
The levels retain those smart and sneaky secret pathways to more prizes you get in the old game.
The Controls Are Extremely weird at first, but once you start getting used to them, its super amazing fun!
you can do so many tricks and combos.
Fantastic Rebirth for Starfox!
*PS* Uhn Falco is my bae! *Blushes*
I felt like a child again watching that short anime clip.
The story is really well written so far. I wont spoil anything but.....there's lots of lovely hidden gems in this game.
The levels retain those smart and sneaky secret pathways to more prizes you get in the old game.
The Controls Are Extremely weird at first, but once you start getting used to them, its super amazing fun!
you can do so many tricks and combos.
Fantastic Rebirth for Starfox!
*PS* Uhn Falco is my bae! *Blushes*
Deception (Teaser)
Posted 9 years agoBeyond the Shadows of Doubt....................
Shifting the planes of understanding.....................
A deviant force of lust forms a world of undeniable truth...............
Will the human race remain a slave to their predestined journey?
Or
Will you free your mind and discover your True Being.........
Bal'Kar............................ DECEPTION!
Shifting the planes of understanding.....................
A deviant force of lust forms a world of undeniable truth...............
Will the human race remain a slave to their predestined journey?
Or
Will you free your mind and discover your True Being.........
Bal'Kar............................ DECEPTION!
A Friendly reminder to everyone about my timezone.
Posted 9 years agoJust making another journal to remind everyone my situation.
I receive tons of messages and questions! Most of them occuring at times i simply cannot respond to. Not because im not interested in you. Not because i dont like you. Its simply because i dont have time...
And it is time i really wish i had for you all. No really i do. Cause i love having people ask about the Bal'Kar. Does not even have to be about the Bal'Kar!
So please...if you message me and get no response. Please dont get all paranoid and start thinking you have done something wrong, because you havent......well apart from those that say Hey or Hi to me 1000 times without getting the overall picture.
In saying that...opening a convo or even noting me with a Hey or Hi. Is a bit creepy and i generally wont respond.
Im also notorious for forgetting to get back to people. That is also no ones fault but my own. And im sorry. Sometimes i hate my memory too.
I live in Australia, which is 17 hours ahead of the USA.
Most people here and on chats like telegram and facebook messenger.
Prime time in the USA for furries it seems is between 5pm - 12am
Which puts that time between 11am - 5pm for me.....which is smack bang in the middle of work times for me.
My prime time is the same...between 5pm - 12am.
Thats generally the time all you folks in the west are fast asleep....
Between 12am - 6am.
And then again in the mornings when you wake up...is generally my bed time.
This.....is my curse....and i cannot do anything about it. I wish i could!
Maybe one day i might move!
So for now...please understand that my silence may be because of this situation.
If you want to talk to me...you need to plan to stay up all night.
Or...wait for the weekends.....but also keep in mind im also almost 1 day ahead of you all. My weekends fall on thursday and friday for you guys.
Im really sorry
I receive tons of messages and questions! Most of them occuring at times i simply cannot respond to. Not because im not interested in you. Not because i dont like you. Its simply because i dont have time...
And it is time i really wish i had for you all. No really i do. Cause i love having people ask about the Bal'Kar. Does not even have to be about the Bal'Kar!
So please...if you message me and get no response. Please dont get all paranoid and start thinking you have done something wrong, because you havent......well apart from those that say Hey or Hi to me 1000 times without getting the overall picture.
In saying that...opening a convo or even noting me with a Hey or Hi. Is a bit creepy and i generally wont respond.
Im also notorious for forgetting to get back to people. That is also no ones fault but my own. And im sorry. Sometimes i hate my memory too.
I live in Australia, which is 17 hours ahead of the USA.
Most people here and on chats like telegram and facebook messenger.
Prime time in the USA for furries it seems is between 5pm - 12am
Which puts that time between 11am - 5pm for me.....which is smack bang in the middle of work times for me.
My prime time is the same...between 5pm - 12am.
Thats generally the time all you folks in the west are fast asleep....
Between 12am - 6am.
And then again in the mornings when you wake up...is generally my bed time.
This.....is my curse....and i cannot do anything about it. I wish i could!
Maybe one day i might move!
So for now...please understand that my silence may be because of this situation.
If you want to talk to me...you need to plan to stay up all night.
Or...wait for the weekends.....but also keep in mind im also almost 1 day ahead of you all. My weekends fall on thursday and friday for you guys.
Im really sorry
Future story Comissions?
Posted 9 years agoI'm might be considering opening up for story commissions in the near future. When? i Dunno.
Being paid will definitely get me writing more stories. But I'm always scared how unsuccessful i will be.
Anyway. Once my Bal'Kar Shit is up and Running, and i have all my Bal'Kar Lore Written out...ill probably Start Taking Bal'Kar story commissions or even maybe take on more stuff like my recent story to keep things spicy!
Prices?
I'm thinking around 6,000 (Give or Take 500 words sometimes if your Lucky ill go well over if i feel inspired!) for $100 Seems Fair in my point of view.
But yeah $100USD for a story with a minimum 6K word?
If anyone would even consider it, let me know so i know where i stand at potentially taking Story commissions in the future.
Just a Reminder, That means im not taking any right now!
Being paid will definitely get me writing more stories. But I'm always scared how unsuccessful i will be.
Anyway. Once my Bal'Kar Shit is up and Running, and i have all my Bal'Kar Lore Written out...ill probably Start Taking Bal'Kar story commissions or even maybe take on more stuff like my recent story to keep things spicy!
Prices?
I'm thinking around 6,000 (Give or Take 500 words sometimes if your Lucky ill go well over if i feel inspired!) for $100 Seems Fair in my point of view.
But yeah $100USD for a story with a minimum 6K word?
If anyone would even consider it, let me know so i know where i stand at potentially taking Story commissions in the future.
Just a Reminder, That means im not taking any right now!
Bal'Kar updates! and just updates in general!
Posted 9 years agoHey Slimey creatures!
Just making a little blog on what has been going on, Whats been planned, and whats coming up! and just a little something to tell you guys im still alive.
The Bal'Kar Website is almost up and Running! Ive been working on in quite a bit lately. The Website will never really be done as there is always gonna be things i need to Change and add to it...but the base of the Website is almost up and you will all have a Ton of awesome Juicy Bal'Kar notes to get hold of.
I'm even in the process of Making a Bal'Kar Character Creation Guide Finally!
I'm Currently Working on finishing a Free Story For
Renki-BlackWolf
Wont Spoil too much but its another Paw Transformation! and this one is VERY different, definitely plays on new tastes.
After this story i will be starting the origin stories of the Bal'Kar. Ill most likely be doing them in chapters as the whole origins series is absolutely gigantic.
A couple of pics are on their way! including a surprise one for my
golawaya
A Few Small comics from
vene That basically explain a few more Bal'Kar Transformation Processes.
There is also an Animation in the works Showcasing me Turning! i seriously cant wait for this! but get the feeling that's still a few months off since i screwed up some Details with the Artists.
Fursuit from
onefurall is almost done! I have Teaser photos but im just gonna tease you all and say i simply have these photos and not show you just yet XD
But yes....Furstuit will be handed over to me in the Next couple of weeks! Heres hoping!
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Just a Small Reminder to everyone!
I do not RP! My Timezone is Shit and is Very inconvenient to most people on US times. Whenever im in the Mood to RP, everyone is sleeping.
And When people want to RP with me, its when im at work lol. So ya! Just reminding everyone that i do not RP that much anymore! so please stop asking.
I do have a Bal'Kar telegram chat. But its a closed channel and is only reserved for people with an interest in becoming Bal'Kar.
Invites go out slow and Generally has a Trial Period so as to get the group to become comfortable and accustomed to you with the least amount of Drama.
you must also be 18 XD
Just making a little blog on what has been going on, Whats been planned, and whats coming up! and just a little something to tell you guys im still alive.
The Bal'Kar Website is almost up and Running! Ive been working on in quite a bit lately. The Website will never really be done as there is always gonna be things i need to Change and add to it...but the base of the Website is almost up and you will all have a Ton of awesome Juicy Bal'Kar notes to get hold of.
I'm even in the process of Making a Bal'Kar Character Creation Guide Finally!
I'm Currently Working on finishing a Free Story For
Renki-BlackWolfWont Spoil too much but its another Paw Transformation! and this one is VERY different, definitely plays on new tastes.
After this story i will be starting the origin stories of the Bal'Kar. Ill most likely be doing them in chapters as the whole origins series is absolutely gigantic.
A couple of pics are on their way! including a surprise one for my
golawayaA Few Small comics from
vene That basically explain a few more Bal'Kar Transformation Processes.There is also an Animation in the works Showcasing me Turning! i seriously cant wait for this! but get the feeling that's still a few months off since i screwed up some Details with the Artists.
Fursuit from
onefurall is almost done! I have Teaser photos but im just gonna tease you all and say i simply have these photos and not show you just yet XDBut yes....Furstuit will be handed over to me in the Next couple of weeks! Heres hoping!
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Just a Small Reminder to everyone!
I do not RP! My Timezone is Shit and is Very inconvenient to most people on US times. Whenever im in the Mood to RP, everyone is sleeping.
And When people want to RP with me, its when im at work lol. So ya! Just reminding everyone that i do not RP that much anymore! so please stop asking.
I do have a Bal'Kar telegram chat. But its a closed channel and is only reserved for people with an interest in becoming Bal'Kar.
Invites go out slow and Generally has a Trial Period so as to get the group to become comfortable and accustomed to you with the least amount of Drama.
you must also be 18 XD
I have returned! 2016 begin! The year of the tentacle!!!
Posted 10 years agoIve been somewhat inactive of late cause of the silly season. Pretty much falling back into routine now. I will be heavily focusing on the Bal'Kars website this year so you will definately see a reduction in comissioned art. But! The art i do get will be epic! Nothing but tentacles the whole year! And so i dub this year. "The year of the tentacle". Many people have had the same idea and are also doing this...you should too...get yourself some tentacles! Even if its a pet! I want to see tentacles out to wazoo!
Also...there are more than one Bal'Kar lurking in the shadows now, so be on the lookout for more art from them! Let them infect you to the core! Our relapse is your salvation!
WE ARE ONE!
Also...there are more than one Bal'Kar lurking in the shadows now, so be on the lookout for more art from them! Let them infect you to the core! Our relapse is your salvation!
WE ARE ONE!
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