Do i have any meaning in life? Whats my path? I have terrible memory issues and I fear it may get worse the older I get. I need guidance a teacher to be there for me every day if that was possible. Yet i have nobody. I want to learn a science that can help me in the future since I know my art will never support me.. I looked up a college but its so far away. And the cost is too much.. I'm stuck in an oblivion I cant get out of...
I envy those of you who have a job in the career choice that you love and have chosen. I on the other hand... Am stuck. I've tried so many things I've lost count.. I've tried learning a 2nd language but i just cant retain that information, tried history, math, science, life.. i just fail at every path in life... Why is it I try so god damn fucking hard and end up nowhere? My parents are proud of me but I am not proud of me. I feel like I am a failure. Whats a stupid art degree going to do when I don't even practice?! You've seen my art here I cant even draw a freaking straight line to save my life... how did I even get that BA in the first place?.. oh ya colleges suck the money out of you for life, give you a piece of paper, pat you on the back and send you out into the wild knowing you will amount to nothing 90% of the time while they walk to the bank with all your money... that's my life so far...

Why.... why do i have to be such a disappointment in my eyes. Why do i have to have terrible memory that even doctors and researchers know wont get better... "Ritalin" is a curse. Its destroyed my life... I could have been so much more if I wasn't put on that fucking drug as a kid... FML.

You must check out this raffle. :)
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7335660/

i look at all the wonderful artworks ye be putting up and I think to myself... Why am I so alone? Why do I have nobody to love? I dont feel comfortable around people. People are cruel, untrustworthy, and well just not my species.. Yes I know I know, Im human but i never wanted to be. I see wonderful artworks of mature nature ferral and the love between the characters "dragons, Gryphons, dinosaurs, etc" is so warm and fuzzy It breaks my heart. I yearn for a mate yet in this reality I suffer the worst fate than death. I am alone without a mate who I can spend my life with and since I am human I will never take a human mate. I wont have a mate unless I meet a creature that we only thought was fantasy but is actually real to the touch. Why am i crying... why do i do this to myself... I find that whenever I think about it it makes my heart just break. Yes im lustfully wanting a mate who i can breed with every day but ive sworn myself to celibacy cause i dont want anything to do with humans.. might as well lock myself in the basement and throw away the key...

Am I the only one who thinks like this? :(

If I could trade my life for one as the species of choice and have a loving mate to breed with only for a day and I would die the day after, I would do it at the drop of a leaf for my life is empty and hollow and holds no meaning. I truly have no purpose in life. Why am I here? What did I do to deserve such torment? Do I have to spend the rest of my life suffering like this till I am cold and dead?

That last journal was a sneek peek to my crazy brain.. Did i scare you?
Well if not then your cool in my book. Oh I have a book? Hmmm.. *rummages around his nest*... guess Its lost in this mess somewhere under all the human bones.. Yes I eat humans on a weekly basis. I swear they are tasting worse and worse though... Either too greasy or salty or just ugh.. *shivers* makes this gryph want to hurl sometimes... But who else is going to try and keep the human population down hmmm?

*sighs*

Well i may have to just stick to incinerating them and throwing their burned bones in the corner with the rest of them. Oh well I love fish and fruits a billion times more.. 1.8 Billion times that is LOL *hint hint* lottery powerball. If you win can you send some shineys my way ;)

Anywho my life is feeling a bit mundane.. Cant do much.. Have internet connection sometimes.. Have to go into town for it.. Nothing up in the mountains in this cave of mine. Nothing stranger than a gryph with a laptop drinking starbucks coffee that blonged to the 2 legged lunch she just had.

Oh yea um... You will see me switch from me saying im a she and or a he. Im a confused gryph. Im male yet im very female in my feelings and maternalistic sense towards non humans... Im very confused which just makes me that much more dangerous.. *sips coffee*

So anyhow... Hope all of you feathered, furred, scaled critters are having a wonderfull 2016.

:)

So im a we' bit late on this but whatever LOL
Before you read this journal is a bit TMI so Be warned

Ah a lonely gryphon working retail and nothing but the gutter on the mind..
Ya ill admit one of my oddities is my mind is always in the gutter. I dont like the human species but ferral omg *drools, grabbyclaws* I love gryphons i mean LOVE em. I also love dragons and their sexy scales *Purssssssssssssss*. I have my page set to hide all my fav'd xxx so you dont have to know im such a hornyGryph but i have to admit it. Thing is that I am kind of tired of being this way.. I need to think of other things but wow when my mind wanders it wanders the the nether region of gryphons and dragons and the occasional Mare and then I have to think of other things just to not embarrass myself at work, readjusting and all that.
Is it normal to be this way? I mean so damn easy to arouse? Even when im not consciously thinking about it? Its kind of a curse really..

Another little known thing about me is that I am just in touch with my female side as i am with my male side. Let me explain. I am full on male hetro as a human but if I was an anthro I would be bisexual if I was Ferral I would be female. Thing is I am an egg layer in my ferral form "i dont have an anthro form". And personally speaking I would be Death to anyone who comes close to me when I have eggs or young. I would kill and mame and destroy anyone getting close to my nest without my permission.
I am the type that would cuddle my young, wrap myself around my eggs to keep them warm. I would starve myself through the winter if Need be just to keep my eggs warm. I am very maternal to non humans.

Another factoid: Personally I am not human friendly. I think humans are ugly, destructive, greedy, lazy primates that will overpopulate *already have actually* and destroy whats left of this beautiful blue green "getting browner by the year" planet. Breasts are a huge turn off so non of my favorites on here have females with breasts regardless of how beautifully amazing the art is, if it has breasts its not being favorited. Hence why most of the art is feral. I don't like large crowds, don't like cities, hate noise, and really just want to live on my own far away from humans and computers. Yes i am a digital artist but it doesnt mean i like computers. oh and I loathe the cold. I want warm weather 24-7. Not hot weather just warm.

Anyhow i thought Id give you a crazy ride through my brain. Hope you enjoyed the ride LOL "Squak! Chirp.."

i know im not a good artist, at least compared to those i watch and favoriye.
i also rarely get on the computer.
i want to do more cute arts but i am uninspired.
would you be willing to commission me and for how much for a line art?
dont be shy, i know im an amateur but we all start somewhere.
right?

Meh.. hot weather.. hate hot weather... why is it so hot? Bleh...


I wana draw but it too hot..

"Hi!" *looks around* Hmm, I see footprints but nobody here...

*chirps loudly* "Hello?!" *hears an echo*

*ears droop* "Aw... Nobody wants to keep me company. ;_;"

"I just want to make cute art for peeps.... Anyone want to help out a little gryphon?"

i know i rarely come on here but i do try. if you want commission me for ferral art. yiff approoved :)

i know i rarely come on here but i do try. if you want commission me for ferral art. yiff approoved :)

And ya will love to see what I am offering :)
Today I am offering speedy super quick colored sketches for $5. each!
Sorry for reuploading I saw a mistake in the arts :p

So a couple days ago this guy by the name asked me if I would do a fluffy big bellied fox dragon so I said yes! XD

Well after a few hours I finally finished it and now its here for all to see!

Feel free to commission me if ye want yer character drawn as well :)

I want to expand a little in the medium of digital art and want to see where I can go with it. I want to draw somebodies character probably from the chest up. A badge art maybe? I dont know really but if you give me a chance I know you wont be disappointed. :)

Prices are on my front page but because I want to do something a bit different here's the price for a badge.
Badges start at $15. for a colored sketch.

You can see my style in the gallery. I do try to improve with every piece so lets see what happens.

I am a Gryphon if ye have yet to figure it out my friends. I know I have very few arts on here and its because I lack the required skills but as being a Gryphon with claws ye can imagine how difficult it is to hold a pencil proper or a wacom stylus for that matter. Most of ye dont realize a few things about me so I will post it here for all to gather and squawk erm i mean gawk. heh

Firstly I am a Gryphon at heart I love how they are 2 or more creatures in one and can fly and are just sexy as can be. *murrrrr*
Secondly I kind of like yiff art but only if its ferral and natural not crazy omg wtf type of arts. But alas each to their own i say.
Thirdly I tried drawing the yiff arts but its just not in me to do it. Id rather do belly rubs and cute things heheh
Fourthly I want to get a gryphon costume made but alas too strapped here to think about it much. Of course nothing will be anatomically correct cause of decency reasons at a con if I ever get the nerve to do one.
Lastly you notice I spell my name Tallon instead of Talon. It helps me stand out a bit name wise. I just hope it dont make me look illiterate. :(

So i be kind of in the limbo of FA but its a comfort zone I suppose. I hope ye all have a great Hearths Warming Eve! "i love that phrase"

Do ye like my arts and what do you want to see in here. I be new to this sort of fandom but I am tryin. Not much going in the way of stuff I know. And Im working on this digital thing yet i think it be a bit alien to me. Do ye want to see traditional or digital?

Let me get yer feedback and I will do what I can.

Also what type of arts do ye want to see?

I think I will experiment with my art I have discovered fantastic artists here maybe I can improve I will need a wee bit o help if ye one of those I have faved and watched feel free to watch me and give advice if ye feel driven to.

i also think i'll be removing some of the xxx stuffs. i think im startin to tire of em..

thank you everyone

I guess ye all think im a bit of a green horn at all this and ye be right. And fer yer information I like typing in my native accent at times but truth be told its easier to just draw than talk.

So I will give ye all 1 hour from now to jump in with your character, pose and whatnot and I will do a random number generator to select who the lucky one is to do the arts of!

All I ask in return is some publicity. I be new here and I want to see if I can get a wee bit of attention. Enough to at least get myself a decent pair of shoes. I wore a hole through my shoes last week and i keep havin to patch it up. LOL

so i thought why not do a commission or two thst is $10. each. you know my style.

so whos up for some art?

Im hoping to practice some more arts on here. I be slacking a lot lately... But i cant help it. Sorry for the lacks of arts.

We all need to pay bills but its not fair to artists to just ask for freebies. I wont do em.
If you want to have an artwork from me just look at my price list and then send me a Note on what you want me to do. I accept paypal.

Play naughty not nice and you might get a surprise. Oh wait i say that to my girlfriend XD

Just go here to see it http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5101472/

If you guys want to know my commission information please look at the profile information on the front page. It has everything there for ya.

Hope you guys have a good night. I know im bushed. x..x

I have gone through my favorites folder and with a bit of time have removed many of the unrelated and older pieces that didnt stack up to the newer favorites. I want to try and be as good as those who I Favorite. Hence why my favs are a we bit o on the rated side. Except for a rare couple here and there.

I will be posting a new pony art soon. I just have ta work on my style dont cha know?

I've been avoiding this crayzeness on ponies but i see some good artes on it. ANd then i see more and more and next thing I know im checking out the show. What is wrong with me?!? I cant stop thinkingabout pony Rumps! Omfg!!!

I may have to just start drawing ponies in the act to satisfy my newfondled love of mares!

I know that Im in a pickle as to figure out what to draw sometimes. But alas Maybe you can throw a few heads up in my direction by spreading my name around for accepting commissions?

I do digital arts only and prefer the style you see in my gallery. So if ye wish to commission me feel free to.

line art be $10.
Colored flat art $15.
Shaded colored art $20.


If ye have a problem with my prices dont hesitate to bargain and haggle my friends. Im new to the arts but enjoy a bit of foreplay. ;)