I know a few of you have been wanting to commission me, and I'm really sorry that I've been closed for so long. I've been burnt out on doing them for so long, and with the break up and my life changing plans falling through, I lost all motivation, and never found it again afterwards. Now, Patreon is taking up my time, and I don't want to take on more work than I can handle.

I've always been hesitant on sharing my horror stories on doing commissions because I didn't want anyone ousted, or scare anyone away. I'm not exactly popular with a huge line of people wanting to commission me. But now that a lot of time has passed, and I don't exactly plan on opening fully in the near future, I think it's time I shared probably the biggest reason I'm done with commissions for the time being: Burnt out.

First off, I want to say that I don't mean any ill will towards any of these people, but please understand...you didn't make it easy for me either. I'd like to think I've bent over backwards and made so many compromises and gave small discounts and free edits to warrant some venting after all this time. If any of these examples seem familiar, just remember it's all in the past, and I'm only giving these out to fully explain why I'm so burnt out.

I have far too many stressful commissions than pleasant ones. The worst one was someone wanting me to do well over 20 edits, one by one (meaning they asked for a single edit every time I changed something and sent them), wanting me to do an alt to which I made, canceled the alt when I said it would cost extra, and then wanted me to stay up past the time I sleep so I can post at "Pique hours". I even explained to them that I'm usually asleep at this time, but being a people pleaser, I didn't protest after he insisted. All of that, over the span of 2 days...i get a $2 tip.

I've had a lot of people just not understand what they're wanting. Wanting a 60ft macro stuck in a 7ft doorway, confusing poses that were hard to (if not impossible) to pull off with bigger characters, constantly changing ideas completely while in the middle of sketching the previous idea. Always telling me to draw bigger when that's as big as I can make them without changing the entire composition.

I've had someone leave out important details (such as backgrounds they'd want), making me redo the entire thing over, and they got mad when I wanted to charge a little extra and even blaming me for messing it up. I've asked someone to give me their idea 3 times, and wouldn't. So when I drew a sketch with their vague idea, they THEN decided to fully tell me. They were happy with the new sketch, not so with the finished product, and gave a refund. Honestly, i wasn't happy with it either so I don't blame them on that one.

But what wore me out the most was people constantly wanted multiple characters with fully rendered backgrounds time and time and time again. I just wanted...NEEDED a break with a single character or something, but that wasn't happening.

And again, with my life changing plans falling through, I just...broke. I couldn't deal with having put on this friendly facade and bend over backwards for people anymore. I absolutely appreciate all the commissions I've gotten, it's absolutely mind blowing to me that anyone wanted to pay me any amount for me to draw them something. I don't have any skills aside from doing art, and it be good enough to have people actually like it that much is incredible to me.

I know I'm being an ungrateful asshole with this journal, but as I've said before, this isn't meant to harbor ill will or anger towards past commissioners. I tend to be transparent with everything, so this is to only explain why I'm not taking commissions anymore, at least for now.

I've been thinking about this a lot recently, and I've decided that only waiting one month is too soon to release. It's really not that long of a wait, and it doesn't make my posts feel exclusive as they should be. So starting in April, posts will be exclusive to Patreon for 3 months before being released.

I'm hoping this will incentivize more people in subscribing. Only time will tell if it has the effect I'm going for.

I know I've been closed for most of the year, and I honestly haven't expected it to be so long. I'm really sorry that it's taken this long to say anything, and even more sorry to say that I can't fully explain why. I'm sure I have some eyes on me, and I don't want anything happening. So, I'll have to keep it extremely vague for now.

Simply put: my plans to have an actual start on my life got swept from under me, and it's left me in a very...well...suicidal state. Granted, I've always struggled with these thoughts, but this didn't make it any better. 5 months later, I'm still not in a good state, and I'm not sure where things are going to end up for me now.

But, I can't just keep sulking--it's gotten me no where. I plan on opening commissions back up real soon, but I may just have it be 2 slots. I also have to ask to take it easy on me. I don't think I have it in me to draw 3+ characters with background and shading, but if that's what you want, don't feel bad in asking. Someone's gotta get my ass into gear.


Again, really sorry it's taken so long to "bounce back", and even more sorry about the heavy subjects. I'm not usually the type to talk about my depression so freely, but I've felt like I can't really talk to people anymore.

I have some big plans for 2023, most notably for my art commissions and patreon! This year, hasn't started out great, but I can't sit back and panic about things. I need to learn how to be responsible, and carry my weight if I want my goals to come to fruition. So this year, I'm more dedicated with my art more than ever, as I am making it my career. It's about time I took it seriously; No longer is the money I get from commissions just "fun money" to blow off however and whenever, but now I have some responsibilities.

So from now on, I can't close off commissions because I'm moody due to not getting anything within two weeks. I need to be open and ready whenever someone does want something from me; I'll keep downtime to an all time minimum!
Along side, I've also launched my Patreon. I already have 3 exclusive images up for now, but I do plan on releasing them next month. But if you want to help out your old man, you can check it out. I'll run a poll in which people can make suggestions on who I draw for the month, and even get a grayscale inked sketch (when available)!

TL;DR:
Commissions will be open longer, Patreon is up, I'm scared of being an adult.

2021 TOS:

Details:
Once you claim a slot, give me a short idea of what you want: Character, pose, angle, size. Do not bombard me with every minute detail you want in the picture.
Understand that the image in your head doesn't translate to the artist with 100% accuracy. So please understand that, and don't be rude.

WIP:
Once all the details are given, I will begin to work on the sketch. Once completed, I will share it with you, and ask you if there are any changes you would like to be done. THIS IS THE ONLY CHANCE YOU HAVE TO ASK FOR CHANGES! I will only do a handful of changes. If you're going to ask me to redo most of the image, I will charge extra!
Please note that it is okay to ask for something to be bigger, but please keep in mind that it will start to change the composition, posing, and it takes more time and effort. It it becomes a trend, I will start charging for these changes.

Payment:
Once you hare happy with the sketch, I will send you an invoice via paypal. Payments must be made with Buyer's Protection, and select "No Address Needed". I am more than fine with paying for the fees, so there is no need to pay extra!
Once payment has been made, I will continue to finish the picture.


NO PRIVATE COMMISSIONS
I will not do any private commissions. Posting the art is a way to help promote myself and hopefully get more people interested. Asking me to make something private is asking me to take a financial hit, and I don't approve.

I have the right to decline any idea.


Things I am happy to draw:
Fat
macro
musclegut
vore
Hyper

Thing's I'm okay with drawing:
Muscle
Sex

These are the things I absolutely will not do:
Females
Scat
Watersports
Diaper/baby/cub
Gas/farting

If you're unsure of anything, please ask.

I'm sure some people have noticed that I've been slower than normal on opening for commissions. There are a few reasons for this, and it's about time I spoke up.

First, I've been locked up in my house all year. I can count how many times I've gone out on my paw alone, and I'm not even exaggerating. Being cooped up in this room day in and day out, my creativity has plummeted (and I didn't have much to begin with, let's be real). I've been stuck in this routine of waking up, drawing, eating, and games, and it's depressing. I would love to get out, but for one thing: I can't drive, and being outside of city limits of a city that only has Ma & Pa hardware stores, there's really nowhere to go to within walking distance. I don't have any friends to hang out with either. So...I'm kinda just alone in my room.


Another factor is that, while I don't wish to come off as ungrateful to those that wish to commission me, it seems that every batch of commissions I open up for, there's always at least one person that comes off as rude in some way. Whether it be a passive aggressive remark, making constant changes, or even wanting something to doesn't make sense. And it's drained me and made me hesitant on opening up for commissions.

I've also haven't been in the mood to draw at all for so long. I rarely feel joy in drawing anymore, and I feel like I've just been drawing the same thing over and over again. It's basically another layer of being in this rut, and it's driving me crazy.

Yeah...remember when artists used to do those?

Anyway, have fun. You can upload your version anywhere, just link it back to me.

PNG: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1wF.....egahHUwm6/view

Clip Studio File: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Jp.....S9yxPMIOe/view

After a few bad experiences with previous customers I have made a few rules and clarifications regarding commissions.

A WIP is meant for small and quick changes. NOT to revise an entire picture.
How it works is that I ask you for details, and you give me said details. If you leave out a bit of detail when giving your commission idea, that is NOT my fault! Artists are not mind readers. We only go off of with what you give us.
If it is something small, say, wanting a small object or a different expression, that's okay! But when you want a specific location, and you force me to spend hours on it, only to tell me "No, I wanted THIS other location", that forces me to erase all the work I've done, and start anew.

I will NOT be doing this anymore. I can either charge an extra $5 to redo the background, or you can be happy with it. This is not my mistake, it is your own, and I am not going to spend hours correcting it.

Payment Methods
From now on, payment will be done after you are satisfied with the WIP. Once I receive the money, I will proceed to finishing the commission.

-Sending Payment

Payments will now be sent via Money Request. I don't have a bank account linked to my Paypal, so I'm not allowed to receive money through invoices. I will not be adding extra money to make up for the transfer fee, so you folks don't have to worry about that!

You guys should totally add me so I can crush you all with my Duck Hunt Dog skillz

SW-5715-8088-7011

I am sick and tired of people coming up to me only to say how horny they are. what horny thoughts they are thinking, or what kinks they enjoy. I am not dealing with this situation anymore. I want a nice conversation about other things than just your dick. I am so tired of the conversation going instantly getting derailed into lewdness. Yes, I like and draw porn a lot, but it's not something I tend to talk about, nor is it on my mind 24/7 and is the only thing I want to talk about. I have other interests than just furry art and kinks.

This is your first and only warning:

Do not add me to any messenger and start talking to me about your kinks.
I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU'RE FAPPING TO
I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU'RE TURNED ON BY
I DON'T CARE WHAT HORNY THOUGHTS YOUR THINKING

It is fine to show me an adult rated pic. I'll say "Yeah, that's hot" or something, but for fuck sakes, at least have a conversation with me first. I am not playing hard to get, nor am I jerking you around and teasing you with not putting out instantly. I am trying to build a connection and a friendship with you first. I want to talk to people and open my circle of friends a bit more, but I can't stand it when people instantly assume I mean that I want an RP buddy, and throw their hard on at me.


I'm tired of dealing with the awkward situation of turning some horny person down or stopping the conversation at the person saying a random, out of the blue, horny thought. So, from now on, anyone who does this sort of thing will be blocked and deleted. I don't need do deal with this awkwardness anymore. I'm done with it.


Also: Please don't add me and spam me random links to "funny" tweets. I don't care. I'm not going to look at them. Not until you greet yourself properly.

has purchased Gunther, and I give him the right to rename him, change him in anyway he sees fit, and any other ownership rights. The character is fully his now.

I always thought it was a dick move. Like...This person politely asks if you do requests, and you decided "kek, i'm going to reply with a smart ass answer, putting this person in their place, screen cap it, and become twitter famous". That's always such a dick move, dude. This is probably why a lot of people think popular artists are complete assholes. All you need to do is say "Sorry, but I'm not open to do requests at the moment" and MOVE ON. Don't fucking shame the person for asking an innocent question.

"BUT WHAT IF THE PERSON KEEPS SPAMMING MY INBOX WITH IT?!"
Then ignore the person, and block him if you have to.

"BUT WHAT IF THEY'RE BEING RUDE TO ME FIRST?!"
Then have at it. My issue is when people are asking politely, not causing a fuss, and then get shamed and shit on for it.

"I HAVE 'NOT OPEN FOR REQUESTS' PLASTERED ALL OVER MY PAGE! THEY SHOULD KNOW BETTER!"
Yes, but that still doesn't mean you have the right to be rude and publicly shame them if they're not being rude to you.

See, I'm not a popular artist, so when someone asks if I do requests, I'm flattered as all hell...I have to decline for whatever reason, but still. I don't have to sort through 50 notes a day about requests, so my view on this may be a bit skewed. Still, don't be a complete dick to someone because they're curious. If you have to, make a journal stating you're not open.

I'm sorry I went on this rant, but I'm kind of tired of seeing all these artists posting screencaps publicly shaming people asking for requests. These people are your fans, and you want to shoo them away because you wanted to get retweets for being hilarious.

I honestly can't thank Master enough for getting me it. I'm at a lost for words, to be honest.

I'm downloading Overwatch at the moment, but it'll take a good while heh

During the bad storm last night, lightning struck one of the trees that was on the property. It was so loud. Probably the loudest thing I've ever heard in all of my life. I was in a skype call with Master and when it happened, and they could tell you it was loud. But, seconds after, the tree fell over, knocking out the power line.
We called the electric company, and to our surprise, they came out to the house within the hour, and repaired the electricity to the main house.

There was no damage to the house, nor was anyone hurt. This could also be seen as a blessing in disguise, actually. The tree itself was big enough that if it were to fall over, it would have crashed down into MY bedroom. The tree was already leaning down over the house, and it would have been tricky to cut it down in a way that it wouldn't fall over in the direction of the house. But now with half of it already cut down from the lightning strike, there's no need to worry. Though, we do have to clean up the mess...ugh...

Here are some pictures I took:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/7za7n8wqr.....54500.jpg?dl=0
https://www.dropbox.com/s/1sw1wzlhd.....54518.jpg?dl=0
https://www.dropbox.com/s/3uenag08r.....54506.jpg?dl=0
https://www.dropbox.com/s/ruj4xvioh.....55038.jpg?dl=0

My family went to the The Tennessee Air Show today (which was awesome), but I had to ride with my older brother. He asked me "So, is there something you need to talk to me about?" I told him no, but he said that my dad had told him that I was hiding something, so I just said "I"m gay, dude". To which he replied, "Well I knew that. Remember I borrowed your psp all the time, and it had all that gay porn with Starfox on it"

SO...he knows I'm a gay furry, but he just doesn't know about the fandom and what not, nor does he care. yaaaaay.

There's a lot my family is dealing with right now, and everybody is being more open and communicating than ever before, and I finally had him alone, and it was now or never. I knew he would always be accepting of it, but to build up the courage to actually come out was the hard part. But, basically I said "I'm gay", he said "That's okay" and we went back to talking about the other issue the family is dealing with.

But i'm glad someone in this family knows. I can at least be happy about that.

please proceed to prod and boop until it gets off it's lazy ass and works on art it owes

I already answered over 400 questions, so it's just telling me there are no more questions. I already messed up. bleh.

Come join me. I'm just hanging around the main area where the Defender is at.
If you need help finding me, the name is Mental Woof (@BigKingWoof#8335)
I need help with a mission, or we can just do whatever.

Yeah, I know it's kinda shameless and petty and whatever other word you want to throw at it, but the offer is still stands. I'll do two pics for anyone that wants to get me a copy of FNAF World. Note me if you're interested.

Offer has been taken~

because I'm tired of looking at the previous journal, and I have nothing else to talk about.
So yeah, I got a twitter like a month ago, so if you want to follow me, my handle is BigKingWoof.

It took forever, but I finally got it. This is the first time I've ever finished the dex. Now that I have the Shiny and Oval charm after weeks, of work to get them...I'm going to give my monstrous hands a break and then start drawing.

But the most memorable moments were Wonder trading, where I got
Shiny Jirachi, Lugia named Gay Pride, Reshiram, Ho-oh, and a few other legendaries that are just normal, such as: Mesprit and Heatran.

But now I can finally focus on drawing again with this off my back.

So yeah, I still consider myself a gainer, though I'm very slow at doing so. For a while now, I've been going in between 280 to 290, but I'm finally staying in the 290's. I'd post progress pics, but I've been unsure about doing that lately.

But yeah that's all I have for an update on the subject.

January 21st 2014 is the day I first started drawing. I started out with my 2ds and Colors! 3D. It was very limiting, so luckily, I found Inchworm and stuck with that. Then, recently sent me a tablet somewhere around Christmas time, and I made myself comfortable using Firealpaca...because Sai is like $44, and GIMP does not like Wacom tablets what-so-ever.

Anyway, tomorrow marks the day of me drawing for a year. I want to do something special, but after working on that Sam weight gain sequence, I want to take it easy for a bit. I thought about redrawing the first picture I've posted, and do a side-by-side comparison, so I'm likely to do that.

But, after I do that, I think I need a break from everything. For a while now, I've felt so apathetic and empty--like I've lost my personality (or come to realize I don't have much of one. I don't know). If I do take a break, it won't be for long. Call me resilient, or say I'm addicted to the internet. Either way is fine. But that's the plan, and I'll see when I cross the bridge.

I wasn't even planning on it. We were just out to dinner, waiting on our order, and out of nowhere, he looks up from his phone and asks, "Do you believe in God?". I told him, "no" without even thinking. As soon as I said that, I realized what I've done, but thankfully, he wasn't outraged or anything. He has doubts about religion too, so we discussed them. I told him about Pascal's Wager, The God Delusion, and the typical arguments. We didn't argue at all, even. We just told our own view points of it all, and he told me he doesn't exactly believe there is a god, but there's an afterlife. He told me anecdotal stuff, like his father (my grandfather) taking his last breathes and seeing angels. I just couldn't tell him that I think it was all an hallucination from the lack of oxygen. Besides, I'm not one to argue over one's view points. I tend to be respectful of people's beliefs.

I'm glad he asked though, because that's one less thing I have to worry about telling him. I still have to come out of the closet, but one thing at a time.