Today, I received a waccom tablet. It was a gift from the very sweet , so go give him lots and lots of love~

As for the tablet, I'm not sure what model it is. You'll have to ask Knight. It's more weird than I thought it'd be. I thought you'd have to put pen to tablet for it to work, but when I hover the pen over it by a few centimeters, it follows like a mouse, and it's messing me up a bit x3 It'll take some getting used to.

I also need to decide which program I want to use: Stick with Gimp or go to photoshop. Either way, I have some settings to configure, and that'll be fun.

I went to Shockfest in Memphis last night, and it was unbelievable. I only went for Mushroomhead and ICP, but Big Hoodoo did a great job opening up, then Madchild blew my mind, Jelly Roll was okay, then it was Da Mafia 6ix (No Juicy J though). After all of that, Mushroomhead finally came out wearing neon versions of their masks, and it was so cool!

There are no assigned seats in the theater, so you could stand anywhere. At first we were at the front left corner where the speakers are (I'm deaf in my left hear now by the way...temporarily hopefully), but we sometimes went to the front like 3 feet away from the stage.

Mushroomhead and ICP were fucking amazing. I only dreamed of being so close to them, and the fact that they were on the same stage was just...I normally despise the use of this word, but it was just epic. They did their show, then ICP came on and they played their old stuff: Tilt-a-whirl, Halls of Illusions, Let's go All the Way, Neden game, ect. all the while spraying the entire crowed with Faygo. Being up front, I got drenched badly, but it was awesome. They ended the show with "Bang! Pow! Boom!" and brought up every performer to shower the crowd with faygo. Church (Mushroomhead guitarist) crowd-surfed and stepped on my hand XD

Oh! Oh! I also got St1tch's autograph on my "Beautiful Stories for Ugly Children" album! I would have got Waylon's, but he was sick, and couldn't do anymore by the time he got to me, but I'm not mad. He was sick and did a 30 minute performance on that hot stage? He's a fucking trooper!

Gah, so much to tell, and what I've told is so unorganized, but I'm still so giddy from it all x3

I did make a weasyl if anyone wants to follow/friend me on there. Now that I'm here, I'll try my best to post on both, but knowing me, I'll probably forget about it.
https://www.weasyl.com/~mentalwolf


and I did get smash on Saturday, so if anyone wants to add me *coughs*andgetyourasswhooped*coughs* my code is on my profile *is too lazy to copy/paste here*

For the past two weeks, I was banned due to an old issue. I don't feel like going into detail, but I do wish to thank everyone of you guys who helped me get back on. it really means a lot to me that you still stuck with me and did everything that you could. I really appreciate it. I really love you guys <3

Because curiosity is one of my biggest enemies. So, I just wanted to ask you guys questions pertaining to my art.

1) What is your favorite pic that I've done, and what is your least favorite? I know I removed a lot of my older ones, but they still count.

2) If you could get me to draw anyone, who would it be, and what would you want them doing?

3) For those of you who are open, have you ever pawed-off to any of my work? If so, which one(s)?

4) Why are you watching me?

5) What would you like to see more from me?

I want to thank all of you guys from the bottom of my heart for all that you have done for me. Those of you have stuck with me when I was in my deep depression for a little over a year, while complaining and crying about everything every day, I couldn't ask for any more loyal friends. I know I'm not the most open person these days, and a handful of people label me as the biggest asshole every to exist for not giving a paragraph response to everything, but those of you who understand, thank you <3

I want to thank everyone who has given me gift art, or has taken requests for me, and even traded with me. I cherish each and every piece. Every single one of them are wonderful, and I can see the love and hard work that was put in to them! Don't think I've forgotten those stories. I always love having a good story of me, and I appreciate them just as much as the art.

And to those who have always supported me on my art, always encouraging me to keep on drawing, you guys are so sweet <3 I know when I first started, I wasn't all that great. I went from work like these: https://www.dropbox.com/s/apntcu3sa.....Sam%20Hips.png https://www.dropbox.com/s/y1tgl1bpj.....q/HNI_0099.JPG
to art like this: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14232780/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14280494/

I couldn't have done it without you guys inspiring me by your comments and faves. For those who stuck around with my bad Sam art spam, I know it was tough, but thank you all so much <3

All of you guys are the best a pup could ask for <3 <3 <3 <3

I just knew as soon as I posted the vore pic, people would be all over it more than anything I have ever posted. So, let's get things cleared up.

I know I said I'm not into vore, but for a while now, I got into it thanks to my master, . But, I will only do it for him. I don't want ANY random notes begging me to eat them. This is your ONLY warning. If I do, you will be blocked.

I will not likely be getting/doing anymore vore pics. This pic was just something special for me and my master.

I think that's all I have to say.

I've asked twice what you guys would like to see more of from me, and no one spoke up. I haven't gotten any bit of critique either the whole 6 months I've been drawing. At first, I did just draw for me. That's why I spammed all of those Sam pics, but I can only improve so much without any feedback whatsoever. Don't get me wrong here--I'm thankful for all the support and encouragement, but so far I can't get you guys to say anything. I've asked what you guys would want to see me attempt, and I got nothing.

I'm starting to get bored with drawing because I get little to no response. I don't mind just faving, in fact, it brings a smile to my face to see the number go above 5 beside that F, but if I kept just drawing for me, my gallery would be nothing but Sam, and I already lose about 2 or 3 watchers from each pic I post of him. You guys are my audience, and I wouldn't still be doing this without your encouragement. The least i can do is do something for you guys in return. I want you guys to give me feedback. Tell me what you like about my work, what you hate, what I should do less of and do more of. Your opinions matter. I'm not some cool guy that thinks "Pfft, I don't care about how many watchers I have" because I do. When you care enough about my work or just the art I commission to watch, then I like to think I can do things to keep you interested, too.

I know my drawing isn't the best, and I have a long ways to go, but if it weren't for you guys, I would have given up and never tried again. You guys are the greatest for keeping me motivated. It really means a lot to me to know that I have amazing friends, Every comment and fave keeps me going (for some reason, I prefer seeing that F in my inbox hehe. Comments make me embarrassed >///<).

You guys are just the best, and I want to thank you all~

One of my close friends passed. He decided to off himself through overdose on morphine patches and meth. I accept his death, but I'm still upset at the people who I turned to for help and just ignored it. There were a few that listen. You know who you are.

Then, my dog was put down the other day behind my back. The reason was so bullshit too. She nipped my niece and made her cry. She couldn't bite fully or strong. She had trouble biting her food. There was no marks on my niece either. Dad threatened to shoot her with a 12 gauge if she did it again, so mom took her to the vet to put her down. She was just a small poodle too, so half her body would have been blown off.

Then, one of my friends came back and I got to hang out with him for a day, but people lied to his parole office saying he was breaking into houses and stealing. I know they were lying myself because when they claimed he was doing this, he was with me 4 hours away from there. But, I think he was thrown in jail nonetheless because he tried to call me on from the jailhouse on my cell, which doesn't get any service at my home. So, I got to call his parents and see what's up tomorrow.

So yeah, this October sucked. November might be better.

TL;DR: Friend died, Dog died, friend in jail. October sucked.

As a lot of you know, or should know, I come off as a person with very little to say, making me look like an asshole with no interest in the person I'm talking to. It's a bit unfair I'm labeled like that by a good handful of people. Maybe these people just don't understand that not every person in the world is so perky and the life of the party. I have been thinking what exactly my problem is, and how I could explain it.

I'm not sure where to begin. I suppose with my "one-worded" replies. I know I do this a lot, and I'm sorry if it bugs the shit out of you, but when I do this, it usually means I'm upset about something, or I don't know how to reply to it at all. It does NOT always mean I'm uninterested in what you're saying.

I'm an anti-social person. I have to fight myself and build the strength to reply back in the fun, energetic way that everyone expect me to do. That energy quickly drains though, and I do mean quickly. There are times when I just want to be left alone, but I get shit for that too, so I force myself to talk during those times.

People make me nervous, too. I'm scared I'll say the wrong thing and offend the person, having them angry at me. I'm worried I'll make the person uncomfortable as well. Upon being anti-social, I'm socially awkward, too, so I tend to say a lot of things that don't make sense. There's only been a small handful of people that I'm comfortable with, and they know who they are.

I don't know if this is the best way I can explain myself, but it's all I have right now. I don't know if this makes you think I'm more of an asshole, or helped you understand a little more of my social behavior. I didn't make this to be mean, or to piss people off. If if did make you upset in anyway, then I'm sorry.

Over the course of being here, I have made three sonas. I have noticed for a long time now that there are a few misconceptions and things people get wrong about them, and I'd like to address them here.

First off is a list for Mental.
He has a three colored tail - top color being his base fur color, middle being the darker fur color, and the bottom being a blue.
The mark on his forehead is the anti-cross, NOT a crosshair, star, or anything else.
Yes, he does that little tooth that sticks out. Looks cute, right?
He used to have markings around his eyes, but it didn't look good, and it was a bit of an inconvenience to work with, so I got rid of them.

As for Nate, there really is not anything about him people are getting wrong. That's the advantage of being a simple, obese/muscled nude bloodhound.

Ryan seems to be my most liked sona, and the one that rarely gets to be right. I think people think he's just a bear, but he's actually a black polar bear. His chest hair is in a heart shape followed by a happy trail that reaches down to his crotch. He's not a dom. In fact, he's a flirtatious sub. He's not hyper. I prefer him to be only 10ft, but can go macro. Same situation with his body type - I prefer him to be a "super chub", but he can be muscledgut.

I've been meaning to address this for a while now. I know, I should really save up for ref sheets, but those are so expensive x.x