Reading about the entity at the end of the game reads just like someone's infinite growth fetish story, like the whole game is just told from the standpoint of one of the random littles the growee comes across. I'm not saying the writer of this game has a growth and transformation fetish... just saying if they did have one, it would make a lot of sense.

This note has been placed here because I can't say this out loud anywhere else.

I was thinking recently about some of the missed opportunities in my species documents (though, let's be real, accuracy was not the point). Most of them are based off of regular animals, and every animal has a unique trait that isn't really seen much in the rest of the animal kingdom.

For us human sapien people, which I am totally a member of I swear, I think I was too quick to discount our own unique traits. Besides two legs and opposable thumbs, we also feature a much heavier reliance on our eyes than most of the animal kingdom. Besides boasting superior eyesight, we also use our eyes for social cues, which is so normal to us that we take it for granted. Ask a guy a hard question, he may break eye contact by moving only his eyes, not his head. For any species that doesn't put a lot of stock in looking at the whites of others' eyes, they probably wouldn't react that way.

We also have a lot of stamina, which would be interesting to put to the test if aliens were to start coexisting with us. We don't really have a good frame of reference for this, since we primarily only compete with other humans. An intelligent species that's still built for speed rather than marathons may actually build their society differently. Long sports games would be less reasonable, and hiking trails may require more supplies than we would think necessary.

There is also the fact that we are warm-blooded. I was reading up on what exactly being cold-blooded means, and realized that any species that explicitly isn't warm-blooded, like a certain draconic people, would end up with a drastically different way of life. Not only would they have to be particularly careful about temperature regulation, they don't metabolize food the same way, so their relationship with food might be very alien to us. Those big, all-you-can-eat buffets and banquets with people inhaling multiple plates of donuts? They're gone, or at least minimized.

In other words, the lazier and more human-like an alien society is, the less realistic it is. But hey, that's why "Most Writers Are Human" is a thing on TvTropes.

This isn't related to anything, I was basically just thinking about about how to quantify an unrealistically-large character's weight. It's hard and probably best avoided.

Once a character leaves the bounds of possibility, it becomes extremely easy to drastically overestimate or underestimate how much they weigh without a reference. Flesh is actually pretty dang heavy, but bones, fat, and muscle don't have the same density so they don't weigh the same. For example, I think in my mind "okay, this guy is hyper-muscled, he probably weighs about 1000 lbs (excuse my 'merica)"... but then I have to take a step back. What does the biggest bodybuilder in real life actually look like and how much does he weigh? A little bit of Googling later... is my guy 2-3x that guy? If he was supposed to be bigger than that, my number is off.

For non-humanoid characters, I often have to take a look at the Belgian Blue bull for reference. Those can get up over 3000 lbs (1400 kg), so if I say this character is any less than that while being roughly the same size in skeletal structure, I'm actually back within the realm of reality and I've made a huge mistake.

On the flipside, if I'm just completely winging it, I can end up creating a character that's way too big for the room. "He's about as big as a 1-story house... let's just go ahead and say he weighs 3,000,000 lbs." Uh, not quite, that house is gone now. If this description is attached to virtually any picture, I would be willing to bet it's an overestimation, since your mind goes "big = big number" and no one's going to fact check that. No one's sitting there going "well, let's see, 5 lbs of muscle is approximately this big, so taking the cubic area of that bicep, it should actually be..." Which is probably for the best, otherwise it would be just as hard to overlook as size measurements.

And that's just stuff like Muscle vs Fat. If a character is disproportionate, the calculations get even more wack, since it's assumed that everything that makes up that body part grew with it. This would normally be an average, 170-lb man... but he has a hand that's as large as a guy. How much does he weigh now? Ballpark says 340, but a lot of your hand is bone, so... who knows??? How many density calculations do you want to do?

That's enough hard numbers for the time being. My subject is always apparently made out of either foam or lead, so screw it, we're being as vague as possible.
"His weight is unimaginable (where 'unimaginable' is any weight over 100 lbs)."

(Preface: For the record, I have never used AI for anything on my page, text or otherwise.)
(...and hopefully it's not against the rules just to TALK about AI...)

Unlike many/probably most other artists, I don't see any real problem with AI generators, probably because I don't have any financial interest in the stuff I do. In my opinion, they can never truly replace a real artist since a real artist can create new ideas on a whim rather than being shackled to pop culture. It doesn't detract from real artists, it just lets Mr. Average-ICan'tEvenDrawAStraightLine-Joe translate the stuff in his head, too (adding a second "in my opinion" here because I can already here the pitchforks coming for me). I've already been using text generators off and on for years for my own personal entertainment, since my tastes are eccentric and it's easiest to just write my own stuff, currently vouching for NovelAI. I see them as a lazy way to get into an off-the-cuff fantasy world without putting a lot of effort in. You just think of an action and the first few words of a sentence and then spam the generate button. It's pretty fun! Even if AI still sucks at writing overall.

I was staying away from art generation, though, since I didn't think I could run it... but then I checked out Bing's Creator thing and while it's heavily censored, one of the things I happen to be heavily into doesn't technically count as NSFW, and Microsoft's program happens to generate that very well. I'll let you guess which one, since there's 2 answers, and 1 of them gets blocked like a mother******. I got tired of all the wait times, though, and the quality ended up getting me motivated to say "eh, I'm not doing anything this weekend" and download Stable Diffusion.

And that? That was a real trip. It was breathtaking, really. Just... really amazing how... mortifyingly difficult it is to generate anything even remotely similar to anything on my page. I can't find models for this stuff. I can't find loras for this stuff. Took the several hours to try and create my own lora and that was a pretty big waste of time that was set to become a much bigger waste of time if I tried fine-tuning it. Furry models just don't quite understand where I'm trying to go (hash-tag pop culture), while realism models have been unmitigated disasters. I think at some point I kind of forgot just how unpopular Hyper really is and I just kind of assumed "oh, this is a pretty big subculture, I'm sure this won't be too hard", setting myself up for the smackdown.

Not that I haven't seen success, I just didn't think I would have to get this intricate with the prompting to generate something that's merely "good". Yeah, sure, the picture quality is amazing, but when that novelty wears off and you're trying to reach for particular subject matter, time disappears before your very eyes as you generate failure after failure. My kingdom for some way to give this thing an anatomy lesson on non-humanoids.

All those people that just want to see anime girls have it so easy I swear.

I didn't know the "Internal Policy Update" was a big deal until I saw the explosive kerfuffle in my Journal notifications. My first thought was "well, this doesn't apply to ME..." but then I remembered the Footdots (small), Ferr (short), and Rakers (shorter). There's also that last request, which also featured a short character.

While I made sure to always present my characters as adults, I'm still not sure if I'll be hit or not. My only sense of my gallery's safety right now comes from the fact that no one knows who I am and my page doesn't get a lot of traffic. Any advice? Should I be removing things? Or should I just wait and see if I get flagged? Is that risking getting jebanned? I don't want to move to Inkbunny!

Sending a ticket in, hopefully that will get this sorted away.

Not sure if anyone cares, but I'm a few thousand words into what's going to end up being a pretty long story. It's sort of off-brand, not crazy or extreme like my other stuff, but actually SFW for once. It's still mainly a furry story, which is why I'm posting about it here, but I wanted to try my hand at serious, character-driven drama and action instead of just moving from one fetish scene to the next. Here's a quick teaser I came up with on the fly:

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Mozza was a simple dog of low birth. He didn't think himself different or special. He wanted the same thing as all his beastman brethren: to become powerful, to fight for his people, and to die an honorable death on the battlefield. It was a message he had been taught since birth, but alas, he was the runt of the litter and was denied his destiny.

And so he turned to his other passion: Alchemy. A discipline that required an entirely different kind of strength, and so was shunned by the common beast. With no one willing to help him, he is forced to leave his home and embrace the outside world, but by the time Mozza returns, would he still pledge his fealty to the kingdom that hated him the most?
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It's been sort of tricky to write, since the world is based off of this write-up here, which comes from another story of mine that is extremely heavy on hyper. Keeping it clean is the easy part, it's the people themselves that are hard (pun not intentional). For instance, the protagonist here starts in an area where everyone is huge except him. Therefore, I find myself trying to talk intelligently about muscular characters without making it clear just how big they actually are, since that's not where the focus is supposed to be.

Anyway, the real point of this journal is if this does become a book, and I actually finish writing it... I have no idea what to do with it. I would probably try and publish it if the base material were cleaner (I like keeping my furry stuff separate from the rest of my life), but barring that I was just going to post it in a regular old PDF like everything else. Does anyone have any other ideas?

Is there a place where people usually put really long strings of words, sometimes separated by chapters and probably bound together some way so they're separated from other word-strings?

Things have pretty much stabilized in my life for the time being, so I'm bored enough to reopen these on the off-chance anyone wants one. I will be doing what I mentioned last time, though, which is greatly restricting what I'm willing to write. I'm also putting up that figurative "this may take several [weeks] to finish" sign, raising my price, and using CashApp for any transactions instead of Paypal.

However, I will be opening the door for some very basic art as well! So, here's the details...

- Everything MUST include Hyper, regardless of whether it's a request or a commission. This isn't restricted to genitalia, either. Whatever the focal point of your story is, there has to be some Hyper up in there.
- No gas, underarm, amputee, gore, non-oral vore, or macro stuff of any kind. Micro is fine. SFW is also good as long as it fulfills the Hyper requirement.
- I reserve the right to decline any and all requests and services, including story changes and picture edits. I likely won't do this, especially for commissions, but if midway through the process you suddenly go "make sure they start spewing ____ out of their ____" I might be like "nah."
- Be patient! I'm not promising any quick turnarounds. If it happens it happens, if it doesn't it doesn't. I won't keep you waiting for months or years, though. Unless for some godforsaken reason I have a queue. Can you imagine this page with a queue? I can't. Ridiculous. If for whatever reason you see a queue for requests or commissions on my page for any reason, run as fast as you can and unwatch my page (preferably before you start running). Things are probably approaching a meltdown, and I don't just mean me, I mean all of reality.

For REQUESTS:
- Story requests must be short. Shorter than before. The maximum you should be aiming for is what would result in <1000 words. Consider it a teaser, a quick outtake, or a fun blurb. No massive timelines with tons of plot points. You should also be okay with me experimenting with whatever details you didn't specify (writing style, font, setting, characters, etc).

- I will take art requests, but these will only be small, quick, and simple sketches. If I can't get it done within about 5-10 minutes of sitting down (I'm slow), it's probably too much for a request.

For COMMISSIONS:
- Story commissions now follow the same rules as everything else, but they're allowed to be much longer than a request. The price is a little higher than before, though: $12 per 750 words.
- The process is thus: We will converse until I have a good idea of what you want, then I'll write up an outline of the story and show it to you. This outline includes all of the major scenes planned, along with a price estimate. If you agree to the terms, then you must pay half of the cost upfront.
- I'll show you how the story is going at certain breakpoints. If you're dissatisfied with it, as long as I'm less than halfway through the story, I'll give you a portion of your money back (depending on how much has been done). If I'm over halfway through, we can probably still come to some agreement.

- Art commissions will only be black n' white line art and will follow the same rules as everything else. $20 per character, +$20 for a background. I think I'm improving, but don't expect high quality.
- I'll show you the initial sketch once I'm done with it. If you like what you see enough to pay me for it, then you will be needing to pay me for it at that point in time. If you're dissatisfied with the finished piece, we can talk about it.

I have a pretty big handful of unfinished projects at this point, both on and off FA, so I took a moment to think about why. My personal projects slow down because I'm so afraid of doing art, which I've been trying harder to overcome lately (feel free to give me advice!).

My FA projects, however, are mostly writing. I think those may be slowing down because I lost what made me originally start writing them: dissatisfaction with the prevalence of certain themes, and wry comedy. Wry comedy being the more important of the two. There was a central, often-minimized joke embedded in every Species file that helped inform the rest of the document. They were as follows:

- Muskel: Empire of tough, muscular soldiers that love war and hate love, but like to sneak off in the dead of night to snuggle teddies and watch anime.
- Footdot: Cute little freaks that wouldn't normally be allowed anywhere, but they are because the muskeli will overreact to any perceived aggression. The Little Sister, Big Daddy dynamic from Bioshock, basically.
- Human: Opposable thumbs and really, really powerful marijuana.
- Peak: "Theoretical sex." Unlike most of the others, I wrote that whole document based off just that one line, and I'm still laughing at it to this day. I'm telling you, "theoretical sex" is the holy grail of sexual comedy.
- Fetid: The original joke was just about the randomized clothing. Their society is purposely built to make no sense from outside. This was also the onset of the idea of the writer being angry about something.
- Slai: Dragon hoarding. "Please don't send me angry letters calling me a racist."
- Meebit: Sweet, innocent figurative-unicorns... but if you try to bed one and you die, it's entirely your fault. If I was in the habit of using graphics, that file probably would have been covered in more warning stickers than Floodvee.
- Raker: ...No underlying humor here, actually. I just really liked this species.
- Shlreshshlren: Tentacle monsters are people, too. "Please stop shooting them."
- Etch: Casual, non-sexual watersports.
- Ferr: Trolls.
- Zynkrolik: Art is everything. Censorship is bad.
- Knochen: "They're strong, they're heavy, they [assault] women, everything the knochens are and more." Based off a line I heard in a certain podcast. I don't know, a species idolizing the muskeli for all the wrong reasons was really funny to me at the time. It probably came off as preachy, but it was meant to be tongue-in-cheek.
- Lodo: Their very design. It's so lazy that the rest of their story writes itself.
- Nameless: Probably doesn't need to be said, but the humor here was in the speaker, not necessarily the race itself.

Writing is just so much easier when I'm laughing. It doesn't all have to be fun and games, I liked doing the Omissions documents, but when it comes to moods that are between "light" and "dark" I start drawing blanks. This doesn't mean I want to go full-clown and start filling canvases with memes, there just has to be some central gag that I can build around. It can be subtle, it just has to be there, and hopefully pinning that down will help me actually finish something.

(Note: This isn't directed at anyone in particular. I was just playing a random furry game on Itch.io.)

Human hair on animal characters has always bothered me.

Obviously it's worse-looking on nonanthro characters, who look like they're trying to wear an "I'm a people" wig, but I think it still looks weird on anthro characters. They look like strange attempts to either humanize a furry character because the creator was uncomfortable, or animalize a human character for reasons that make me uncomfortable. For instance, they take an existing person, change the makeup of their body completely, but leave their hair exactly the same. I guess it's because they would otherwise be difficult to discern from their other features. However, since I don't actually know that person and I'm just looking at their "fursona", it looks like someone slapped a clown wig on and they're pretending like it's perfectly natural.

It's always worst on furry animals. The color of the wig almost never matches. Brown fur, blond wig. Blond fur, black wig. Curly fur, straight wig, because the originator wanted the hair to "stand out." It stands out as a cheap, dollar-store hairpiece. It's arguably better on animals that have little to no fur, since it's a little more human-like and hence less stupid-looking. I still dislike it, though. I already know what that animal is supposed to look like, so I can't help but scoff and scoff mightily.

One exception: It looks fine when the character doesn't have a fully animal head. If they're walking around as only half-furry, then of course they can have regular hair. As soon as that snout starts poking out, though, watch out.

I'm no longer taking requests or commissions. At least, not for the time being.

I never thought my page would attract enough attention to get requests in the first place, especially writing requests, so a heartfelt thanks goes out to everyone who contacted me asking for one! I may be shutting them down, but all of you guys were great fun to work with, and I enjoyed having the opportunity.

Basically, I had imagined that writing NSFW material for other people would be more fun than it was. Once the novelty wore off, it became, for lack of a better word, boring. From here, it's either greatly restrict what I'm willing to write and put up a sign that says "these may take several months to finish", or put this on hold and see if that fire comes back once I have more time. I'm opting for the latter option, so for now, it's back to IRL things.

I've wanted to rename the footdots to something else for the longest, since "footdot" is awkward and doesn't roll off the tongue very well as a species name, but I don't have any idea on what would sound good for them. They're so entrenched in other stories that I really didn't want to mess with it at first, but the more I say the name, the dumber it sounds. Befitting for such a silly race, probably, but that hard 't' followed by a hard 'd' (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_easOFGduw) is just terrible.

Any visitors have any ideas?

I'm still open to story requests, but there are some basic requirements:
- They have to be short. I may or may not write a longer story, but don't expect more than 2 pages for the concept you give me. As in, please don't give me a massive timeline with tons of plot points. You're going to have to pay me money for that, sorry!

- I prefer to write things similar to what I've posted before. However...

- Send me your request even if you don't think I'll write it! I enjoy reading them.

Story commissions are slightly different:
- They are allowed to be longer.

- More topics and genres are available, but it can't go against FurAffinity's Upload Policy.

- I charge $10 per 750 words.

- I'm wary of scams! You must pay half upfront.

Maybe, probably not. Looking back on earlier works, I feel like I tend to include a lot of superfluous information and leave out things that might have been more important. Making a note here that maybe I should focus more on:

- detailed body design, so they transfer better to illustration.
- macroculture, as opposed to subcultures or current trends.
- relating sexuality back to the culture more.
- worldbuilding, so that each race is a bit more unique and relevant (some species felt like background one-offs and shouldn't have).
- environment, since that's pretty essential, yet has been either too vague or too familiar in most of these.

Each document hits a few of these in my opinion, but I'm not sure any of them have hit all five. I may rewrite most, if not all, of my previous documents and switch some things around for my next one.

I guess people liked those meebits. They got the most favorites out of any of my races so far (4 is a lot for not-completely-porn on a page like this, okay). No comments, though! I wonder what people liked about them?

I did a mass cleaning of my submission notifications, since they were getting pretty crazy, then went through and cleaned out my watch list to thin out future submissions and keep things under control. Don't worry, I still use Search, so no one is completely off my radar. Everyone was unwatched unless I really wanted to see every single thing they put up, plus the accounts that were dead or made private. I ended up going through and unwatching over 250 accounts.

A surprisingly large percentage of those accounts were in the dead/private category. Some of them were dead when I watched them, on the hopes that the artist would come back. Others became dead when the artist switched accounts after their main accounts were made unavailable a while ago when FurAffinity went down. Others left to post on other websites. Others just left, either by vanishing off the face of the Earth, or by deactivating their accounts and/or wiping their galleries (the very reason I download, rather than clicking Favorite). I didn't realize how many there were until I literally clicked on every single account I was watching to check their recent submissions.

Waiting for the next generation.

Someone needs to ship Zero III and Monokuma.

I never thought I would be drawing porn, but I recently decided to increase my Art stat since I've been thrust into some things that require creativity. These things aren't related to art, but I thought "maybe becoming a better artist will stimulate my brain into becoming less reliant on consuming media". However, I regularly blank when I try to sit down and draw something. Unless...

So, here I am. I'm currently a good writer and a bad digital artist, something I hope to change since I don't enjoy writing as much as my fingers do. Watch out totem pole, for I shall climb thee.