FA+
Shop
story of my life
Posted a month agosome people just have no compassion or understanding.
had a few laughs, but beware of this guy
Posted 2 months agohttps://x.com/JSchmendrik/status/19.....21801382261052
since the rules won't allow it, i can't say who on FA did this. but anyway, i'm posting this so you guys are aware of what kind of person he really is. please DO NOT attack or harass this person, especially if you happen to know him. if you feel like attacking this guy, screw you and shame on you.
since the rules won't allow it, i can't say who on FA did this. but anyway, i'm posting this so you guys are aware of what kind of person he really is. please DO NOT attack or harass this person, especially if you happen to know him. if you feel like attacking this guy, screw you and shame on you.
stop it already
Posted 2 months agojust fucking stop it. stop adding me then removing me and blocking me for no reason. stop ignoring me and stop ghosting me. this isn't funny, so just fucking stop it.
just...
Posted 2 months agojust fucking stop ignoring me and rejecting me and blocking me for no reason, alright? this isn't fucking funny and i'm sick of it.
got a question
Posted 2 months agofor anyone actually watching me, i wanna ask. any way i can filter what i find when browsing people's galleries or when i search? i heard there are tags, but i don't know how those work.
Why Bother?
Posted 3 months agoWhen I ask around,
Nobody says “Yes” or “Sure.”
All they say is “No.”
When I ask others,
They do not respond at all.
I’m always ignored.
So why keep trying,
Knowing the outcomes don’t change?
It’s always the same.
Rejected I am,
Disappointment my fate,
And suffer I shall.
What I say or do
Is arbitrary and moot.
Luck will never change.
Nobody says “Yes” or “Sure.”
All they say is “No.”
When I ask others,
They do not respond at all.
I’m always ignored.
So why keep trying,
Knowing the outcomes don’t change?
It’s always the same.
Rejected I am,
Disappointment my fate,
And suffer I shall.
What I say or do
Is arbitrary and moot.
Luck will never change.
Destined
Posted 3 months agoEvery day I see people who are happy.
Every day I see people who have friends.
Every day I see people who have those who care.
Every day I see people who are never alone.
So why am I always alone?
Why am I always shunned?
Why am I always ignored?
Why am I always left hanging?
It is because I am cursed.
It is because I am jinxed.
It is because I am unlucky.
It is because I am destined.
Destined for betrayal!
Destined for disappointment!
Destined for stress!
Destined for loneliness!
Or, in short: Screw me and screw my luck!
Every day I see people who have friends.
Every day I see people who have those who care.
Every day I see people who are never alone.
So why am I always alone?
Why am I always shunned?
Why am I always ignored?
Why am I always left hanging?
It is because I am cursed.
It is because I am jinxed.
It is because I am unlucky.
It is because I am destined.
Destined for betrayal!
Destined for disappointment!
Destined for stress!
Destined for loneliness!
Or, in short: Screw me and screw my luck!
Silent Treatment
Posted 3 months agoEvery day, I am ignored and neglected.
But nowadays that is to be expected.
After one thankless errand after another, I come back,
Only to find nobody around, which is whack.
No matter how much I wait, no matter what I say,
Nobody seems to want to play.
Why the silent treatment? Why am I always shunned?
But why complain, knowing the luck I have is none?
Who would want to waste their time with me,
Even if I were struck with so painful a tragedy?
Platitudes and banalities and others I’ve heard
Mean nothing for actions speak louder than words.
But what hurts me the most,
Are the promises and assurances from many a ghost.
Such is luck and such is fate,
And fortune will never come no matter how long I wait.
But nowadays that is to be expected.
After one thankless errand after another, I come back,
Only to find nobody around, which is whack.
No matter how much I wait, no matter what I say,
Nobody seems to want to play.
Why the silent treatment? Why am I always shunned?
But why complain, knowing the luck I have is none?
Who would want to waste their time with me,
Even if I were struck with so painful a tragedy?
Platitudes and banalities and others I’ve heard
Mean nothing for actions speak louder than words.
But what hurts me the most,
Are the promises and assurances from many a ghost.
Such is luck and such is fate,
And fortune will never come no matter how long I wait.
No Help
Posted 3 months agoWhere is there someone to lean on?
Where is there someone to count on?
Where is there someone to depend on?
Nowhere! Why? I don't know.
Does it really matter though?
Maybe it's because I'm a loser.
Maybe it's because I'm a jinx.
Maybe it's because I'm a bitch.
Nobody will help me and nobody will be there for me,
Because I am a chronic loser and that is how it will always be.
Where is there someone to count on?
Where is there someone to depend on?
Nowhere! Why? I don't know.
Does it really matter though?
Maybe it's because I'm a loser.
Maybe it's because I'm a jinx.
Maybe it's because I'm a bitch.
Nobody will help me and nobody will be there for me,
Because I am a chronic loser and that is how it will always be.
dammit...
Posted 3 months agoi have a forum post i bump every three days. i fix the wording, i add more details, i clarify do's and don'ts. and still, i get fucking ignored. but let's face it. who'd wanna RP with a whiny, guilt-tripping bitch like me, anyway?
Alone in this World
Posted 3 months agoAlone in this world, alone for all time,
Nobody cares, nobody understands,
They revile me and harass me
Without any good reason or rhyme
Nobody respects me, nobody understands me
In their eyes, a freak, a guilter and a crybaby as they call me
Yet their eyes and minds are blind and clouded,
With prejudice and hatred as excuses for having me ousted
But those hateful people leave me enlightened,
For I know my destiny as Fate’s bonds around me are tightened.
Destined to suffer and be alone I am,
To suffer alone and be forever ignored I am damned.
One lesson I have learned, and let this be true:
When you are a freak and an outcast,
Nobody cares and nobody will help you.
Nobody cares, nobody understands,
They revile me and harass me
Without any good reason or rhyme
Nobody respects me, nobody understands me
In their eyes, a freak, a guilter and a crybaby as they call me
Yet their eyes and minds are blind and clouded,
With prejudice and hatred as excuses for having me ousted
But those hateful people leave me enlightened,
For I know my destiny as Fate’s bonds around me are tightened.
Destined to suffer and be alone I am,
To suffer alone and be forever ignored I am damned.
One lesson I have learned, and let this be true:
When you are a freak and an outcast,
Nobody cares and nobody will help you.
Hopelessness
Posted 3 months agoI sit and I weep,
Alone and forsaken.
To think I could count on others,
I was terribly mistaken.
Friends I once had,
To whom I tried to be loyal and true.
But when I needed them most,
They ignored me and ditched me, too.
From disappointment and hopelessness.
Forever alone do I suffer,
Without anyone to depend on for comfort,
A pain worse than bodily rupture.
Yet never again will I find relief,
Not only for the betrayal of others but for my own mistakes.
I suppose it is appropriate and just,
That I am alone to cry in hopelessness and grief.
Alone and forsaken.
To think I could count on others,
I was terribly mistaken.
Friends I once had,
To whom I tried to be loyal and true.
But when I needed them most,
They ignored me and ditched me, too.
From disappointment and hopelessness.
Forever alone do I suffer,
Without anyone to depend on for comfort,
A pain worse than bodily rupture.
Yet never again will I find relief,
Not only for the betrayal of others but for my own mistakes.
I suppose it is appropriate and just,
That I am alone to cry in hopelessness and grief.
Luck Never Changes (another vent poem)
Posted 3 months agoSome may find happiness, some may find love.
Others may find friendship and others may find trust.
But me? I find none of the mentioned hereof,
For any attempts to find those I can count on are always a bust.
So what’s the use in trying when it’s always the same?
Why bother trying when the door always slams in your face?
No matter how much stress clouds and heats up my brain,
I will never find another reliable friend no matter how bad my pain.
A slave am I to those who always lean on me,
Yet no one on whom I can depend is ever there.
Others have me to rely on and to answer their pleas,
But me? No. Not one soul is there to heed my pra’er.
Luck never changes for one such as I.
Destined for loneliness and eternal stress am I.
One as cursed as I is only meant for rejection,
And pain and despair and eternal dejection.
Where are those on whom I can rely,
For a brief trip from the harshness of reality?
Who in their right mind would give me a good reply?
Fate declares no one shall, for I am hated for eternity.
Others may find friendship and others may find trust.
But me? I find none of the mentioned hereof,
For any attempts to find those I can count on are always a bust.
So what’s the use in trying when it’s always the same?
Why bother trying when the door always slams in your face?
No matter how much stress clouds and heats up my brain,
I will never find another reliable friend no matter how bad my pain.
A slave am I to those who always lean on me,
Yet no one on whom I can depend is ever there.
Others have me to rely on and to answer their pleas,
But me? No. Not one soul is there to heed my pra’er.
Luck never changes for one such as I.
Destined for loneliness and eternal stress am I.
One as cursed as I is only meant for rejection,
And pain and despair and eternal dejection.
Where are those on whom I can rely,
For a brief trip from the harshness of reality?
Who in their right mind would give me a good reply?
Fate declares no one shall, for I am hated for eternity.
Sitting Alone (vent poem)
Posted 3 months agoHere I sit, alone and in the dark,
In a chamber not unlike a statue park.
Surrounded by statues tall and wide,
Beautiful and massive, they are a sight.
Yet they stand lifeless and idle,
My loneliness left unbridled.
If only someone was there to give them life,
Without any tension or strife;
To give them a spark and a soul,
To make a mental picture whole;
To add excitement and fun to a scene of love;
A scene which I can’t even get to dream of.
But alas, Fate, cruel as she can be,
Would never let such a thing happen to me.
Though I am always there for others to rely on
With burdens heavier than cretonne,
None will ever be there, none will reply,
None will ever be there on whom I could rely.
So lifeless these statues will remain,
Such large, beautiful women conceived in my brain.
Despite my efforts and words, no one will ever be there,
To heed my plea and answer my pra’er
In a chamber not unlike a statue park.
Surrounded by statues tall and wide,
Beautiful and massive, they are a sight.
Yet they stand lifeless and idle,
My loneliness left unbridled.
If only someone was there to give them life,
Without any tension or strife;
To give them a spark and a soul,
To make a mental picture whole;
To add excitement and fun to a scene of love;
A scene which I can’t even get to dream of.
But alas, Fate, cruel as she can be,
Would never let such a thing happen to me.
Though I am always there for others to rely on
With burdens heavier than cretonne,
None will ever be there, none will reply,
None will ever be there on whom I could rely.
So lifeless these statues will remain,
Such large, beautiful women conceived in my brain.
Despite my efforts and words, no one will ever be there,
To heed my plea and answer my pra’er
still not working
Posted 3 months agoi join another forum, and surprise surprise. no positive outcomes. but what did i expect? Fate wants me to be alone, after all. so just fuck it. maybe i should leave that forum, too.
Sub human M LF new ERP partners (18+ only)
Posted 3 months agohere's the link: https://aryion.com/forum/viewtopic......31&t=69288
read every single detail before you DM or PM me!
read every single detail before you DM or PM me!
muses and pains
Posted 3 months agonearly every day i look around at the many artists i watch. i find plenty of pics of big, beautiful anthro girls, whether fat or muscled or in between. i fave many of them, especially ones of bigger girls squashing little guys or of sexy butt shots. and yet...i always wish i could get a chance to interact with them. of course, that will never happen. RL sucks enough already and i'm already pretty alone there.
all the time, i get called away for one thankless errand after another. i get piled on very often and it's like i'm always there for people to lean on for everything while i've got nobody. after all the stuff is over, all i want is to come home or wake up to a nice, relaxing ERP. but instead, i get nothing.
just like in RL, a guy can only take so much prejudice, rejection and disappointment.
all the time, i get called away for one thankless errand after another. i get piled on very often and it's like i'm always there for people to lean on for everything while i've got nobody. after all the stuff is over, all i want is to come home or wake up to a nice, relaxing ERP. but instead, i get nothing.
just like in RL, a guy can only take so much prejudice, rejection and disappointment.
reminder to self
Posted 3 months agodo not join any Discord servers. don't even ask to join any Discord servers. they aren't worth the aggravation or the lynching.
completely out of ideas
Posted 3 months agowell...like i said before, i don't know where to look. i don't know who to turn to. i don't know if there's anything i can do or if there's anything worth trying, especially knowing what i'd say or do is totally arbitrary. especially because i just found out some guys whom i noted with nothing more than expressing interest and sharing my RP info blocked me for no reason whatsoever. yet another reason to ask myself: is it even worth it?
no more asking around
Posted 4 months agoevery time i ask i get turned down. every time i give a second chance, i get spit in the face. well then...no more asking around, no more second chances, nothing from me. you're welcome to ask me, but i'm sure you'll reject me even then.
changing my mind...a bit
Posted 4 months agoi've changed my mind about offing myself. but still, who the hell would want a fucktard like me around? who'd waste time with me? i guarantee you, nobody would because i'm a fucking loser and a fucking asshole and a fucktard nobody gives a shit about, especially from the lack of responses from anybody. so at any case, just fuck me. fuck me for being a loser. fuck me for having no friends to rely on. fuck me for having nobody to count on. fuck me for having no values. fuck me.
feeling better
Posted 7 months agoi finally got to have a good RP with a friend of mine who made the long wait worth it, and the day after my birthday too. so i guess i had a good birthday, after all.
some birthday
Posted 8 months agoaaaaand rejected yet again and by somebody who offered. but what did i expect? why does this shit keep happening to me? maybe i'm just some unlucky bitch who's meant to suffer.
some birthday i'm gonna have. like i don't have enough RL crap already. not like you guys give a shit about it enough to help me, anyway.
some birthday i'm gonna have. like i don't have enough RL crap already. not like you guys give a shit about it enough to help me, anyway.
almost my birthday...
Posted 8 months ago...and i can't say i'm too thrilled about it. not that anybody would notice anyway. no replies, no posts, no RP offers, nothing. i'm sure i've said that same, old monologue about what i want but we all know it's not gonna happen and i'm sure i've annoyed anyone who actually reads my journals anyway. and i'll probably get made fun of again, too. that'd be one hell of a birthday present, huh? getting mocked and trolled for having nobody to RP with again.
something weird...
Posted 8 months agowhy am i seeing the same user name twice, nowadays?
