just...fuck me. nobody to RP with as per usual, nobody to depend on and all that same ol shit i'm sure you're sick of reading. make fun of me, troll me, whatever. i deserve it for being a loser with no friends.

NO MORE asking around. i will always be rejected and i will always be turned down, no matter the hell what. so just fuck me. fuck me.

I sit and I weep,
Alone and forsaken.
To think I could count on others,
I was terribly mistaken.

Friends I once had,
To whom I tried to be loyal and true.
But when I needed them most,
They ignored me and ditched me, too.

From disappointment and hopelessness.
Forever alone do I suffer,
Without anyone to depend on for comfort,
A pain worse than bodily rupture.

Yet never again will I find relief,
Not only for the betrayal of others but for my own mistakes.
I suppose it is appropriate and just,
That I am alone to cry in hopelessness and grief.

THAT TEARS IT! i will NEVER ask around again! Fate wants me to suffer alone, so why even bother? it's not like things were actually gonna go my way, anyway. and it's not like RL is ever gonna be better for me either. so heck with everybody else. i can't count on anybody because i know i will always be alone. FUCK ME!

i just tried asking around on FA roleplay groups, and guess what. every person i asked rejected me, just like everyone else. that just goes to show you that i am an unlucky loser and nobody would waste their time with a loser like me. so yeah...maybe i should just drop off the face of the earth or something. nobody would care if i was gone, anyway.

Fate prevails and I always fail
Unloved and unwanted I am
Can I ever get a break? No.
Knowing I'm a loser and a pest.

Many revile and despise me as both.
Every time I ask around, I always fail for I am a loser.

all it does it make people like me feel left out and it makes people like me feel bad about being single and being cursed to be single all my life. do any of you feel the same way?

i'm sure things aren't gonna get better in this new year for me, but i hope that you guys still have a much better year.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59047594/

i haven't seen anything this twisted on FA. report this submission, report this user and perform a good deed for the day.

UPDATE!
justice is served. the above link is being removed and the user in question is being banned. thanks to all who reported his sorry ass.

but Fate has butt-fucked me for real. i just had to put down my dog and fuck me for not doing enough to save him when i should have.

in a nutshell, let's say i'm trying to forget about some guys i knew for a long time only to find they've left knives in my back or tell me i should do this or that when said guys haven't done it themselves. i've only got one really good RP partner, but he wants to take a break and understandably feels like some twisted relationship. but the problem is that after everything that's happened to me on Discord servers and with guys i thought were my friends, i've realized i can't trust anyone anymore as much as i'd like to. like i've said a million times, anything i say or do won't make a lick of difference. so i'm stuck yet again. i don't know what more i can possibly do, and i'm at a point where anyone i ask for an RP will either let me down with one short, lazy post after another or turn me down because of differing RP preferences or just disappear on me.

that's why i posted in an older account about how tempted i was to quit FA. well i closed my old account without saying anything because i've tried to move on and forget about those whose words and actions further strengthened my resolve. i really wish i had new, reliable RP partners besides one guy i have known on Discord for not very long. but i have been very doubtful i'll ever find any more, since either others are too lazy or just don't understand or respect my RP preferences.

so yeah. i'm still here to admire big anthro girls, but i don't know who to turn to or where to look for RPing anymore.

just what the title says. if you have to know what i mean, don't ask.