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Posted 9 years agoFigured I'd do something to replace it. Freshen up the place a bit, since it's on my mind for the worst reasons.
Shit happens, and all that. Thanks for stopping by and thanking me for the fave.
Shit happens, and all that. Thanks for stopping by and thanking me for the fave.
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Worst Morning Ever... Of All Time
Posted 13 years agoWell... I stayed up all night. Passed out around 7 AM, then woke up at a 11. Got a text from my boyfriend.. this led to bad things. Like him yelling, then him getting kind of petty, and eventually just... not sounding like himself at all.
Then he dumps me.
My boyfriend of 2 years, and my first decent one, dumps me over the phone. Not that there's a lot of other options, considering it's an online relationship.. was supposed to become more when I moved up there in a year or so, so this is kind of a big kick in the head.
Oh, then I find out, not from him, that he's moving to Texas, only to be dissuaded. Now he's staying at his own place, and has STILL BROKEN UP WITH ME. Keep in mind that this shit is all happening CURRENTLY. Not after the fact or... -sigh- Nevermind. Let's move on.
I guess the reason I'm posting this is.. for a little comfort. Just a call to people, for a little reassurance that I don't need the man I love more than anyone else (And that's a lotta love, I'm like a goddamn hippie) to be happy..
EDIT: Oh, lets not forget what he was to me. My best friend, my Master, my brother, and my god damn father. All gone, forever.
EDITEDIT: Heh... my world fell apart not with a bang, but a whimper. A little light snuffed out in the great wind of the world. And while this all happens, the world keeps spinning. People keep posting art, time keeps ticking, and we take one more step into the future, all while I stay standing still... it's humbling, and a little funny.
Then he dumps me.
My boyfriend of 2 years, and my first decent one, dumps me over the phone. Not that there's a lot of other options, considering it's an online relationship.. was supposed to become more when I moved up there in a year or so, so this is kind of a big kick in the head.
Oh, then I find out, not from him, that he's moving to Texas, only to be dissuaded. Now he's staying at his own place, and has STILL BROKEN UP WITH ME. Keep in mind that this shit is all happening CURRENTLY. Not after the fact or... -sigh- Nevermind. Let's move on.
I guess the reason I'm posting this is.. for a little comfort. Just a call to people, for a little reassurance that I don't need the man I love more than anyone else (And that's a lotta love, I'm like a goddamn hippie) to be happy..
EDIT: Oh, lets not forget what he was to me. My best friend, my Master, my brother, and my god damn father. All gone, forever.
EDITEDIT: Heh... my world fell apart not with a bang, but a whimper. A little light snuffed out in the great wind of the world. And while this all happens, the world keeps spinning. People keep posting art, time keeps ticking, and we take one more step into the future, all while I stay standing still... it's humbling, and a little funny.
The Poison and Her Cure
Posted 14 years ago"Toxic...," she began, her eyes staring at me, wider then usual. She was afraid, and you didn't have to have hyper senses to notice it either. "Please don't go... after all this, can you really just walk away?"
I turned away, unable to look at those scared, sad eyes of her for even a second longer. Damn it, I swore I'd never make her look at me like that again. If not because it hurt her, then only to keep it from hurting me. Not her fault thought; she didn't want to make me suffer. She's not like that. "I'm sorry Sin... but this is," I stopped, struggling to find the words.
"Heavy?"
"Yeah, heavy.. damn it Sin, even now?"
I didn't have to look at her to smell her blush, to practically hear the sound of blood moving and tinting her cheeks that wonderful shade of red. It was one of the dozens, no hundreds of things I'd come to expect from her, that'd I'd come to love about her. "S-sorry."
"It's... it's fine, Cynthia. Look, the point is that this isn't just a hassle for me, it's putting you in danger. Look at last night. You nearly died."
Of course, that wasn't entirely true, but I sure as hell wasn't going to tell her that. Better to leave explanations to my bitch sister or her bubbly Cure.
"You're lying."
Now that... that was one thing I still couldn't ever get used to. Her bluntness. "What's that supposed to mean? You passed out with a quarter of your blood sprayed on the ground. That's about as close to death as you can get."
"Yeah, I know that much. And it explains my inability to move for half the day today and the killer headache." She let out a sigh, the prelude to a deep shudder down my spine.
A sigh from Cynthia Marks was like the calm before a storm... actually, no. It's really more of the opposite. She never yells, never rages. Unlike me, she can keep her emotions in check. Somehow, that terrifies me more then any amount of screaming ever could.
"But... it doesn't explain why you were beat to near unconsciousness yourself. It doesn't explain why we're alive, or why Otanashi and Cyanide were long gone when you came too."
Yeah, another thing about my Cure, about the little brat who'd stolen my heart; she has the unnerving ability to make people hang off her every word. With her voice so quiet, barely above a whisper, I have to strain just to hear her. "Yeah, about that... see, those two owe me one and-"
"Toxic, quit lying to me. You're really bad at it."
Another shiver, and this time I had to turn around, had to face her. Another silent command woven into an otherwise ordinary sentence. She wasn't looking at me anymore, but instead she hung her head, her gaze cemented on her shoes. "And I'll tell you why you're lying, Tox. When I woke up, I had defensive wounds. That means, at some point, I fought back. And I won, or at least won enough to make them cut their losses and run for it."
God damn it. There you have it, ladies and gentlemen. Hurricane Cynthia - she starts off slow, then rips through even the strongest walls like tissue paper. All without a single roar. What's worse, is I couldn't even answer her, or try and argue what she said. How could I?
"That's why you're leaving, right? Because you're scared...?"
Ice forms in my veins, and any words I'd attempted to form froze in my throat.
"Because of what I did, of whatever I'm changing into... that's why you're scared. You're scared of me."
Everything screamed out for me to move closer to her, to not run. Her voice held so much pain, and her small, frail frame began to shake.
"Well... Toxic... don't you think I'm scared? I'm terrified... first I'm a Cure. I'm not supposed to be able to age, and it's so damn hard for me to die now. I haven't felt human in a long time, Tox. And now this? I... you're the only reason I don't just break down and give i-"
I moved forward faster then I thought I could, given the circumstances. With icy blood and a heart both frozen and melted, I grabbed her and held her tight. I squeezed her head to my chest and wanted nothing more then to keep her like this forever. "I'm sorry, Sin.... god, I'm so, so sorry.."
Grasped so close to me, her shaking only grew in intensity, sobs wracking her body. But I couldn't let the awful feeling in the pit of my stomach, that foreign feeling I still couldn't give a name for, stop me from saying what needed to be said.
"You hit the nail on the head, hon... I am scared. But... no, I am scared of you. Or, I guess I should say I was... now I'm scared for you. You're... powerful, Cynthia. More powerful then any cure I've ever met in all the time I've been alive."
The words stopped when I noticed her cries had stopped, but I didn't let it stop me for long. "I... I know what it means to have power, Sin. People will come for you, try to possess you, to take your power. So I wanted to run, to get away from all this heavy bullshit... but I can't. I just can't go Sin. Because...," I stopped again, pulling one balled up hand to my mouth to muffle a cough. "b-because it's my responsibility. It's 'cause of me that you have these powers, and if I just leave you high and dry, I'll never be able to forgive myself... so... how about instead of me running off and us being scared alone.... how about we be scared together?"
[The inspiration struck. Sorry it's crap, I'm still trying to find my writing style, one that works for me. Comment if you like, but I'm not really expecting any.]
I turned away, unable to look at those scared, sad eyes of her for even a second longer. Damn it, I swore I'd never make her look at me like that again. If not because it hurt her, then only to keep it from hurting me. Not her fault thought; she didn't want to make me suffer. She's not like that. "I'm sorry Sin... but this is," I stopped, struggling to find the words.
"Heavy?"
"Yeah, heavy.. damn it Sin, even now?"
I didn't have to look at her to smell her blush, to practically hear the sound of blood moving and tinting her cheeks that wonderful shade of red. It was one of the dozens, no hundreds of things I'd come to expect from her, that'd I'd come to love about her. "S-sorry."
"It's... it's fine, Cynthia. Look, the point is that this isn't just a hassle for me, it's putting you in danger. Look at last night. You nearly died."
Of course, that wasn't entirely true, but I sure as hell wasn't going to tell her that. Better to leave explanations to my bitch sister or her bubbly Cure.
"You're lying."
Now that... that was one thing I still couldn't ever get used to. Her bluntness. "What's that supposed to mean? You passed out with a quarter of your blood sprayed on the ground. That's about as close to death as you can get."
"Yeah, I know that much. And it explains my inability to move for half the day today and the killer headache." She let out a sigh, the prelude to a deep shudder down my spine.
A sigh from Cynthia Marks was like the calm before a storm... actually, no. It's really more of the opposite. She never yells, never rages. Unlike me, she can keep her emotions in check. Somehow, that terrifies me more then any amount of screaming ever could.
"But... it doesn't explain why you were beat to near unconsciousness yourself. It doesn't explain why we're alive, or why Otanashi and Cyanide were long gone when you came too."
Yeah, another thing about my Cure, about the little brat who'd stolen my heart; she has the unnerving ability to make people hang off her every word. With her voice so quiet, barely above a whisper, I have to strain just to hear her. "Yeah, about that... see, those two owe me one and-"
"Toxic, quit lying to me. You're really bad at it."
Another shiver, and this time I had to turn around, had to face her. Another silent command woven into an otherwise ordinary sentence. She wasn't looking at me anymore, but instead she hung her head, her gaze cemented on her shoes. "And I'll tell you why you're lying, Tox. When I woke up, I had defensive wounds. That means, at some point, I fought back. And I won, or at least won enough to make them cut their losses and run for it."
God damn it. There you have it, ladies and gentlemen. Hurricane Cynthia - she starts off slow, then rips through even the strongest walls like tissue paper. All without a single roar. What's worse, is I couldn't even answer her, or try and argue what she said. How could I?
"That's why you're leaving, right? Because you're scared...?"
Ice forms in my veins, and any words I'd attempted to form froze in my throat.
"Because of what I did, of whatever I'm changing into... that's why you're scared. You're scared of me."
Everything screamed out for me to move closer to her, to not run. Her voice held so much pain, and her small, frail frame began to shake.
"Well... Toxic... don't you think I'm scared? I'm terrified... first I'm a Cure. I'm not supposed to be able to age, and it's so damn hard for me to die now. I haven't felt human in a long time, Tox. And now this? I... you're the only reason I don't just break down and give i-"
I moved forward faster then I thought I could, given the circumstances. With icy blood and a heart both frozen and melted, I grabbed her and held her tight. I squeezed her head to my chest and wanted nothing more then to keep her like this forever. "I'm sorry, Sin.... god, I'm so, so sorry.."
Grasped so close to me, her shaking only grew in intensity, sobs wracking her body. But I couldn't let the awful feeling in the pit of my stomach, that foreign feeling I still couldn't give a name for, stop me from saying what needed to be said.
"You hit the nail on the head, hon... I am scared. But... no, I am scared of you. Or, I guess I should say I was... now I'm scared for you. You're... powerful, Cynthia. More powerful then any cure I've ever met in all the time I've been alive."
The words stopped when I noticed her cries had stopped, but I didn't let it stop me for long. "I... I know what it means to have power, Sin. People will come for you, try to possess you, to take your power. So I wanted to run, to get away from all this heavy bullshit... but I can't. I just can't go Sin. Because...," I stopped again, pulling one balled up hand to my mouth to muffle a cough. "b-because it's my responsibility. It's 'cause of me that you have these powers, and if I just leave you high and dry, I'll never be able to forgive myself... so... how about instead of me running off and us being scared alone.... how about we be scared together?"
[The inspiration struck. Sorry it's crap, I'm still trying to find my writing style, one that works for me. Comment if you like, but I'm not really expecting any.]
The Look-alike Meme
Posted 14 years agoStolen for Necrodragon13 (And if anyone could teach me how to make a link with the bolded name and icon trick, I'd appreciate it.)
1 – Do you and your "fursona" look alike?
Nooooot even at all. Kira's cute, short, and all kinds of thin. Me, I'm tall.... and neither of those other things.
2 – Do you and your "fursona" share attires?
Again, not really. Kira's more prone to lab coats, tight shirts, and swim trunk bottoms. I wear tees, hoodies, and cargo pants. Hope to change up my wardrobe a bit in the future.
3 – Do you share the same sexuality as your fursona?
Well, that's one we share. We're both bisexual with a female preference.
4 – If you hadn’t already made your fursona look like you, if you would to change how he/she looked like to make him/her look more like you, how would you think he/she would look like?
If I had to change one thing to make Kira look like me, then I'd probably make her taller. I like her short, but the other qualities that we'd have to share are kinda... ew.
5 – Did you work hard to develop your fursona? What is the (brief) history of your fursona?
Actually, yeah, I do. The full history of Kira is on her ref, but a quick run through is Kristen, a magical wolfess with a vague interest in technology, develops nanotechnology in her spare time. She tests it on herself, and, because the prototype was picky, she was changed into the more fitting form she has today. Blah blah blah, yada yada, her memories of her time as Kristen are nearly gone, and she proceeded to move to Phoenix.
6 – Do you and your fursona share relationship status?
Kira is the pet of two separate people, but not really, no. I'm alone, and she's not exactly mated either.
7 – Do you find yourself jealous or upset if you get paired with someone you don’t like or your partner does? Kind of a odd question for someone who doesn't have a partner.
8 – How would you like your character not to be used? Honestly, the only ways I don't Kira being used is as some kind of joke. I put a lot of thought into her character, and want anything she's part of to reflect that.
9 – What’s your fursona’s specialty?
Science, mostly. Which basically means experimentation. Lots of it.
10 – At a score of 1-10 how much are you and your fursona alike?
Probably a 4
1 – Do you and your "fursona" look alike?
Nooooot even at all. Kira's cute, short, and all kinds of thin. Me, I'm tall.... and neither of those other things.
2 – Do you and your "fursona" share attires?
Again, not really. Kira's more prone to lab coats, tight shirts, and swim trunk bottoms. I wear tees, hoodies, and cargo pants. Hope to change up my wardrobe a bit in the future.
3 – Do you share the same sexuality as your fursona?
Well, that's one we share. We're both bisexual with a female preference.
4 – If you hadn’t already made your fursona look like you, if you would to change how he/she looked like to make him/her look more like you, how would you think he/she would look like?
If I had to change one thing to make Kira look like me, then I'd probably make her taller. I like her short, but the other qualities that we'd have to share are kinda... ew.
5 – Did you work hard to develop your fursona? What is the (brief) history of your fursona?
Actually, yeah, I do. The full history of Kira is on her ref, but a quick run through is Kristen, a magical wolfess with a vague interest in technology, develops nanotechnology in her spare time. She tests it on herself, and, because the prototype was picky, she was changed into the more fitting form she has today. Blah blah blah, yada yada, her memories of her time as Kristen are nearly gone, and she proceeded to move to Phoenix.
6 – Do you and your fursona share relationship status?
Kira is the pet of two separate people, but not really, no. I'm alone, and she's not exactly mated either.
7 – Do you find yourself jealous or upset if you get paired with someone you don’t like or your partner does? Kind of a odd question for someone who doesn't have a partner.
8 – How would you like your character not to be used? Honestly, the only ways I don't Kira being used is as some kind of joke. I put a lot of thought into her character, and want anything she's part of to reflect that.
9 – What’s your fursona’s specialty?
Science, mostly. Which basically means experimentation. Lots of it.
10 – At a score of 1-10 how much are you and your fursona alike?
Probably a 4
Oh wow!
Posted 14 years agoI'm going to have 1000 page views soon! I can't wait!
Well, I'm officially pissed off.
Posted 14 years agoTurns out the new laptop I blew WAY too much money on awhile back, the one I'm currently using, was falsely advertised... I was promised 2GB of dedicated video memory. What I got was 64MB. Meaning this thing is utter crap for gaming. *sigh* So, I'm going to try and get this rectified.
And here's another thing...
Posted 14 years agoSome of my favorite artists, the ones who rock, all are mated. Hell, even the ones who I don't like, but watch because they're nice or some other reason are. It... ugh. Makes me jealous and sad. *sigh* Oh well. Fuck.
So...
Posted 14 years agoI started out really liking someone. Then I got to know them a little. Then I realized... I really don't understand how I ever liked them in the first place. Oh, and to any blue kitty's that might read this, it's not about you. Trust me. It really isn't.
No, seriously, it bugs me. A lot.
No, seriously, it bugs me. A lot.
Gah... I hate my damn shyness...
Posted 14 years agoRecently... I've had this real problem with talking to people. In general, but especially on here...
I mean, it wouldn't be so bad if it was just here, but it's been something I've dealt with my whole life. Like, not being able to look people right in the eye when I talk to them, or even at their face. Mostly, it only really gets hard around people I don't know, like clerks at stores or new people.
But lately... it's kept me from talking to this one person, someone I've kinda wanted to talk to for years. Literally, years. *sigh* Well... honestly, I guess I'm just venting a bit... hey, maybe I'll get lucky one day and that person will decide to randomly talk to me..
I mean, it wouldn't be so bad if it was just here, but it's been something I've dealt with my whole life. Like, not being able to look people right in the eye when I talk to them, or even at their face. Mostly, it only really gets hard around people I don't know, like clerks at stores or new people.
But lately... it's kept me from talking to this one person, someone I've kinda wanted to talk to for years. Literally, years. *sigh* Well... honestly, I guess I'm just venting a bit... hey, maybe I'll get lucky one day and that person will decide to randomly talk to me..
Well, I'm back.
Posted 14 years agoAnd aside from nearly 100 submissions and 40 journals, there wasn't much to come back too... starting to think I'm not getting a whole lotta love around here. But hey, why should that affect me?
Just the internet, right?
Wrong.
What can I say, maybe I'm just one of those people that takes the crap people say to me on here personally, maybe it's because I know and care that the people behind the screen is a real person, and not just someone I can abuse or hurt without fault or consequence, but... I dunno...
*sigh* I don't even know where I was going with this. All I know is that... I need a little love here, guys... I've had a bad week (Though, not as bad as some people, which I'm starting to come to understand a bit, and... I guess forgiving them for something they never even had to apologize for) and it's just getting to me...
What really sucks is, however, I was making a new friend in one of the people on here, and a major fuck up ruined it with him as well. *shrugs* Again, not much I can do about it, but... eh.
Oh, in other news, TF2 went free recently. Kinda bummed because I payed for it twice ages ago (Orange box and the game itself) and now all I have to show for it is a hat and getting stuck on teams full of sniper newbies. Wondering what all your opinions are on the matter.
Just the internet, right?
Wrong.
What can I say, maybe I'm just one of those people that takes the crap people say to me on here personally, maybe it's because I know and care that the people behind the screen is a real person, and not just someone I can abuse or hurt without fault or consequence, but... I dunno...
*sigh* I don't even know where I was going with this. All I know is that... I need a little love here, guys... I've had a bad week (Though, not as bad as some people, which I'm starting to come to understand a bit, and... I guess forgiving them for something they never even had to apologize for) and it's just getting to me...
What really sucks is, however, I was making a new friend in one of the people on here, and a major fuck up ruined it with him as well. *shrugs* Again, not much I can do about it, but... eh.
Oh, in other news, TF2 went free recently. Kinda bummed because I payed for it twice ages ago (Orange box and the game itself) and now all I have to show for it is a hat and getting stuck on teams full of sniper newbies. Wondering what all your opinions are on the matter.
Heya everyone...
Posted 14 years agoI've been kind of stressed out lately...
Not gonna talk about it, even if you ask, because it's not my place to talk about.
Just know, it's been getting to the point where I can't even eat... so, as of today and tomorrow, I will not be online. I'm gonna avoid FA like the plague, and just try to relax a little. Y'know, watch some anime, listen to music, try and write a little bit. Either way, if you have anything to say to me, or any shit going on in your life in the next 2 days.... I'm really sorry I won't be here to help out.
Love you all, have a great weekend.
Not gonna talk about it, even if you ask, because it's not my place to talk about.
Just know, it's been getting to the point where I can't even eat... so, as of today and tomorrow, I will not be online. I'm gonna avoid FA like the plague, and just try to relax a little. Y'know, watch some anime, listen to music, try and write a little bit. Either way, if you have anything to say to me, or any shit going on in your life in the next 2 days.... I'm really sorry I won't be here to help out.
Love you all, have a great weekend.
An interview with the various people in my mind
Posted 14 years agoHello, and welcome to the first addition of many interviews with the many residents of my psyche. Whether these people are simply characters that took a life of their own, or actual personalities is for you to determine. Be aware though; every one of these people are a different side of me. They are just as much me as I am. Yep, I'm that sort of insane.
Okay, today we have Toxic, Cynthia Marks, and Elizabeth Klien, or as she prefers to be called, Liz Cross.
The first question, for all of you, is going to be simple. How old are you?
Liz: Physically, 19, but chronologically, I'm 25. Traveler math is annoying, by the way.
Cynthia: 20, as of next week.
Toxic: -counting on her fingers- Hm... you got a couple of hours? I'm trying to figure this out...
Cynthia: Tox, you're 1,689 years old. Remember? You told me that story about your childhood in Italy.
Tox: Oh right! Heh, my little Sin has such a good memory.
Liz: Both of you, save the making out for the next question.
Erm, yeah... what Liz said. A-anyway, next question! What is your favorite food?
Cynthia: Seriously...? I thought you were going to ask really perverted questions.
Tox: You really wanna skip to those questions, Sin? -smirks at her-
Cynthia: -blushes and hangs her head down, hiding behind her bangs- U-um... my favorite food is Skinless Chicken with mashed potatoes and carrots.
Tox: There yah go. My favorite food is Sin -grins and licks her lips-
Cynthia: T-tox!!! -blushes brighter and pushes her out of her chair-
Liz: You guys need your own sitcom. My favorite foods are fruit. All of them. Seriously, if I can blend it up into a smoothie, I'll eat it.
Hehe, alright, what would your dream job be?
Tox: -getting back onto her stool- What, really? I own at least a doze-
Cynthia: 26
Tox: Right, 26 different businesses across 3 continents. Not to mention, I get to break faces. I HAVE my dream job.
Cynthia: -giggles- Um, let's see... I guess I'd like to draw professionally. Not really sure what or where I'd draw though.
Liz: I didn't know you drew. When did that happen?
Cynthia: Oh, I've been drawing since I was little! I just... don't like doing it much anymore.
Liz: Hm... more on that later, I suppose. My dream career would easily be to play my music on a big stage. Spread my sound to as many people as possible.
Tox: You rock? Seriously?
Liz: That so surprising?
Tox: Kinda, yeah. -is shot in the stomach by a rubber bullet, falling off the stool again- GAH!
Liz: -blows smoke off the end of her custom Ruger LC9- Don't push me, Poison.
... Could you please refrain from shooting people Liz?
Liz: Hm... let me think about th- no. No, I think I'll shoot whoever I want, thanks.
.... fair enough. Next question, what would you classify yourself as. And you know what I mean...
Liz: I'm a Traveler, and a practicing Gun Mage. If you want to get technical, I'm a Gunstress, a master of the art.
Tox: -pulling herself onto the stool, groaning loudly- Bitch with a capital B.... I'm a Poison.
Cynthia: -watches Tox with a concerned expression- Um... well, I was a human, then Tox made me her Cure. Then we discovered I was born a Cure, and that I'm actually a Vaccine... I think.
Tox: Um... yeah... discovered.
Liz: This is going to get really bad, really fast. Just get onto the next question.
Good catch Liz... anyway, this will be the last question! What part of my mind do you think you represent.
Liz: Easy, your wish to be able to take adversity and turn it on it's ass. Your wish to be able to play music, and your need to escape reality and society and go to any world you choose. Also, come on. I'm obviously one of your ideal selves.
Tox: Don't forget your incredible modesty. -is shot in the forehead- FUCK!
Cynthia: Liz, could you please stop doing that...?
Liz: Only because you asked nicely. -makes the gun vanish into the air-
Cynthia: Thank you... Oh, and... I think I'm your goodness, your purity... I just want to live my life with the person I love, no matter how hard it is. Also... I think you really just wanted a character with hair like mine.
Liz: Her hair is pretty awesome, in my opinion. Then again, I have a thing for damaged chicks.
Tox: -groans and gets up a third time, rubbing the bloody wound on her forehead- She's mine, bitch.
Liz: And you can have her -shrugs, grinning a little- I was just stating a fact.
Cynthia: -blushes bright red, crossing her legs and squirming- T-Tox, it's your turn...
Tox: -stops growling at Liz long enough to nod- Right... I think I'm your darkness, the violent and impulsive side of it. I'm also way more objective and sadistic than your other characters. Not to mention, you do have that obsession with poisons.
Liz: She is rather... volatile.
Tox: -hops off the stool, eye twitching as her hands igniting with green flames- Okay, that does it! I'm cooking you, Gun bitch!
Liz: -stands up herself, smirking as a Heckler & Koch MG4 forms in her hands- I was hoping you'd say that.
Cynthia: -gets between them, panicking- P-please, will you two calm down?!
That's the end of th-this portion the interview! I'm going to run before things start exploding. Talk to you all later, in the next Interview of the Mind! Yeah, I just came up with that. Good, right? -bullets start spraying from Liz's machine gun, followed by Tox's poison fire flying- AH! Later!
Okay, today we have Toxic, Cynthia Marks, and Elizabeth Klien, or as she prefers to be called, Liz Cross.
The first question, for all of you, is going to be simple. How old are you?
Liz: Physically, 19, but chronologically, I'm 25. Traveler math is annoying, by the way.
Cynthia: 20, as of next week.
Toxic: -counting on her fingers- Hm... you got a couple of hours? I'm trying to figure this out...
Cynthia: Tox, you're 1,689 years old. Remember? You told me that story about your childhood in Italy.
Tox: Oh right! Heh, my little Sin has such a good memory.
Liz: Both of you, save the making out for the next question.
Erm, yeah... what Liz said. A-anyway, next question! What is your favorite food?
Cynthia: Seriously...? I thought you were going to ask really perverted questions.
Tox: You really wanna skip to those questions, Sin? -smirks at her-
Cynthia: -blushes and hangs her head down, hiding behind her bangs- U-um... my favorite food is Skinless Chicken with mashed potatoes and carrots.
Tox: There yah go. My favorite food is Sin -grins and licks her lips-
Cynthia: T-tox!!! -blushes brighter and pushes her out of her chair-
Liz: You guys need your own sitcom. My favorite foods are fruit. All of them. Seriously, if I can blend it up into a smoothie, I'll eat it.
Hehe, alright, what would your dream job be?
Tox: -getting back onto her stool- What, really? I own at least a doze-
Cynthia: 26
Tox: Right, 26 different businesses across 3 continents. Not to mention, I get to break faces. I HAVE my dream job.
Cynthia: -giggles- Um, let's see... I guess I'd like to draw professionally. Not really sure what or where I'd draw though.
Liz: I didn't know you drew. When did that happen?
Cynthia: Oh, I've been drawing since I was little! I just... don't like doing it much anymore.
Liz: Hm... more on that later, I suppose. My dream career would easily be to play my music on a big stage. Spread my sound to as many people as possible.
Tox: You rock? Seriously?
Liz: That so surprising?
Tox: Kinda, yeah. -is shot in the stomach by a rubber bullet, falling off the stool again- GAH!
Liz: -blows smoke off the end of her custom Ruger LC9- Don't push me, Poison.
... Could you please refrain from shooting people Liz?
Liz: Hm... let me think about th- no. No, I think I'll shoot whoever I want, thanks.
.... fair enough. Next question, what would you classify yourself as. And you know what I mean...
Liz: I'm a Traveler, and a practicing Gun Mage. If you want to get technical, I'm a Gunstress, a master of the art.
Tox: -pulling herself onto the stool, groaning loudly- Bitch with a capital B.... I'm a Poison.
Cynthia: -watches Tox with a concerned expression- Um... well, I was a human, then Tox made me her Cure. Then we discovered I was born a Cure, and that I'm actually a Vaccine... I think.
Tox: Um... yeah... discovered.
Liz: This is going to get really bad, really fast. Just get onto the next question.
Good catch Liz... anyway, this will be the last question! What part of my mind do you think you represent.
Liz: Easy, your wish to be able to take adversity and turn it on it's ass. Your wish to be able to play music, and your need to escape reality and society and go to any world you choose. Also, come on. I'm obviously one of your ideal selves.
Tox: Don't forget your incredible modesty. -is shot in the forehead- FUCK!
Cynthia: Liz, could you please stop doing that...?
Liz: Only because you asked nicely. -makes the gun vanish into the air-
Cynthia: Thank you... Oh, and... I think I'm your goodness, your purity... I just want to live my life with the person I love, no matter how hard it is. Also... I think you really just wanted a character with hair like mine.
Liz: Her hair is pretty awesome, in my opinion. Then again, I have a thing for damaged chicks.
Tox: -groans and gets up a third time, rubbing the bloody wound on her forehead- She's mine, bitch.
Liz: And you can have her -shrugs, grinning a little- I was just stating a fact.
Cynthia: -blushes bright red, crossing her legs and squirming- T-Tox, it's your turn...
Tox: -stops growling at Liz long enough to nod- Right... I think I'm your darkness, the violent and impulsive side of it. I'm also way more objective and sadistic than your other characters. Not to mention, you do have that obsession with poisons.
Liz: She is rather... volatile.
Tox: -hops off the stool, eye twitching as her hands igniting with green flames- Okay, that does it! I'm cooking you, Gun bitch!
Liz: -stands up herself, smirking as a Heckler & Koch MG4 forms in her hands- I was hoping you'd say that.
Cynthia: -gets between them, panicking- P-please, will you two calm down?!
That's the end of th-this portion the interview! I'm going to run before things start exploding. Talk to you all later, in the next Interview of the Mind! Yeah, I just came up with that. Good, right? -bullets start spraying from Liz's machine gun, followed by Tox's poison fire flying- AH! Later!
Yeeeeeah... few things. (Please read.)
Posted 14 years agoI'd like a little feed back here, people!
First off, I have two questions, that I'd like for people to answer, just for the sake of my sanity, and maybe to get my ass in gear.
The first one is, have you ever had a person on here, or anywhere, that you really wanted to talk to, but they were either really slow at replying, or just plain not replying at all, and it drove you nuts? If so, how'd you deal with it, because I'm having a bloody hard time coping... huh. Guess I'm needy.
Anyway, the second one requires a bit of explanation. Y'see, I have this story I want to continue. It's called Poison, and I can't explain much without ruining the plot. The main characters are Cynthia Graves, and Tox. Now, when I wrote it, the main characters were human. But I want to post it here as well, so I figure I could rewrite it, with the main characters as furs. That said, I need help picking species for most of the characters. That's where you all come in.
First off, I have two questions, that I'd like for people to answer, just for the sake of my sanity, and maybe to get my ass in gear.
The first one is, have you ever had a person on here, or anywhere, that you really wanted to talk to, but they were either really slow at replying, or just plain not replying at all, and it drove you nuts? If so, how'd you deal with it, because I'm having a bloody hard time coping... huh. Guess I'm needy.
Anyway, the second one requires a bit of explanation. Y'see, I have this story I want to continue. It's called Poison, and I can't explain much without ruining the plot. The main characters are Cynthia Graves, and Tox. Now, when I wrote it, the main characters were human. But I want to post it here as well, so I figure I could rewrite it, with the main characters as furs. That said, I need help picking species for most of the characters. That's where you all come in.
... for the price of one
Posted 14 years agoA-again, thank http://www.furaffinity.net/user/necrodrone13 for this one. I had a bit of fun, regardless.
Sex in the Morning or Sex at Night?
I wouldn't know, but I think morning?
Naughty Pics or Naughty Home Video?
U-um... I have appeared on cam.
Vibrator or Dildo?
B-both...
Bedroom Sex: Lights Off or Lights On?
Depends if I wanna s-see them... o-or if I want them to see me.
Word preference: Pussy or Cunt?
Pussy, but I prefer cunny.
Spanking Over the Knee or Spanking Only During Sex?
Spanking over the Knee, but I'd adore it during sex.
More Exciting: Sex in an Elevator or Sex in an Airplane?
Elevator, because there's room
Word preference: Cock or Dick?
Cock - there's a reason I don't call Dicks Cock.
Rope Bondage or Bondage Tape?
L-leather! Or rubber... T-tape.
Which threesome: Boy/Girl/Girl or Boy/Boy/Girl?
B/B/G, G/G/B, G/G/G, B/B/B
Sex While Strangers Watch or Sex with a Stranger?
S-sex while they watch...
Newly Discovered fetish?
Being enveloped by goo, or being trained and treated like an object.
Master or slave?
I'm the slave, but I adore the Mistresses/Masters.
Slut or whore?
S-slut... but treat me like a whore. (I'm broke, what do you expect.)
Light Bondage or heavy?
*shudders at the last answer* In the words of someone amazing... Heavy... D-deep... Intense.
Whispering or screaming?
If it's too me, whispering... but please, let me scream into a gag.
Ever lost your sanity?
Can't lose what you don't have..
Most coveted perversion?
BDSM
Under the boot or wearing the boot?
Under the boot..
Hot Candle wax or warm?
Hot candle wax
Relationship Status:
In a few, but some I cherish more then others.
Orientation:
Pansexual
Body type:
Chunky, but improving.
Religion:
Spiritualist, in that I believe something that, until I find out others believe it, is unique to me.
Zodiac Sign?
Leo
Smoke / Drink:
Drink: I hate alcohol. Smoke: Maybe one day, but not now.
Current Location:
Kansas City, MO
Your Weakness:
Corsets, Leather, Rubber, Women with a "Bow down" stare, Men with a sharp grin, and a thousand other things.
Your Best Physical Feature:
Eyes, probably. They show a lot of things, and hide the best stuff.
Your Bedtime:
Eh... when I pass out?
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:
Nope.
In the past week have you masturbated:
... *last answer made her squirm* Gah... Yes. I've lost count.
Number of Piercings:
..... *again, last answer* Meh... I w-want some, desperately
Number of Tattoos:
Again, none. Want some, bad.
Do you consider yourself perverted?
Hehe... yep. I even help people find their inner perversion..
At what age did you lose your virginity?
. . . *Deep blush from last answer* Um.... let's see... I'm still a virgin, I guess.
Have you ever deflowered a virgin?
... no. Nope.
If you give head, do you swallow?
*blushes brightly* I had to use one some else used f-for this... God, I would love to, since the taste is pretty good. But, I have a big thing about having it on me.
Do you like oral stimulation of the anus?
*BLUSH* F-fuck... getting a c-clean one next time... I haven't tried it, but I want it..
Do you like penetration of the anus?
G-gah... again with this... I wanna, badly... but I don't know yet.
Have you ever tried fisting?
N-nope...
How would you rate the intensity of your sexual desires? On a scale of 1-10?
. . . *just read something awesome* H-huh? Oh, 9. It dominates every other thought I have, but I don't need it... all the time.
Nymphomaniacal?
. . . *blush* Last answer again.... um, maybe a little bit?
Do sexual preoccupations interfere with other activities?
Oh yeah, big time.
Are you promiscuous?
For now, nope. I'm really shy... once I'm away from my parents, and with the people that I'm moving in with, probably.
Do you ever regret sleeping with someone?
Can't regret what you haven't done.
Do you ever have phone sex?
Mhm, a few times.
Do you ever call a 900 number (or similar commercial service) for phone sex?
... *Last answer again* G-gah... I don't have any money for that stuff.
Do you ever make obscene phone calls?
. . . *BLUSH* Fucking drag-... gah. No, not really.
Have you ever had a sexual experience that defies your "normal" orientation?
*curious about the last answer* Mew? Eh... Yeah, once. It was pretty fun.
Have you ever made yourself up to resemble the opposite gender?
M-mew... something we share in common... I want to, badly.
Have you ever had an erotic experience with a transvestite or transsexual?
Not yet, though my last girlfriend found out she was about the same time I did.
Do you find feet, toes, or shoes erotic?
Mhm, b-both touching, feeling... shoes just rock, and feet are fun.
Do you find underwear, lingerie, or hosiery erotic?
*Blush* She just has to... gah... I adore them... I'd prefer them on me, b-but...
Do you find long hair, cut hair, or shaved hair erotic?
Some cuts I adore... but not so much erotic.
Have you ever peeped on someone?
A couple of times.
Have you ever used a recording device such as a video camera to peep on someone?
Nope.
Have you ever been caught peeping on someone?
Nope...!
Have you ever "flashed" someone?
... *blushes brightly* N-nope.
Are you a sadist or masochist
Gah... NEXT TIME! CLEAN TEMPLATE! *blushing* I'm a masochist...
Have you ever slapped, spanked, or whipped someone during a sexual act?
H-haven't done the deed, but I've done all of the above and they liked it... *blushing*
Have you ever been slapped, spanked, or whipped during a sexual act?
Same as above.... but I was the one who liked it.
Have you ever cut, scratched, pierced, or stabbed someone during a sexual act?
GAHHHHH!! *blush* N-no! Haven't done it, which makes doing this almost humiliating.
Have you ever been cut, scratched, pierced, or stabbed during a sexual act?
N-no...
Do you like bondage?
More then anything...
Like to be tied up?
G-god yes...
Like to tie up partner?
*blushes at last answer* I do, just for the sheer creativity.
Have you ever participated in a threesome?
Once, but it went nowhere, sadly....
If so, what gender were your partners?
Male and Female...
What is the maximum number of partners you've had during a sex act?
*holds up a big Virgin card*
What is the most people you have slept with in a single day?
ZERO.
Does the idea of sharing a partner (such as inviting a neighbor to have sex with your spouse) excite you?
I'd get a little jealous if I didn't get to have a little fun too.
Have you ever had sex with a relative?
*giggles at the last answer* No, but I find the idea hot as hell.
As a minor, did you ever have sex with an adult?
Nope.
As an adult, have you ever had sex with a minor?
I wish I could, but no.
Have you ever had sex with a person of retirement age?
. . . *shudders* No...
Have you ever had sex with an animal?
*blushes darkly at the last answer* Um... I want to?
Sex in the Morning or Sex at Night?
I wouldn't know, but I think morning?
Naughty Pics or Naughty Home Video?
U-um... I have appeared on cam.
Vibrator or Dildo?
B-both...
Bedroom Sex: Lights Off or Lights On?
Depends if I wanna s-see them... o-or if I want them to see me.
Word preference: Pussy or Cunt?
Pussy, but I prefer cunny.
Spanking Over the Knee or Spanking Only During Sex?
Spanking over the Knee, but I'd adore it during sex.
More Exciting: Sex in an Elevator or Sex in an Airplane?
Elevator, because there's room
Word preference: Cock or Dick?
Cock - there's a reason I don't call Dicks Cock.
Rope Bondage or Bondage Tape?
L-leather! Or rubber... T-tape.
Which threesome: Boy/Girl/Girl or Boy/Boy/Girl?
B/B/G, G/G/B, G/G/G, B/B/B
Sex While Strangers Watch or Sex with a Stranger?
S-sex while they watch...
Newly Discovered fetish?
Being enveloped by goo, or being trained and treated like an object.
Master or slave?
I'm the slave, but I adore the Mistresses/Masters.
Slut or whore?
S-slut... but treat me like a whore. (I'm broke, what do you expect.)
Light Bondage or heavy?
*shudders at the last answer* In the words of someone amazing... Heavy... D-deep... Intense.
Whispering or screaming?
If it's too me, whispering... but please, let me scream into a gag.
Ever lost your sanity?
Can't lose what you don't have..
Most coveted perversion?
BDSM
Under the boot or wearing the boot?
Under the boot..
Hot Candle wax or warm?
Hot candle wax
Relationship Status:
In a few, but some I cherish more then others.
Orientation:
Pansexual
Body type:
Chunky, but improving.
Religion:
Spiritualist, in that I believe something that, until I find out others believe it, is unique to me.
Zodiac Sign?
Leo
Smoke / Drink:
Drink: I hate alcohol. Smoke: Maybe one day, but not now.
Current Location:
Kansas City, MO
Your Weakness:
Corsets, Leather, Rubber, Women with a "Bow down" stare, Men with a sharp grin, and a thousand other things.
Your Best Physical Feature:
Eyes, probably. They show a lot of things, and hide the best stuff.
Your Bedtime:
Eh... when I pass out?
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:
Nope.
In the past week have you masturbated:
... *last answer made her squirm* Gah... Yes. I've lost count.
Number of Piercings:
..... *again, last answer* Meh... I w-want some, desperately
Number of Tattoos:
Again, none. Want some, bad.
Do you consider yourself perverted?
Hehe... yep. I even help people find their inner perversion..
At what age did you lose your virginity?
. . . *Deep blush from last answer* Um.... let's see... I'm still a virgin, I guess.
Have you ever deflowered a virgin?
... no. Nope.
If you give head, do you swallow?
*blushes brightly* I had to use one some else used f-for this... God, I would love to, since the taste is pretty good. But, I have a big thing about having it on me.
Do you like oral stimulation of the anus?
*BLUSH* F-fuck... getting a c-clean one next time... I haven't tried it, but I want it..
Do you like penetration of the anus?
G-gah... again with this... I wanna, badly... but I don't know yet.
Have you ever tried fisting?
N-nope...
How would you rate the intensity of your sexual desires? On a scale of 1-10?
. . . *just read something awesome* H-huh? Oh, 9. It dominates every other thought I have, but I don't need it... all the time.
Nymphomaniacal?
. . . *blush* Last answer again.... um, maybe a little bit?
Do sexual preoccupations interfere with other activities?
Oh yeah, big time.
Are you promiscuous?
For now, nope. I'm really shy... once I'm away from my parents, and with the people that I'm moving in with, probably.
Do you ever regret sleeping with someone?
Can't regret what you haven't done.
Do you ever have phone sex?
Mhm, a few times.
Do you ever call a 900 number (or similar commercial service) for phone sex?
... *Last answer again* G-gah... I don't have any money for that stuff.
Do you ever make obscene phone calls?
. . . *BLUSH* Fucking drag-... gah. No, not really.
Have you ever had a sexual experience that defies your "normal" orientation?
*curious about the last answer* Mew? Eh... Yeah, once. It was pretty fun.
Have you ever made yourself up to resemble the opposite gender?
M-mew... something we share in common... I want to, badly.
Have you ever had an erotic experience with a transvestite or transsexual?
Not yet, though my last girlfriend found out she was about the same time I did.
Do you find feet, toes, or shoes erotic?
Mhm, b-both touching, feeling... shoes just rock, and feet are fun.
Do you find underwear, lingerie, or hosiery erotic?
*Blush* She just has to... gah... I adore them... I'd prefer them on me, b-but...
Do you find long hair, cut hair, or shaved hair erotic?
Some cuts I adore... but not so much erotic.
Have you ever peeped on someone?
A couple of times.
Have you ever used a recording device such as a video camera to peep on someone?
Nope.
Have you ever been caught peeping on someone?
Nope...!
Have you ever "flashed" someone?
... *blushes brightly* N-nope.
Are you a sadist or masochist
Gah... NEXT TIME! CLEAN TEMPLATE! *blushing* I'm a masochist...
Have you ever slapped, spanked, or whipped someone during a sexual act?
H-haven't done the deed, but I've done all of the above and they liked it... *blushing*
Have you ever been slapped, spanked, or whipped during a sexual act?
Same as above.... but I was the one who liked it.
Have you ever cut, scratched, pierced, or stabbed someone during a sexual act?
GAHHHHH!! *blush* N-no! Haven't done it, which makes doing this almost humiliating.
Have you ever been cut, scratched, pierced, or stabbed during a sexual act?
N-no...
Do you like bondage?
More then anything...
Like to be tied up?
G-god yes...
Like to tie up partner?
*blushes at last answer* I do, just for the sheer creativity.
Have you ever participated in a threesome?
Once, but it went nowhere, sadly....
If so, what gender were your partners?
Male and Female...
What is the maximum number of partners you've had during a sex act?
*holds up a big Virgin card*
What is the most people you have slept with in a single day?
ZERO.
Does the idea of sharing a partner (such as inviting a neighbor to have sex with your spouse) excite you?
I'd get a little jealous if I didn't get to have a little fun too.
Have you ever had sex with a relative?
*giggles at the last answer* No, but I find the idea hot as hell.
As a minor, did you ever have sex with an adult?
Nope.
As an adult, have you ever had sex with a minor?
I wish I could, but no.
Have you ever had sex with a person of retirement age?
. . . *shudders* No...
Have you ever had sex with an animal?
*blushes darkly at the last answer* Um... I want to?
Two Memes...
Posted 14 years agoHave to thank http://www.furaffinity.net/user/necrodrone13 for this... and a few other things she doesn't even realize she did.
LAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE
- Name: Kristen, Kira, or Kris.
- Eye Color: Dark Brown, some would say Chocolate
- Hair Style/Color: Brown, and it's thick, long, and tends to go just about everywhere, or hang... can't wait to change it.
- Height: 6'0" (I really, really hate it...)
- Clothing style: Not what I'd like to wear, but Cargo shorts, t-shirts, flip flops, and Hoodies, jackets and more cargo
- Best physical feature: My eyes are okay, but I guess I have a pretty good face.
LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
- Your fears: Being hated, failure, and being left without anything to do.
- Your guilty pleasure: ... er, I'll stick to the clean ones. Fanfiction and Roleplay.
- Your biggest pet peeve: People that, for no other reason then it's what they've been told to do it, hurt others or hate... oh, and I hate having to repeat myself.
- Your ambitions for the future: Move out of my state and be surrounded by people who care for me, and don't mind that I care for them. A place where I can snuggle and laugh and create as much or as little as I want...
LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
- Your first thoughts waking up: What did I forget this time...?
- What you think about most: Things I shouldn't think about. AKA, a deep longing for people, stories, and things that can never be.
- What you think about before bed: How the hell will I sleep tonight?
- You think your best quality is: I'm empathetic to a fault, where I will adapt to a person's emotion nine times out of ten, and if it's bad, will do just about anything to make sure it's a little better, if not more. If it isn't that, then it's probably that I get my jollies off making connections, opening minds and helping people accept themselves where I can't.
LAYER FOUR: WHAT'S BETTER?
- Single or group dates: Well, single is fun if you plan on getting randy, but more friends means I can be just a little less shy.
- To be loved or respected: I've been respected... I'd prefer to be loved.
- Beauty or brains: Both are great, but I can't stand idiots. Brains.
- Dogs or cats: Hm... Kitty! *hugs a cat plushy*
LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
- Lie: Lies make the world go 'round... because we let them. I do on habit, but I've been trying to stop lately.
- Believe in yourself: I... I believe I can certain do certain things... but it's hard to believe in something that's never all there.
- Believe in love: Love is one thing I'll never stop believing in.
- Want someone: *blush* I want a lot of people, some I can't have, some can't get enough of me, and some... some don't even know it. God, I am one sad child of Gaia.
LAYER SIX: EVER?
- Been on stage: Not of own choice, no.
- Done drugs: Not yet. But everyone needs to try the weak stuff, like marijuana, at least once.
- Changed who you were to fit in: I can't change, but I want to. I want to change for the better, not for others.
LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
- Favorite color: Cobalt Blue, Toxic Green, White, Black, or a light Yellow.
- Favorite animal: U-um... Wolf. Or Dragon.
- Favorite movie: Gah... Gran Torino, 16 Blocks, and a lot of oters.
- Favorite game: Er... hm... Fallouts, Halo Reach, Left 4 Deads
LAYER EIGHT: AGE
- Day your next birthday you will be: Friday
- How old will you be: 19
- Age you lost your virginity: ... *pout*
- Does age matter: G-gah... no, I guess not... I would prefer it I could be physically attracted to them, though.
LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
- Best personality: Kind, loving, likes to laugh, patient.... open to a lot of things.
- Best eye color: The odd ones. Blue, Green, Gray.
- Best hair color: Anything dyed and I'll be hugging you in an instance.
- Best thing to do with a partner: Cuddle, hang out, play video games, eat out... sex.
LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
- I love: Lots, and lots of things. Mostly my various loves, and my addictions.
- I feel: Constantly stressed, and depressed over my body image and possible depression. Oh, lonely.
- I hide: How sick in the head I really am.
- I miss: Having interest in writing, in normal things... and I miss people.
- I wish: I could've been born a girl, I wish I could have powers beyond that of human beings, and I desperately wish I could grant the wishes of others.
LAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE
- Name: Kristen, Kira, or Kris.
- Eye Color: Dark Brown, some would say Chocolate
- Hair Style/Color: Brown, and it's thick, long, and tends to go just about everywhere, or hang... can't wait to change it.
- Height: 6'0" (I really, really hate it...)
- Clothing style: Not what I'd like to wear, but Cargo shorts, t-shirts, flip flops, and Hoodies, jackets and more cargo
- Best physical feature: My eyes are okay, but I guess I have a pretty good face.
LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
- Your fears: Being hated, failure, and being left without anything to do.
- Your guilty pleasure: ... er, I'll stick to the clean ones. Fanfiction and Roleplay.
- Your biggest pet peeve: People that, for no other reason then it's what they've been told to do it, hurt others or hate... oh, and I hate having to repeat myself.
- Your ambitions for the future: Move out of my state and be surrounded by people who care for me, and don't mind that I care for them. A place where I can snuggle and laugh and create as much or as little as I want...
LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
- Your first thoughts waking up: What did I forget this time...?
- What you think about most: Things I shouldn't think about. AKA, a deep longing for people, stories, and things that can never be.
- What you think about before bed: How the hell will I sleep tonight?
- You think your best quality is: I'm empathetic to a fault, where I will adapt to a person's emotion nine times out of ten, and if it's bad, will do just about anything to make sure it's a little better, if not more. If it isn't that, then it's probably that I get my jollies off making connections, opening minds and helping people accept themselves where I can't.
LAYER FOUR: WHAT'S BETTER?
- Single or group dates: Well, single is fun if you plan on getting randy, but more friends means I can be just a little less shy.
- To be loved or respected: I've been respected... I'd prefer to be loved.
- Beauty or brains: Both are great, but I can't stand idiots. Brains.
- Dogs or cats: Hm... Kitty! *hugs a cat plushy*
LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
- Lie: Lies make the world go 'round... because we let them. I do on habit, but I've been trying to stop lately.
- Believe in yourself: I... I believe I can certain do certain things... but it's hard to believe in something that's never all there.
- Believe in love: Love is one thing I'll never stop believing in.
- Want someone: *blush* I want a lot of people, some I can't have, some can't get enough of me, and some... some don't even know it. God, I am one sad child of Gaia.
LAYER SIX: EVER?
- Been on stage: Not of own choice, no.
- Done drugs: Not yet. But everyone needs to try the weak stuff, like marijuana, at least once.
- Changed who you were to fit in: I can't change, but I want to. I want to change for the better, not for others.
LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
- Favorite color: Cobalt Blue, Toxic Green, White, Black, or a light Yellow.
- Favorite animal: U-um... Wolf. Or Dragon.
- Favorite movie: Gah... Gran Torino, 16 Blocks, and a lot of oters.
- Favorite game: Er... hm... Fallouts, Halo Reach, Left 4 Deads
LAYER EIGHT: AGE
- Day your next birthday you will be: Friday
- How old will you be: 19
- Age you lost your virginity: ... *pout*
- Does age matter: G-gah... no, I guess not... I would prefer it I could be physically attracted to them, though.
LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
- Best personality: Kind, loving, likes to laugh, patient.... open to a lot of things.
- Best eye color: The odd ones. Blue, Green, Gray.
- Best hair color: Anything dyed and I'll be hugging you in an instance.
- Best thing to do with a partner: Cuddle, hang out, play video games, eat out... sex.
LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
- I love: Lots, and lots of things. Mostly my various loves, and my addictions.
- I feel: Constantly stressed, and depressed over my body image and possible depression. Oh, lonely.
- I hide: How sick in the head I really am.
- I miss: Having interest in writing, in normal things... and I miss people.
- I wish: I could've been born a girl, I wish I could have powers beyond that of human beings, and I desperately wish I could grant the wishes of others.
Heeeeeelp!! Please!!
Posted 14 years agoA friend of mine, Scarlett_Engel, is in need of commisions. I'm begging you, watchers and friends, PLEASE! Send her your requests and money, so she can stay in her home...! She's a great person, that needs a little luck and a break for once.
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/scarlettengel/
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/scarlettengel/
Slight Depression + Seeking Help Please Read
Posted 14 years agoOkay... Been stressing for awhile that I can look more feminine, and though I can't buy any kinds of shapewear right now, I can do some exercises to tone my body to be more female looking
So, I was wondering if there were any exercises that would tone my belly, my thighs, my hips and my butt to look... Well, more feminine. I have found plenty online, but none of them have been for males, and the possible ones involved running, something I can't do yet. Anything you could share would be greatly appreciated, especially about any kind of vitamins or foods that would help me... Well, develop into the body I want.
And don't say estrogen or the like. That will come soon, hopefully very soon. But for now... I really, really need a goal, something that I can do to feel better... Also, I still haven't told my parents, even about being Bisexual, and... Well, I think it's about time I tell them... Still a little afraid the people who were my best friends growing up would hate me
So, I was wondering if there were any exercises that would tone my belly, my thighs, my hips and my butt to look... Well, more feminine. I have found plenty online, but none of them have been for males, and the possible ones involved running, something I can't do yet. Anything you could share would be greatly appreciated, especially about any kind of vitamins or foods that would help me... Well, develop into the body I want.
And don't say estrogen or the like. That will come soon, hopefully very soon. But for now... I really, really need a goal, something that I can do to feel better... Also, I still haven't told my parents, even about being Bisexual, and... Well, I think it's about time I tell them... Still a little afraid the people who were my best friends growing up would hate me
Well... Great Story.
Posted 14 years agoGotta say, I've never been so entranced in a story as I am in this one..... Seriously, I don't think I've blushed this much from just a story.. Of course, the writing has a LOT to be desired, like some page breaks or signals when it changes perspective, but beggars can't be choosers when it comes to online, free erotica... Especially when it's nearly 400 pages long, with a full length sequel.
I doubt anyone will read this, but still, I felt like I had to tell somebody who might care, and considering the one person I could go to with this doesn't have any minutes left... Well, point is, I figured there'd be one person on here interested in my reading habits... Eh, oh well.
Anyway, how is everybody? I'm curious, because over here, it's hot as hell and the only place in the house that's cool is the basement, where it goes from 97F to 67.... Of course, I'm bullshitting about the actual temperatures, but still.... Really effing cold.
I doubt anyone will read this, but still, I felt like I had to tell somebody who might care, and considering the one person I could go to with this doesn't have any minutes left... Well, point is, I figured there'd be one person on here interested in my reading habits... Eh, oh well.
Anyway, how is everybody? I'm curious, because over here, it's hot as hell and the only place in the house that's cool is the basement, where it goes from 97F to 67.... Of course, I'm bullshitting about the actual temperatures, but still.... Really effing cold.
Grrr.... WHAT DOES A GIRL HAVE TO DO?!
Posted 14 years agoGaaaaah! *ruffles my own hair, going nuts*
I mean, come on! I've gotten so many ideas on what to write, but every time, it just.... Ugh, I lose it.
This isn't a, I need help, thing.... More like, I need inspiration...
Any of you out there want something written, I'd sorely appreciate the artistic suggestion... I actually already have one idea that's stuck in my head thanks to a certain someone who's psychotic, dark manifestation of Insanity gave me an interesting character exercise idea, but still... I need more.
So, again, any of you want something written, just ask.
I mean, come on! I've gotten so many ideas on what to write, but every time, it just.... Ugh, I lose it.
This isn't a, I need help, thing.... More like, I need inspiration...
Any of you out there want something written, I'd sorely appreciate the artistic suggestion... I actually already have one idea that's stuck in my head thanks to a certain someone who's psychotic, dark manifestation of Insanity gave me an interesting character exercise idea, but still... I need more.
So, again, any of you want something written, just ask.
I need help....
Posted 14 years agoFor some reason... I can't write well anymore. I can't get the words to just flow like I used to, and when they do come, it takes so much just to get them to keep coming. I need some help, but I don't know how to fix it... It's not even a matter of buckling down and writing.
This really, really sucks. It's a slump that's been going on for years now, and I just.... Hate it.
This really, really sucks. It's a slump that's been going on for years now, and I just.... Hate it.
*pout* Oh come on guys...
Posted 14 years agoIt's not fair...! I fav and I post, but all I get in return is... Hehe, I'm just kidding!
But no, seriously... I like a little more then just a thanks, what without how irritating the Shout system is.
To put it frankly, if you're gonna shout, then... I dunno, say something sweet!
Or silly, or funny, or sexy, or creepy, or... Hell, you can be a bastard/bitch if you want!
But.... Well, really, it just makes me sad to have to shout back over a simple thank you; I mass fav because I love certain people's artwork, and I want to show them!
But no, seriously... I like a little more then just a thanks, what without how irritating the Shout system is.
To put it frankly, if you're gonna shout, then... I dunno, say something sweet!
Or silly, or funny, or sexy, or creepy, or... Hell, you can be a bastard/bitch if you want!
But.... Well, really, it just makes me sad to have to shout back over a simple thank you; I mass fav because I love certain people's artwork, and I want to show them!
Huh... Hello all!
Posted 14 years agoI know this is probably kinda dumb, since I don't really have anything to talk about, but I figured I'd post at least something here.
Hm, let's see.. Oh! I probably should give a little insight into my header and footer. They're the basis from which I started a story of mine thats kinda close to my heart. The title is Poison, and it's... Well, it's a story of unconventional love, loss, trials, and personal growth... With a touches of violence, sex and homosexuality strewn through out. Unfortunately, I haven't made a lot of progress on it, for several reasons.
Something else to talk about, something else.... Well, for anyone that cares, I'm an open book (hehe, book.) and would love to meet some new people. It's part of me being a clingy bitch who needs people to stay even marginally sane.
Hm, let's see.. Oh! I probably should give a little insight into my header and footer. They're the basis from which I started a story of mine thats kinda close to my heart. The title is Poison, and it's... Well, it's a story of unconventional love, loss, trials, and personal growth... With a touches of violence, sex and homosexuality strewn through out. Unfortunately, I haven't made a lot of progress on it, for several reasons.
Something else to talk about, something else.... Well, for anyone that cares, I'm an open book (hehe, book.) and would love to meet some new people. It's part of me being a clingy bitch who needs people to stay even marginally sane.
