So I'm currently at a hotel in Baltimore for BronyCon, starting tomorrow and running until Sunday. I may try doing some stuff but suffice to say I likely won't be around very much during this time..

More significant that I want to mention though is that I'm going to close off my commissions for a little while, I've gotten a lot of people interested in things and not enough time to get to all of them, so until I can get some of those done I'd rather not take on any more.

The most severe thing I needed to bring up though is that I'm considering just stopping taking commissions for coloring entirely. The sad fact of the matter is that coloring has become far less satisfying for me to do and it takes me an exorbitant amount of time to complete a single picture. I'd have to change my prices significantly to feel like it's worth the time and effort that it takes, but I'm very aware that the quality of my work isn't good enough to merit that.

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Seems like a prudent time to mention this.

Going to be having some long stream stuff going on tomorrow.

Part 1 will begin at 10 AM EST and continuing until presumably sometime around 5:30 PM when I'll be breaking for dinner.

After I get back from that sometime later in the evening there will be a short Part 2.

So months after discussing the potentialities thereof I've finally gone and created a Patreon.

https://www.patreon.com/user?u=273837

For now this mostly just serves the purpose of tip jar, I'm leaving the option for people to get early previews of story progress and also to vote on projects that I'll be doing in the future. As time goes on I'll be thinking about more ways to expand the platform.

I need to do a lot of updating on my front page here.

Put some questions. I’ll answer them later after work probably.

Just want to make a formal notice that I will not be taking any further commissions until I finish everything that I currently have on my queue.

Also streams have been erratic as fuck because idk just haven't really always felt like streaming on the same day. I stream frequently on random other days of the week now but don't always advertise them everywhere. You can directly follow my channel on Picarto to get notification emails when I stream, or on twitter because I'm probably more likely to post announcements there than here.

Oh look, it's only been years since I did something like this, let's try doing this again to the best of my memory. No links, for now anyway, because that would take ages to dig up.

All My Fuggin Characters

The Non
Non is Non

Pokemon Subset:

A-List Pokemon:
The characters who I still bother to put a lot of thought into.
-Alice
-Margaret
-Xenia
-Nefertari

B-List Pokemon:
Sliiightly below A-List, these are just slightly less prominent to me at the moment.
-Kabiyou
-Riley
-Wagga
-Neil
-Lycallis

C-List Pokemon:
A level further below the above; I often have these in mind but they are further into the background and aren't usually the main focus.
-Belle
-Lucas
-Beileag
-Venus
-Octavian
-Morgan
-Katie
-Ignigros
-Persephone

D-List Pokemon:
Everyone else from the old days. I barely think of much involving these. There are undoubtedly some I can't even remember, those who never even got drawn or written about. I challenge you to remember some of these.
-Belladonna
-Dimitri
-Solara
-Helen
-Apollike
-Nemesis
-Promethea
-Phoebe
-Eliza
-Oona
-Carol
-Lyubov
-That Arceus bustyboy
-Veronica
-Abigail
-Victoria
-Cyrus
-Sequoia

Non Background Characters:
These are characters who basically only exist for the sake of filling out things going around Non. Listed roughly in descending order of importance.
-Eve
-Rukh
-Lotus
-Catherine
-Calypso
-Cecil/Cecilia
-Alexandra
-Arianna
-Diana
-Nephthys
-Vor
-Aurelia
-Aias

Pony Subset:

A-List Ponies:
The primary and most recent ones.
-Gossamer Gleam
-Fat Tits
-Majesty

B-List Ponies:
Really more like C-List but I don't have nearly as many pony characters. I've barely posted anything of these for some reason and any stories I had thought of involving them never got off the ground.
-Ink Spinner
-Cocoa Crush
-Uber Nova
-Dubiously-named Space Pony

Anything else:

A-List Persons:
The most important ones
-Zarafa
-Unicorn Who Might Not Be Named Verdure Anymore
-Quelas

Srs Story Characters:
Characters involved with big story ideas that may or may not ever happen.
-Nimbastrata
-Ava
-Amber and variants

Other Vaguenesses:
idk everything that's barely developed at all at this point.
-The Sleeper
-Goat Goddess
-Boobsnek
-Unit Theta
-Unnamed Qurupeco
-Unnamed Deviljho
-Ubera Magala
-Radia Major
-Spindles

There, that's everything I've ever thought of. Maybe. Probably not.

Now I can go back to not thinking about this and being sad.

I'm posting WIPs of colored pictures on twitter.

So you should follow me there if you want to see new pictures more than once a month. :u

To this day I continue to intermittently get favorites on this vore pic of Nefertari and Kabiyou. It is my most-favorited upload by a pretty substantial margin, nearly a hundred favorites more than the one behind it. I'm kind of puzzled how it seems to randomly come up over and over again at regular intervals despite being several years old now. I'm not sure how I feel about its popularity, vore is a subject matter I'm often dubious of and it's not really a very accurate depiction of either of the characters, even at the time when it was posted. If people want to see more content like that, I'm not sure how I'd accommodate such a desire.

Certain future planned content, though, will either be incredibly entertaining or immeasurably disappointing.

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I figured I ought to have a proper announcement instead of just the one buried at the bottom of the Christmas vent journal.

Follow me there. Or something.

Been a week since that last journal, two weeks since the one before, and I haven't really done a whole lot.

I want to say that I very much am aware of and appreciate the people who do show their affection and consideration for me. A lot of people responded to the Christmas journal and I didn't respond to any of them individually but I'm still thankful for those words.

I just get angry about how these things always seem to turn out and every now and then it comes to a point where I can't take it anymore. Problem with venting like this is that the people who aren't paying attention to me are going to keep on not noticing any kind of unspecific announcement while I'm just coming off as ungrateful to those who do take the time to look at it.

My frustration is not just a matter of having relationships with singular people as much as it is whole groups. I am involved with a number of groups of people, people who interact with each other and are easily recognized, and no matter what I do I never feel like I'm truly a part of that same connection, I'm just watching all of them from the sidelines.

I struggle to think of reasons to put as much effort as I do into reaching out to others when I so rarely get any kind of reaction.

I felt like I was making improvements in my life, steps toward being a productive human being.

I had managed to get hired for not one but two jobs, both of which have been manageable and pleasant for the most part.

I was managing to improve my coloring techniques to a significant degree.

I had found that I could get myself to write consistently if I pushed myself to it.

I was starting to slowly build up funds in my bank account again.

I thought I was pushing myself to interact with people more.

Everything was looking up.

But now here I am going into the new year and I don't feel happy in the slightest.

The progress I had managed to make came to a screeching halt.

Every day is a slog of anger and misery.

And I feel like nobody gives a shit about it.

No matter what I try to do to put myself out there I just get the distinct feeling that I'm bleeding myself dry to no effect.

My work goes unnoticed and my interactions are overlooked.

Everywhere I look I just see people who are happily engaged with each other, doing things together, having a great time, and I'm constantly reminded that I hardly have anything like that in my life.

And it's bad enough that my attempts to reach new groups have failed, but I don't even feel like I can rely on the people I used to know.

It seems as if the vast majority of the friends I had starting out here have just decided to consistently ignore me at every opportunity.

I thought I'd tried to reach out for this in the past, but it never makes a significant or lasting difference, everyone just drifts away from me.

The last verdict I've come to have from my therapy was that I need to have more socialization in my life, and it's become abundantly apparent that I'm not getting that through the internet.

So I'm just going to have to go out and try to find people to meet up with, maybe I'll somehow manage to find people who will accept my inanity, who knows.

I don't feel like I even know what being friends with someone means anymore.

Happy fucking new year's I guess.



I'll be amazed if I even finish that Daybreaker vs Amore pic within another year.

I can't really pinpoint exactly why.

I've always been under the impression that it indicates weakness in some fashion.

It's better to just do what comes naturally to me and let others be drawn in if that suits them.

But as time goes on it's become apparent to me that this approach isn't working.

Few people seem to take notice of me in any meaningful way.

I've just wanted to entertain people.

I don't really know what point there is in anything I do anymore.

It's all empty.

But if I stop then I'm left with nothing.

So I just have to keep going.

Just have to keep hoping.

Maybe someone will say something.

Merry Christmas.



P.S. I made an actual twitter.

The Day of Milotic.

Even if it's nearly over by now.

Stay beautiful everyboob.

Hey.

I'm desperately trying to cobble something together right now.

tl;dr I need to come up with a lot of shapes for some out-there transformations.

But trying to be creative is hard.

So put some suggestions and maybe I'll try incorporating them in some way.

Species is not going to be a major controllable factor in this.

Update: I'm also not really looking for scenarios in this, the cause of transformation in all of these is already set, these are just ideas for the end result of a transformation.

So November has ended and with it my not-quite-NaNoWriMo super writing challenge, so let's go over things on that.

I have not actually been bothering to keep track of my overall word count over the course of the month because it's all spread across multiple stories. I did drop the ball somewhat toward the end, but I did succeed in writing on all but two days of the month, and I accomplished this while having two different jobs to work through, so there's that.

I was able to get a fair few shorter stories finished in this time.

I had some small amount of progress on srs publication story.

I did finish that project which I alluded to earlier in the month, but I still need to edit it, possibly get someone to proofread it.

I did not, though, get to do that prologue/test run for the CYOA story, so I'm going to need to do that at some other time.

The main problem this month was that I had far less time to get coloring work done at the same time that I was doing writing.

If I ever do reapply for a position at Target I don't think I'll do that until the summer when it isn't overlapping with my substitute teacher work.

So I think overall this was still a success, it shouldn't be hard at all to write on a daily basis as long as I can come up with ideas.

Now I just need to think of something to do for Milotic Day.

Also there's been all this talk about No Nut November? Pfff, get on my level, I've never masturbated in my life. :U

On the eve of the giant Thanksgiving family and work day, I've decided it would probably be for the best to put out that I'm going to close off both writing and coloring commissions for a little while. I've been getting a lot of requests for commissions recently, and with my retail work starting to pick up it's a little harder to squeeze in the time to get writing done, especially at times when clients are available. If you have already approached me about a story commission, that's fine, you'll still be on my queue and we can continue discussing when most optimal. I'm also closing coloring commissions even though I don't have as much attention for those simply because I have even less time to do coloring and I don't like making clients wait as long as I have been. This may lift after November when I don't need to be writing quite as diligently, or it may have to wait until January when the retail work is over.

Thank you all for understanding.

Mmm.

MMMMM.

I'm surprised there was as much input as there ended up being.

I'm even more surprised that there was so much interest in Verdure.

I think I'm ultimately going to end up going with Xenia and pokeymans, it's probably going to make for a better story overall.

But blargle, this is the first time I've had any real inkling for something to do with Verdure, now I have no idea when I'll manage to come up with something else.

I had this idea suddenly for a story that I may try doing sometime this month. I'm not going to say much but it would be a dramatic, emotional catharsis kind of story, similar in some ways to Rite of Spring but not as grand or actiony, and heavily inspired by The Last Unicorn. My primary debate currently is in what characters I would want to use, and the choice could have some significant factors that impact how it comes out.

The options here are:
-Xenia, my Xerneas (story would be in a Pokemon setting)
-Verdure, that unicorn I've barely used (story would likely more overtly fetishized)
-Entirely original characters

Comment below, or maybe I'll just make a strawpoll.

Hello everyone. It's time to talk about stuff again.

It's November, so that means desperately trying to do NaNoWriMo again. Thus far it's going well! But of course I'm going to need a churn out sufficient ideas in order to have content to work on. The main purpose of doing this is to gauge how effectively I can do this amount of work in preparation for potentially opening up a Patreon and starting bigger projects. Sometime this month, then, I can say you're probably at least going to see the beginning of the CYOA poll project so that there can be something of an idea of what everyone's getting into.

But in addition to all that though, possibly against my better judgment, I've also gotten another job (yes, another, I don't think I ever bothered to mention when I got hired as a substitute teacher here on FA). As of now I've still got training to go through, suffice to say in the future though I'm likely to have a lot of evenings taken up. I know for sure that for the next two weeks I'm going to have stuff going on on Mondays, so my weekly streams are going to be pushed back to Tuesdays. May or may not get around to doing smaller daily streams for the NaNoWriMo progress.

What could possibly go wrong?

I had a rather surreal experience last night.

My dreams tend to be extremely disjointed so it's hard to remember what led up to this, all I remember vaguely are some rooms of an underwater facility, no surprise since I was watching gameplay of SOMA before turning in.

It was dark, I was feeling tired, so I sat down in a chair.

The chair was tilted backward, I guess, so I couldn't really see much around me.

Suddenly I started to see a faint light coming from nearby, steadily approaching.

And I heard a girl's voice speaking.

"Snip. Snip. Snip. Snip."

It was like a song or a nursery rhyme,

She mentioned a lot of body parts.

"Eyes. Fingers. Toes. Penis."

There were other words I can't remember, some just nonsensical.

At some point she said "You. The real you."

And then I realized I was awake.

I couldn't bring myself to move.

My legs were pulled up under the blankets and my arms were out to my sides, as if I had been sitting in that tilted chair.

My mouth was hanging wide open, completely dried out.

And I could still hear the girl's voice.

"Snip. Snip. Snip. Snip."

I felt like I must be in shock.

It took me a few moments to realize that I had in fact been dreaming, and I regained control over myself.

I guess this is some kind of sleep paralysis?

I just felt like I had to write this down.

So there you go, have fun with that.

So I've been contemplating a number of things lately, things to expand my writing business and maybe get more stuff done.

I still have yet to actually do anything with the fat pony story pack that I finished putting together nearly a year ago now. I have been uncertain on how exactly to go about distribution, I could just hand them out myself but I imagine more prefer to go through a site for that. I've heard about Gumroad from Rahiros, but I don't know of any other options, particularly if there are any that happen to cater more to stories specifically.

I also spontaneously had this story idea involving varied forms of transformation, and I had a thought that it could be turned into a sort of serialized poll-based Choose Your Own Adventure type story. The plot would involve two, maybe three characters getting drawn into a series of reality warping events that change their forms while also dropping them into unfamiliar environments and having to deal with those as needed. There's probably some pre-existing series that this could be compared to because nothing is original but I don't know such an example off the top of my head. I would probably do these once per month, and after each installment there would be a period for putting forth suggestions for both the characters and the setting/scenario and then those would be voted on. I know in particular I'd need to have some appropriate medium for tallying up all these votes.

And lastly: Patreon. The notion of starting a Patreon is something that I have considered for quite a while. Ostensibly the purpose of a Patreon would be for the incentive of working toward some of my more lengthy story projects, like Eldritch Equestria, the Dark Souls-esque setting I've had on the back burner for a long time, and maybe even the things I've had in mind to publish. Most of my uncertainty for it has been regarding not knowing exactly what I'd do for it. I guess at minimum donors would have the ability to see progress on stories instead of having to wait until they're posted and provide input. If I did the aforementioned CYOA project, patrons probably would get to have additional voting power, or maybe they would be the ones to get to nominate themes. I also had the thought that I might have a small amount of "discount" commission spots, where one can pay a flat amount to buy a story regardless of its final word count (with some limitations; I'm not going to write a novel for this). This may also ostensibly be a platform for distributing story packs as well, killing another two birds with one stone. I'm still not entirely sure though, I'd need a lot more planning about all of this.

Please comment if you have any kind of input regarding any of these, I could use all the input I can get.

Hey all you people.

You know what I haven't tried to do in a while?

Some kind of character poll that will invariably cause me to be disappointed with myself.

But I don't really feel like putting together a list of all the potential choices I have.

Because the problem I have is that there are so many old characters of mine that I've let fall to the wayside so I don't bother thinking about them anymore.

So I just want to ask you, viewers, which characters stick out to you the most, which ones do you remember after all this time.

You can list as many as you feel like.

This can include AU pony stuff that I've done.

Have at it.

Maybe one of these days I'll have clever text to put here.

Pineapple.

I've got a ton of pics that I need to work on. Like a metric fuck ton of pics. Despite my efforts to have a list of all of the things I need to do, there are some that I end up forgetting. To some extent the list has become so daunting at this point that I find it difficult just to work on anything specifically because there's so much to do and I can't choose. So I started thinking, perhaps I could ask others for input on which things I should work on? I don't know yet exactly how I'd manage votes for this, or how often I'd be taking in input. In most cases I'd hopefully be able to finish a single picture in as much as a week.

And don't even get me started on the writing I need to do. Or job searching.