I don't know. Too much shit happened here and there's too many bad memories involved with this place. I've had fun with some people here but it's just too much to deal with anymore if I'm being honest. I doubt anyone would even notice my absence anyways. It hurts a lot but I kinda think it's something I should do. If anyone has suggestions on what I should do I'm open to them. Right now I'm just in between recreating possibly or leaving altogether. I don't know. It's a very uncertain/uncomfortable time in my life.

if I opened that up for commissioning, would anyone be interested? would anyone even pay for that? Idk??

lol so there's no food in my house. why? because our lovely houseguest thinks she should fix four course meals five times a fucking day for HER and HER baby. even the food i'd bought for myself was cooked and eaten by her and her child. because she doesn't have enough fucking sense in her head to buy her OWN food. not to mention she's basically a deadbeat mother who pawns the kid off on us 24/7. i'm literally five seconds from coming unglued.

i was also forced to miss my neurologist appointment this morning so that my brother could go to his golf classes. my car is wrecked. i couldn't drive myself. and i had nobody else to take me. so of course i asked my mother. what does she say? that i'm going to be forced to miss it and reschedule so that my brother can go to class. have you ever heard of such fucking idiocy,... ugh. i am so fed up and so angry and so tired.

on a happier note, i do have five dollar busts and chibis on sale for a little while. just until i know if i've got this job at michael's. help is appreciated as well as consideration is appreciated.

FIRST!! I wanna say hello and thank you to my new watchers!! Big thanks to all of you and for stopping by, here's some kisses! -throws chocolates-

But, as the title states, it's been suggested that I try adopts and ych???

Thing is, I'm not really well known for anyone to want the ych art. But I can do the adopts. I'd definitely like to do them so I guess this is a journal to see if anyone would be interested if I started selling adopts? Cause I am notorious for doodling characters and then never doing anything with them. Figure if I do adopts that maybe they can be picked up by people who will take good care of them and develop them, since I'm kinda dumb and idk. XD

So basically comment if you'd like to see some adopts and if I get enough interested I'll make a batch of them.

Also, still in need of commissions so if anyone would like to do that, let me know! I do have a price list and it'd be a tremendous help to me. :)

As always, I love you guys! :D

~Nrrdi

I really wanna RP on it because that's what it was made for. So if you wanna RP or anything, I'm up for it! Just send me your skype and let's get to to plotting.

Surprisingly.

These past few months have been very very hard for me. I've lost close friends because they thought I wasn't good enough for them or I was toxic or whatever the Hell they say. I've been stressed out, making myself unbelievably sick, losing weight, and unable to go two seconds without crying my eyes out. I turned twenty-one, which I guess is a milestone. I planned to be gone before my birthday. I haven't gotten any commissions so my art muse has dwindled down to nothing and I can't put out a single picture. I just,... I have absolutely nothing.

My friend, Josh, committed suicide, then my cousin died a week later because of a brain injury, and another friend died from the same thing not even a week later. Since I couldn't get commissions my brothers had to go without a Christmas because we spent the last of our money getting our dumb van fixed, three hundred dollars and the fucking thing doesn't even work right.

Everything sucks. Just,... I have no good words to say about the past few weeks.

I would really like some commissions for my birthday so,... If anyone's interested?

I turn twenty-one on Sunday.

Um,... so I learned today that one of my best friends and her baby were killed yesterday.

Kinda lost, y'know? I mean, I'm fine when I'm with people but when i'm alone I'm given the chance to think about it and it kills me all over again.

Dunno if I'll be around much.

Er,... I think.

Yeah.

Merry Christmas. THE DOCTOR DIES TODAY!

Well, regenerates, but, GOODBYE RAGGEDY MAN.

*sobs* Someone hold me.

So,... I just got news that my father is in the hospital.

A few days back, he was bitten by a brown recluse spider. Well, it started to swell up and so they took him to the ER. The doctors wanted to admit him right then and there but he told them no, saying that he had to work and that he couldn't stay in the hospital. Well, yesterday, something came up and it busted and drained. It's INCHES deep into his muscle and his right arm is four inches bigger than his left.

Going to the ER today, they immediately admitted him. Well, they discovered that his entire right arm is filled with poison and it is life-threatening. The surgeon is coming in tomorrow to tell him what they're going to do. They don't think they can save the arm so they're probably going to have to amputate his arm.

..... His RIGHT arm. His good arm. If it's gone he can't work anymore. He won't be able to drive anymore,...

..... He won't be able to hold my sister again, he,...

No more bear hugs. No more holding hands properly,...

No walking me down the isle arm in arm.

I'm completely and utterly horrified,... I haven't stopped crying since I found out. I don't know what to do,...

Fuck Thanksgiving and fuck my birthday. This is absolutely the worst.

So I've recently joined the Supernatural fandom.

Well I've put Dr. Who off for a LOOOOONG time but I positively adore Matt Smith and David Tennant soooo,... I finally gave in.

And let me tell ya, I ADORE it.

*cries*

I sprained my wrist and have acute inflammation in my tendons.

..... All I did was turn a steering wheel.

Anyone wanna rp?

Or talk?? 0w0

IT'S AMAZING AND I WISH I KNEW AN R COSPLAYER! I'd marry you on spot. No lie.

Miss me? Of course you did. XD

No no I'm teasing. Just wanted to drop in and say hey. I have really been neglecting my fa account. ;3; But with my increase in popularity on tumblr it's getting a bit wacko. Dealt with a break-up this weekend and feelin' kinda low. I mean I was called disgusting yesterday by a "friend" and it really really hurt. *shrug* I dunno. Anyway, let's chat! How are y'all doin'?

My phone died out and I can't turn it back on. (MOTHERFUCKINGPIECEOFSHITSONOFABITCHDOUCHEDICK!) And anyway I won't be on until it comes back on. WHICH I don't know when it will. I'll try. Just message me here guys!

I'm just gonna go rip my hair out.

wanna elope?

I do. I think it'd be a grand adventure. Who will elope with me? :3

*blush* I'm a very shy person.. VERY shy..

Um, so I had a bad day up till my buddy suggested I hang out here. Things got better. (Despite the fact my boyfriend decided to dump me. Bleh. Go into that later) I went, cut my hair.. dyed it pink. Went to a ballgame. Enjoyed myself. A guy kissed me for no reason at all. Got to dance and sing in the rain like an idiot. *hugs tail* I dunno what to say I sound like a dork.

I need a buddy to snuggle with.