I really hate writing journals.
Even if i do want to write of problems or tell how i feel does people often take it wrong, that I rather not tell.
- If I'm gone for a long while, well then I will be back sooner or later after solving personal problems.

I'm a depressed person who sees everything negative..
- it's a darn common thing apparently for artists if you read others journals.
..tho I dislike dramatic or depressing art.

I want to spreed joy and I want to see others joy. When I'm with people at a daily basic, would I never show
any signs of depression or negativity. It's all in the mind, and happens to slip out when I'm alone.


So I decided to make my journal for a future instead.




Classic, the day of christmas has past,
and the store lower the price to enjoy the chaotic days of shoppers.

One of those are my sister. She had a plan done .. for us.
Yeas, of some reason did she decide to force me with her. With a promise
of a free meal did I just shut up. As sweeds do we celebrate at 24th and
sleeps all day of 25th, but both my sister and I had a very odd feeling.

A big part of the relatives had gone badly sick, and of course didn't it forget us.

The good part is that I'm finally able to sit up and eat a bit, tho I still have
some problems to walk and to keep myself warm even with 10 blankets.

It will take until next year before you can see any more art from me.
- tho expect lots of art with KN and Cream~

Happy new year~

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hello~
as a mention a little bit here and there is my pc really in a bad state.
I expect it to never start up again any day.

So if you don't want Nyanpya to disappear~
then please give a small help.

Goal (around) $1243/15


- Paypal (nyanpya@outlook.com)
- No fetish or any kind of adult
- Arguably price
( pay what you want .. but the less you pay the less will I work with it
example; I will not make an art like this https://www.furaffinity.net/view/15162602/ for $1 )


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Been wondering for a while if people feel less related to an artist if they don't know anything about
the artist ._.
- that was a horrible sentence ><

often when I see artist do they talk about themselves and i end up sometimes with jokes i can't tell
because of the gender hide, but I guess what made me react the most where when my "work coach"
searched on my real name on google. I really felt like an nobody.

I told myself to quit the gender hide when the right time is.
- but .. when is that time ? ._ . what I'm I scared of ?


I guess I'm such a self hating person that being "hidden" makes me someone else.

Btw going to finally get an official dyselectic .. dyselextic .. ( -u- you get the point..)
test.
- I have been promised this in 16 years so if something stops me from taking it will I jump off a bridge -3-'

First of all~
sorry for not replying on comments..
- also need to warn that I'm used to the DA reply system. That you need to delete the comment
yourself makes me sometimes delete comments I haven't replied to.

.. but I haven't been willing to draw or really comment anything. When I try to draw does it scream
inside to throw away the pen.
I'm not out of ideas.. so I'm not really having an art block

My hand grabs the pen but my head says "Nope"

Just wanted to wish a Happy halloween :)

Take it easy with the partying and candy~

Jumping of joy for all likes :3 thanks~

https://m.facebook.com/Nyanpya

Finally back with the comic drawing ^^
Apologizes for my english and still low skill at comic drawing, but I enjoy drawing
on it and would not say no for some help or tips, I want to get better :3

http://anordicdemon.the-comic.org/comics/first

Darn, it's already starting to get cold in sweden. Usually mornings
doesn't start to get cold until after 1th September.
- well, fall mornings smells wonderful freash~! and are reasons to hide inside
with a warm blanket and a cup of tea while playing games~

I'm still used to the japanese weather so the cold hit me hard in the neck = u='
- hurts bad.


I don't have much to update on the journal~
Got my own room back. Still waiting on my personal stuff~
and doing much reading on what to do later on.

hmm.. that was sudden~

oh well won't stop Nyanpya from still.. snoozing lazy all days in the bed.


trying to start get better at using my Devianart user and twitter so I guess this
weekend will be a good start.
http://3spots.deviantart.com/
https://twitter.com/Nyanpya


and thanks for the 56 likes on face :)
https://www.facebook.com/Nyanpya

Home, and have finally got the computer back up.,
but I can't use my own room ( . _.)

My grandma is lending my room for the celebration days and my sister is
using the room as a storage so... won't be able to use it on a while.

Tho, won't stop me from drawing~ and I will put up the commission on
the coming days~

hnnnn... hmmmm....*trying to drown in coffee*

Dam my feeling are mixed. ( '@ ^@)

I wanna go home right at now! .. and at the same time I trying to glue myself to the wall.
I'm so worried for all my packing! .. and at the same time feel safe and ready.

So like always, even how good you try to plan and do stuff, does much ends up stressful at the last
day.

I guess I 'm not that sad anymore, I will try to get back and I do have my japanese "mom" that
lives close to me in sweden that I can practice japanese with.

Tho I'm disappointed in myself. Mom pets on my shoulder that I made a great job as a dyslectic,
but it kinda makes me feel worse. Can I never succeed just because of that shit?

I don't want to be one of the top smartest or successful persons in the world just like that,
( well actually that would be really nice :3 ) but failing stuff the "normal" person succeed easy with
do hurt. The only feedback I get back by persons around is "your just lazy!" (. _ . )


Might be offline some days~
Like I said before, 11th is my baby sisters graduation, \( ¤ U ¤) / *proud*
and my flight will take 11h. ( T _T) ....nhh

Sorry for still no reply..

tho after much thinking with stress and often sickness, did I choose to go home to sweden.
I end my school (that I would have been at to september)

My heart is crying a bit. I love the japanese life and I'm not a quieter.
. but .. I'm to often sick and have been to much from school. I think that I will just
get sicker by the extremely hot weather japan has in the summer, so yeas, it's just some
months left.. but the hardest time.

Even when I decided to go home.. I got fever -_-'

Also by going home before 11th, can I join one of swedens biggest celebrates, when 19 years old
ends school, to later do what ever they want.
- which happens to be my sisters year~

I have been feeling a bit bad knowing that I wouldn't be there for her, so at least will I lose that feeling.


I will rest up in the swedish summer, for then later have power to work on the new plans that got up.

Sorry for my late replies ....

Not in a chat mood, just trying to get the calm back and try to solve everything around me.
All I can say is that I got in a big mess.


Hope you all have a nice weekend~ and thanks for all support

Free tickets to design festa for me! :D

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R0G8rN4KKvU

I love this event so much :'D
Thank you Nigel for being the coolest dude to give me tickets :3
can't wait to see your new band preform!


I'm a bit disappointing that I forgot the time limit and have no stuff to show
at the event... ( hoped to have time to make a KN plush to put on my shoulder)
but ~ ! I love this event to much that I can't be sad :3


this is not a "stay over night" event, so I won't be gone over the weekend~