I got very sick. I have an inflamed trachea and possibly lung damage. Now I sleep almost all the time, leaving all the worries about the funeral to my husband. I can use a computer for a very short period of time when my condition allows me to do so. If you wrote to me and I don't answer for a long time, most likely I got worse and I just can't get out of bed.
Please forgive me for this and do not lose. I didn’t leave you, and I think about you all the time. Hope it doesn't last too long.

I don't know how to start ...
The husband's grandmother died. We are preparing for the funeral. I am still in the process of realizing what happened. She's gone. It seems like something wrong, not real.
Now we are collecting money to fulfill her last wish. She wanted to be buried in her hometown. I really ask you for help.
Please.

A few days ago, my husband's grandmother became very ill. She was taken to the hospital and diagnosed with pneumonia. We do not know if she is infected with COVID or not, but no one is allowed to see her.
And unfortunately, the doctors' forecasts are not encouraging. As the doctor said, "Miracles do not happen." Therefore, we are already preparing mentally for the funeral.

I will be happy if the worst fears do not become true and she manages to recover. 🤞🤞🤞 For now, however, we are preparing for the worst outcome.

Grandma wants to be buried in her hometown, so we are looking for an opportunity to transport her. This is, to put it mildly, unforeseen expenses. I am very sorry that I have to darken your day with terrible news. But I'm afraid I need help.

I very much ask you about commissions. I will probably have to recruit a lot of work to cover the costs, and therefore I warn in advance that I may be doing commissions for more than two weeks. But I promise to finish all the drawings by the end of the year.

Once again I apologize for such a sad journal. It is very difficult for us now, and I humbly hope for your help.🙏

Starting next year, I plan to raise the prices of my commissions. On the one hand, I am afraid to do this, because I am afraid of losing customers. On the other hand, I put a lot of energy into every work and really try to constantly grow as an artist. In addition, I want to take courses from cool specialists to make my drawings even better. So I really hope that you will understand me and continue to support.

Your opinion on this matter is very important to me. How good is this idea in your opinion? And what do you think, is this not too much arrogance on my part?

Finally I'll have a vacation. I'm leaving today and will come back on October 21st. All my current commissions and YCHes I'll make after this time. Hopefully, you won't miss me too much :D
I still will be in touch for all this time, so you can note me any time. Also, I have Discord (you can find me as OctoHat#5584) so you can message me there too.
Be well and wish me luck!

Today is my Birthday!
Thank you for following my work, I am really very pleased to see your comments and understand that you like my drawings. And thank you so much for all the support you give me in difficult moments of my life. Each of you is a priceless treasure for me.

If you want to somehow congratulate me or support me on this day, you can buy me a coffee or make a small donut by Paypal (my Paypal email is jenmalarai@gmail.com) or support me on Patreon. I save up for a used iPad (I will never save up for a new one), so any support will make me very happy. With an iPad, I can draw anywhere, and that's what I really want.

I will also take the opportunity to remind you that I always have open commissions, and also that I have open YCHes and adopts. I live off drawing, so I’ll be glad if you want to order something from me. UwU

Thank you all, yeeeey!

I have very few commissions this month. My husband said that if I do not collect the required amount of money to pay for a psychologist this month, I will have to refuse her services. But my therapy is not over yet and I cannot quit halfway.
Unfortunately, I will have to ask you for help again. My commission are open and I am ready to draw on any topic that interests you. No limits to your imagination. Please, I will be happy to make any drawing for you.

I didn’t want to complain about it, but I’ll still tell you a little about my financial situation.
I regularly spend money on a psychologist and on all sorts of household needs. Last year I had a long period when I only had expenses and no income. During this time, I incurred credit card debt. At the moment, my income only covers current expenses, but does not help in any way to close the accumulated debt.
I really want to close the $ 4,000 debt by the end of the year. It weighs on me insanely and I am ready to work hard to get rid of it forever.
Therefore, I am ready to take any commissions, I remove any restrictions. I really need money, I can no longer live with this debt.

I have immersed myself in information about the omegaverse and God it's so complicated and cool. I don’t know if I’m going to do something about this setting, but the anatomy and society fascinate me.
Do you like the omegaverse? 👀👀👀

You're amazing 🥺
All of you
Thanks to all of you who helped me with a wise words and with money for my psychologist. You gave me strength to move forvard and to believe in a good future. Thank you 🥺

I have no money to pay my psychologist... This is a rough time for me, I need her help, but I can't pay her. So I need your help. I have no limits, I can draw anything for you. Just please commission me.

My depression getting worse. I don't talk to people, I don't work, I don't draw. Days go after days and nothing happens.
My parents getting divorse. My grandpa's younger brother got cancer with methastases. It seems like everything getting worse every day. I'm afraid of tomorrow.

Hello, bad news.
My apartment has just been turned off due to debt. My partner is trying to settle the situation, but I don't know how long it will last. However, this may affect my work schedule. So please don't worry, I'll get back to drawing commissions as soon as I can.

Finally :з
Here's where you can support me from now on: https://www.patreon.com/octohat
Now there is only one post, because I have just started, but there will be many of my sketches, which I do not publish anywhere else.

Forgive me for my nagging, I really need support now. If you are offended by topics related to the disease and suffering of domestic animals, do not read the text below.

The last week has become an incessant nightmare. It all started with the fact that my cat began to lose weight very quickly. In a very short time, she turned from a healthy cat into a walking skeleton. Of course, I immediately went to the vet. The more we conducted examinations and analyzes, the more a frightening picture of her condition was revealed. At the moment it is known that all her blood counts are very poor. Dangerously low red blood cells, dangerously high (10 times higher than normal!) platelets. The ultrasound did not show any obvious signs of cancer, so tomorrow I will take the cat to another clinic, where she will have a second ultrasound.

Every day was worse and worse. On the first day, she was diagnosed with diabetes. "Not so bad, you can live," I thought. It's easy to check the cat's blood sugar, feed her every two hours, and inject insulin in the morning and evening. I can handle this. However, on the first day, she was not able to give blood for analysis - her blood pressure was too low. So the blood test was done at the third appointment. And this analysis showed that the number of erythrocytes is five times less than the norm. The veterinarian suggested that it was a parasite. It is also generally tolerable, at least a treatment plan can be suggested. Antibiotics, drugs to increase hemoglobin levels, immunostimulating drugs, and possibly a blood transfusion can help, although it can be very expensive. At this stage, I also did not lose my optimism. But at the fourth appointment, the veterinarian was already afraid to put forward any assumptions at all. Strange, if ambiguous, ultrasound results, as well as an abnormally high level of platelets in the blood, hint at possible cancer, but it is impossible to say for sure. Now we are stuck in the unknown and are waiting for a consultation with another doctor. At this time, the cat weakens every day. For the third day I have been feeding her against her will, she herself refuses to eat. The cat's temperature and blood pressure drop more and more. I do not know how long she will still fight and whether it is worth making her fight. 😔

Hi, how are you doing?
I'm currently working on a test task that I didn't expect at all. If everything goes well and the employer likes my drawing on the test task, I finally have a job!
However, this takes up all my time and therefore I can delay the current orders for a week. Sorry for this delay, I will work hard so you don't have to wait too long!✨✨✨

SLOT 1 - Autumn dress B for  foxide ⬤⬤⬤⬤⬤
SLOT 2 - Autumn dress C for  LunaLilyRose302 ⬤⬤⬤⬤⬤
SLOT 3 - Spring dress B for  LunaLilyRose302 ⬤⬤⬤⬤⬤
SLOT 4 - Winter dress D for  foxide ⬤⬤⬤⬤⬤
SLOT 5 - [OPEN]
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p/np/pp - payed/not payed/partly payed
⬤⬤⬤⬤⬤ - SKETCH
⬤⬤⬤⬤⬤ - LINE
⬤⬤⬤⬤⬤ - COLOR
⬤⬤⬤⬤⬤ - SHADING
⬤⬤⬤⬤⬤ - DONE

I have long wanted to write a short note about who I am in general and how I am doing. I don't want to be just some nameless girl on the Internet who silently draws pictures and from time to time disappears somewhere.

My name is Natasha, I am 27 years old and I live in Russia. Drawing is an activity that I cannot imagine myself without. Three years ago I tried to work in an office full-time, like an ordinary person, but it burned me from the inside. I don't feel like I was living at that time.

For a couple of years now I have been trying to make my life so that I want to live it. For a year and a half, I worked for a good company in which I learned a lot and in which I felt significant. I drew, learned new things, studied, and communicated with cool people. Unfortunately, the pandemic and the illiterate policy of the Russian authorities led to the fact that our company went bankrupt and closed, like many other companies from the entertainment and services sector.

I have been out of work for four months. Almost all expenses are now covered by my husband and I am terribly ashamed of it. Instead of job offers, only refusals. I manage to sell commissions only with great difficulty and in very small volumes. From time to time I fall into despair and it seems that I will never get out of this hole.

With commissions, I try to pay at least my psychotherapist. For Russian society, psychotherapy seems to be a luxury item, especially in a situation with extremely limited budgets. But it seems to me that if it had not been for the meeting with my psychotherapist, I would have given up completely.

This is how I live. I am sorry if this text seemed too dramatic to you. I know that this year the whole world has fallen on very hard times, and my problems are hardly more significant than those of everyone else. But now you at least know a little more about me.

Thank you for being with me. 💙💙💙