For airplane movies : withering heights, wings over Babylon

For a war movie = ought to be Pride and prejudice. BUT NO , ITS A ROMANCE

WHAT THE HELL KIND OF ROMANCE TAKES PLACE IN PRIDE AND PREJUDICE WHeNE SO MANY WARS WERE FOUGHT OVER THOSE THINGS!

think about it you must/should.

good name for a movie about a space elevator= vertical limit

1. Job - #347 "where is my father" or perhaps Where is my father, O God?" Also means "hated".
(I found this to be very interesting, the root origin of this word for Job, comes from #340 which means, "to be an enemy" or "hostile")

Bitterness is "an attitude of extended and intense anger and hostility." It is often accompanied by resentment and a desire to "get even." It is the result of not forgiving an offender and letting hurt and anger grow until the pain and resentment sour the person's view of life.

King Saul wasted his last years in hatred and anger (1 Samuel 18:8-9). Fear, jealousy, murderous thoughts, and violent rage consumed him without relief. His soul was hardened, and he was unresponsive to any message from God. His bitterness finally turned into self-destruction.

Job didn't understand why he was suffering so terribly. His words in Job 21:22-25 reveal the depth of his pain and the bitterness in his heart...


Never, never again. I'll see to it, i swear, never again

hang em high will be on my tombstone, and my noose.

I don't got time for mind games here. These christians want you to dance a dance to a song they play and play a game.

I got men dying in pain and darkness out there though, and I ain't got time for bullshit, and neither does my boss. I don't think Jesus was hung up on that church stuff and all.

And I ain't got time to be pretty in my walk with Christ, it ain't a pretty world and no one I care about is in a pretty place.

If'n I find fault with a church, then a fault there is whether flakey 40 year old living second childhoods clinging desperatly to God to escape the horrors of normal human existance want to see it or not.

'm just venting I know no one hears this, I just have to yell. get angry about this stuff, I seen people blame themselves all my life when they weren't to be blamed.

And I hate seeing people do it in the name of God, tearing down the less fortunate.

Just have to scream

Hey, doesn't "wings over babylon" sound liek an airplane movie?

I am not a popular man with spirit being Don't believe all the htings you hear about me. balony

I too believe what you posted OneLight and believe that there are none with excuse. The truth is written on every man's heart, as the Lord said it would be. That is one of the reasons I get so annoyed with atheists and others who try to convince us that in order to win th...blah blah blah (I'm better then you is what they mean)"

well I could do EXACTLY what they are doing there 100 times better then these phony amatures. Ifn I only had my brains back.

I seen a man once I did, grew up with sever schizophrenia,, lived with some psycotic bad people, lots of lies he saw from his parents. Reality and fiction were too confusing and he had bad brains to boot, slow learner and all, slight mental retardation.

Now, when he imitated the behavior of the angry monsters he grew up with and never understood the Bible. WAS HE TO BLAME??!?!?!?

Apparently, according to the church as i seen it, yes.

these people are sick, twisted monsters. They don't know God and they will chew you up and spit you out. They care nothing for you or anyone else. zor else, IF they are as holy and smart as the yclaim they are, They would straighten up and stop being the way they are.

Hey, get this, said schizophrenic was more in touch with reality than this http://breakdownthewall.org/blog/fullnews.php?id=5

what was that about the fruit of the spirit being a sound mind again?

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/11940

remnants of the old megalomania.

NOW I'M BELOW IT, HA HA HA HA HA

NIN song

I changed the lyrics to "close" as well, made it fit my childhood better.

I am so bitter and pissed off right now. I'm posting this link. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqi5F5MqqTQ

Haunts me for the rest of mine life. (Mein leiben?)

I kid you not I grew up with folks EXACTLY like this, giving speeches and torturing people.

HAUNTS ME TO THIS DAY! AND WHERE I'M FROM WE CALL THEM PSYCHOPATHS.

Also, I forgot I was never up above it, I was born here. lucky me.

which one would be my theme song, klein lust or apple of Sodom?

also, I'm not being paid enoguh for my trouble with these guys here today.

I mean who am I talking to when I am talking on this thing

If I was half the man I ought to be I'd be sexually attracted to the people I talk about being attracted to (also I'd have my brains)

I forget what else I had to say (being told to stop,b teer do so)

I gues si jsut dso what the music videos tell me , lol

as mentioned in previous entry, said christian forum board also teaches some false doctrines.

Some there think that the fruit of the spirit is a sound mind and that God blinds the evil so they cannot understand.

Maybe he does, but for these people it applies to people born without good mental equipment and I can assure you peopel that God does not hate you for having a learning disability or being schizophrenic or insane.

I have NEVER yet met one christian with a sound mind anyway. I meet plenty of psychotic ones, who would send their own children to hell for disobeying them. but never a "sound minded" one.

Don't let bad teachings fool you. You aren't condemned to hell for not being as smart as the rest of folks or not being able to control your brain or know whats real and what isn't.

Some christians will hate you, but then they aren't really christians then. Don't pay any attention to them. bad to listen to them.

http://www.worthyboards.com/

These people, like my mother, are bad people. The ytell suicidal people to get a life and go the hell away.

They tell people hearing voices trying to make them kill folks that God will speak to them through their surroundings.

They shatter self esteem. They think every dream is a great prophesy of God.

and they accuse demonically or mentally challenged people of being to blame for their families hating them.

These people, are rotten, and they aren't real christians.

according to them, YOU are to blame for your troubles with a God who isn't there when YOU need him to prevent a rape or stop something bad or tell you why YOUR friends are dieing in pain.

Its always some self rightous, evil, deranged lunatic telling you YOUR the problem in this world, because of your sufferings.

(and I know for a fact that these people abuse their children I grew up with one for crying out loud) F---ing maniacs

you know, I must not be inspiring a lot of trust or confidenc into a lot of people because I have no friends. I'm lke what Jesus would be if he were born an arch vile aren't I?

and the funny thing is, I am not a "personal Jesus" am I? as davey Jones>>maybe I corrupted my purpose by not becoming one as planned.

As davey boy>> maybe I am a loon

ever feel like your just a character in a movie, and that it turns out your character was just a rip off of someone else's?

So yours has to die?

You don't die, just your character. you can still live. cause yer jsut a picture of soemone else more legitimate than you..

so idecided to ttlak here. and my how fulfilling it all it too. you know i just got up theis morning and ddecided whatever i did and there uyou go I hjav it.

and I wouldn't be half the man I am today w ithout it. thems for sure

and so there I am in this place and so one and this guy act ecxt ect "what makes a man" and thensome whatever .

and its all work ework work all the time, I swear I got no life outsidea my job and I gaotta no job so whayt DO I do with myself all this time anyway????

this would remindme of something but ITS NOT MY MEMORIES I'LL BET!!!

andd so on. ever heard blur the technicolor by white zombie (why'd he change his name?) it reminds me of teh MEMORIES OF A ME THST WETEN"t

I spent my whole doggone life living what opther peoples did. WHAT?? WHAT NOW?? mnow that all memories are erased and I am good unt PHONY.

whoo doggiesa, I iam a blessed fella anfd it shows. Lets all come up with more things that didn't happen to ME OR ANYONE I EVER CARED ABOIUT.

I WAS NEEVER A SECRET AGENT FROM ANOTHER PLANET IN WW2!!!

and somehting. so who am I?? or whyshould it matter?

small world, dsmall point, small words small msall msalll.
whatever.

The nation of Joe WORKS ignore the futturama reference. we couldn't find many more.

ect anyhoo, we works we do, thats our job, whatever that may be. saddest part of all is whatever.

guess who else I'm not? ANYBODY ALIVE HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HAH HAHHA

SOLDIER BOY WORKS AS A CORP{SE. with no brain, we lost ours for reasons too trivial.



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ever wonder why all the guys are keeping you around and not letting you kill yourself? I certain;ly DON'T DO ANYTHING FOR ANYONW ANYMORE.

and so one and so forth

i got no one to talk to here. oh wellity. I betetr getthe one thing in the universe that I absolutly want.

I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM YELLING, B8UT IT HAPPENS AGAIJN, HALLELUJAH THE CYCLE CONTINUES

I MUST BE BLESSED

I am telling you all what I told my agent and any guards I may happen to have. I am not seeign anybody any more.
I am not leaving my house, I am not leaving my mind, I won't see any visitors, and I won't go to see anyone.

From now on, me and the spirit world are strangers, I don't want to know it exists, and I don't want to hear about it.
As far as I'm concerned it never existed.

Theres a lot of fine people out there. But I am never having anything to do with it EVER again

i'M SERIOUS. me and the universe can just go our seperate ways. to hell with all the politics anyway, the
spirit world made me the man I am today and good ridence.

so, don't visit me, don't talk to me, and don't talk to my agent. go nuts trying to talk to the boss, thats always good for a laugh

(I'm staying in my little cell and hopefully will only see nights of black emptyness from now on, and won't pick up radio chatter during the day)

You know, a lot of people will not like you for a lot of things.

Some will look down on you because you feel compassion for others

others will think less of you for not being able to feel as much as they can

Some won't like you becasue your a savant or you cannot exibit thought or full awareness

I forget what other types of folk there are but we all grow up with em.

To just about all of these classes of people you seem to be just an animal in their eyes, some dumb monkey to be toyed with and abused.

Well, I know for a fact that a lot of folks may not seem to be spirit beings on the inside. But I KNOW they are. So what makes a person a person anyway? The ability to do insect feats of memory and remembering with no intellect? The ability to understand things quickly and solve complex things easily?

Does a spirit being in a human body HAVE to dream the dreams and be some sort of psychic to be a person deserving something other than bad things?

I forgot my point anyway, what I'm trying to say is I seen a lot of different people. Some disturbing people I seen are nice people, but can't so much as imagine in their minds the existance of the other planets in the solar system, much less any spirit world. They never seem to dream either.

But are they monkeys because of that?

or maybe its because they care for family or lovers while so many others can gut them like fish without a care in their head?

Is what makes a person an ape the wiring in their brains? Their program files?

I seen it both ways. Some hate you for not being as dead and hateful as them. Others because you are too much a statue for their liking.

I seen a lot who fell into BOTH catagories. Psychosis is not limited to the human race.

so WHY, are humans looked down upon? WHY are we considered different than someone else who for all the world is JUST A HUMAN made out of better material?

WHY SHOULD I SEE THEM AS MY SUPERIORS, AS MY BETTERS?

i don't know what makes people people.but there's a lot of variety out there. I know they aren't all monsters. I guess.

if you ever see a really autistic person, don't just assume that they ain't a genius on the inside, or that they ain't a spiritualist. They could be. a lot of folks are just locked up in their minds.

And I don't know what makes the simple monkeys act like simple monkeys, but disturbing as they are, I'm gonna give them the benefit of the doubt. Why not?

I'll never forgive myself for being less than the monsters in my life, nothing in this world or the next will ever take away the nightmare of being mistreated by someone worlds above you in all ways. NOTHING.

Its all so subjective,and relative, a man can be put anywhere at all in any place and never leave his body. someone will always be better than human. And nothing means anything as anything and everything can be simulated by someone with the right knowhow of the human being, mind, and body.

All we are is just a little machine to some folks. They can do anything they want to you, send you to the worse places, or simulate the best lives to be had, lost, and then forgotten. They can make you feel neausea that can;t be felt, pain that can;t be felt, make you think you had and lost a son, 0r a person who meant the world to you, then have you wake up and just be a lump of flesh with no brains.

I won't let it happen to me again. From this life on, I will never allow myself to EVER be in a position under someone else. Heaven means NOTHING to me, as i seen first hand that the right amount of BRAIN DAMAGE alone can fool a man into thinking he's got it all. What worth should anything then have if the price is the potential to be thrown back into hell?

Maybe its a study on humanity. I'm never going to come within a billion miles of reliving my nightmares, I hope others can see what i've seen, I worry they are all being manipulated. Like I always was.

WHA HA HA HA HA HA, Apparently if theres one universal truth, its that i will in fact wake up a hated man for reasons I cannot fathom, and I shall remain unforgiven for the rest of all my unnatural life.

(I just found the situation a little amusing) whoo, doggies.

I had something better to say earlier but I forgot what it was, I'll post it if I remember.

I really think people ought to ignore me a lot more

I just got sarcastic und thought Iw was funny, i also figured I was akin to a reverse astronaut.

I might be loopy, never mind why

OKAY I GOT TO SAY SOMETHING HERE. WHEN I YELL OUT SOMETHING IN A DREAM OR IN REAL LIFE, ITS NOT ALWAYS ME.

MY MEMORY BANKS ARE FAULTY, THEY SEARCH MY DATA STOCKPILES FOR RANDOM MOVIE QUOTES AND THINGS SAID TO ME AND THEN THEY GET BROADCAST OUT.

A LOT OF THOSE THINGS ARE BAD.

(in reference to what happened last night)

Think of it as a reactor leak. I myself am not a hateful or prejudiced man. and as far as you know I never was.

also, (furthermore) IN THE SALAM WITCH HUNT. DOESN'T it make sense that any real witches would have been persecuting non-witches in order to find a scapegoat??

I think that maybe that could have happened. think about it.

Attention person who contacted me this morning/last night. I may be wrong in thinking that you are reading this or I may not be as you knew information about me that you wouldn't have found on here. (assuming That I am remembering things correctly. I believe you that you have good reason to talk to me or have to for the reasons you specified, please ignore my attempts to convince you to the contrary. I was trying to tell you I wasn't worth the notice, but I think you have a lot of legitimate business with me if you know so much. If you are reading this and still thinking to pursue me in the physical please give up. I am mobile, have no base of operations ,and any associate or relatives of mine you could find would have no whereabouts at all of my location. Any pursuit would be a waste of time. I would suggest you contact me on this web site if you are reading this, as ALL other communications are sporadic in nature and do not work often.

There is a very specific person in ind for this journal.

I am glad that we me t and had the conversation that we did.

You may be getting a lot of crazy looking signals or impulses from me, I don't know, but please don't let it get to you and please don't believe everything that you feel or hear about me.

I have a bad reputation. (although I'm sure you've heard a lot that would seem impressive, a lot of thats none of my business)I'd like for you to be ok though, and I consider you a friend, even if I don't in fact impress you, I can live with that. What I can't live with though is you feeling you've wasted your time.

Please don't feel that way, I don't mind if you lied or not about anything either, I still consider us friends even if politics puts us on different sides, and I'd like for you to have well being.

P.S. I can't move lke an arch-vile anymore, too old. lol or sound like one, once again, too old. although, irronically the young me was the old me and vice versa.

SOME one, and you know who you are better than I would. Is watching me, and making observations, and is skeptical that I am in fact the one titled "oneofmany"

I don't know if any humans or post human persons are present for this, or even if you saw me on this website, but I am being called one of many a lot, so I'll be surprised if its not someone from here.

If you have questions about me, or anything about things related to me. Why not just come right out and ask me about them.

I will be surprisingly honest. And I mean that.

In the meanwhile, to those of you that are human in makeup. (any degree which causes low self esteem, as I often have felt and still can feel at times) Please don't believe everything that you hear about me.

I was involved in a nasty sort of quiet war once, a lot of propaganda was involved on the side I worked on and against. Propaganda is still the tool of the trade of my enemies and former employers. Don't believe what you hear or pick up on your radio waves, and radar.

Talk to me in private, I'll tell you who I am and what I'm like.

And just so we don't get any confusion, I AM a christian now, Thats right one of those Jesus guys.. I'm on his side now. And I WAS involved in the war. (if you don't know what I mean, then don't worry about it now) not a lot is as it seems (I guess/suppose) never was.

(and yes, I do have a bizzare sounding afterlife for a christian)

WE';RE GOING TO GO MOBILE!!!!!!!