Hello lovely people!

I'll be working on art, trades, requests ect up until wendesday

Wednesday I'll be having my second eye surgery to try and help prevent blindness, it's going to be painful and ill lose half my sight for a week maybe more so art won't be possible for a little while

I'm still happy to except trades and things but just be mindful that I might be a while!

Also some PTSD trauma memories have been popping back up so if I don't reply tight away dont take it personal!

🖤pale🖤

Most likely moving over to DA so I can upload more variety off things
https://www.deviantart.com/paleeclipse - me
Drop me links so I can follow you c:

Hello 👋

I want to try and be active as an "artist" again, I think I'll try some trades or at least post some drawings now and then

If anybody wants to do a trade it will have to be this week or in a few weeks as I've got surgery next Tuesday and recovery will be a few weeks

Also I disseapered for like months because loads of personal family stuff happened, old abuser came back after 10 years and I almost lost a child family member

Things are a bit better now and I'm trying to get back to therapy

Looking forward to seeing everybody's art and characters

- pale

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55006887/

Free raffle for a really awesome character made by confused boo :3

Running until the 22nd Jan!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55.....#cid:176948404

Flithyfoxeternal is doing a giveaway raffle! Check em out they do some beautiful work ^-^

Not anything important but really wanted to share a cute bit off news

My family have been growing loads of things in our garden for example, chillies, tomato’s, blackberries and even pumpkins! We have are own little pumpkin patch <3

Used one today to make some spiced pumpkin cakes and also some blackberry jam to go with it, got the ingredients for pumpkin pie I’ve always wanted to try it but never seen it in the UK

We are going to be making pasta sauces, jams, chutneys ect and it’s so much fun, I love foraging through the garden and making things from scratch it’s been so rewarding and zen

It’s helped my mental health getting to cook nice things, also going to be foraging some acorns soon to as there’s an abundance off them and berries around the woodlands close by :)

So I've not been doing good for quite some time, my anxiety has gotten to the point of constant panic attacks, fear and self harm, my medications are not working at all and I've ended up spiraling and in hospital for cutting

I'm going to try and beat this, I've been given somthing new to take today, I'm hoping it helps with the anxiety/depression/PTSD because I've been suffering so dam much

I'm doubtful anybody will read this but writing this down might help me,

also I'm very overwhelmed so if anybody does reach out or anything please please don't be offended if I don't reply right away, there's a good chance I'll dissappear again for a while

(Also due to some resurfacing memories off child S.A ill be going to sfw mode for a while, just to minimise triggers)

Yea I think thats all, goodnight everyone x

Hey everyone!

So hellfire has been my main OC since I was 11 years old, she will always be a main character but from now on my personal and main fursona will be pale the lioness

She reflects on who I am now more than hellfire does -
Pale the lioness, her real name is ken but gets called pale or kenco mostly.

she's small, anxious, pretty lethargic but tries her best, she wears a diabetic omnipod on her chest and a freestyle libre on either arm, she has very pale fur, blonde hair and blue eyes, lots of freckles and her chest and arms are littered with little pink scars from all the needles and recent needle wounds.

Her hair is a bit scraggy as she's always taking naps, often carries a bag off all her medication and emergency injections for seizures and stuff.

She's genderfluid and pansexual, sometimes uses her hair like a mane when she's more masc, uses she/her pronouns but sometimes he/him when there's dysphoria issues

Female born body, curvy and chubby shape

ADHD goblin

Has some piercings, likes the emo/rock/metal she grew up on, especially MCR and avenged sevenfold

Clothing preference is oversized hoodies or tshirts, emo vibes, spooky clothes, comfy but cute

She loves to snuggle and make friends and help people, has lots of plusses and collects rocks, bones, curiosities

Engaged to courier the wolf - her life partner and my irl mate

https://toyhou.se/14178373.ken-pale.....llery#60555845

This is probably random as fuck but for the longest time I’ve really wanted a YCH or trade, ect off my sona pale/Ken in a scout regiment uniform from attack on Titan or just zooming about on ODM gear, if anybody knows any active YCH’s or anything could you let me know please c:

I know I could commission somebody but I don’t have the type of money for that sadly or I 100% would have by now ;__;

(there’s some people I’d freaking love to commission on here)

I’m a massive anime fan but AOT is one of my hyper obsessions (ADHD super fixation time yay)
Actually if there’s any anime themed YCH on here please lemme know and hook a small nerd up ;D

To anybody who visits the Tesco near where I live
If you go to buy ready salted pringles...
I'm so sorry

My short ass pulled over the whole box trying to reach them and they shattered everywhere
And I put the tubes back and ran

In my defence I am very short

Hey!

I’m partially back on here ^_^

I’ve been gone for ages, I got a head injury then I was ill for freaking ages

Mental health did a complete nose dive and I ended up needing hospital treatment
I won’t go into it as it could be really triggering to some people

I’m getting support and some more medication and starting psychotherapy soon

But anyway I’ll be trying to get back into drawing and posting more art, my social scale is pretty low, so please be patient with me, give me time to reply/ respond

and please know I’m not gonna ignore anybody, I love you all but I will need time

It’s nice to be back, looking forward to seeing all your art <3

- pale <3

Hey guys

So I had an accident and basically I’ve bruised my skull and have a pretty bad concussion that’s also effecting my diabetes, got to be monitored for a week in case of brain bleeding and then it may be up to 3 weeks before the pain and my now wonky right eye return to normal

I’ll be away for awhile while I’m recovering, looking forward to returning and seeing all your lovely art <3

Much love for you all

I wanted to share this squeak fluff balls demand for dinner with you all

https://youtu.be/ljFKKhSPq1Q

Hey everyone!

I’ve been away for a while and for a good reason really, just over a week or so again me and courier rescued a terrified young cat with her few day old baby, the mother is a kitten still herself, tiny little terrified fluffball, her baby was hurt, I won’t go into detail but her kitten was put to sleep when we got them medical attention.

Mother cat had already been through so much at this point, abandoned hungry lost her babies and then the car we where travelling in got into a crash.

Honestly it was a horrible messed up day, we got her home planning to keep her safe and then she escaped!??!

So we looked for her, cried that we lost her and then found the next day she was hiding under the oven, she’s so small she can get anywhere.

So every day since I have been up at 7am, feeding her a bowl of dry and a bowl of wet food, sorting her litter tray, looking for her previous owner, trying to make her safe, talking to her from under the cupboards, gently coaxing her out as much as possible....

And BAM

all off a sudden she’s in my lap purring and kissing me all over, the last two days my sweet baby girl has followed me everywhere constant kissing, headbutting and snuggling with me, she even got in bed with me this morning for cuddles, she is fucking inspiration the most loving and sweetest baby I’ve ever met, yes she’s still adjusting, hiding and getting spooked but she’s by my side meowing at me when she needs comfort and being more and more cheeky and playful.

Nobody has tried to claim her and I’m glad because they obviously didn’t treat her right, she’s been spoiled rotten and in a few weeks time will be getting spayed and chipped, her personalised collar is already on the way.
So to make a long story short, I’ve adopted peridot/ perry and I’ve found out just how grateful and loving cats are, she’s my little depression chaser, and she’s done just as much for me as I have her <3

I adore my little rescue kitty

Good morning everybody,
That’s all!
Just wanted to wish everybody who sees this a lovely day <3

I’m actually in shock right now at the audacity of some people

So 2 years ago I added an artist on here as I like their work and saw they spoke to a few of my friend, we didn’t speak as they deactivated there account

Not long after this I had messages off a few people I didn’t know telling me how said user was spreading rumours about me and complaining about the sexual remarks I’d be constantly making to them...

LIKE WHAT THE FUCK WE NEVER EVER SPOKE!!!!!!

I DIDNT KNOW THEM AND THEY TOLD PEOPLE I WAS ESSENTIALLY SEXUALLY HARASSING THEM WHO TF DOES THAT!!!!

Makes it even worse I couldn’t message them to confront them as they got rid of there account well the one I knew off

It made me feel physically sick as a person who’s been sexually abused and harassed and to be accused of this type of thing, it’s fucking gross and sickening


So said person decided to contact me and randomly ask why I added them as a friend years ago, completely out of the blue like they had a right to speak to me after accusing me of vile things

Honestly I just got back onto this site because I miss my friends and their art and now I’m just shaking with anger

So I’m on medication and seeing a psychologist for my mental health but at the moment neither are really helping,
I keep having nightmares and flash backs to a lot of trauma I’ve gone through,
Getting anxiety that makes me shake and feel sick,
I’m exhausted from the lack of rest and trying to deal with suicidal and self harm thoughts and the general self hatred.

I’m really trying my best but it’s hard, constant anxiety, feeling abandonment and remembering all the abuse I’ve been through and just wanting to disappear it’s hard.

I want to feel free, relaxed and loved but my brain hates me.

On top of that my health is kinda shit, mental health makes my diabetes and immune system crash so yea....kidneys are in agony RN

I don’t know what to do with myself, I keep thinking of running away or hurting myself.

Man fuck everything right now ><

Might not be posting much art, I’m not sure if I’ll have the energy but it is also a distraction.

Sorry if this upsets anybody or offends them, but I needed to vent somewhere where I won’t get shit (hopefully)

Hellfire - Main OC she is a demon lioness can be feral or anthro and both nsfw and sft, she is pansexual and has female anatomy

Pale eclipse - Secondary OC, they are a pansexual and genderfluid Puma can be both feral or anthro and nsfw, they have female anatomy and go by he and she pronouns

Spike ( my partners OC owned and created by me)

Lucid- Hyena, they are pan, and anthro, can be nsfw, they have boobs and a penis, go by they/them

Quartz - Wolf he is gay and has Male anatomy, goes by he/him, is anthro and can be nsfw

Peach Melba - munchkin cat, feral, pansexual she/ her no nsfw

Cookie butter - Bat is female, pan and anthro, goes by she/her can be nsfw

Luzil- lion cub, Male, feral and only a child no nsfw

blueberry muffin - fox/raccoon - she, feral only a child/ no nsfw

Plasma - Ghost lion, Male, feral, Ace

Mochi- Shiba inu, feral, puppy, male no nsfw

Spectrum - Anthro Android , pansexual anthro, Wolf like design, goes by any pronoun

Hey peeps
I’ll be going away to scotland to visit the family so I won’t be back online till Friday probably :)
Looking forward to seeing more art when I come back from all you lovely talented people <3

Hey people c:
I know I’ve been inactive for a while and I’ve got a few messages to reply to and read in my inbox but I’ve been unwell and very busy ><

I’m not ignoring anybody and will start replying soon,
I’ve got lots of things to complete/start so my ar my not be posting art soon XD I’ll try and see what I can do

I’ve also been getting really distracted by thunderstorms and rain and then I can’t get anything done because I love listening to it and watching it so nyah c:
Hope you all have a good day/night <3