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My first meal
Posted 13 years agoI finally had my first meal after my surgery. I have been on a liquid diet and have been eating mostly broth since last Thursday. Today, I had two bites of egg, a bite of french toast and a sausage patty. I can't believe I get full off of such a small amount of food! I have to chew my food into the tiniest little bits. It hurts so badly to swallow XD
This diet is going to change my relationship with food completely. I'm used to eating as much crap as I want and now I am going to have to eat food for fuel instead.
Tonight I am going to try to tackle pasta with cheese sauce. Yay.
I am so thankful for my mate. He has taken the best care of me through all of this. Without him I really dont know how I would have made it through the weekend. Props to my sheppie.
This diet is going to change my relationship with food completely. I'm used to eating as much crap as I want and now I am going to have to eat food for fuel instead.
Tonight I am going to try to tackle pasta with cheese sauce. Yay.
I am so thankful for my mate. He has taken the best care of me through all of this. Without him I really dont know how I would have made it through the weekend. Props to my sheppie.
Day after surgery. Also, I now have a twitter!
Posted 13 years agoI just got a twitter for my fursona. Feel free to request to follow me there! Http://www.twitter.com/fuzzypandablue
In other news. I'm in the hospital and had my prcedure today. Oh my god I hurt all over! It was on my stomach but the rest of my body is in so much pain! I can barely move.
Although I'm a little fluffy around the middle, this surgery will fix that for sure. I was reading a 3rd of my stomach is wrapped around my esophagus now so I will lose alot of weight. But hopefully this will procedure will end my suffering for GERD and globus.
I have the best mate. He gave me a stuffed red panda, and was with me pretty much the whole night. He helped me trough my anxiety and fear prior by making jokes and acting like a derpy sheppie! He truly is the best thing to happen to me! He also introduced me to FA and is convinced I'm a closet fur.
Thank you all for the comments, shouts and love <3
-Pandablue
In other news. I'm in the hospital and had my prcedure today. Oh my god I hurt all over! It was on my stomach but the rest of my body is in so much pain! I can barely move.
Although I'm a little fluffy around the middle, this surgery will fix that for sure. I was reading a 3rd of my stomach is wrapped around my esophagus now so I will lose alot of weight. But hopefully this will procedure will end my suffering for GERD and globus.
I have the best mate. He gave me a stuffed red panda, and was with me pretty much the whole night. He helped me trough my anxiety and fear prior by making jokes and acting like a derpy sheppie! He truly is the best thing to happen to me! He also introduced me to FA and is convinced I'm a closet fur.
Thank you all for the comments, shouts and love <3
-Pandablue
Im terrified
Posted 13 years agoI tend to act like nothing is wrong in my life. I want to please others and also mask my own insecurities to keep myself safe from humiliation and rejection. The mask that I wear is not only a power instrument of selfdefense, but equally powerful to offend others.
I have this major surgery coming up Jan 2nd and I am completey terrified. You never know how the surgery will result. What if there was a complication but Nava wasn't allowed to be with me because he isn't my domestic partner?
Furthermore, what if I pass away? I have felt for a long time that body has been trough alot of drama and physical crap.
I value my life and try to live a day, a moment, at a time but it can be very difficult.
Anyway, is it better to hide my greif and toughen up a little bit? Or is it best to just feel my feelings to their core and let them out.
I have this major surgery coming up Jan 2nd and I am completey terrified. You never know how the surgery will result. What if there was a complication but Nava wasn't allowed to be with me because he isn't my domestic partner?
Furthermore, what if I pass away? I have felt for a long time that body has been trough alot of drama and physical crap.
I value my life and try to live a day, a moment, at a time but it can be very difficult.
Anyway, is it better to hide my greif and toughen up a little bit? Or is it best to just feel my feelings to their core and let them out.
A good cause!
Posted 13 years agoOh my god
Posted 13 years agoI have no idea how this site works. I win best boyfriend award for making an account. Now what?
NOW WHAT?
NOW WHAT?
