Yesterday I and Thorpe Park lost a great friend and fantastic employee. Rushed to hospital with unexpected breathing problems then to find a massive inoperable tumour. Although I only knew her for 9 months, she became a fantastically close friend outside of work, frequently going with her to the pub and always getting eachother confectionary treats - Wine Gums for me and jazzies for her.

I'm devastated, especially as we were having a conversation about when next to meet up the day before all this happened.

RIP Loraine - go cause havoc up there =)

So many zebras..... All over the place..... Bring sexy..... Can't. Control. Self. *drools*

I'm obsessed!

Help >_<

Fucked off from here because all you awful human beings [who won't even admit to being human beings - what's up with that?! XD] ever do is pretend to be something you're not and upload porn. Ewwwwww. Well, some of it's cool..... *innocently whistles*

But I recently got bombarded on FB, lol, because one of ma best buds from work found out I was a furry whilst I was rather drunkenly watching TLK around hers..... Ooops. And I realised I sort of missed it around here.

Also, I rediscovered my love for taking the piss out of EVERYTHING on a geeky roller coaster forum, so thought I'd extend the dark sarcasm to FA too!

And before y'all kick off, yes I *am* a bloody Time Lord, m'kay? I has sonic screwdriver, so screw you, nerrrrr. *blows raspberries*

In other news, still very broken and shitty. Ne'er mind eh, everyone sucks.

Oh, and today I got my first new phone since May 2009! That's right, whilst it's not broken, I've finally laid my Nokiaberry to rest, and replaced it with THAT'S RIGHT a NEW Nokia! And it's ELECTRICFUCKINGBLUE! The guy in the shop was blates scared at how excited I was that it came in that colour haha! It's fab <3

Lots of Love,

FagadoxTheElectricBlueHuskyWhoClaimsHe'saTimeLordCozHeHasSonicScrewdriver *nods*

xXx

This past month I've been getting really down because with VERY little exception NOTHING in my life is going right. And I've found that I'm spending more time than my body can physically cope with at work just to distract myself from my own miserable excuse for an existence. Admittedly, getting lots of money for it is fab, but at the end of the day money REALLY isn't going to buy me happiness.

On a personal level, I've never really felt loved - from my family certainly not, I have an on/off relationship with my mother; but that's only ever as a friend never on what'd be considered a mother/son thing =(. I'm also ugly, have horrifically bad skin, hideously overweight and just rubbish in general. I'm an obnoxious twat who's happier when he's pissing everyone off and don't really have anything in the way of comfort coming from any direction. And quite a lot of the time, although I try so SO hard to not let it on publicly I just break-down like a car crash and want to crawl into a hole and never come out.

That said, this is all a bit melodramatic and I'm sure I'll live. I also agree that most of it is probably my own fault for being so rubbish in the first place, but that's a catch-22 in itself! Doesn't mean I'm happy about it though - but I'm glad to get it off my chest.

For those of you (maybe 2 at best) wondering why I haven't updated, it's because my craptop decided to crash on me and WIPE the backup on reboot! >_<

No-one's more pissed than I, there was some good shit in there! I'm lacking the motivation and time to redo it at the moment though - my deepest apologies.

In other news - Pokemon White is AMAZING! Zebstrika LOVES life!!!11!! <3 and ZOMG that 'Fender' character on FA's banner atm is PHIT, I would *murrrrr*!!! (Just don't tell my boyfriend! =P)

So yeah, um, I've started storyboarding and mind-mapping for a new project. An entire SERIES of stories.

Expect the pilot episode some-time in February with a series of 6 stories being released on a weekly basis around March/April.

They won't be dirty pornos either, so most of you can just leave now anyway.

Watch this space! ^_^

Well, I've nothing better to do, sitting around on my backside avoiding all noise whatsoever, so have my first journal!

Yay! Christmas! Yada yada yada *feigns excitement*... tbh, beyond the greed, booze and family fun I really don't give a shit about Christmas. It was also made all the more of a non-event by the fact that a certain hyena wasn't there with me! ='(

So, being me, I turned to the 6 bottles of Buck's Fizz I'd stocked in the fridge and drank heartily! It certainly covered the 'merry' aspect of the holiday season. Shrek 4 vore, Rhod Gilbert's amusement, Inception's intelligent bore, Xmas dinner NOMS and then Die Hard!!!

It turned out all right I suppose, but I know what would've made it perfect! <3

So here I am now, stuck in a sort of haze of husky hangover headache...... Debating whether or not to tell my parents that I have found the love of my life and that he's a guy... FML. I know I'll have to eventually, it's just the impending disappointment I feel I can't face.

Aww well, I hope y'all had a fab Xmas and are enjoying your holidays. I'm going to go and lie-down.