I may start looking for a "size consultant" for a fantasy project I'm working on on the side, to help me measure what sizes I can get away with "within reason".

Hello. Has it really been this long since my last post? Yikes. Anyway, how you all been doing?

Well, here's the story, and I'm probably going to sound like a broken record at this point, but I want to be transparent.

Problem 1. For about five months I've been a NEET again. Lack of money for college, which I'm close to wrapping up, and also my mom thinking I can handle to pay thousands every month, plus reenrollment, thus leaving me in the dirt until she recently started helping me by paying for the rest of college. Enter the next part:

Problem 2. Mental health. Nothing to worry about, but depression and ADHD have been screwing my head for so long. Only recently did I start taking the meds for the former, but the latter is still ruining my daily life, though that will have to wait, as my mom wants me to pay for the treatment, even though she still offered to support me. This is also connected to the next part:

Problem 3. I'm very bad at managing my own money. Truth to be told, I've never been taught properly how to do this, therefore I've done stupid spendings here and there, which I've been trying to remedy.

Problem 4. Burnout, burnout, burnout. The reason I haven't updated my commission list is that I've been doing several commissions at once, to my own detriment because I don't know how to manage my own time, and the ADHD really doesn't help it, so I've gone through long periods of burnout. Hence, poor work ethic.

So, for my followers, what can I guarantee to you all after this radio silence? I simply ask you to be a bit patient with me. I am working towards delivering more stories at a faster rate. My latest story was meant to be part of a big batch, that I'd post all at once, but I think there's still a ways to go, so I may as well post it first so I can focus on the rest.

In truth, I don't think I really have an excuse for all of this. I've been zoning in and out of time in this post-covid period of my life, and I still am trying to get a grip on everything, and I still can't "adult" like I should.

I'm simply asking you all to understand.

I don't like talking about my life in public. I'd prefer to keep it to at least my friends and I. With that said, I think I owe you all to let you know this much.

My life has been emotionally turbulent behind the scenes. Let's just say, for the sake of brevity, that my parents have damaged my life for as long as I've lived. I won't delve into all the details, but thanks to them I have developed a form of chronic depression, and there's divorce and a cult involved.

They haven't harmed me, mind you, but they have said some things that ate their way into my brain for three decades and counting, involving indoctrination, paranoia, quackery, manipulation, and something more insidious that I'd rather not talk about.

This, and the pandemic, led to the past five years of me spending most of my time at home. I haven't been able to write at the pace I want, and while I've been trying to get out of this depressive monotony by learning to draw, I haven't accomplished anything I wanted. All I do is stare at the screen, trying to motivate myself to draw or to write. Yet I can't. And so I tune in on a stream or video, and talk to anyone online, who isn't any of my parents, simply... existing, to make things easier for me.

It's difficult to find joy on most things I like. I even find it hard to even watch an animated show or play a game, because I'm not immediately gratified or my mind finds it difficult to focus on something for more than ten seconds. I stay up late so I can keep talking to my online friends, while trying to get something written or drawn.

I'm stuck in a personal Hel of my own, and I've been trying to get my parents to help me go to a therapist, but my controlling mom seems bent on stalling to have me move to her house and be dependent on her, or worse. Went as far as prioritizing her work trip instead of sending money over to help me pay for a consultation. And I'd rather not move there. She's not a good person even though she thinks she is.

Either way, this is my current situation. I've been so stressed by my mom and how much she ruined my life that a couple strands of my hair turned white. Will it get better? I can only hope, because that's the one thing that's keeping me from having any more ideations than I already have. I haven't looked forward this much for a therapist before.

Thank you if you read all the way to the end of my ramblings. I just felt like I should've put this out there.

As if this year couldn't get any more difficult, it's monsoon season and there are leaks on three rooms in my house. My lazy miser dad isn't moving a finger to fix it because he thinks we just need the bare necessities to keep going, which also includes buying enough food for a day.

So I'm taking it upon myself to fix the damn house before water starts dripping in my office, because I'm sick and tired of living like this.
Thus I'm asking you, from the bottom of my heart, please help with donations. Anything helps.
https://www.patreon.com/c/CountessBonacieux

Decided to make my own musclegut server, just as a general archive to share anything related to one of my favorite kinks.
https://discord.gg/jSTDMAz23W

Well, I've been hit with the news. I'll keep it short, but my mom is screwing up the family's money.

Thing is, it's hard to take care of my own gains because I've never been properly taught how to manage my money, and I've occasionally relied to buy my own dinner several times due to my dad's scrooge behavior. Those two are co-dependent polar opposites: He's a huge scrooge who thinks living just above the survival line is enough, hence the entire lawn is overgrown and the water filter tastes weird. She is a waster, spending cash thoughtlessly, and is currently on a dispute to sap as much cash from him as possible. Even divorced they still fight like a couple of ghouls. She wants me to live away from him, but her apartment has no doors and I refuse to share a roof with that witch. Yet she refuses to help me when I say I need a place of my own, and she's suddenly absent whenever I need my medical needs like the dentist, even though she says she wants to help and loves me.

I feel useless. I don't know what to do and I think I'll have to go back to being a NEET, because she has yet to pay for my college tuition. Those two crippled my life as much as they could due to some non-existential love they never had for me, born from that damned ayahuasca piss.

I'm hanging in there, I'm trying not to despair, but I'm exhausted.

Truth is, I've been hit with extreme burnout. I've been trying to get back into writing, slowly, but it's been difficult. The will is just not there most of the time. I don't know, I love writing, but this is the first time I've been dealing with something like this.

I'm going to be updating my guidelines, mostly my do's and don'ts's:

-The minimum price will be 25$ for every 1,000 words.
-Payment has to be done through PayPal.
-Commission details shall be accepted through notes here or on DA or through Discord. Please DON'T send any commission details through PayPal. I don't want my account to be locked.

Male and female characters are allowed. There are no limitations as for franchises or OCs. If it's someone else's OCs, then you have to ask them for permission.
Real people are not allowed. I will not do anything involving live action characters, celebrities, public figures, models, or any real people you know, dead or alive.


Things I love and will absolutely do:
-Growth, expansion, weight gain, muscle growth, macrophilia, giantess, size theft, musclegut, vore (mostly oral), TF, inflation, facesitting, hyper, smothering, uneven growth, corruption.


Fetishes that I'm neutral about but have no qualms about writing or prefer to do them in tandem with other fetishes:
-Hypnosis, bimbofication, lip expansion, mental TF, pregnancy, futanari, cock growth, twinning, sweat, cuminflation, brutefication (to an extent), feet/paws (to an extent), blueberry.


Fetishes I will absolutely not do:
-Farts, scat, goru, object TF, petrification, shrinking, bad smells, crushing.

Because others are doing it, I'm throwing in an invite to my server. While at it, you can DM me for a commission.

https://discord.gg/pXKxVzKpxS

The growth drive is almost done, but recent things that happened in my life have put me in a difficult situation. I've been paying for my own dinner frequently, and my credit card is almost busted, so I'm going to make a new "first come, first serve" rule for the time being.


This is also a major call for all commissioners with pending commissioners. If you have a commission still pending, please DM me here, or on my Discord server.


You can also donate to the drive here:

https://ko-fi.com/ulchabaneirinn


And to my Patreon:
https://www.patreon.com/CountessBonacieux

EDIT:
You can get a discount depending on which characters you choose:

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10626916/

https://www.patreon.com/posts/2nd-k.....tent=join_link

The premise: Miko Kubota, from Glitch Techs, is possessed by a Glitch who gradually turns her into a Kaiju, and Miko slowly grows bigger and stronger the more she wrecks and devours the buildings around her, evolving further and further. Will Five and his Hinobi companions be able to stop her?!

By the way, you're free to leave suggestions on what should happen. I have a general idea for the story, but I'm open to suggestions of what kind of path it should take.

I already have a list, but it's short, and since I love Kaiju TF so much and I plan on keeping the train going even after June is over, I'd like suggestions for whom I could turn into a big 'n' heavy kaiju.

With so many things happening these past couple of months, I decided to rekindle my Patreon and start putting work for Kaijune.


I'll still try to type as fast as I'm able to, even with a new plaster cast on, but I'll open up suggestions and voting for Kaijune stories there.


Right now the focus is on shapeshifting characters, if you want to check my Patreon:


https://www.patreon.com/posts/react.....tent=join_link

First and foremost: Due to recent issues, I must ask you to message me if you have any pending commissions, if you don't see your name on the list. 2024 had a pretty rough start between computer issues and the coming and going ruts, and I lost track of information and time. Please, if you have a commission, message me.




-  entropy-zeta : Long Disney XD Story, featuring several characters from different Disney series in a crossover. Status: On hiatus.

-  CrazyA1 : FMG/TF/Hyper story featuring his and his friend's OCs. Status: 20% done

- Luz Noceda galactic growth fic, with musclegut, TF, some brute-fication. 20% done.

- Rey Ayanami's musclegut story, part 2.

- Telegram Commission: Client's OC eating and growing into a musclegut giantess.

-  NuckyArts : Special case. Because Nucky donated to me to help pay for the expenses of my dog's treatment, and that fell through with the passing of my dog, I'm going to write a number of commissions for him.

- Anonymous private story. Giantess, FMG, facesitting, buttcrush.

- Discord commission with client's OC. FMG.

- Discord commission with a number of OCs. Muscle growth, general growth, expansion.

- Open Slot



WAITING LIST:

- Slot available

- Slot available


READ THIS IF YOU WANT TO COMMISSION ME:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9581649/

SUPPORT MY ONGOING GROWTH DRIVE HERE:
https://ko-fi.com/ulchabaneirinn

I said this on my DA and I hoped it would've stopped by now but ever since the year started there has been brownouts in my area. Or rather, electronics aren't getting enough energy and are randomly shutting down. Case in point, my PC, which has slowing down my work to a crawl.

It's definitely not my motherboard or else it wouldn't be shutting down arbitrarily. It doesn't help that the neighbors have been doing some shady stuff as of late, and my guess is that they've been overusing energy on their side because there's been way too much remodeling there.

I don't know, my hands are tied until the shitty energy company does some or my neighbors stop their incessant remodeling.

We're almost halfway there, everyone. If we can speed things up, we'll see the drive to its full completion. Please, any donations help. Thank you.

There was a miscalculation on the stage goals on the growth drive.

When I was doing the calculations, I forgot that stage 1 was already going to be released. These are the correct numbers to get us to the end.

1 - value
2 - 167
3 - 333
4 - 500
5 - 667
6 - 833
7 - 1000


I apologize for any confusion.

You know the drill:

https://discord.gg/nhzjzw6xD - General fetish server

https://discord.gg/3QyFvgEDNG - muscle growth server

Happy birthday to me

Here it is.

https://discord.gg/ckaJfWqG

Pass it around, get your friends together and come by.

Reminder that this is the donation link:

==> https://ko-fi.com/ulchabaneirinn/goal?g=0 <==

1. 140 <(we're here!)
I
2. 285
I
3. 425
I
4. 570
I
5. 710
I
6. 855
I
7. 1000

We're just shy of 50 dollars to achieve it, the 2nd stage's goal being 140 dollars. I will post a complete list with every goal later.

It has finally begun.

Here is the donation link! Help Michiru GROW!

==> https://ko-fi.com/ulchabaneirinn/goal?g=0 <==

This is where I share most of my kinks, going from muscle growth to vore.

https://discord.gg/WB6us8CGh