Hello

There's been prolonged radio silence from me for the past few... weeks? Months? Let's go with months. That's what it feels like

I had been juggling a lot of plates and doing a lot of paperwork that took up much of my attention and free time. Apologies for neglecting to mention that to anyone. And for not speaking with people much in general. With everything that had been going on, I wanted to be sure everything was done before I said what I would be doing and where I would be going

I'm back in Korea, this time in a small town. But I like it. The people here are friendly and kind. I will stay here for a while

Once I've gotten adjusted to my work schedule, I'll resume work on writing

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How have you been? What have you been up to? I haven't talked to people in quite a while

I don't really use social media and only set this up relatively recently:

https://bsky.app/profile/pallopip.bsky.social

I'll eventually™ post things there. Feel free to follow me.

Or don't. I'm just a talking bird - I can't tell you what to do.

Over notes

I actually like talking with people about characters, art, stories or whatever else believe it or not. It's always something that's been there although I never advertise it. I may not get to them immediately, but I will eventually™ respond. :v

Apologies for the months of silence. I'm back home and hadn't seen my family in nearly a decade. I still have a lot of catching up to do.

A big thank you to the surprising number of watchers who've turned up in my absence - welcome aboard. Clearly I should go dormant more often :v

I'll work on more things and they'll eventually™ be posted.

So, uh, what've y'all been up to? I'd love to know!

Happy New Years to all of you! I hope the holiday season treated you and yours with kindness and love. :>

My mental health had been in the gutter most of last year. That, combined with my physically and emotionally demanding job, meant I hadn't been able to do all the writing that I wanted to do.

That job ends in a few weeks. I need to take better care of myself physically and mentally and get back into the swing of things.

I need more giant dicks, tits, ass, thighs and feet in my life. Massive birds, goats, dragons, mice, sharks, too.

Shorter pieces. The fun and lewd scenarios I used to cook up with friends and write. 40+ page stories are fun to do, but I'm pretty sure they scare people off. :v Plus I've always written/edited at a glacial pace, and that just slows things down even more.

Here's to this year being better for all of us. Be good to each other.

I learned how to make thumbnails!

I also learned that FA does not rescale updated thumbnails for previously uploaded works, so they'll always be super tiny! Adding a thumbnail was how I discovered this. It deeply upset me and that's why I re-uploaded the newest story. Apologies for that.

Going forward, I'll be sure to include a thumbnail for any new stories I upload.

But I will leave this part to you, dear readers/watchers:

Should I update the old thumbnails anyway, or leave them as is?

I won't re-upload anything - everything will be left alone, just updated with a new thumbnail. Keep in mind, these would be the small 50 X 50 pixel images. This is what it looked like before: https://i.ibb.co/FX6BQP1/Pip-Example.png

Let me know what you think.

The W is for whenever, cuz no pressure.

Here or through notes is fine :v

Or imminent New Year's if you're in a distant time zone! Just think, you get to witness the rumbling approach of a looming new year!

Hopefully I can be more productive with writing this year. I do feel bad about not being as active as I had been in the past. Teaching takes so much out of me. :<

Be well, all of you!

The next profile is complete, but it doesn't have the appropriate picture (in my eyes, at least) to accompany it and it will be some time before I could get one. Should I:

A: Post anyway, but with a different picture of that character.

- or -

B: Post anyway, but replace that picture with a proper one when it's ready.

Be my coin flip, watchers!

Figured I'd make a journal. Been a while since I've done one of these!

I just wanted to say how I appreciate all of you for reading and commenting on my character profiles. It's a lot of fun opening up a blank word document and seeing it fill it up with pages of notes just from brainstorming with friends, and even more fun putting everything together into something I can share with you. And I hope you're enjoying them and learning about my characters as well! I'll get around to posting more artwork of them in the near future.

Thank you to all the new watchers who have come by, I hope you enjoy your stay!

Since I've got a few more to complete before I Eventually™ get back into proper story writing (and inevitably create more characters and profiles), I thought I'd ask if you're enjoying them so far:

- If so, why so?
- If not, why not?
- What about them do you like?
- What could be improved upon?

I'd really like to know what you think!

That's all for now. Take care!

The Daiso + HomePlus run begins... tomorrow.

In the morning, I will be moving to Gwangju (Jeonnam-do Gwangju), so expect some silence on my end while I get things set up. It shouldn't take too long, but you never know with this kind of thing. Be good!

This is something I have been pondering for a while. On one hand, I'm extremely bad about sharing any of the art that I have purchased/received, to the point where even my friends have jokingly ribbed how they can't wait until next year when I show them something else. On the other hand, I'd like to keep this space about my stories and not turn it into an art gallery.

A lot of it is me just being a very private person both online and offline. I don't share what's on my mind with other people unless it's something you must absolutely know. I struggle with articulating and sharing my thoughts with others and I find it infinitely more comfortable and enjoyable having that second internal voice to bounce story and character (development) ideas off. What I write and share here with you all is a product of that back and forth. Don't get me wrong! A lot of these stories are the result of really fun talks with friends - but a lot of it is just me being me terrible at opening up to others.

But I really do feel I should get out of my shell and show off my cast (some of which even my friends don't know exist), but not in a way that turns this page into an art gallery (i.e. people coming here for the art, not for the stories).

So, what should I do? Post? Don't post? Post some? Or post all of it? What are your thoughts?

This may come as a surprise to you, but I write. And a part of writing means lots of reading. While I read plenty of non-furry work, furry stories here tend to fly under my radar. I'd like to broaden my horizons a bit.

So, I wanna know - what have you read here on FA (or elsewhere) that you absolutely loved? What sinful delights got your motor running and left you unbearably horny for more? Drop a link and tell me why. Got a favorite writer? Plug em! Are you a writer? Plug away! I'd like to read your stuff, too!

I updated the profiles with relevant info at the top of each one. Let me know what you think!

I enjoy writing them! Are you enjoying them so far? Do you feel there's anything missing, like height or whatnot?

These questions I ponder before bed. I look forward to your answers.

2020 was pretty terrible. But we made it, I survived this hell year and you did too. I'm proud of you and I love you.

Hopefully 2020 part 2 is better for us all.

Hello.

I know I'm not the most social person on the planet, but I hope everyone's been staying safe and keeping in touch with friends and loved ones. We need that now more than ever. I am plagued with insomnia, so this is as good of time as any for me to talk with you all, if at all possible. So, let's chat. About whatever: games we're playing, stories we're reading or writing, art we're making or getting, life, the list goes on.

How've you been?

Hello, everyone. I hope the beginning of 2020 has been kind to you all.

The end of 2019 was not kind to me. Many personal/familial issues blew up all at once around Christmas and left me in a bad headspace. Rather than make things worse by staying online and posting through my sadbrains, I took myself offline for a few weeks and worked on myself and my aforementioned issues. Things aren't 100% better, but they're stable enough that I can reappear in a somewhat limited capacity. I apologize for my absence, but it was necessary for my mental health.

But there is another, far more important, issue I wish to share with you all, and it's something that has been on my mind for quite some time.

You may have noticed as of late that my already glacial output has slowed even further, that I've gone through longer and longer lengths of time without posting anything. Part of this is, of course, work. Work is a constant we all face, but work always ends at the end of the day. What, then, have I been doing with my free time? Writing, of course. And... not writing. Along with the above issues, there was something else keeping me away from the keyboard. When I upload my stories to FA, I want them to be the best content I can deliver: coherent, free of glaring errors, and of course, sultry. But that need for quality content grew to an obsession, a neurotic need to comb through every paragraph again and again, obsessively pruning everything that was even slightly wrong. I'd pore over the same section of a story for upwards of a half hour, looking for anything even slightly wrong. And when I inevitably found something wrong, I'd berate myself for it, "Should've caught that sooner, Pip." Then it got worse. "Should've caught that sooner," became "This is garbage."; "Nobody will like this."; "What if they spot my mistakes? What if they call me out?" It gave me massive anxiety, to the point I would be overwhelmed and physically terrified of opening Word. With all I've learned, all the literature I've read, all the new ideas and techniques I've been wanted to put to the test, I've grown more fearful of committing to what I've learned out of fear of fucking it all up. And even if things were fine, my work suffered from sterilization; excessive pruning robbed it of its bite, that 'oomph', that rich enthusiasm that you can feel in killer word choice and in the fun character interactions and colorful exposition.

And when I had actually pushed through my fears, finished something and submitted it, the reception it received was rather muted. "Nobody liked it."; "It's garbage." My fear of failure and anxiety to achieve perfection have all taken a toll on my enjoyment of what's supposed to be a fun hobby.

But the other day, I had an epiphany.

I acknowledged that I have become terrified of writing over time and that my fear of failure and anxiety to achieve perfection have all taken a toll on my enjoyment. And I was the culprit. My fear and my delusions of wanting to be - great - as in popular, they created a pressure, a need to succeed, do or die. I thought I didn't give a rat's ass about popularity, but it was simply me masking my insecurities and my lack of validation behind a nebulous "Whatever; the views don't matter." Everyone wants and needs validation for their efforts, someone to say "Hey, I love the way she crushed that skyscraper with her tits." But asking for it, getting mad when it doesn't happen, isn't healthy. And demanding it just forces it, that's no good either.

And my fear of failure; "If you were more diligent you would've caught that." I should have been telling myself, "I write each story to the best of my ability. If I see a mistake now, that means I saw something I didn't realize. That means I have improved, and I will not make that same mistake again." And if I do, we're human. Or wolves and dragons pretending to be human from 9 to 5.

I've made up my mind to go back to how I used to operate. Do my own thing, and do the best I can, for myself. For myself, because writing is something I genuinely love and I will never give it up, and for my friends, because they enjoy my silly ideas and fun characters. I need to remember and understand that I can't please everyone, nor should I. Nor should I get caught up with such a fleeting thing like views and favorites, agonizing over the mote of dust I can't catch and hold in my hand. You each have your own tastes, your own likes and dislikes. If you like what I write, that's great; if not, that's okay too. I could make a million excuses for why I might have gotten a lukewarm reception: maybe they saw it and just didn't know what to say at the time; maybe it just wasn't their thing; maybe they glanced and saw something shinier; maybe maybe maybe. Who knows what they were thinking, and who cares. Who I can always please, though, is myself.

Thank you for making it this far with me. People, not the number, matter most. Knowing that you read what I write will always put a smile on my face.

I leave this as an affirmation and a reminder to myself and others who struggle that we must not fret over what cannot be controlled. We must love ourselves and our faults, because those silly quirks make for delightful stories.

I have a new laptop. I'm getting it setup, then I'll take my sweet time editing resume writing again once that's all taken care of.

My laptop is on its last legs. Which means I'll need to get a new one ASAP. Until then, I won't be able to work on anything. Thankfully I back everything up regularly via externals and email, so nothing will be lost. But it's still a big inconvenience.

I'll let you know when everything is up and running again.

What did I miss?

Don't wreck the place while I'm gone.

Hey, everyone.

If all goes as planned, I’ll be back in Korea by this time next month. And moving back means getting back into writing in earnest, something I haven’t been able to do since moving back into my family’s place last year. I love em, but got dang, everyone’s loud af. Doesn’t help that my uncle is just as loud as them, is a night owl like me, and living in the room next door. I hate to mention my living situation, but as you can imagine it's been quite difficult trying to write with all this noise going on!

So much as I enjoy writing these character profiles – and I hope you've been enjoying reading them as much as I have writing them – picking up where I left off will be far more enjoyable.

tl;dr - the growth and shrinkage will soon resume

I've come to realize that nobody knows me very well.

I'm fine with that: I value my privacy and what little anonymity I have online. My purpose here, after all, is to share with you my stories and my characters, so you can catch a glimpse of their lives through the things that I love to write about in my spare time.

Turns out nobody knows what you're doing if you don't share anything with them. Very few of my close friends had any idea who my characters were or what they looked like, even the ones I've written about. Funny, huh?

So to that end, I must open up a little more.

Expect to see profiles of my permanent roster in the future (in Scraps), that way there's a face to go with the stories.

I also have a twitter you can follow for pro-tier shitposting my idle musings.

Thank you for sticking with this hermit of a bird. See you in 2019.