Sooo my hard drive went p oof on my pc some days ago and am basically on mobile... I dunno what is or isn't backed up but I know I havnt backed up in months maybe over a year.

This really sucks... Dunno where or when I'll find and source a new drive... my old one has a sticker that says 2005 on it... sooo I been running that thing for along time...

Pretty depressing.. just signing into my email was difficult as hell with the phone cube thing..

I lost alot of data am sure and work just piles up around here stupidly..

Sooo Been wanting to turn around my rate of uploads and upload some of the stuff I been sitting on forever..
Maybe finish some works.. But am having an issue with FA connecting to posty Birb... Havn't gotten to use posty birb yet and really wanted to use it for FA more than anything... I really hate how I can't drag and drop to upload to FA and navigating through all my folders to find new submissions is too much of a pain in the ass... Its faster to delete my art than to upload it...

I do still have my twitter https://twitter.com/Ponyfox3 and I have a pixiv https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/35415681 posty birb also seems to accept DA https://www.deviantart.com/ponyfox and a few other sites like weaysl... https://www.weasyl.com/~ponyfox

also Ink bunny though don't think my art belongs on ink bunny... site gives me the creeps... My account there is cause I know few folks that gave up on FA. Only way I can see their stuff...

maybe there is other sites I should join? Posty birb seems compatible with a few... maybe just need some feed back from communities where I should try and post... Or should I just shut down shop altogether again and not post like I been doing?

Should I just post all mystuff in like an ehentai gallery or like e621 pages? hentai or not? Am pretty perplexed what to do..

I made a twitter account... well technically a second one... I found the first one I made... that I some how forgot the credentials for it. thought it got deleted by twitter cause stuff...

I dunno twitter is stupid easy to post stuff sooo been dropping stuff there. some new stuff some really old... stuff you might not see anywhere else... I have no idea...

if ya wanna check it out :

https://twitter.com/Ponyfox3

If twitter had a gallery system it'd be pretty rad.... Wish there was an art site where I could put my art into like folders and seperate stuff I think is quality work with stuff thats like my gallery trash that has some merits to it.

My wacom tablet pen decided to give out. 2008 till today February 11th lasted about 10 years...

I have a spare bamboo fun I collected over the years so I have the pen from that tablet... but am still depressed due to the circumstances...

(copy and pasted from DA)

soooo the other day skype decided to force an update. I had skype classic and skype decided that's not good enough no more... forced all skype classic uses to either upgrade to skype 8 or no skype at all what so ever...

Skype 8 is pretty horrible of a client especially if you have win 7 there isn't a splintered mode and everything is basically locked in a hub. there is also little other things that make the program unfriendly such as being able to crop and scale a picture for an avatar. That feature seems to be no more.

Soooo ultimatley my skype is kadaku_fox am open to anyone that sends me a friend request. am not going to turn away strangers but am still happy to block folks if you just aim to be DISRUPTIVE AND ANNOYING (megaphone)

Skype 8 also has another feature its called friends you may know. Gives me various peoples I might know based on mutual contacts. sooooo when ever that pops up I've been clicking add to all the names. Ultimately I aim to break my skype.

Sooo if folks are interested this is your chance~! Be heard! Be friendly~! Make a random friend (maybe)~!

Curious if there is a limit to contacts.

DERPI-LINKVALIDATION-1818D66567

A thing for the derpibooru people to verify who I am << there is art of mine thar that folks posted that has been removed from my galleries (other OC arts where those people and myself are no longer on friendly terms. ) and stuff that should have never been posted. things shared over a discord group etc.

I dunno who the random folks are I don't mind you guys out there reposting but ya know if you see my stuff out there on sites other than pixiv DA or FA lemme know one am naturally curious and 2 so if its art thats not suppose to be posted on other sites I can have it taken down case sensitive stuff... things I draw for other people that was shared over discord or whatever.

I lost control grabbed my cell phone and just threw it 200 foot.... screen broke sooo then I just smashed it and tore it in half Got into a screaming argument with pops and I wore myself down into nothing...

I was working going bonkers already having a bad day and he decided to drag home another truck load of junk some massive air compressor we have no place for.... soo it'll be rotting in the sand.... He called me then hung up after making me more mad and I just without a second thought just flung my phone across the yard. Damn near an acre. I was a fool to think it'd work after that but I certainly regretted it.

been slumped in bed with my boots on. I also ripped my hoodie into shreds. Am sure I have an extra but I rather just be cold.

I'm so miserable but I guess as long as everyone else is happy then I suppose it doesn't matter.

Kinda wish I'd cease to exist...

I'm sooo ill equip to leave here its ridiculous no job opportunities or financial dependence And without a phone I have even less.

I'm just foolish and nobody likes me especially now.

its fine I guess pops can break his phone leave it on the back of the truck let it get ran over then he can leave his replacement phone outside on the back of a truck without a care... and I have to carry my phone everyday on my person encase he calls. case he needs help... I have to drop what I'm doing again and again and again for him when ever he needs something but I don't get the same sort of deal. It doesn't work the same way. When I need help he doesn't drop what he's doing to help me we don't have that luxury.

Then I get called lazy and good for nothing in oh so many words... I only worked 4 hours today or something of the like. Well yeah 4 hours tearing apart fiberglass laced air conditioners isn't exactly a smooth process... Its a load of crap.

I miss my cat she got eaten weeks ago by the stray dogs or coyotes am frustrated on a few levels for that. pops can spend 4000$ on something for him self have it shipped across the united states... have no space in the house to put it when it comes and thats fine and dandy but a few hundred dollars on chain link to enclose the yard or a few hundred on pouring a concrete pad or whatever is just unreasonable expenses... fuck if I know... normally I'd talk to the cat since I don't have any friends to go talk to IRL... everyone says move out but ya know its easier said than done when you're sooo far integrated in things here. its fine for other people to say those things they're already set in their ways. If I could have moved I probably would have.

To surmise today I have less than what I started with.

but folks probably wont read anyof this anyways. why would they? Who are they to care.

sooo it all starts with one snafu.... Google images. I don't know why but google started displaying my images different. The whole layout was different...

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....23/unknown.png My screen started to look like this

Instead of this:

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....80/unknown.png

I dunno why... And there is like no way to fix it... as far as I know... I tried contacting google and I pissed and moaned like everywhere I could think of...

Now at first I thought it was just a snafu closed my browser. (problem still occured)
Reset my computer problem still occured)
Wiped all my cookies and passwords and cache (problem still occured)
Updated my web browser ( this was a huge mistake) Ver 25 is garbage compared to version 17

Problem still occured and now a host of new ones

Figured out the issue is 100% tied to my google gmail profile account.

when I signed out of my account it worked all normal.

but now am no longer in my account... account is synced with my cell phone.... sooo tried signing out on my phone and a host ofstuff there... no good... went into settings and tried to reset to default settings etc... no good. don't have any extensions. went into incognito mode no good.

Soooo after upgrading then manually downgrading my browser (and one or two system restores) Banging my head against the wall....

optd to make a new gmail email... GREAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTT so ya know now I have another ponyfox email...

but a new email now means youtube doesn't recognize me what so ever... new account no history. And cause I fucked with my web browser I have a whole slew of issues... For example. My browser had the old youtube layout stuck in it's memory. nice and simple and familiar. Now I got some modern layout... tried to create a playlist and youtube said wanna make a youtube acoount from thi email... sooo then I had an account I had to go delete... verify you want to delete by typing in your new email...

I dunno so guess I just won't have playlists? I dunno....

not like I really used them but I did like to put videos in there now and again of stuff I just liked...

Next issue.... I wiped all the cache... Furaffinity has no Idea who I am....

Sooo I had to login... cause FA's crazy system oneday decided my account was compromised it forced a password reset on me months and months ago...

Sooo I try a few times. Filling out the feilds and then having to do the god awful captcha....

the capcha just sucks on FA.... It gives you a grid of pictures and you have to click the pictures it says too. Buses cars street signs store fronts what ever... so you click them and they disapeer and you have to click new ones that appear... You do this like 5 times and then it comes up with a new captcha game. select all the boxes that contain an object. select all the boxes with a cross walk select all the pictures with a hydrant... some of the captcha squares don't line up... Sooo I assume it made me do it a bunch of extra times... or it'd show pictures ofbusses and say click all the kitties or something unrealistic... Sooo you click skip...


first two times didn't work what so ever... Sooo I said ya know what I forgot my password...

Sooo type your email and account name.... gotta know at this point I got like 10 emails.... Found the one I made this account...

Its an old yahoo account cause yeah folks still use yahoo... open up yahoo in a new tab and have to wait 5 minutes for the splash screen to go away... Tried to do it off my phone real fast... But FA system is copy this 40 key code into the link below... last I checked my fat fingers don't copy and paste so good with phones...

Sooo we waited for the spash screen to load... slow as a piss... got a new password... Ya know I tried putting in my default one and fa gave me the red flag saying this may or may not be compromised... sooo got a password am probably not going to remember 3 months from now... anyways

Fill out the captcha sequences 40 times again with the new password and here we are.... Miserable system... pretty sure FA has better security than my bank account at this point. I know my lewd pictures will obviously be safe here...


I dunno lordy lordy...

prior to all this technical mess I was looking for discord groups to make new friends.... one group I joined seems active... but am already told am not aloud to chat in the art area of the channel and not aloud to post art in the chat section of the channel. Sooo ya know noboy is going to get the context and I'll have to click back and forth. between the pages....

am probably not gunna stick around in that group very long with nonsense like that. Whats wrong with just posting art and chatting in the same sub channel? why is it sooo difficult? folks that are there just gaze over all the chat anyways...

not a very good first impressions nor a very warm reception... They're more concerned with the tumblr titatanic and accounts getting banned for girls with nipples... =Y I dunno... welcome to nonsense town...

Soooo else where joined another room that I think is fairly dead or gets people chatting like maybe once a week?

You type discord into FA you get lots of MLP discord humping ponies... type latex discord you get pool toy mlp discord tf stuff... Theres like no public discord group for Ettchi rubber fur stuff and other bondages.... Like not hard core bondage but ya know thats fine too... but like bondage alternative stuffs... I dunno... and if there is its not very popular?


well fuck. just about the jist of my night... gotta teach youtube what I like again and teach my browser to leave the doors open for my favorite sites... alll so I can look at images on google normal like everyone else and like how I looked at images for the last I dunno decade?


Whatever... its like 2 PM now I have to drag myself up to my friendless death camp work lifestyle for at least 4~5 hours before it gets too cold and dark and I have to come inside...

nobody cares when this ponyfox drops dead it's just gunna be like he's been offine for like 6 months without any notifications..

Deleting myself from discord groups Not very happy. Don't really want to be apart of communities where I don't really know any one there. Just absolute strangers that don't give a damn .. Either we made friends or we didn't... Either I felt welcomed there in your group or I didn't... Am not gunna lurk around there no more hoping for a small bit of interest to spark up.

Lot of groups aren't very welcoming... People get so hellbent about their stupid rules like posting in particular places or the type of things that are posted... Thanks for posting but don't post here here here or here. Groups like that are kinda like cancer... either its cool to post anywhere or its not... Post art in the misc rooms post it in the music room or the video room post videos in the art room just keep sfw and nsfw separate.

Need groups that aren't solely just about Furry porn << And definitely want to avoid groups that are centered around one person.. Like the owner or a particular artist... They get bombarded so much that they just quit caring set themselves to invisible and ignore everyone...

Posting art shouldn't become a competition and people shouldn't just get artist kudos for commissioning a picture they didn't draw. Congrats on your picture you paid for! Lets RP YIFF cause you spent 50$ for your OC to be drawn by a better more well known artist..

Its stupid... Some of the groups I was in make me feel welcomed and the groups I was more active in lately I don't want to post no more cause I've pretty much spammed the channel in an afternoon. Need to put some distance between me and them. Let other folks try and make some sort of communication... Though most folks pretty much have no interest in each other and only interest in the big boss.


Willing to maybe join other groups but if nothing happens then PTTTBBBBBBB I'm pretty much set to invisible anymore that way folks don't know whether I'm there or not like the rest of everyone else... Just gotta make stabs at the dark~!


Anyone doing the discord thing? Like active chatting? Not a supergroup thing where its everyone in a room offline and sometimes there is a few regulars....


am not at the point of removing individual peoples yet but I guess they're next. Namely folks I don't really talk to... Guess if I remove a slew of people from my lists I don't need to be set invisible... but am sure nobody gunna talk to me regardless. Pretty much the same thing other folks do... Just delete everyone off your list and start over again. Maybe I'll start coloring myself different too like Puke green fur!


If You cared to read all this... I'm sorry. Am not very organized. Am stressed all the time. Depressed fairly frequently... and maybe a bit aggressive.

its been several days now and the headaches haven't stopped just nightmarish pain in my head~! its been a week now... but at the same time am doing a job I wasn't crazy about taking on cause its alot of work and there is alot of expenses in doing it... more risk than gain at least that's the way I feel about it... been working 15~18 hour days all week easily soooo hasn't been time for much rest... am hoping when this job is over just spend a day in bed with some drawing paper. or a video game... recovery time.