I can confidently say that joining the furry fandom is both the best, and worst thing to ever happen to me. Sounds impossible, but for every shining star I meet that brightens up my days, there will also be a nemesis that wants to watch the world burn. Thankfully this year has been one of more angels than demons. Just as well since I have alot of achievements that the undesirables might have tried to cut down if they had known about me.

This has most definitely been a year of music. After throwing a bunch of shit at the wall to see what sticks, I found free mixing software and now have a series of 10 DnB mixes. It's fun challenge to pick 10+ songs at random and try to fit them together like a jigsaw. And that organised chaos somethimes creates a beautiful transition I would have never thought of. So beautiful that I topped off the year with an hour long compilation of my favourites.

Speaking of DnB, the telegram group I set up to meet like-minded ravers has been a mission accomplished with a humble 38 members. But it hasn't all been plain sailing, as one morning I woke up to a flood of messages telling me that somone was promoting pedophillia in a music chat! Thankfully, the admins did their job and deleted the messages before any damage was done. Once I saw the deleted message history he was promptly banned. Other than that, I've only had to nudge people from time to time to prevent it from becomming a NSFW group.

Music ventures weren't the only thing new this year, as I'm typing this within what seems like a mansion compared to my first flat. A 10 min drive to work and a shop across the street is pretty hard to complain about. A new home, and a new relationship. Although I've had some great times with my now ex partner, I felt that both him and I were settling for second best. He already seems to be doing better for himself, and it feels like my new significant other is perfection. It was always going to hard to find somone to match my passion and interests, but somehow he exists, and there's nobody I'd rather be with. I'll spare you the more "private" details.

Friends to help me through the tough times have not been in short supply, with plenty of shoulders (or rather wings) to cry on from the Burdcrew Telegram group. I'm always hunting for people who I can have a positive impact on, and i've built up a little collection of birds to help, and be helped by. See what happens when you're a decent, honest person?

Of course the biggest news in the fandom this year was the Kuro scandal, with screenshots released (allegedly) showing him admitting to horrific animal cruelty. But in an age of photoshop and furry jealousy, I have to take an innocent until proven guilty approach. It's stories like this that make me glad that I have literally nothing to hide. If somone went through my internet history, they wouldn't find any blackmail material. If people watched me at a meet, they'd see nothing to complain about. I guess I'm an unusually "normal" furry.

The only thing currently stopping me reaching nirvanna is money (or lack of). But the good news is I've found where my paycheque has been dissappearing to, and I should be getting it all back in 2019. Another 2k next year could get me a suit, a DJ controller, a con ticket? Let's see if I can accomplish even more dreams this year than I did in the last 12 months.

So, my life is going pretty good at the moment. We've got a healthy 34 members of the DnB Furs chat (Which is nice and easy to run). My mix series is still going on Mixcloud, and i have some financial stability (and I do mean SOME). I've got some stuff to look forward to like a flight to Cornwall and a high chance of moving to a bigger place. The future isn't looking too shabby.

After many hours of stress due to people not telling me anything, I'm finally doing a set on Second Life! It'll be between 6 and 7 o'clock UK time at the Naughtic Islands Furry club. So If you just happen to have an SL account, come right along!

So, I've created a Drum 'n' Bass music chat for furries! A chat for the newbie fans to full blown producers, everyone is welcome to join! Every morning, a track of the day will be pinned, so it's the perfect place to expand your taste and expose your favorite creations. It's been going for a week so far, and we have a healthy number of members, but more certainly can't hurt. The join link is right here for everyone:

https://t.me/DnBFurs

If you know anyone who's into the huge world of Drum & Bass, be sure to let them know!

Being the chat owner and admin is a pretty easy job, especially since it's a lovely bunch of folkes. I've seen many furs abuse their admin rights for personal gain and power trips, so now I can show them how it's done! You know who you aaaaaaare...

Also in the world of music, my latest 20 minute mix is my personal favorite. Check it out here! https://soundcloud.com/psyclone-the.....-bass-4-onward

I wanted to do something a little different this week. I thought the vocals to Fox Stevenson's Miss You, would sound great over his other track, Flash. And I believe I thought right! It's a bit choppy because this was my first go at using more than 2 deck at once. But hey, that's why I do this. To push my limits, to propel me forward!

https://soundcloud.com/psyclone-the.....ash-x-miss-you

I'm now officially conducting a series of Drum & Bass mixes; with the completion of Redemption - (20 Minutes if Drum & Bass 2). I will try to upload these every other week. Listen by visiting the link below, or pasting into your hotbar:

https://soundcloud.com/psyclone-the.....s-2-redemption

I'm so pleased with how this one turned out, that I'm going to be on the look out for furry music communities who share my passion! So if you know anyone who's into EDM, give it a comment!

Over the holidays, i learned how to use the free music software Mixxx, and have made and uploaded 2 Drum & Bass mixes on Soundcloud! I'm eager to receive any and all feedback, good or bad. So if you have 20 minutes to spare, give them a listen below and tell me what you think!

https://soundcloud.com/psyclone-the-seahawk

Well, on Monday it will be a year since I made an FA account, and I regard that as when I "officially" became a furry. And I can easily say that it's the best thing that's ever happened to me. I've met the most amazing people in the world, got stuck into creating all sorts, and even had my first relationships.

I remember a bird character popping into my head some time in 2012, but didn't know what the hell he was or what to do with him. Funnily enough, I wanted to make a suit, and just generally derp around in it, before I even knew the fandom existed! Weird...

It wasn't until winter 2014/15 that I first saw furries. In a Jacksfilms vid, of all places. Needless to say, my mind was blown! I thought that I was the only person that just had a human-like animal stored in their head. Yet here was a global community of thousands who were in the exact same boat! However, I held back on running into their arms, as it was my final year of university, and maybe someone was monitoring my internet history. But I did occasionally watch Biogodz (aka. Al the Wolf). Just to get a better idea of what I was.

With my exams passed, and school days finally over, I had a look see at this site called "Furaffinity" which everyone was talking about. I took one look and saw that it was an art sharing site. But that was no good, because I wanted to meet people! I left a comment on a Biogodz Q&A vid, asking how meet peeps in the fandom, half-expecting a response. Turns out, senpai noticed me! And recommended the site once again. So here I am.

During the first 6 months, I got stuck right in! Doing sketches of my character whenever I felt like it, and refining the design. The current design I have, isn't too far off my original image. I settled on a Seahawk, after searching for "blue bird" decals on Forza Motorsport, and finding the Seattle Seahawks logo. I saw the colour scheme and thought: "Well, I guess I'm a Seahawk!". Which was a great fot for my interests, aerodynamics, watersports, and those talons are fierce! The name "Psyclone" coming from people calling me a Psycho, and a Cyclone being a powerful combination of air and water. I occasionally spoke to few peeps whose art I liked when browsing (not knowing there was an SFW filter on).

It wasn't until February (Valentines Day) that for the first time in my life, I felt lonely. Seeing all of the art of couples, yeah, it got me jealous. But also sparked something else... motivation. If was going to find someone, I needed to try and get noticed. I made a music track! It was nothing special, but I loved making it! And I went on a little wbsite known as... sigh... pounced.org. I know, the shame. But 2 things came out of it, which may just be the most important experiences of my life.

1) I met the sister that I never had. After searching the word "Liquicity" (my favourite music brand) on pounced, it came up with a girl in New York State. Her profile said that she didn't want a long-distance relationship, but was also looking for friends. So I sent her a friendly message, added her on skype, and we now regard eachother as siblings! She is so much fun to talk to, has a fascinating mind, and is somone who I can gush about Maduk's latest tracks to. Oh, and she's currently dating a guy from California. What a liar! But I couldn't be happier for her. It sounds like she's found "the one", and being as awesome as she is, she deserves it!

2) My first ever relationship. Oh, look! A girl who lives near me! Oh, she's a dude, and I'm defo straight, I guess we can be friends. I like this guy. I REALLY like this guy. Well, it seems that i'm bi now, neat. Yep, from being totally straight, and never dreaming of being with a dude, someone was able to say the right things, and gradually turn the dial. It was great for the first 3 weeks, but then they remembered that they hated people, including me. My first break-up was rough, but it would turn out to be a blessing in disguise. I definitely came out of it as a better person.

One day on furaffinity, a saw an image on browse of a place that I recognised. It was Sheffield! The city where I lived for 3 years during Uni, and what I considered to be a second home. There was a Furmeet every month! I got in touch with one of the organisers, and at the end of the month, there I was! With the organiser nudging me along, I was able to mingle with my people (which was a bg deal for an introvert) and loved every second of the weekend! After the weekend, a Telegram group chat was made for all Sheffield furries. And thank god it was made!

This guy under the name "Fluffeh" was really fun to talk to in the chat. So fun, that I visited one weekend. He and his friend were just as cool in real life, and being there helped me through the break-up when the wounds were still fresh. We were now talking privately, getting a little more flirty, until I had an opportune time to ask for more than friendship. I kept a 100% success rate with guys, as aopposed to 0% with girls. As luck would have it, he turned out to be everything I could ever want, and more from a partner. His personality, his know how, and the sheer amount of love that he constantly pours out, are just some the things that make want to cling on to him and never let go. (I could go on for hours).

After a year, here I am. About get into my first permanent job, with my own car, and my own flat on the way to finally set me free. Making plans for most important people in my life. I'm feeling nothing but excitement for the future. Whatever the next year has in store... BRING IT ON!

 Adolphus123 < The guy above and beyond the man of my dreams.
 Xerreth < My sister from another mister.
 Sheffieldfurmeet < The meet that I would recommend to all.
 weregrem < And the guy that got me there.
 Biogodz < The guy who started it all.
 TheDiverseZabuza < I've appeared in some of his vids!

Don't miss the comic that I've been chipping away at for months: Birds I View. Any feedback and word-spreading would be much appreciated, but I'm away this weekend, so I'll get back to you on Monday!

Hope you enjoy! :D

Well, I've finally gotten to a point, where I am satisfied with my progress, enough for me to upload a part 1 of my comic. All I need to do add text and mess around with the white-balance. It's probably a good thing that Anthrocon is over, and people will slowly come back o the site after avoiding con-envy. I'll upload some previews... or maybe one, I don't want to give too much away, and then upload all of the pages at once. When? I dunno. So keep an eye out!

Well, I'm back from Florida with jet lag and a cold. But whilst I was away, it made me realise just how much the furry community has done for me in around 9 months of being a part of it. I've met so many amazing people and gained so many amazing memories that I can always cherish. Without them, my life would be a lot emptier. So here's a little something to let all of my favourite people know how much I appreciate them. I hope these icons work.

 lillianwinters The only person who I've ever asked out, who hasn't instantly rejected me <3 . The relationship won't be official until we've met in person (which I hope will be soon), but I can already see so much potential. So I need to make sure I impress her in the days to come. We're getting along great, so I want to make her feel as special as she is, and try to make all of the bad feelings go away. Any regrets I had about my life before have been washed away, because every little thing may have contributed to leading me to her. Even if it can't go beyond friendship, I'll still feel so lucky to have found this wonderful wolf-bear and lion-dragon.

 xerreth I'm one of her "Cool people" :D . We've only been talking in text for a couple of months, but she's already like a sister to me. Our skype convos always put a smile on my face. This fellow Liquicitizen made a music livestream so much better with a trans-atlantic rave! I wish her and that lucky Fox she's with all of the best, and hope that we can stay in contact for a long time because she's ffffffucking awesome!

 bellaflan This girl sure has an interesting head on her shoulders, and I'll be there to listen to whatever comes out. I can't wait to see what she can do with her sonas, and I'll help out in any way I can. Getting to know her early on as a Fellow Fuzzbutt  TheFellowFuzzbutts (a fan of Zabu The Sergal) She's one of the first friends I made as a result of the fandom. Let's keep it going!

 weregrem and everyone at  sheffieldfurmeet That weekend goes down as one of the best of my life. Sheffield was always a special place to me, and the furmeet only added to it. Grem was always there on Telegram to talk me through the latest leading up to it. It was a bit pricey, but everyone there was fantastic, and the look on the civilian's faces when they saw the suits was pricless! XD I'm not sure when I'll be able to go again, but I hope it's the first of many! I'd always do it again!

And finally, all of my watchers and people I watch. Whether you just watched me to be nice, or have a genuine interest in my existence, I appreciate every one of you. Even though I only see you as pixels on a screen, I know that there's a person who has made them appear. If you ever want talk, just send me a note and I'd love to!
I especially need to thank  biogodz for giving me some pointers on how to start off meeting some fellow furs. If it weren't for him, I might not be posting this!

And the porn, that's nice too.

I have an awesome idea for music, but I have to no-life study for an interview on Thursday, and then go abroad on Sunday! If I forget it by the time I get back, I'm going to be super pissed! Damn goldfish memory!

The day began with uncertainty. The Zootropolis viewing, originally thought to take place between 3 - 4pm, was now starting at 5:20. With a 2 hour plus runtime, this would mean I would miss the last train back. I was faced with 2 options, either see if the hotel had any rooms spare for the same night, or miss the viewing in order to get home.

After a board game at the venue, I ventured back to the hotel, and asked if they had any rooms spare. They did. I could now return to the venue with relief, another night away from my dad is a win in my book. The rest of the afternoon was a ball of board games.

Zootroplolis, what a world, what a story, what a message. With references galore and a hard-hitting moral, I'd say that it's fantastic! The entire auditorium erupted with laughter at the ending. However, my compatriots and I were disappointed at the lack of avian, aquatic, and reptilian characters. So many lost opportunities.

This was definitely worth the extra night. I'd like to thank Grem, Grump, Sneeze, and everyone else involved in the meet for making it happen and generally being awesome. I think I am already experiencing the early stages of post-meet depression. But I'll never cry because it's over, I'll smile because it happened!

Psyclone reporting from high atop the Premier Inn.

30 miles away from may fathers snooping eyes, I instantly recognised the group that I was here for. With their long hair, and badges on display, I felt no anxiety finally meeting my people. In order to gain their trust, I offered to help carry the many bags of what appeared to be their main source of nourishment, chocolate. I was rewarded with offerings of chocolate eggs and cup cakes, and was able to deliver the rest of the cake to our first destination; The bar.

Our first task, was to demonstrate our knowledge of random shit. Having guessed 80% of the quiz questions, I was shocked as my quiz duo, The White Tigers, was not called out to be last, or second to last, but third. This exceeded any of my expectations, finally my weird atlas fetish had paid off.

Conversing was far easier than I had anticipated, as I had so many questions, and somehow found the courage to go right up to complete strangers. My first sight of a fursuit head intrigued me. As I was under the impression that heads would be far larger. In reality, they were no bigger than a racing helmet.

All heads were of the canine variety. It was now time for the moment I had anticipated most of all, the fursuit walk. Seeing the transformation from human to cuddly beast was remarkable. It changed not only their appearance, but their behaviour. They were mischievous, affectionate, and adorable. The looks of confusion, shock, and joy from passers by was the single greatest thing I have ever bared witness to. I was smiling more and more with every blank stare, wave and smile. Sadly, the walk was cut short by rain. But I knew, that I was now with my people.

After a prize-less raffle and a short conversing drought, I took it upon myself to bring about a Cards Against Humanity session. I went up to different groups announcing my plans. What was happening to me? This was bravery never before displayed by my blue bird. A healthy group of seven joined my game, with laughs throughout. I scored well, with a highlight deal being: "That's right, I killed -Mechahitler-. How, you ask? -Giving 110%-".

With cider and cake displacing my hunger, it was now time for my first ever experience of a Chinese restaurant. Before sitting, staff stored our coats and bags. A genius way of avoiding legroom issues. Starters were placed onto a revolving platform, allowing everyone to reach what they desired. The Chinese know how to get things done. I was most fond of the seaweed and chicken, my old favourites. After ordering a main that had not yet arrived, I was wondering who the mysterious plate of fried chicken was for. Everyone? It turns out, it was my order, after the restaurant owner finally labelled it. How else was I to know?

After such an eventful and enjoyable day, I thanked the organisers with a hand grab, bring in. A way of showing affection whilst retaining masculinity. The awesome wolf WereGrem escorted me back to the building I now report from. I now know that my next order of business must be to either make or commission a badge, to display my fursona easily. I must also document my artwork on digital devices to be able to show others easily.

Tomorrow, will be just as enjoyable with the viewing of Zootroplis. This is Psyclone the Seahawk, signing off.

For the furryweekendomegle. Come, join us!

I'm giving the comic a rest for now, as I work on a few little art pieces. I'll get back to the comic and other bigger projects soon.

Saturday: Woke up at 5:30AM to watch F1 qualifying (which was shit)
Found out that Liquicity is livestreaming their Amsterdam show from 9PM - 4AM

Sunday: After watching all 7 hours, it's time for the Australian Grand Prix.
Now I'm too tired to draw, or do anything other than skype chats and youtube. I gotta wait until 9PM to get sleep patterns back on track.

The good news is: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MinDnS8xkpM
The bad news is: http://neomongolianewsnetwork.com/2.....opia-premiere/

Got a card idea for a furry expansion pack? Let me know here: http://forums.furaffinity.net/threa.....tions.1526801/

I've already submitted a few responses :3

So, I woke up this morning, rolled onto FA and was amazed to find that "Faster Than Light" had 2 favourites! It doesn't sound like a lot, but knowing that someone, anyone likes what I do makes me so proud at what I've achieved! It gives me both the drive and confidence to try and keep this up! I know that I can do better, and have a lot of ideas locked away.
I'm trying to find the perfect balance between working on music and the comic (previews incoming). Maybe work on the comic in the daytime and music in the evening; or have one day for comic stuff, the next day for music.

I'm so excited to finally upload my first piece of drum 'n' bass, made using Fruity Loops Studio 12! "Faster Than Light" is a journey through the cosmos, taking you to the dangerous fireballs, empty vistas and colourful gas clouds. I had an absolute blast making this, and want as many people to it as possible, so spread the word!
I need everyone who sees this to tear me a new one about the track. Tell me everything that you think could be improved, I won't take it personally. GO GO GO!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19182722/

So, I was just settling into bed last night. Nothing out of the ordinary at all. Then all of a sudden, it hit me like a tonne of bricks. Even though I've never thought of it before, I was suddenly thinking of everything that made me a failure. Now jobless, no girlfriend, 21 and living with my parents, close to 0 friends. I think it may have been triggered by a combo being turned down for a job that I thought I was perfect for, and seeing all of the happy couples on valentines day. I can see why singles hate that day now. To most some people, these thoughts may take away all of their motivation.

But instead, all of these negative emotions triggered something. It was like a survival instinct suddenly activated to stop me from collapsing. Either I could let this state of mind break me down, I could prove myself wrong and create something that I could be proud of. I'm not one to just surrender to negative forces. I can only describe it as an awakening. I've spent too much time thinking about others. Comparing myself to those big Youtubers, happy couples and dream-living celebrities. Wishing that I could be like them. Well, you don't achieve anything in life by simply wishing. I was suddenly flaring with energy, ready to do whatever was necessary to better myself, ready to fight!

I've spent most of today working on music, adding more and more to the foundations that I had kept locked away for months. And I have no intention of slowing down! Of course there are other things I need to focus on. Job-hunting, event planning, and the comic which for now will be put to one side. I'm just still at a loss for what has happened. I've never felt more determined in my life, and never experienced such a drastic change from a massive low, to a mental and physical high. As a lazy person who hardly ever gets worked up over anything, this has been very unusual, even shocking.

Why music? Well...
If you feel like it's over, and nothing seems right no more,
and you're in need of something new.
Turn it up, turn it up, turn it up higher!

And if it's too much to handle, and you think you've been here before,
well then, there's only one thing to do.
Turn it up, turn it up, turn it up higher!

For the first time in my life, I'm feeling a tad lonely. So I'll see if I can a lovely lady on pounced.org (a furry dating site). Not until AFTER valntines day though, that would be kinda awkward... like me! I'll try some more conventional sites in the future, but how awesome it would to be to find a girl who I didn't have to hide my furriness from!

One comic block in 15 minutes? I think I'm getting the hang of this! On to page 3! :D

It's half past midnight, I know that I'm tired, but I can't settle down. I've been thinking about all of my future comics almost non-stop everyday, which is weird since a month ago it wasn't even an idea. When you're thinking about something non-stop, the ideas get bigger and better. I now feel like I'm at a point where I could start something truly special, which is something I've never felt before.

I've got 2 big ideas that I'm looking forward to getting out there. The first is a comedy, with a lot of dirty jokes and visual humour. I have no idea how many pages it'll be, but if it were a movie, it would probably be one and half hours long. This will be a stand alone thing, I don't see any need or potential for a sequel.

The second is difficult to sum up, as it would cover a lot of important topics. There will be a lot of epic battles with cutting edge tech, "holy sh-" plot twists and unique furry characters with different abilities that make them an un-stoppable force when working together. This is what I'm most excited about, as this would be a movie trilogy.

I've just started concept sketches for the comedy. It won't come fast, as I can only work on it when my parents aren't around. And my job gives me very little free time and spare energy. But I haven't felt so strongly about anything in my life. I don't like making commitments, since there's always a chance that something will happen to stop me. But I AM going to give it my all.