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Posted 2 weeks agoYesterday I had the worst depressive episode in a long time and made a terrible mistake I can't undo.
My BlueSky account, that was my lifeline, and I had worked hard to build ended up being deleted. I'm more isolated and alone than I have ever been, and I don't think there's a way to recover. Everything is falling apart and I have nobody to blame but myself.
The truth is, I needed help, but I didn't know how to ask.
I don't know where this puts me in the eyes of the community I wanted so much to be a part of, nor do I know if I can do this anymore. I feel more alone than ever and I don't know what to do. It all fell apart so quickly and I did it all to myself. This was supposed to be the year I turned everything around and instead I broke it all. I don't know how to recover from this, nor do I know if I have what it takes to dig myself out now that everyone is gone. I don't even know if I should bother. It might be better for the world if I disappeared entirely.
I'm sorry for anyone I've let down, or for anyone who had faith in me. I really thought I could make it.
My BlueSky account, that was my lifeline, and I had worked hard to build ended up being deleted. I'm more isolated and alone than I have ever been, and I don't think there's a way to recover. Everything is falling apart and I have nobody to blame but myself.
The truth is, I needed help, but I didn't know how to ask.
I don't know where this puts me in the eyes of the community I wanted so much to be a part of, nor do I know if I can do this anymore. I feel more alone than ever and I don't know what to do. It all fell apart so quickly and I did it all to myself. This was supposed to be the year I turned everything around and instead I broke it all. I don't know how to recover from this, nor do I know if I have what it takes to dig myself out now that everyone is gone. I don't even know if I should bother. It might be better for the world if I disappeared entirely.
I'm sorry for anyone I've let down, or for anyone who had faith in me. I really thought I could make it.
Question about Discord / Telegram
Posted a year agoI don't want to bite off more than I can chew, but I also want to make sure I strike while the iron is hot so I thought I'd ask.
Can anyone recommend any general furry discord or telegram groups that might be good for someone who is really nervous at meeting people? Aside from randomly messaging people I don't really know where to start.
Can anyone recommend any general furry discord or telegram groups that might be good for someone who is really nervous at meeting people? Aside from randomly messaging people I don't really know where to start.
Another Small Update
Posted a year agoHopefully less depressing than the last one.
Depression is difficult, and it really messes with your perception of things. In my fear of losing one of my closest friends, I've all but guaranteed I've lost them (it's easier to leave than be left). It's a hard lesson to learn, but I guess it was necessary. I'll miss them dearly, though.
Time to rebuild I guess. My hope is to make friends and meet other artists. I don't really know how to do that, and with my shyness and poor self image, it's an uphill battle all the way.
I'm watching some communities here and hopefully that's a step in the right direction, but who knows.
I don't know what the community is like where I live, but it would be pretty rad to meet some locals.
ANYWAY, expect more art - that's what we're all here for, yeah?
Depression is difficult, and it really messes with your perception of things. In my fear of losing one of my closest friends, I've all but guaranteed I've lost them (it's easier to leave than be left). It's a hard lesson to learn, but I guess it was necessary. I'll miss them dearly, though.
Time to rebuild I guess. My hope is to make friends and meet other artists. I don't really know how to do that, and with my shyness and poor self image, it's an uphill battle all the way.
I'm watching some communities here and hopefully that's a step in the right direction, but who knows.
I don't know what the community is like where I live, but it would be pretty rad to meet some locals.
ANYWAY, expect more art - that's what we're all here for, yeah?
